Eveytime SIL comes grson gets hyper very hard to calm down. Monday when sil was here gr-son was so hard to handle yelling and running and not listening like he was on speed or something. Sil was yelling at him and had swatted him -I waled out of the house and husband followed me. We could hear sil yelling and I turned around and came back in. Sil had grandson on the bed holding him by his shoulders and had his knee beside boy. (to anyone else reading baby is 6 yrs old) I knew he was restraining him, but sil has hit child before and left welts on his body and I lost it, I screamed to get his hands off of gr-son. At the top of my lungs I told him to get his hands off of that boy or I would turn him in. He said thats my child I told him to let him go and to get out of my house -sil would not leave, I know that he is an abusive father. My husband saw it all and he agrees, he said we need to turn him in.We are only hesitating because of daughter and gr. son. Daughter said sil would not hurt gr son. But yelling is hurting him and smaking him on his bare legs is abusing him. Sil says such rediculous things like this-once when they were here grandson ran past him and kicked sil on the leg (I think accidently) SIL kicked gr son. I called sil on it and sil said "he kicked me first-I said you are the adult and he said thats my child. Like he can do what he wants because its his child.
I feel like a rubber band that is being stretched all the time and I know my breaking point is coming.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Family drama
Why would you get mad at me for getting angry at someone that has hurt you? And if you feel that way why are you still in my house? You get your dad and me to help you get a refridgerator. you put it in the house you wanted. He moves in and you do not want to live with him so for almost 4 months you have lived here and your dad is paying the payments for the refridgerator andyour idiot husband signs up for cable. Is there something wrong with that picture?????? Plus no one is paying the rent or the electric and where do you think your idiot husband is going to be when he gets kicked out of the house for non payment?
So does anyone want to adopt a short old overweight mama-grandmama and get me out of this soap opera that I am living in/'
stress stress stress
it has not been a good morning and I still have to go lto the school to eat a lunch with grandbaby cause his mama and daddy can not miss a few hours of work to give to their son, I know that sounds bad on my part but they could make those hours up their jobs is a little flexable. Then off to the food bank and then home and homework and laundry and supper to cook. And now my car is undrivable .
I sure hope everyones elses day is going better than mine.
God bless
So does anyone want to adopt a short old overweight mama-grandmama and get me out of this soap opera that I am living in/'
stress stress stress
it has not been a good morning and I still have to go lto the school to eat a lunch with grandbaby cause his mama and daddy can not miss a few hours of work to give to their son, I know that sounds bad on my part but they could make those hours up their jobs is a little flexable. Then off to the food bank and then home and homework and laundry and supper to cook. And now my car is undrivable .
I sure hope everyones elses day is going better than mine.
God bless
Saturday, October 29, 2011
I am all alone
Dh has gone to church, to hear a nationally renown preacer. daughter, her husband and grandson has gone to a trunk or treat party put on by a local church (I mildly disapprove,) It is cold here and baby had a sore throat but nothing would do but son in law take him to the party.
Sister came home from hospital this week and I gave her enough food that she would not have to cook for several days-just warm it up in the microwave. She is doing great, just has to take it easy
Thanks for all the prayers that was sent up,
Baby got his report card and he is on the superintendents list. His lowest grade was a 97 in P E His daddy almost seneered at him and said what kind of boy makes a low grade in P E now he made 100s in nearly everything else. Son in law never said one nice word about his high grades. I am really having to fight not to hate that man.
I know I complain a lot when I come here but the way things is seems to almost consume me sometimes.
My diet is gone completely. I feel like beating myself up but I know that if I give in to the self loathing I will want to eat more.
I am still exercising almost daily but only because it is a relief valve. I cope just a bit better if I can get out to walk every day. Monday is coming and I have realized that Monday is not preceeded by Magic. Monday is just a day and the beginning of the week seems to scream fresh start, new beginning, so Monday it is, I will try again. When I stop trying, when I stop hoping that this time will be the one that makes the differance, when I finally give up, I will probably be dead. So here it comes my plans for Monday, and if at first (or 2nd or 3rd or 155th) you don't succeed-----try try again.
