I was sitting here this morning, watching Fox news, and I saw the weather for up north and I thought " Oh no, it has been a long time since I wrote to you". I am so sorry- my only excuse is that things have been hectic around here.
Lots of revivals, babysitting a little more than normal, singings, and finally had a blow up with my sister. I should not have lost control but she is just so thougthless and disrespectful.
Here is how she finally pushed me to the point of just letting her know how selfish and bragging and self absorbed she is.
She called one day while I was exercising and i did not stop, just talked while I continued doing my arobics. She commented on it but I let it pass. Then I told her about dd and she listened and then started talking about her granddaughter. Then i told about a revival and she listened and then started talking about her granddaughter. I told her about the horrible visit I had from my two older grandchildren and she listened and started talking about her granddaughter. I know she is proud of the child but why must she act like everyone else is wrapped up in her grandchild. It is like this every time we talk. Even to one time when we were in church and I was praying she flounced across the church and said why are you over here all by yourself and I said "I'm praying" and she set down beside me and said "I want to tell you about Katies dentist visit" How absolutely rude.
Any way back to our phone conversation. I took it until I said "I believe if I told you I was dying of cacer you would start talking about your grandchild" I said"you do it all the time. Katie is not my heart. I told her what ever I say you have to talk about Katie. Noone else has the right to talk about anything but Katie"
She called me later to tell me I hurt her feelings. I said I bet I did. She still don't get it, she saw dd up town yesterday and stood there and talked about Katie. I had grandson and my sister never even asked where dd's son was at.
and as if having this going on with my siste rwasn't enough, my preacher has had something to say about dh and I visiting other churches. We have a home church and we very seldom miss our 3 weekly services in our home church, but we visit a lot of churches for revivals and singings. We are very open about it, we are not "cheating on our church" yet he has told us several things about us going to other churches. Like how tired he is of his members sitting in the pews of other churches.
So as you can see I am having a lot of negative things going on in my life. I am trying hard not to let it bring me down. I am so thankful that I have friends like you that I can pour my heart out to. I feel better just getting some of it out.
So how is things going up there? Is things better with your brother?
I heard that the housing industry is going up. Maybe it is a good time to check again on house down here. I let Buck take care of all of that when we moved the last time. I had enough to do just to pack everything. lol I still have a few things in boxes pushed to the back of the closet. Obviously it is stuff I don't need. I think when I finally get around to pulling the boxes out I will just donate it to good will.
Dd and I went out this past Monday. We went to Cee Cee's for pizza and that is delicious food. Then we went to Ross's and I got a couple of tops, I did not see anything else that appealed to me. I did buy a toy for Ryangrandson (he is so spoiled) and dd bought some name brand jeans and two tops. I think I am in love with Ross's-I hope dh does not get jealous. He really does not have a problem with it, unless I start spending too much money.
My weight is still around the same Last Saturday I weighed-219.6 and today I weigh 218.8.
Not a great big loss but I will take it.l I am just happy I am not gaining.
God bless you all.
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
My weight update
one month ago
september 21, 2008 I weighed 222.2
today
october 21 2008, I weigh 219.0
That is 3 pounds in one month. I know that is not a lot of weight and sometimes I think how slow that loss is and how hard I work just to get that little bit of loss. AND THEN I think about that period of time I was eating heathy and low calorie and exercising and was gaining about a pound a week and sometime 2 or 3 pounds a week. I thank first my Lord for answering my prayers and then I thank my dr. who finally listened to me and I thank a patient and loving husband that kept encouraging me when I wanted to just give up.
Yesterday my dd and I went out with a lady from our church. She is legally blind and she plays the organ in church and she sings specials for us. She is a dear lady and her husband is twisted with arthritus and they live on such a small income with my money for extra's. It is her birthday. So my family and another family came togeather and we gave her 80 dollars and took her out for lunch. Then we took her shopping. She bought new clothes (she said) for the first time in years. She gives so much to everyone and I was so happy we could do a little something for her.
Nothing much else is happening around here.
Baby is sitting in the floor still in his jammies playing with his thomas the trains.
, he has a cold and wants to wear his cars jammies and scooby doo bedroom shoes so I said "why not"
Have a blessed day everyone.
september 21, 2008 I weighed 222.2
today
october 21 2008, I weigh 219.0
That is 3 pounds in one month. I know that is not a lot of weight and sometimes I think how slow that loss is and how hard I work just to get that little bit of loss. AND THEN I think about that period of time I was eating heathy and low calorie and exercising and was gaining about a pound a week and sometime 2 or 3 pounds a week. I thank first my Lord for answering my prayers and then I thank my dr. who finally listened to me and I thank a patient and loving husband that kept encouraging me when I wanted to just give up.
