mama/brother/church

This is going to be guick,  I have been at my moms.  Brother came in to her house on Friday and he had o be high on something.  Since I did observe my ex son in law when he was on crack I saw similarities in actions to my brother.  I think he has gotten himself into a pile of trouble and I am afraiid of the friends that brother has started having.  He actually brought two of these low class people to my moms house and they were really low characters. the type of people that you would expect ot sell drugs.   

He has been seen going into pawn shops and the guy that runs the pawn shop is a retired police officer and he is the brother of a friend of my sisters they told my sister what my brother was trying to pawn and it was some tools it is ust crazy that he would want to sell something that he might not get but 50 cents or a dollar for it.  but I know that people that need to get drugs will sell anything to get the money to buy what they need. 

He had eleven hundred dollars less than 10 days ago and now he is broke. he has no bills and he does not pay mom anything for his food or electricityand he is always asking mom for money for a couple dollars gas or what ever.  

I see trouble coming and I can't seem to stop it.  Please everyone be praying for my mom. 

Sleep well everyone
and
God bless

186.0.almost an accident, my sisters church.

exercise was walking I got 9842 steps
mycalories for today was 1475

my food was I hope the last of the leftovers\\\\

My sister and i went to pick my mom up this morn to take her to get a few groceries and refull her meds and this car headed toward us and swerved across sthe road and barely missed us .  It hit a rali and then took off again towrd us and sister twister the steering wheel and avoided the car again the car hit the other side of the bridge  and once more headed our way.  Finally the other car stopped after hitting the bridge head on.  I ran to the car because smoke was coming out of the engine.  IT was an 80 yr.old woman and she was fine, and so were we.  God is good and he kept us safe. 

I went to my sisters church tonight and they had testimony Wednesday.  I went to testify about how wonderful God is and about how he takes care of us all.

That is it.
God bless

187.0/ watching "Raising Hope".uneventful day

calories for today-1575
exercise was walking and 25 minutes of dumbbells
pedometer steps10789

food for today was leftovers and as good as I enjoyed moo shu pork I am glad we are through with that. 

okra
squash
steamed broccoli
butter beans
turnips
figs
apples sauce
coffee
berries
milk
 moo shu pork

I ttalked to mom today sis and I planned to take her out tomorrow and treat her to her favorite place.  Her favorite place to eat is get this   -----------Hardees,  I like hardees too but I have to to say it is not my favorite.  BUT brother came home and talked her out of going with us he said he could take her where she wanted to go.  He is just acting like that so he can say he does everything for mom and we are never there for her.  ugggggggggggg and uggggggggggggggggggggg.  I hate all this drama I am so tired of all the games that he plays. 

We are watching Raising Hope it is such a cute show.   And I can't say it does not have profanity in it , but I don't think it does.  I have not heard anyone using ugly words. 

Tomorrow I will be starting on the Sunday School lesson it is titled "Gifts of the Spirit"  It is an incredible lesson.  I don't know if I will be teaching or not, but the bible says to be prepared in all seasons so I will be prepared  to teach.

If the economy does not improve soon I fear that dh and I will lose everything.  Things are getting worse and worse and prices on everything is just going up and up and up.   Eggs went up this week 50 cents for one dozen eggs.  At this time they are 1.99 a dozen.  And gas is going right on up and so is so much other things.  YEt my dh can't find work.   and neither can I.

I just pray that the Lord will see us through.  And I know that He will help us === I don't think He brought us this far for us to fall on our face and lose all that we have.  But if we do then I will praise Him for always being in control  .

Good night everyone
God bless

187.2-naked woman-walk-sister-plastic canvas

Here we go again,,,,,In just a few days I gained 3 pounds and I don't think the worst is here yet.  I mean the calories will add pounds in a few days.  I hate getting stressed I hate when I eat out of control, I hate when I do this to myself. 