I love you, thanks for being my buddies, thanks for your prayers and your support.
God bless
Sleep well
Sister came home from hospital this week and I gave her enough food that she would not have to cook for several days-just warm it up in the microwave. She is doing great, just has to take it easy
Thanks for all the prayers that was sent up,
Baby got his report card and he is on the superintendents list. His lowest grade was a 97 in P E His daddy almost seneered at him and said what kind of boy makes a low grade in P E now he made 100s in nearly everything else. Son in law never said one nice word about his high grades. I am really having to fight not to hate that man.
I know I complain a lot when I come here but the way things is seems to almost consume me sometimes.
My diet is gone completely. I feel like beating myself up but I know that if I give in to the self loathing I will want to eat more.
I am still exercising almost daily but only because it is a relief valve. I cope just a bit better if I can get out to walk every day. Monday is coming and I have realized that Monday is not preceeded by Magic. Monday is just a day and the beginning of the week seems to scream fresh start, new beginning, so Monday it is, I will try again. When I stop trying, when I stop hoping that this time will be the one that makes the differance, when I finally give up, I will probably be dead. So here it comes my plans for Monday, and if at first (or 2nd or 3rd or 155th) you don't succeed-----try try again.
I love you, thanks for being my buddies, thanks for your prayers and your support.
God bless
Sleep well
Thursday, October 20, 2011
My life has just taken a turn
My sister had a heart attack Sunday night. she is still in the hospital, the dr. is trying to find a med that she can take that will thin her blood and one that he gave her caused her to have uncontrollable constan diarhia. (I know that is not spell right).
She has been raising her granddaughter since she was 6 months old and she is the same age as my grandson. The granddaughter is at my house I told my daughter that watching children is what I love to do most in this life. He and her son is still here. I have a housefull and seems to be getting fuller. God has blessed me with a lot of patience.
Except for yesterday when grandson started yelling at me, now I don't yell, I don't think we should yell at children it causes them to be stressed, I feel you can handle them without yelling. This is p;robably because of my childhood but anyway he started yelling and i lost my patience. I didn't yell but I did tell him that he was not allowed to do that. He said his daddy yells and I said without thinking Your daddy is a bully. he is but I should not have said it. I am afraid that it is going to cause problems if he tells his daddy what I said. However he is a bully and I will tell him that he is.
It did not sound very Christian.
OK just gat a call that they need me at the foodbank.
Have a blessed day everyone.
Pray that I have not caused more problems than we already have.
God bless
She has been raising her granddaughter since she was 6 months old and she is the same age as my grandson. The granddaughter is at my house I told my daughter that watching children is what I love to do most in this life. He and her son is still here. I have a housefull and seems to be getting fuller. God has blessed me with a lot of patience.
Except for yesterday when grandson started yelling at me, now I don't yell, I don't think we should yell at children it causes them to be stressed, I feel you can handle them without yelling. This is p;robably because of my childhood but anyway he started yelling and i lost my patience. I didn't yell but I did tell him that he was not allowed to do that. He said his daddy yells and I said without thinking Your daddy is a bully. he is but I should not have said it. I am afraid that it is going to cause problems if he tells his daddy what I said. However he is a bully and I will tell him that he is.
It did not sound very Christian.
OK just gat a call that they need me at the foodbank.
Have a blessed day everyone.
Pray that I have not caused more problems than we already have.
God bless
Monday, October 10, 2011
still here
I love Diet Mountain Dew and a couple of weeks ago I was at someones house and they offered mme a glass of what I thought was diet Mt. Dew. Turns out it is the Walmart brand and it tastes just as good. That is one store brand that I think is equal to the original, also the walmart brand for dr. pepper tastes the same. But their Pepsi one does not taste as good.
Some generics simply is not worth buying, I have never found a generic mac and cheese that tastes good, I always have to add, extra cheese and extra butter to make it taste as good as Kraft.
Some things I can't tell a differance, like bread and butter pickles, ketchup, bbq sauce, sugar, butter, flour,cornmeal. and a few others. I try to save when I can without compromising on taste.
What are your thoughts?
