round and round the mulberry bush

My thoughts attack me as soon as I wake up.  I feel so cheated.  The last time mom verbally attacked me was about 2 months ago.  My brother told her that I had put her name and his name all over the computer and they were know from coast to coast.  My brother is a drunk he served time in prison for molesting his daughter, he has no where to go so he stays with mom even though she does not want him there.    He is constantly stirring up some kind of trouble.  When she accused me of doing that I told her calmly that I did not do it over and over again I told her respectfully never raised my voice finally I told her I had to gfo. 
I cried for days over that.  Dh finally told me not to call her again.  I did-two days later just to get it worked out calmly told her that I really did not do such a thing and she started again.This has been the way it always has been,

When I grew up I hoped things would change
when I got married I hoped things would change
when I moved 100 miles away I hoped things would change
when I moved closer to her house I hoped things wouldchange
when I got saved I hoped things would change
when she had her strokes and I stayed with her and helped her I hoped things would change

it never did-it never did-it never did

I have prayed that my heart would stop hurting-please  pray with me that I will stop missing what I never had. 

I got this in my email this morning-it is profound and I pray that I can put the pain and sorrow behind me that it will stop tormenting me.

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Randall was only trying to do what the boss wanted him to do but he found his colleagues talking behind his back. They didn't like it that the boss confided in Randall instead of them.


Amy faithfully brings her children to church. She does this although her husband constantly criticizes her.

Sam's parents constantly criticized him. Although he was a good student, they thought he should be making straight A's.

How do you deal with unfair criticism? What happens when you are doing the best job you can do, you are giving 100% or yourself to your job and someone criticizes you? How do you react?

Think about how the Lord reacted to the cross. He didn't curse and rail. Sure, it's tempting to think, "Since I can't possibly react to criticism as the Lord did, then I don't even want to try."

Don't forget one crucial difference. The Holy Spirit. While your own strength is woefully inadequate for the job, His strength is enough to handle whatever criticism comes your way. Why don't you take a moment right now and appropriate some of that strength?

Lord, help me to handle criticism without getting a critical spirit.

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God bless