I did a little better today until after my sister called later this afternoon. then I grabbed the chips , and thank God they are all gone,  I dare my dh to get any more.  I will divorce himif he does (just joking).  I can see it now :::: me in front of the judge, and judge says "Maam, why do you want a divorce?"  and I reply "Because he bought me potato chips"   The judge will probably have me arrested for wasting his time.  lollololo

I did go for a walk this morning and it was really nice.  I saw a beautiful deer in the path-the deer was just standing there not more that 100 feet in front of me.  I stood still and we looked at each other for about 30 seconds and then the deer slowly walked into the woods, and I let out the breath that I had been holding.

This morning on facebook I got a message on my wall from someone named Katherine (can't remember last name).  She had a picture and she was naked.  At first I was stunned and then a little angry.  And then I felt such pity for her.  How misguided she is.  What if her daddy was to see that picture.  He would be so ashamed.  I quess he would be ashamed.  My husband would be ashamed if he saw our daughter do something like that.  My ex son in law told me once that women that stripped and prostituded , stuff like that usually had mothers that did similar.  I know that it is not 100 percent but I think most of them must have had really horrible childhoods.  Can you imaging sending pictures of yourself to total stranges for them to stare at, and since nothing is ever lost on the computer, how would she feel if her children saw these pictures in the years to come.

My sister muct have called me 5 ties today,  all she wants to talk about is her granddaughter.  Then she wants to talk about our brother and I know that he is a pain but all we do is rehash things and it keeps me stressed and then I over eat. ack and ack and ack.

I have started doing a plastic canvas picture.  It is a church and in the background it is snowing and at the bottom of the picture it says SILENT NIGHT. It is so beautiful and if I can stay off of the phone i will have it finished by the first of next week. 

My friend is a pastor and she has invited dh and me to her church next Sunday evening to have thanks giving supper with her church she said dh and i were a part of there church and adopted members.  Isn't that sweet?

calories for today-----1955
exercise was walking
steps was13605
food for today was

coffee
leftover moo shu pork
field peas
berries
milk
bababa
okra
turnips
butter beans
steamed vegeies
apple
figs
and and and
potato chips

that was a lot more than I should have eaten and a lot more than I needed. 




That is my day
Talk to you tomorrw
sleep well
and
God bless

the best laid plans of mice and men-------------------------------------------

well I did not get to church this morning or this evening.  Sister called and mama was having such stress over the way brother is treating her.  He had threatened her and called her a liar.  Now mama is 84 yrs. old and has been a Christian for many years, brother told her she was a sinner and headed for hell.  She knows he does not have any where to go, and she is hoping that taking her to church and being around decent people will make him more receptive to the Spirit when It starts calling to brother.  It is not happening.  Goodness she should have figured it out by now, but that is her son and while I have never had to throw my son out I can only imagine how hard that would be but I think he has gone too far.  I think he has gone so far that he would have a difficult time hearing the wooing spirit when it speaks to him.

I have eaten a lot of calories today, mashed potatoes and mooshu pork (home made and no bread) it was delicious.  and collards, (don't normally like collards but these were delicious) and green beans and one baked chicken thigh (I should have removed and discarded the skin but I didn't) So far sounds good Right?????????? Here is where I messed up----I got the bag of chips and ate almost 3/4 of the full bag.  Not all at one time but still it went into my stomach.  Still the calories are going to be in my system headed for all those fat cells that I have worked so hard to shrink.  I can see it now all those fat cells having a party and lining up to get there shot of helium calories so they can blow up like balloons. 


I hate being stressed,  I quit smoking around 8 yrs ago and I have not wanted a cigarette but I have wanted to eat.  Stress makes me want to eat, eating makes me gain weight, Have you noticed I don't handle stress very well???? Gaining weight makes me stressed. It is an endless cycle. 

Ok done complaing.  This was my pity party,   From  now on when I start feeling stressed I am going to sing
Though satan rages, I will not be defeated, we've got the power in the name of the Lord.

I will remember my grandson
Five yrs. old and had the end of his finger cut off.  The dr. said they would have to grind the bone down because the flesh and the skin was not growing over the finger and the bone was exposed.    Three weeks ago he still said he might have to grind it down.  Friday night I took him to the Golden Harvestors meeting and gave a very short speech about how grateful I am for the  healing power of God.  He went around and showed everyone his finger.  The flesh and skin completely covered the bone and his fingernail was about half grown out.  You could barely tell the end of his finger had been cut off.  God is good He is our savior and our healer, He is our redeemer,  He is our Rock He is the Good Shepard and He is in control always.