DD and her son is still here and I just got busy over the weekend and started finding places for her things. I gave her and grandson a dresser and went through the boxes and put things away. On Fri. night I walked through the room to check on baby and tripped over a box-so the next day I took the responsibility away from her and just began finding a place for her and babys things. I probably should not have but I could not keep living with the clutter. I will slowly find a place to put everything eventually. I already feel better about it the chaos.
I realised something-it makes sense on some weird level.
I ate more when I felt that the clutter was out of control. Today I already noticed that I do not feel stressed, you know stress=out of control appetite.
I figured something else out to
I still am not happy about going to the church that dh likes----
He is so quiet and reserved and he wants to go to achurch that he can worship and enjoy the fellowship but he can sink into the background. I-on the other hand-like the small intimate church, one where you feel you are part of the church family. I want a small church where everyone knows your name, and knows your kids, and cares about you if you have car problems or you slipped down the steps, or lost your job. I want a church that if you miss todays service, they will pray for you and if you miss two services they will call to make sure you are ok.
I think we will probably go to separate churches for a while and see what happens.
FROM: WALKING WITH THE LORD
page 110
chapter title GOD IS TRULY FAITHFUL
ONE DAY, HEAVENLY FAGTHER, I WILL LOOK BACK
ON MY ENTIERE LIFE AND SEE IT FROM YOUR
PERSPECTIVE. MEANWHILE, HELP ME LEARN THE
LESSONS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ALONG THE WAY.
PARTICULARLY, WHEN PAINFUL ORDEALS COME AND
I CRY OUT IN MY DISTRESS, HELP ME REMEMBER TO
LOOK UP. THEN HELP ME LISTEN TO YOUR COMFORTING WORD,
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT YOU ARE WITH ME AND THAT YOU HAVE
A PLAN AND PURPOSE FOR ME EVEN IN MY PAIN---A PLAN AND
PURPOSE THAT BEGINS IN FELLOWSHIP WITH YOU AND ENDS IN
REJOICING WITH YOU IN MY ETERNAL HOME. AMEN
God Bless
have a wonderful day
Some generics simply is not worth buying, I have never found a generic mac and cheese that tastes good, I always have to add, extra cheese and extra butter to make it taste as good as Kraft.
Some things I can't tell a differance, like bread and butter pickles, ketchup, bbq sauce, sugar, butter, flour,cornmeal. and a few others. I try to save when I can without compromising on taste.
What are your thoughts?
DD and her son is still here and I just got busy over the weekend and started finding places for her things. I gave her and grandson a dresser and went through the boxes and put things away. On Fri. night I walked through the room to check on baby and tripped over a box-so the next day I took the responsibility away from her and just began finding a place for her and babys things. I probably should not have but I could not keep living with the clutter. I will slowly find a place to put everything eventually. I already feel better about it the chaos.
I realised something-it makes sense on some weird level.
I ate more when I felt that the clutter was out of control. Today I already noticed that I do not feel stressed, you know stress=out of control appetite.
I figured something else out to
I still am not happy about going to the church that dh likes----
He is so quiet and reserved and he wants to go to achurch that he can worship and enjoy the fellowship but he can sink into the background. I-on the other hand-like the small intimate church, one where you feel you are part of the church family. I want a small church where everyone knows your name, and knows your kids, and cares about you if you have car problems or you slipped down the steps, or lost your job. I want a church that if you miss todays service, they will pray for you and if you miss two services they will call to make sure you are ok.
I think we will probably go to separate churches for a while and see what happens.
FROM: WALKING WITH THE LORD
page 110
chapter title GOD IS TRULY FAITHFUL
ONE DAY, HEAVENLY FAGTHER, I WILL LOOK BACK
ON MY ENTIERE LIFE AND SEE IT FROM YOUR
PERSPECTIVE. MEANWHILE, HELP ME LEARN THE
LESSONS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ALONG THE WAY.
