Saturday, May 14, 2011

exercise, visitation, relatives, son in law & candy bar

Today I exercised,  I really did not think I would be abloe to work it in but I was determing=ed to do something-I hate to exercise but I think I am addicted to the endorphins. lol So I told myself I would do at least 15 minutes and once I got started I kept saying to mayself 5 more minutes.  I got a phone call in the middle of the exercise and I just toned it down a little but would not stop moving.  I knew that if I stopped I would not start it back.

Showered dressed quickly and off to the funeral home.  I don't handle crouds well,  I start to panic a little, (I am much better than I  used to be but there is stillo a little bit of the anxiety still there.)So as sthe people came in I kept moving to the side until I was in the backof the room right in a doorway at the side.  I could keep going backwards if I had to.   Sister was there and she saw me and she came over to buffer me from people.  All of this is a small hold over from the robbery.  I really am better than I used to be.  I saw some of hubbys relatives that I had not seen in 20 years.  Itwas good seeing them all again. 

When dd and her family left I went with them so dh could spend more time with his family,  I told son in law that I was stressed and anxious and I needed some comfort food and to stop andget me  a candy bar.  He wouldn't do it.  He laughed at me, so at this timeI amgoing to write himout of my will.  My two children have laughed about my will for years.  I told them one day when they were children that I had 3 dollars in a jar buried in the backhyard and each of them could have on dollar and they would have to fight over the 3rd one.  My dd told son that he could have it all cause she was not going to dig holes in the backyard looking for the jar just for a dollar.

My neighbor came over today she brought a roasted chicken, a bowl of potatoe salad, a loaf of honey bread, and a soda.  She said she wanted to do something for me and hubby.  And she knew that we would need to eat and maybe not have time to fix anything because of visiting our sister in law and the visitation and all that needs to be down at times like this.    I was absolutely touched by her thoughtfulness. 

Matthew 5:13-16 (King James Version)

13Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

15Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.

16Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

I am glad that I have such wonderful friends.  And I know that unsaved people can be wonderful friends but to tell you the truth,  I did not have such loving and giving, and caring friends when I lived an unsaved life.  The world just did not give to me what a God filled life has given to me.Such peace and contentment, such joy, I have the secureity of knowing that I have a Father that I can run to when I am sad or happy, I have a Father that is there when I am sick, sad or lonely.  He is with me on the mountain and He is with me in the valley.  He is my God and I love Him.

God bless you

2 comments:

  1. Bless you, friend. How very sweet of your neighbor to bring food. It truly is the little things that mean so much. I'm not great in crowds, either, just to be honest.

    Love ya! Keeping your family in prayer.

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  2. I am so sorry for the loss of dh's brother, please tell him that for me.
    Great job on the exercise. I worked the last 2 days and did not manage any exercise. Today I am battling allergies and feel sorta crudy....that's my excuse and I am sticking to it! :)
    Enjoyed your blog.

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