I will remember how I was an athiest and He loved me enough to take the blinders off of my eyes so that I could see.  He loved me enough to take me from a world where I was lost and headed for hell and put my feet of the solid path that I would walk toward an eternal home with Him.

I will remember how He healed my husband of lupus.

All of this family drama is stressful but I will remind myself that

  He is in control always.

On a bright note, My dh said I could start walking again.  I don't know if the dog is dead but noone has seen the dog lately so maybe he is dead.  I havent heard how the child is ,  I hope she is alright.

Sleep well
God bless

I messed up

I ate to hot dogs, not the buns just the franks and a small bak of chips.  BUt that really did run the calories up to 2060.  I walked a lot today, not doing anything but pacing and praying my steps for today was 9276.

Dh and I went to a singing tonight,  The singing Couriers was performing locally so we went there.  My sister and her husband and little granddaughter.  It was a wonderful singing.  I  can not think of anything I would rather do on a Sat. night than go to a church and worship.  I love God and I love being around others that love the Lord.  I enjoy going to church more than anything else that I can think of, even when it is not my home church. 

Tomorrow is Sunday and I plan to go to church in the morning and then to a singing and then to my church for evening service.

It would be wonderful if my readers would go to church in the morning and then let me know what church you went to and what your sermon was about. 

Have a blessed and wonderful night every one.

Sometimes it just is impossible

So many emotions going on today-agry at myself----it is not even 2 oclock yet and I have already eaten 1670 calories for today.;  I am so dissapointed in myself, so angry at me, so  unnerved by my lack of control ,so disgusted at the amount of food I ate even after I was full. And now I am uncomfortable from too much to eat.  AND AND AND I am so worried about my mom.  I wish my brother would just leave her alone.  He thinks he has us fooled and some people does seem to be totally beliefing every thing he says and it all is said in a way that would make him lood good.  He want s everyone to pat him on the back and say what a good son he is.   \\\\\\

Maybe he is gone, he met a woman and he packed a suitcase and went to her house.  Maybe he will stay over there but I fear when she realizes how manipulative he is that she will make him leave. Then he will be back at moms tormentting her. 

My ulcer has already begun acting up I know that the worry is probably makeing it act up.

but goodness did I HAVE to eat like I am about to go hibenate for the winter.  lol

I know that worry can make me eat more and if I control myself the rest of the day, I won't do to much damage to my diet.  And if I do overeat, I will not let it define who I am

I am an honorable person
I am a loving mother and grandmother
I am steadfast and steady companion, wife to my wonderful husband
I am a child of God, born again and babtised in the holy Spirit
I am a good and honest and ethical woman

My weight -up or down- does not add to or distract from who I am.

I will be back later to let you know if I was able to control the "unruly demanding child" inside my mind that demands food and more food and m -----well you get the idea. 

Have a blessed day

184.6/weights, pit bull, video, golden harvestors

OK weight was down a bit this morning and that gives  me some hope.  Tomorrow I will probably have it up a bit.  We had a Golden Harvestors meeting and even though there was not a lot of stuf I could eat, I stil foung two things and I ate so late that I am sure it will show up on the scales in the morning. 

I woke up at 2"15 this orning,  I woke up praying and was so burdened about mom and I prayed and wept finally got out of bed and started a load of laundry.  I then got dressed and aI decided to do some dumbbell exercises.  I worked out with 5 pound weights for 25 minutes -later I did a 45 minute leslie sansonne video.  It wasa  good workout.


I could not walk today becasue last night someone shot a dog that had attacked a child.  I was told it was a pit bull and the dog tore up the little girls hand and arm.  So the last thing I needed was to have a injured pit bull take after me while I was out twalking.   So at least for a little while I will not be waling down through the woods.  IT is for y sake although I really am dissappointed about it.

