Sometimes it just is impossible

So many emotions going on today-agry at myself----it is not even 2 oclock yet and I have already eaten 1670 calories for today.;  I am so dissapointed in myself, so angry at me, so  unnerved by my lack of control ,so disgusted at the amount of food I ate even after I was full. And now I am uncomfortable from too much to eat.  AND AND AND I am so worried about my mom.  I wish my brother would just leave her alone.  He thinks he has us fooled and some people does seem to be totally beliefing every thing he says and it all is said in a way that would make him lood good.  He want s everyone to pat him on the back and say what a good son he is.   \\\\\\

Maybe he is gone, he met a woman and he packed a suitcase and went to her house.  Maybe he will stay over there but I fear when she realizes how manipulative he is that she will make him leave. Then he will be back at moms tormentting her. 

My ulcer has already begun acting up I know that the worry is probably makeing it act up.

but goodness did I HAVE to eat like I am about to go hibenate for the winter.  lol

I know that worry can make me eat more and if I control myself the rest of the day, I won't do to much damage to my diet.  And if I do overeat, I will not let it define who I am

I am an honorable person
I am a loving mother and grandmother
I am steadfast and steady companion, wife to my wonderful husband
I am a child of God, born again and babtised in the holy Spirit
I am a good and honest and ethical woman

My weight -up or down- does not add to or distract from who I am.

I will be back later to let you know if I was able to control the "unruly demanding child" inside my mind that demands food and more food and m -----well you get the idea. 

Have a blessed day