PARTICULARLY, WHEN PAINFUL ORDEALS COME AND
I CRY OUT IN MY DISTRESS, HELP ME REMEMBER TO
LOOK UP. THEN HELP ME LISTEN TO YOUR COMFORTING WORD,
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT YOU ARE WITH ME AND THAT YOU HAVE
A PLAN AND PURPOSE FOR ME EVEN IN MY PAIN---A PLAN AND
PURPOSE THAT BEGINS IN FELLOWSHIP WITH YOU AND ENDS IN
REJOICING WITH YOU IN MY ETERNAL HOME. AMEN
God Bless
have a wonderful day
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Can I complain a while????
I njust want to let of some steam, but I do not want it to sound like I am angry at my precious dd and my equally precious grandson.
My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.
If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom. stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.
Against the wall is a free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes . I wash often so he does have clean things but still------
continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school shoes are to be put in the same place. I really do try to have some order,
The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.
ok ok I think I am done. The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom. She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)
I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him. That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.
I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.
I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong. He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him. Grandson does not own a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun. But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in play that he is going to shoot another c hild. I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school. I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad.
I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity. He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot"
Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school. I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him.
Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands. Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN
God bless
My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.
If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom. stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.
Against the wall is a free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes . I wash often so he does have clean things but still------
continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school shoes are to be put in the same place. I really do try to have some order,
The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.
ok ok I think I am done. The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom. She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)
I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him. That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.
I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.
I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong. He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him. Grandson does not own a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun. But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in play that he is going to shoot another c hild. I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school. I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad.
I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity. He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot"
Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school. I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him.
Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands. Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN
God bless
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Good Sunday morning
Going to church with g-son today-
I tried to post a reply on my yesterday post and can not make it go through. Someone tell me how to make it so I can post on my own reply place.
Thanks for the encouragement Deb and Josie -
Josie I thought I had posted that they had moved in-they have been here almost 6 weeks. It has been a hectic time. Of course baby has toys and no where to put them except in the living room and I just push them against the wall. Some are in boxes and clothes are in boxes etc. Let me put my rose colored glasses back on. This could really stress me out if I allow it to get to me.
Deb. I do have a problem with wheat/flour. It's the white flour like breaded meats, biscuits, pancakes, cake, cookies, pie, etc. But I can eat whole grain bread, (I've only tried one brand, Natures Own 9-grain enriched bread, no artificial preservatives, colors or flavors, 3 times the fiber and only 40 calories per slice with no high fructose corn syrup) . I don't seem to have a problem with it and I amvery moderate in how much I eat of it.
I woke up this morning singing this song
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning over there.
and I will meet you over there- We will hug each other and praise the Lord that we met and became friends. I think the Lord let us be friends here so we could pray for each other.
And I will meet you one day in person, but for now, just know that I am praying for you.
God bless you and keep you safe.
I tried to post a reply on my yesterday post and can not make it go through. Someone tell me how to make it so I can post on my own reply place.
Thanks for the encouragement Deb and Josie -
Josie I thought I had posted that they had moved in-they have been here almost 6 weeks. It has been a hectic time. Of course baby has toys and no where to put them except in the living room and I just push them against the wall. Some are in boxes and clothes are in boxes etc. Let me put my rose colored glasses back on. This could really stress me out if I allow it to get to me.
Deb. I do have a problem with wheat/flour. It's the white flour like breaded meats, biscuits, pancakes, cake, cookies, pie, etc. But I can eat whole grain bread, (I've only tried one brand, Natures Own 9-grain enriched bread, no artificial preservatives, colors or flavors, 3 times the fiber and only 40 calories per slice with no high fructose corn syrup) . I don't seem to have a problem with it and I amvery moderate in how much I eat of it.
I woke up this morning singing this song
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning over there.
and I will meet you over there- We will hug each other and praise the Lord that we met and became friends. I think the Lord let us be friends here so we could pray for each other.
And I will meet you one day in person, but for now, just know that I am praying for you.
God bless you and keep you safe.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
One day does not make a habit
but
I did do good yesterday-calories were under 1500 and only whole grain sandwich bread and 3/4 cup whle grain high fiber cereal/ brussel sprouts, okra. talapia. 1 egg and one egg white, one peach, 1/4th cup mashed potatoes. That sounds like a lot but trust me it is not a lot of food. Oh I forgot coffee with creamer. Creamer has calories but I love it and just am not ready to get rid of that.