Yesterday my dd and I went out with a lady from our church. She is legally blind and she plays the organ in church and she sings specials for us. She is a dear lady and her husband is twisted with arthritus and they live on such a small income with my money for extra's. It is her birthday. So my family and another family came togeather and we gave her 80 dollars and took her out for lunch. Then we took her shopping. She bought new clothes (she said) for the first time in years. She gives so much to everyone and I was so happy we could do a little something for her.
Nothing much else is happening around here.
Baby is sitting in the floor still in his jammies playing with his thomas the trains.
, he has a cold and wants to wear his cars jammies and scooby doo bedroom shoes so I said "why not"
Have a blessed day everyone.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
My Heavenly Father
Oh Lord
Thank you for letting me wake early this morning , so I could spend a few precious minutes with you before my house woke up.
I needed those moments to start my day feeling the love and grace that you give so freely to me. I love feeling that I am in your arms.
Thank you Lord for my grandson that snuggled against me all night. He is a heartwarming part of my day, and I thank you for keeping your hand on him when he was born. He and my daughter came so close to death, and only by your grace do I see them often. Oh Lord I cry from my heart for you to touch both of my children and let them see how much they need you in their life. I know your word says that you bottle the prayers of mothers. My prayers will be kept by you always and I know your word says that your word will not be counted void. I trust your word, I know that you keep your eye on my children and I know that you will send them the message. I know that they will have a choice what they will do with the message when they hear it , oh Lord soften their heart that they meay take the word inside.
Bless this day Lord, put a fence around me and mine that satan can not get near to any of us.
This people Lord I bring to you that you may bless and annoint them according to thy will.
P and D-health problems
brothers -1 and 2 and 3 and 4. Each of them need you Lord
Dear hubby,-bless him Father
son and dd-they need to be saved
our church-people are leaving and our pastor needs to be told that he is losing members because of the dryness that is going on in the church
I love you Father with all that is within me. I love you and I worship you.
Amen
Thank you for letting me wake early this morning , so I could spend a few precious minutes with you before my house woke up.
I needed those moments to start my day feeling the love and grace that you give so freely to me. I love feeling that I am in your arms.
Thank you Lord for my grandson that snuggled against me all night. He is a heartwarming part of my day, and I thank you for keeping your hand on him when he was born. He and my daughter came so close to death, and only by your grace do I see them often. Oh Lord I cry from my heart for you to touch both of my children and let them see how much they need you in their life. I know your word says that you bottle the prayers of mothers. My prayers will be kept by you always and I know your word says that your word will not be counted void. I trust your word, I know that you keep your eye on my children and I know that you will send them the message. I know that they will have a choice what they will do with the message when they hear it , oh Lord soften their heart that they meay take the word inside.
Bless this day Lord, put a fence around me and mine that satan can not get near to any of us.
This people Lord I bring to you that you may bless and annoint them according to thy will.
P and D-health problems
brothers -1 and 2 and 3 and 4. Each of them need you Lord
Dear hubby,-bless him Father
son and dd-they need to be saved
our church-people are leaving and our pastor needs to be told that he is losing members because of the dryness that is going on in the church
I love you Father with all that is within me. I love you and I worship you.
Amen
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Good Morning, God
Dear Heavenly Father
Thank you Lord for loving me, and thank you for letting me come into your prescence this morning.
I love you and I praise you for giving me this day, for my children and family and friends. I thank you for my church and and my church family. I thank you for your grace, and the blood that was needed for my salvation.
Lord, I come to you with such a heavy heart, so many thoughts circling around my in my head. What are we going to do with our feelings? How are we going to be satisfied with a pastor that treats us as less than important? Is it our imagination? Does he really favor those that have money? Does he really favor those that have so many relatives in the church? I have heard similar things from a few others and people are leaving the church for other places.. I feel things will never get any better and the same problems will pop up because about 60 percent of the church is related to each other either through blood or marriage and they pretty well run the church. And if they leave then they will take a pile of people with them. kinda like membership blackmail.
Dear Lord if it be Your will, lead us to another church. Give us permissian to go find another church home. I know that so many time I have felt you tell me over and over tht I am supposed to stay becasue there is something that I need to do. Lord has the time come for me to move on to another place of worship?