Tonight we had a golden harvestors meeting and there was not a lot of people there BUT I did enjoy everyone that was there,  The meeting was very sweet.

calories for today--1620

Pedometer steps9276

exercise was walk away the pounds video
25 minutes of dumbbells workout.

Have a wonderful night
God bless

185.0/SS lesson/walk/family frama/bff&telephone/jaazzercise

Weight still going up and then going down, I wonder just what I can do to break free from the see saw.  It is just so frustrating.   I am eating healthy and I am exercising so regardless of what the scales say, I am improving myself.

calories was 1450

45 minutes of jassercise
70 minutes of walking

I got up early this morn and began my Sunday School lesson, I get to teach again this week.  The teacher needs to go see her son in law .  He is a preacher and they are having a pastors appreciation day for him.  I don't blame her,  I would go too.  Anyway this lesson is such a blessing. 

I also annointed my house this morning.  It seems as if satan is coming against my family.  But I know that God's gace is bigger than anything satan can throw at me or mine.  I got a phone call from sister and she told me that my brother is acting up again at my moms.  Mom told him to leave and he said he was not going anywhere.  I think she is scared of him and I wish I could do something to get him out of there but I tried to talk to mom and she just says it is hard to throw out your child when  he has no where to go.  It is his fault that he has no where to go. He has been married 5 times and every one of his wives have left him.  He is a BIG control freak. 

I called my bff and just unloaded all of that on her, bless her heart she talked with me until I calmed down some.  What would I do if I did not have my good friends to call on when I am so stressed.

Later I put in a jassercise video and I started doing it.  I thought this can't be too hard arm swings and hip swings and toe touches and then it started getting fast wow it got to be fasat paced and turnd out to be a really good all over exercise.  After 45 minutes the phone rang.  I was so grateful to be able to stop.  I kept looking at the clock and that video lasts 56 minutes I will try hard the next time to do the entire exercise. I also walked for 70 minutes, I love walking through the woods, it is so peaceful and I reallly needed to find a quiet , serene place to talk to God. 

food for today
2 coffee
blueberries
steamed veggies
Black eye peas
chicken
apples
figs


I hope everyone had a wonderful day
sleep well
God bless

186.4/weights/walk/clothes/ ironing/church

My weight goes up a pound and down a pound up a pound and down a pound.   Getting a little tired of that yep I am.  Oh well I am eating healthy and not way over my 1500 limit.  Once in a while I eat a few calories too much .

Exercise for today was 25 minutes of five pound weights,  That was a good work out.  I really thought that just doing 5 pounds would not be that big of a differance but surprizingly enough it is a challenge.  Not a huge amount of difference, but enough that I can feel my muscles just starting to tremble when I am doing a set.



I walked for 45 minutes and I enjoyed that too.  I love to walk and worship.  IT is quiet and peaceful and perfect for praying. 

I ironed for about 70 minutes, now I know that ironing is not a traditional type of exercise but I do press down on the iron, sometimes and I do have to stand there and I do keep moving.  Maybe it is a low key exercise. 

And then i talked on the phone a lot today and youknow how I walk while I am on the phone.  So I got in a good bit of steps today=====total steps for today was 9038,

Tonight we went to church.  I love going to church,  I love being in the prescence of the Lord,  I love being where the Lord is being worshipped.  God is good to us and I love Him; It was a very good service,  we prayed for our lost loved ones. 

And that was my day
sleep well
God bless

God loves you

This was sent to me by a relative, I loved it and I hope that you do too.


If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it.


If God had a wallet, your photo would be in it.

He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning.

When you want to talk, He’ll listen.

He could live anywhere in the universe and yet He chose your heart.

...And that Christmas gift He sent you in Bethlehem?

Face it, friend, He’s crazy about you!

185.8/funeral/hubby/walk/balance ball

calories for today was 1520
steps  for todday was 4630
dh and I wen to the funeral at 11 am and when we got back we went for a walk we walked for 40 minutes, and then later I did a 50 minute balance ball video.  I thought that would be a fairly easy workout.  It was actuall and balace ball with yoga and I was stretched and twisted and pulled until I am sore and stiff.It was a very good workout.