Today is going good, at least so far,
Daughter and her son are still living here and they have piles of clothes and toys and shoes and books and on and on and on all over the house. I am trying to not look at it because there is absollutely nothing that can be done at this time and so I choose to look away and try not to let the disarray upset me. The son in law is still trying to be a bully to her and to the baby.
Keep praying for us.
God bless
I did do good yesterday-calories were under 1500 and only whole grain sandwich bread and 3/4 cup whle grain high fiber cereal/ brussel sprouts, okra. talapia. 1 egg and one egg white, one peach, 1/4th cup mashed potatoes. That sounds like a lot but trust me it is not a lot of food. Oh I forgot coffee with creamer. Creamer has calories but I love it and just am not ready to get rid of that.
Today is going good, at least so far,
Daughter and her son are still living here and they have piles of clothes and toys and shoes and books and on and on and on all over the house. I am trying to not look at it because there is absollutely nothing that can be done at this time and so I choose to look away and try not to let the disarray upset me. The son in law is still trying to be a bully to her and to the baby.
Keep praying for us.
God bless
Friday, September 23, 2011
Here I am,
I have gotten up each day, determined to do better. My resolve would melt like hot butter.
Yesterday dh took me out for an ealry supper and as I ate, (yummy chinese food) I took a long look at my life.
I realized that I am not eating good and that I was slowly losing my energy. Now I still exercised almost daily (I like the way I feel after I exercise) but my eating was slowly getting worse and worse. I recently had the blood tests done and all my numbers are good. Even the bone density tests show that I have the bones of a 20 yr. old. Blood pressure and cholesterol is normal, no sign of diabetes. But those pounds are slowly creeping up. They are doing it so slowly that when I got on the scales this morning I was shocked to see that I gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months. You know I weigh regularly and I should have seen it , but I guess, each day that I weighed myself I kept my rose colored glasses on.
With my belly full of high calorie food last night I told dh that I could not keep this up. I simply did not feel like myself, I told him I could not do it alone, and even if he does not join me in eating better, for him to eat his junk food away from the house. He agreed to this, and then we went to the brand new super walmart and I bought a few diet meals and some of my favorite vegetable and fruits. I have several boxes of low clorie high fiber cereal, and I like that for a snack.
I feel just the tiniest stirring of hope-hope that I have settled on something that will get me where I want to be. Hope that this time -(Please, God, Please) this time maybe just maybe--------
DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO IS IN YOU, WHOM YOU HAVE RECEIVED FROM GOD? YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN, YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE. THEREFORE HONOR GOD WITH YOUR BODY
(1 COR. 6:19-20)
Good night
God Bless
Yesterday dh took me out for an ealry supper and as I ate, (yummy chinese food) I took a long look at my life.
I realized that I am not eating good and that I was slowly losing my energy. Now I still exercised almost daily (I like the way I feel after I exercise) but my eating was slowly getting worse and worse. I recently had the blood tests done and all my numbers are good. Even the bone density tests show that I have the bones of a 20 yr. old. Blood pressure and cholesterol is normal, no sign of diabetes. But those pounds are slowly creeping up. They are doing it so slowly that when I got on the scales this morning I was shocked to see that I gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months. You know I weigh regularly and I should have seen it , but I guess, each day that I weighed myself I kept my rose colored glasses on.
With my belly full of high calorie food last night I told dh that I could not keep this up. I simply did not feel like myself, I told him I could not do it alone, and even if he does not join me in eating better, for him to eat his junk food away from the house. He agreed to this, and then we went to the brand new super walmart and I bought a few diet meals and some of my favorite vegetable and fruits. I have several boxes of low clorie high fiber cereal, and I like that for a snack.