Lord please Father, open my childrens eyes so they can see that they need you in their lives. I do not want to go through the rest of eternity never remembering that I have two children. And Lord their children need to have a foundation based in You.
God I am so happy that You are a friend that will never leave me. I am blessed to have you in my life and I thank you for quiding me with such care and love.
in the name of Jesus
Amen
Thank you Lord for loving me, and thank you for letting me come into your prescence this morning.
I love you and I praise you for giving me this day, for my children and family and friends. I thank you for my church and and my church family. I thank you for your grace, and the blood that was needed for my salvation.
Lord, I come to you with such a heavy heart, so many thoughts circling around my in my head. What are we going to do with our feelings? How are we going to be satisfied with a pastor that treats us as less than important? Is it our imagination? Does he really favor those that have money? Does he really favor those that have so many relatives in the church? I have heard similar things from a few others and people are leaving the church for other places.. I feel things will never get any better and the same problems will pop up because about 60 percent of the church is related to each other either through blood or marriage and they pretty well run the church. And if they leave then they will take a pile of people with them. kinda like membership blackmail.
Dear Lord if it be Your will, lead us to another church. Give us permissian to go find another church home. I know that so many time I have felt you tell me over and over tht I am supposed to stay becasue there is something that I need to do. Lord has the time come for me to move on to another place of worship?
Lord please Father, open my childrens eyes so they can see that they need you in their lives. I do not want to go through the rest of eternity never remembering that I have two children. And Lord their children need to have a foundation based in You.
God I am so happy that You are a friend that will never leave me. I am blessed to have you in my life and I thank you for quiding me with such care and love.
in the name of Jesus
Amen
Friday, October 10, 2008
Time for an update about my days and my weight
Good morning
It has rained here since yesterday. I like rain I like the way it sounds dripping on our heat pump. I like the fresh way the air smells and i like the way the drops glisten and shine and refract light as the drops balance on the leaves. I don't like the way it makes me feel when the damp groud starts to mildew. Ahhhhh the down side of having sinus problems.
I have stayed strong and almost militant about my weight loss, calories and exercise. my weight today is 220.6 and my weight last month this date was 223.8. That is only a 3 pound loss and I really have been strict with my calories, and my exercise. My problem is that i am past menopause, and we all know that metabolism slows down when you get older. I do exercise at least an hour a day 99% of the time. I did not exercise yesterday BUT I did clean the babys bedroom and my family room. We are talking everything out and everything gone through. If it was broken, outgrown, dirty or torn I threw it away. Then I went through everything that was in the Family room. Now I know most people probably don't have a lot of stuff in the family room but I did. Most of the babys bigger toys was in there and now they are all in his room. My house is looking better all the time.
Today I will continue to work on the house I am going through the extra room stuff. All of baby's outgrown clothes are going to be ginven to the disabilities workshop. Some of my stuff that is too small or too big is going to be given away and then once the room is emptied I am going to paint it blue with white trim, and a pretty flower border near the ceiling.
Time to get busy and continue with the work. If I don't make myself do it then the baby will be back and I don't spend my time with him cleaning if I can help it.
God bless you all
It has rained here since yesterday. I like rain I like the way it sounds dripping on our heat pump. I like the fresh way the air smells and i like the way the drops glisten and shine and refract light as the drops balance on the leaves. I don't like the way it makes me feel when the damp groud starts to mildew. Ahhhhh the down side of having sinus problems.
I have stayed strong and almost militant about my weight loss, calories and exercise. my weight today is 220.6 and my weight last month this date was 223.8. That is only a 3 pound loss and I really have been strict with my calories, and my exercise. My problem is that i am past menopause, and we all know that metabolism slows down when you get older. I do exercise at least an hour a day 99% of the time. I did not exercise yesterday BUT I did clean the babys bedroom and my family room. We are talking everything out and everything gone through. If it was broken, outgrown, dirty or torn I threw it away. Then I went through everything that was in the Family room. Now I know most people probably don't have a lot of stuff in the family room but I did. Most of the babys bigger toys was in there and now they are all in his room. My house is looking better all the time.
Today I will continue to work on the house I am going through the extra room stuff. All of baby's outgrown clothes are going to be ginven to the disabilities workshop. Some of my stuff that is too small or too big is going to be given away and then once the room is emptied I am going to paint it blue with white trim, and a pretty flower border near the ceiling.
Time to get busy and continue with the work. If I don't make myself do it then the baby will be back and I don't spend my time with him cleaning if I can help it.
God bless you all
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