The funeral was hard on dh.  The deceased was I think he was 86 and dh had known him for over 50 yrs.  The deceased was like a father figure to dh.  And when I saw how hard dh was feeling it , then I broke down and started crying for him.  I liked Mr B too but dh was just heart broken over it.  Then we were asked to to join the family for a meal at the church, we were very touched by it all and of course we accepted.  Mr. B was one of the soldiers that stormed Normandy.  He loved the US and was loyal to our country and military.

Tomorrow I will get back into the routine of exercising early and tomorrow I will definitely get to my front yard.  The leaves are really beginning to bug me.  I will have them up or I will have to burn them.  I like the idea of pushing my mower with the grass catcher on it because it gives me extra exercise.  Did you ever look up how much calories are burned off when you push a mower.  I can't remember now but i do remember that it is a lot< 

Have a good night everyone
God bless

185.5/exercise/walk/funeral home

This morning I got up and spend 25 minutes working out with 5 pound weights.  I know that is not a lot of weight BUT after you have been doing curls and back presses and trying to exercise using all muscles and combinations of of muscles those 5 pounds start feeling like it is 10 pounds.  Of course I know we have to challenge our muscles.

Then I walked for 45 minutes,---pedometer steps are7440,  I did wear my pedometer while I cleaned house, and talked on the phone. But I love walking through the woods.   The air is sweet and the birds sing and occasionally I see deer and squirrels, and rabbits.  Often I see turtles and frogs, and once a huge rat.  Twice I have seen snakes.  I never see people back there.  Just me and nature and I love to talk to the Lord while I walk.  It is very peaceful.

At 6 pm Dh and I went to the funeral home for the visitation.  His friend died Sat. morning, dh is going to be one of the pall bearers.  Visitation used to be called "a sitting up"  My mom told me that they called it that because long ago the bodies would be taken to the home of the dead person.  In the summertime when it got hot they would have to have windows and doors open and someone would have to stay awake all night to keep animals from getting to the body.  I don't know if that is true or not but it does make sense. 

That was my day.
sleep well
God bless

185.8/church, church, and church and funeral home

Today has been a good eating day, I did not have to fight myself not to go see if something had magically appeared in the refrigerator.  Why do I do that???? Why do I go look and then close the door like I expect something new to be there and feel dissapointed that it is the same old stuff????????But today was not like that. I can not figure out what the dirfferance is,I just don't understand.  If i could figure it out I would be able to do it tomorrow too.

I taught SS this morning and then dh and I left our church and went to a different church so we could hear the Sycamore singers. and that was a wonderful service, and then we went and got something to eat.  Later we went to our church.  I am supposed to be in our Christmas cantata and go to practice today but to tell you the truth my voice will never get high enough for that program so I am just not going to be a part of that .  Besides I actually think that contatas are not pretty.  They sound like cats being stangled.  I am going to not do it.   Then I had to go to the funeral home for my friends friend.  I did not know the deceased but my friend did and I went for her sake.

Tomorrow is a ful day-exercise with weights, pushing mower with grass catcher, walking to get my pedometer steps up, watching my sisters granddaughter, washing clothes.  just a very full day.

Talk to you all later
God bless

185.4/grandbaby/death

calories for today was 1530
no exercise today,  I am really beginning to get antsy about not doing anything.  I give myself till Monday and I will do soem handweights, and I will push the mower over my yard and pick up the leaves.  If I do not have my 10000 step I will go walking through the woods. 

My grandbaby came today to play with me.  We played chase and hide and seek and a game he made up that he calls the boo game.  I walk around acting like I do not know where he is and he jumps out and says boo.  Then I got a phone call from my "bff" and a friend of hers had died during the night.  Of course I talked with her and then I got off and g-son wanted to know who died and then He asked was she going to be put in a grave yard or was she going to heaven.  I told him that the ladys body would go to the graveyard and her soul would go to heaven and God would give her a brand new body.  He asked how that would happen.  I said it was like an egg, you crack open the egg and put the egg in the pan and the shell goes in the trash.  Our body is like the shell cause we won't need it anymore.  I thought he got it cause he said "ok grandma"   When he got home he asked his mama if it hurts God to eat the eggshells we throw away?  lol  I gotta be careful how I explain things to him;

My husbands friend also died this morning.  Two people from my church died last week.  I am getting tired of people dying.   I fear the next one to die will be my mom.  She is so frail and so feeble. 