I feel just the tiniest stirring of hope-hope that I have settled on something that will get me where I want to be. Hope that this time -(Please, God, Please) this time maybe just maybe--------
DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO IS IN YOU, WHOM YOU HAVE RECEIVED FROM GOD? YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN, YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE. THEREFORE HONOR GOD WITH YOUR BODY
(1 COR. 6:19-20)
Good night
God Bless
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
its the little foxes,
I went to Aldis this morning with dh-------------------
((side story here----we have a friend that had brain surgery Monday morning-he had a large tumor on his brain and it was discovered last week, anyway today we went to the hospital to see him and we circled the parking lot for 10 minutes before dh got so frustrated that we left. No parking places anywhere exept one area that was designated "patients only" ack ---I had called his wife ealrier to ask what time would be best to visit, and she said about 10 am so then I had to call her and tell her we could not find a parking place.Huge hospital and more construction going on to build even more hospital area. They took part of the parking lot to build the additional building.)
now back to aldis, so they had a sale on some of grandbabys favorite snacks. Cheese curls, and corn chips and something else, my mind has gone blank. Those are some of his favorite snacks and I love the way he eats maybe a handful and he is done. Problem is they are also my favorite and my hands are a lot bigger than his hands and seldom does one handful or even two handfulls satisfy me. So far I have managed to resist, and as soon as I finish here I am putting them away. You know out of sight out of mind. Anyway I can hope that is the way it goes. I do have some sugar free jello made and I love that, maybe that will soothe the raging "I want =I want=I want", side of me.
The chips are still in there and I am still in here.
One of my grandsons favorite songs.
CHORUS: "The battle's not mine," said Little David,
"Lord, it's Thine, I'm in Your favor.
I'm giving it all to You, I knew not what to do.
I'm so glad You let me see, You're really all that I need.
For the battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
1. Little David looked so small, Goliath looked so tall,
The odds were just too high for Little David.
So he shook off all of his load for with the power of God he was bold,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
CHORUS:
2. A Little David he stood tall, now Goliath seemed so small,
Sweet victory had reigned for Little David.
He gave the battle to One with a record for getting things done,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
((side story here----we have a friend that had brain surgery Monday morning-he had a large tumor on his brain and it was discovered last week, anyway today we went to the hospital to see him and we circled the parking lot for 10 minutes before dh got so frustrated that we left. No parking places anywhere exept one area that was designated "patients only" ack ---I had called his wife ealrier to ask what time would be best to visit, and she said about 10 am so then I had to call her and tell her we could not find a parking place.Huge hospital and more construction going on to build even more hospital area. They took part of the parking lot to build the additional building.)
now back to aldis, so they had a sale on some of grandbabys favorite snacks. Cheese curls, and corn chips and something else, my mind has gone blank. Those are some of his favorite snacks and I love the way he eats maybe a handful and he is done. Problem is they are also my favorite and my hands are a lot bigger than his hands and seldom does one handful or even two handfulls satisfy me. So far I have managed to resist, and as soon as I finish here I am putting them away. You know out of sight out of mind. Anyway I can hope that is the way it goes. I do have some sugar free jello made and I love that, maybe that will soothe the raging "I want =I want=I want", side of me.
The chips are still in there and I am still in here.
One of my grandsons favorite songs.
LITTLE DAVID
"Lord, it's Thine, I'm in Your favor.
I'm giving it all to You, I knew not what to do.
I'm so glad You let me see, You're really all that I need.
For the battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
1. Little David looked so small, Goliath looked so tall,
The odds were just too high for Little David.
So he shook off all of his load for with the power of God he was bold,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
CHORUS:
2. A Little David he stood tall, now Goliath seemed so small,
Sweet victory had reigned for Little David.
He gave the battle to One with a record for getting things done,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
I did not fall of the edge of the world.
Here I am-quick updates about what is going on in my life,
(I received an e-mail from a very good blog friend and felt quilty, lol)
Daughter and grandson is still here, my house still looks like a hurricane has gone through and really there is nothing that can be done. I am trying not to let the boxes and bags and suitcases get to me. We are working on the smaller place that she is moving into. Her husband has decided to move with her. Maybe her leaving was a wake up call, but I think he is just bringing his old attitude with him. I have already heard him tell baby that they were going to put a dress on him for the school pictures. Even though he may have been joking, to me it sounded like he was trying to demean grandson. The only good thing is baby will be here a lot more and since my services is free I know that he will leave grandson with me often. Hubby and I can give him a little stability nearly everyday. That time with him is priceless, and being able to see him daily is a bright spot in my life.
