It's no use crying over spilled milk

You just can't change what has been done.  You know?  I ate too much  today-my stomach feels tight. I do not like physically feeling like this and I do not like emotiionally feeling this way. If I was two people I would feel like I had betrayed the other me.  I ate a healthy breakfast and a fairly healthy lunch and I had some applesauce (still doing good) and I had some pork loin and some veggie sides. andI drank a lot. I got overheated mowing the grass. And I have been thristy all day. I know I overate today, I feel swollen in my stomach.  It is most uncomfortable.

Years ago I read a story about a frog that fell in a well and he tried to jump out.  He would jump three times and then he would fall back two.  Of course eventually he is going to get out of the well. 
That is pretty much what I am doing.  I succeed in my goals two days out of three,  Or five days out of seven but I feel like what I am doing is spinning my wheels in the mud and getting nowhere. 

I am praying for a better day tomorrow. 


My Prayer--
Dear God, I want to be healthy and lose weight.
but I keep on eating, and eating.

Help me to understand why I do this.

Help me understand why I eat when I am not hungry
Am I trying to cover up an unhappy childhood with food?
Am I trying to stifle my need for affection as a child,

affection that will never come to that lonely child.
Am I eating to get strong so that I can fight back against the abuse that I suffered.
Am I confusing a feeling of weakness as a child with hunger as an adult?

Am I trying to smother my feelings of helplessness and rage with food?
Please Father,

give me the peace of heart I need in order to understand me.

And help me to to deny myself of the things that I do not need ,

to control my urge to put something in my mouth,

to acquire some self discipline.

Help me to accept that saying no to excess food is saying yes to health.

Strengthen me to say "no" to myself and "yes" to You.



Amen.


God bless each of you.