My food for today has been coffee
eggs
okra\\
squash
berries
tuna
applesauce
raisens
almost ashamed to admit this but I love smarties and I ate about 10 of them today I don't mean 10 individual smarties but 10 small packages of smarties. 

Thats it for today
sleep well everyone
God bless

186.4/still sick/singing

No exercise for today still feeling kinda weak but I did get a little walking in less than two miles but it was something.  And now I have started coughing again.  Just took some nyquil and I hope that helps.  Not really coughing down deep just a tickly in my throat and only when I start breathing fast.  As long as it is slow even breathing it is ok, but if I breathe faster it tickle my throat and I cough wheich makes the air go across my throat which makes me sough.   endless circle. 

my calories for today was 1450  and I struggled to keep it that low.  My food for today was leftovers from the last two days, and coffee of course
potatoes stew pork chop squash okra berries and steamed veggies, and green beans and corn.

We went to the singing tonigh I am thankful that I did not start coughing while it was going on.  The service was a wonderful service and we did nothing but worship the Lord.  I was called on to testify and I love telling what the Lord did for me.  God was there and He touched many people tonight.  We heard the Singing Shepards and The Singing Couriers.  Both groups are very talented.

Sleep well everyone
God bless you all

185.4/a little better/birthday/card

I really did not feel up to exercising but I got in a few steps just doing things in the house, cleaning and talking on my portable phone.  I love my phone, I spend a lot of time talking to people from church and family and why waste the time by just sitting doing nothing?  I walk sometimes I go outside and walk around and around my house but today it rained so I just walked back and forth while I talked on the phone. 

My calories went over 1500 today---it got up to 1695----ack when I saw that I stopped grazing.  You know when you go in the kitchen to check on the stew and see the grapes and you grab a handful or you taste the pork chops just to see if they taste as good as they did the last time you cooked them.  Or open the fridge to get a bit of tea and grab what ever your eye falls on.   I wrote everything down and I saw it so high and was almost shocked but then I remembered how often I had grazed.  I am so glad I do not have any junk food in the house .  I would have really messed up if I had any of that stuff here.

I am a little better today,  I did not have to take anything today untill just a few minutes ago.    So I should be ok to go to the singing tomorrow night.  I may still be a little bit hoarse but other than that I  had a good day. 

Today is my birthday, and I had several people wish me happy birthday on facebook.  My sister and dd both wished me happy birthday.  My dh bought me the sweetest card, I was so moved by it and I have it displayed on my counter in the den.This weekend he will take me out for dinner I hope we go to the Golden Corral but they moved their restaurant to the other side of town and it is a long way from where we live. 

food for today

coffee
beef stew
squash
okra
applesauce
raisens
pork chop
potatoes
berries

That is it for today

I amgoing to watch tv with dh, Bones comes on tonight and I always enjoy that show. 

I googled Alan Autry today.  He played Bubba Skinner on In the Heat of the Night.  What an interesting life he had.  After the show went off the air he became mayor of a town in California.  He is a Christian and gives God all praise for what He did.  I wish there was some way I could contact him to let him know that I admire people who publicly give God praise for what they have accomplished.

I went to school with a girl called Mary Ann Yarborough.  She was my friend in high school, and we reconnected when I was pregnant with my first child.  She had red hair and she would be about 56 or 57 years old.  I would love to hear from her.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

186.6/dream/sick/birthday

I have not been exercising this week, I have been sick.  Night before last I woke up with a raging fever.  My grandoson had spent thenight and I did not want to wake him,  My husband sleeps in another bed when baby spends the night.  I could not get out of bed I was so cold and so week.  I was jerking I was so cold.  I called my dh and time as I called him he said what? I told him I needed him and he covered me with another blanket and got some advil for the fever.  It is allergies, I get like this every autumn.  It got bad this time. The good thing is it does not last but 5 to 7 days.  So soon I will be able to exercise again.