I still am not happy at the church my hubby is going to. Money talks and it is obvious that the pastor there caters to the people that have money. There is a small church near my house that I am thinking of starting to go to, I know that dh and I will be going to different churches and I don't want that, but I have just about stopped going to church at all. I am losing the joy of going to church. sigh-I miss that joy and excitement.
Now my diet, weight loss, excercise, successes and failures.
I had lost 5 pounds and was an the edge of thinking that I had gotten back in the groove. WELL let me tell you, dieting is like standing on the tip of a needle, you can't relax or take your position for granted for even a minute because it does not take but one minute to start the downward slide and once you start sliding it is so hard to get the grip back. Anyway - I gained the 5 pounds back plus a couple more before I was able to see that I had to do something or it will all come back. Remember that I mentioned that at one time-after the robbery-I gained up to 252. I'm only 5feet 4 inches so I looked like a basketball with legs.
I am going to start a new diet today, or maybe I am going to put on an old diet. Anyway never say never and I know this is not like a broken window or floor or car. You fix those and you can forget about them for a while. With a diet you have to be in diet mode at least5 99% of the time. And you have to be ultra careful that one percent becasue- at least with me, one bite of the wrong thing seems to set off a domino effect. Those tiles start falling and you can't stop the tiles from falling and when they are down you have to start all over again.
My dh is in the construction field, and everyone knows how bad that industry has suffered in the last couple of years. So about a yr ago my exercise/walking shoes wore out and I asked the Lord to send me a pair of shoes that I could wear while I work out. No one knew about the prayer except the Lord and me. About two weeks after that prayer-my dd called me and told me that a friend of hers had bought a pair of shoes to work in and then left that job for another and did not need the shoes. She GAVE the shoes to my daughter, who gave them to me. The shoes were SAS shoes and had never been worn. They were a perfect fit, and had great support/. The Lord is such a great and loving God.
Anyway the shoes finally wore out and Praise The Lord my husband is working regularly and we had the money for new shoes. So I tried on and tried on and tried on shoes and finally found a pair that I loved (couldn't find SAS for that is what I would have bought). I wore them all day Sat, and when I took them off I had a blister on the side of my foot almost the size of a dime. The blister is not the surprising part, what got me was it never hurt or felt irritated. Once I took the shoe off , that is when it startd feeling like it was burning. So I have not exercised for a few days.
I wonder sometimes if I was relying on exercise to repair my overeating. Now I don't enjoy exercising, I enjoy how I feel afterward, and I love the health benefitds but maybe I was using exercise to overindulge my eating. I could eat this and that because I stay active, but my metabolism is slow becasue of the thyroid problems, and because of my age, and someone told me that the hysterectomy slows the metabolism. BUT exercise is supposed to speed it up???
Anyway this was not a quick update-
I'll be back.
PROVERBS 16:3
COMMIT TO THE LORD WHTEVER YOU DO, AND YOUR PLAN WILL SUCCEED
Have a great day
God bless
(I received an e-mail from a very good blog friend and felt quilty, lol)
Daughter and grandson is still here, my house still looks like a hurricane has gone through and really there is nothing that can be done. I am trying not to let the boxes and bags and suitcases get to me. We are working on the smaller place that she is moving into. Her husband has decided to move with her. Maybe her leaving was a wake up call, but I think he is just bringing his old attitude with him. I have already heard him tell baby that they were going to put a dress on him for the school pictures. Even though he may have been joking, to me it sounded like he was trying to demean grandson. The only good thing is baby will be here a lot more and since my services is free I know that he will leave grandson with me often. Hubby and I can give him a little stability nearly everyday. That time with him is priceless, and being able to see him daily is a bright spot in my life.
