I went to church this morning.and I really had to fight myself not to get depressed. I am very fortunate that I really am not a person to get depressed easily and when Ido it mostly lasts about 5 to 10 minutes. I am a positive person for the most part and just usually do not let things get me down. BUT BUT BUT The sermon this morning was about mothers and how special mothers are and we should respect our mothers. I do respect the position that mom holds she is my mother. I show her respect and I talk to her with respect.
I set behind her while the sermon was going on and he said such glowing remarks about our moms and none of what was being said fit her at all. Then they sang songs about how wonderful moms are and how ----,,,,People in the church were crying and I looked at her and she looked like she was so angry. I have no idea why she was angry. ok ok I know it does no good to go on about it.Anyway when the people went up to be prayed for I walked out. Dh caught up with me later and he knew what I was going through. I think the best way to describe my feeling is "I feel cheated" I remember my grandma hugging me. My mom never hugged me -I have been thinking a lot about my grandma lately she has been dead for a little over 25 yrs. I can remember her hugging me. I made sure I hugged and kissed my children often.
ENOUGH
When I got up this morning I let dh sleep in (I can cook a bit better than him)and I fixed breakfast
I made some home made potatoes and small pieces of hillshire turkey sausages and scrambled eggs So that was my Mothers Day breakfast. and coffee of course with International coffee creamer(got a new one, called peppermint mocha, yummy) went to church and after church dh wanted KFC -what is it with that man and grease? I ordered grilled chicken, the place was swamped with people. When our order came it was fried chicken so I just ate potaoes w/gravy and cole slaw and a diet soda.It was good, and if it had not been so busy I would have taken the chicken back but anybody could make a mistake with that many people in there. I brought the chickenhome and dh ate it later.
Later, i had a some turkey in the refridgerator, so had a low calorie bread, and turkey and mustard sandwich and then I had 2 small pieces of cantaloupe. Calories for today is just a bit over 1400 calories.
Then about 2:30 I exercised for 30+ minutes.
I ate fair, and I exercised ---so far so good.
That was my day'
Here is a prayer that is in my new book. I love it and it seems to speak to my heart today.
O heavenly Father, even on a short journey it's one thing to have a map and an entirely different thing--a far better and more assuring thing--to have a guide. Thank you for being my guide in this lifelong journey, for taking up the road with me and giving me the benefit of your wisdom and the pleasure of your company along the way. I would be lost and lonely without you, but because you walkwith me, I am confident and content. Amen
Sleep well everyone
God bless
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Happy Mother's Day, Joy! My personal-opinion-that-nobody-asked-for is that preachers shouldn't take up a whole church service on Mother's Day to preach about Mother's Day! It always bothers me when they do. Nothing against mothers, for sure! But let's talk about the One who saves us when our mothers and fathers forsake us!
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you've have the experience you've had, and I'm sorry this holiday reminds you of that; but I'm glad you at least have memories of your sweet grandmother, and your own kids. And you love your mother. You are following the 5th commandment, which is not contingent on our parents being nice to us. You are an admirable woman, Joy. And every time you talk about your DH, I find it so sweet and refreshing to hear a married woman praise her husband and talk about the regular things in life that make married life so special!
Sorry this is so long. I've been ill the last few days. I ate somewhat like you today. I had Popeye's fried chicken for lunch (nothing grilled!), and cut up cantaloupe and honeydew at dinner.
Love ya, and God bless you!
Hi, Joy. I know what you mean about Mother's Day. I have always hated Mother's Day. If you're interested in a little bit of my thoughts on Mohter's Day, I have a post with a couple paragraphs on it from last year. Look in my archive under May, it is the last post down and entitleed, "A Good Report, Mother's Day, Anxiety & charms..."
ReplyDeleteIt occurs to me that your motheer may not have been angry, exactly. She may have been thinking about the fact that she wasn't the kind of mother the preacher was describing.
And maybe not. My mother would tell you whe was a great mother...
I'm glad you got thru the day well.
Deb
Joy, my heart went out to you when I read this. My mother died when I was 13 years old, so I grew up without a mother's touch and a mother's love. Your mother is alive, however, you grew up the same way that I did. This truly is sad for both of us. I am so glad you are not a person who deals with depression. Enjoyed reading your blog post.
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