I had a dream last night.----I dreamed that the Lord had called me to preach and Iwas preaching my very first sermon.  I stood behind the podium and I said  "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth" I went on to say all of the rest of the first few verses.  Then I said "and God said let there be light"  and I looked up at the congregation and I said "and when God gave us that light,  it has shone to this time.  When there is Gods light there is no room for Satan's darkness"  I said more but I can't remember the rest of it.  

Now I don't think that God has called me to be a preacher but I do give devotionls and I think that i am supposed to write the devotional about the light that never went out. The Lord has given me several devotionals and they will occur at themost unusual times.  He gave me one on the way home from church and it had nothing to do with the service.  One time I was riding with my dd and had to get some paper from her to write what God had given me.  I am so thankful that He uses me, and lets me be a vessel for his use.

Tomorrow is my birthday and I will be 59 years old.  I don't feel 59 most of the time right now I feel every bit of it.  It is just a number -most of the time I feel better than I did in my 30's.  I get up in the morning and my feet hit the floor and I am moving, seldom do I even stop until later in the day.  Cleaning , mowing grass, mopping, washing and hanging up clothes,walking and ironing raking, just doing what I can around the house since I do not work out side of the house I try to do as much as I can to take some of it of off my dh.  I am thankful that I have my health.

I AM NOT A NUMBER

Not my age and not my weight.  I am a Kings daughter, I have His blood flowing through my veins.  He wants me to be the best I can be but He loves just as I am.  I praise Him for loving me all of my life, I denyed His exisstance so many years and when He opened my eyes I saw Him for the loving Father that He is.  Glory to Him, I can not thank Him enough for showing me how much He did love me.  He healed me of a breathing disorder the first week that I was a Christian, and He healed my husband of a skin disease. I love Him.  He saved me on Valentines day, The day of love, and what ultimate love did He show us.  John 3:16  says it all.

foods for today
coffee
berries
steamed veggies
chicken
homemade applesauce
grilled squash
grilled okra
small amount of beef stew======calorie total was 1440

186.6/sick/no exercise/ate too much

I have seasonal allergies and most of the time I am mildly sick from them, just a little pressure and a little sore throat from the drainage, etc.  About once or twice a year I get bad sick.  My throat HURTS I run afever and have no energy and today was one of those times.  Face swollen and dripping and sneezing and all I felt like doing was eat.  ANd I ate and ate and ate.  I tried to keep it in the allowed foods and I kept it in that allowed foods.  I really do not want to eat something that will cause me to have hives again.  That was awful and painful and irritating and I will continue to NOT ever eat those foods that cause it.   But I ate too much of homemade applesauce and blueberries and even too much broccoli. 

I have to get control of this before it gets to be a habit or a part of my everyday life .  I really do think that sometimes overeating gets to be a habit.  You get used to having food in your hand and mouth and stomach.  I think you get addicted to having a full stomach all the time.  Anyway I have noticed that if I start eating more I start wanting to eat more.  If i can control that then the drive to be eating deminishes.

Tomorrow I will have grandson here,  He came this afternoon and because he had today off from school due to a teachers work day and then tomrrow he has off because of voting.  He is too young to vote but I guess his teachers needed the day off so they could go vote.  He went to the dr. today about his finger.  Now I have to give God the praise for this miracle.  When I first saw his finger after it had been caught in the door.  It looked like the end of his finger was gone.  The dr. said the bone was just clipped and it was exposed.  The next time he saw the dr.  the dr said it was looking good and at that time the dr. sssaid some of the nail bed was still there and he would grow a nail .  It would not look like the other nails but it would be there.  Today I saw the finger again and you can barely see anything wrong with it.  The nail is growing and it looks normal. God is so good to us all and I am so glad that He answers our prayers.  He cares so much for each of us,  He even cares for that little finger on the left hand of this sweet child.  He hears the prayers of this grandma,  And I do love my Heavenly Father.

Have a good  night
God bless