I still am not happy at the church my hubby is going to. Money talks and it is obvious that the pastor there caters to the people that have money. There is a small church near my house that I am thinking of starting to go to, I know that dh and I will be going to different churches and I don't want that, but I have just about stopped going to church at all. I am losing the joy of going to church. sigh-I miss that joy and excitement.
Now my diet, weight loss, excercise, successes and failures.
I had lost 5 pounds and was an the edge of thinking that I had gotten back in the groove. WELL let me tell you, dieting is like standing on the tip of a needle, you can't relax or take your position for granted for even a minute because it does not take but one minute to start the downward slide and once you start sliding it is so hard to get the grip back. Anyway - I gained the 5 pounds back plus a couple more before I was able to see that I had to do something or it will all come back. Remember that I mentioned that at one time-after the robbery-I gained up to 252. I'm only 5feet 4 inches so I looked like a basketball with legs.
I am going to start a new diet today, or maybe I am going to put on an old diet. Anyway never say never and I know this is not like a broken window or floor or car. You fix those and you can forget about them for a while. With a diet you have to be in diet mode at least5 99% of the time. And you have to be ultra careful that one percent becasue- at least with me, one bite of the wrong thing seems to set off a domino effect. Those tiles start falling and you can't stop the tiles from falling and when they are down you have to start all over again.
My dh is in the construction field, and everyone knows how bad that industry has suffered in the last couple of years. So about a yr ago my exercise/walking shoes wore out and I asked the Lord to send me a pair of shoes that I could wear while I work out. No one knew about the prayer except the Lord and me. About two weeks after that prayer-my dd called me and told me that a friend of hers had bought a pair of shoes to work in and then left that job for another and did not need the shoes. She GAVE the shoes to my daughter, who gave them to me. The shoes were SAS shoes and had never been worn. They were a perfect fit, and had great support/. The Lord is such a great and loving God.
Anyway the shoes finally wore out and Praise The Lord my husband is working regularly and we had the money for new shoes. So I tried on and tried on and tried on shoes and finally found a pair that I loved (couldn't find SAS for that is what I would have bought). I wore them all day Sat, and when I took them off I had a blister on the side of my foot almost the size of a dime. The blister is not the surprising part, what got me was it never hurt or felt irritated. Once I took the shoe off , that is when it startd feeling like it was burning. So I have not exercised for a few days.
I wonder sometimes if I was relying on exercise to repair my overeating. Now I don't enjoy exercising, I enjoy how I feel afterward, and I love the health benefitds but maybe I was using exercise to overindulge my eating. I could eat this and that because I stay active, but my metabolism is slow becasue of the thyroid problems, and because of my age, and someone told me that the hysterectomy slows the metabolism. BUT exercise is supposed to speed it up???
Anyway this was not a quick update-
I'll be back.
PROVERBS 16:3
COMMIT TO THE LORD WHTEVER YOU DO, AND YOUR PLAN WILL SUCCEED
Have a great day
God bless
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
My life is
I was going to let you all know just how much I feel that I am a failure, but in looking at what I was going to talk about I realized that I don't feel like a failure. I am disappointed a bit in how I can not seem to get back on teh weightloss wheel. My mind is so full of metaphors perhaps that is not the right word but I can see myself on that little wheel that the rats run on. It goes round and round and they never goes anywhere-nothing is ever accomplilshed yet, each day the rat jumps on the wheel and runs his little heart out and deja fu never accomplishes anything and the next day he jumps on it again. Wonder if he ever looks at that wheel and asks himself why he is wasting his time. Wonder if he ever looks up and says why bother? Well this big rat does and yet I can't seem to let go of the hope that this day it is going to really go somewhere. Am I lying to myself? I don't like to think that maybe I am just lying about it. I sure do not want to look at my hopes and glance at them with rose colored glasses.
My diet is covered with slippery grease and I try to hold onto it but it just slides away and I really try to hold onto it but it slips out of my grip. Tomorrow I will use spray and wash degreaser so that I can get a better grip on it. lol
Baby is here and I helped him with his homework. He asked again if I was going to yell at him.
His birthday was earlier this month and I gave him a little party here at my house. He was so excited and he accidently hit his daddy. His daddy hit him back hard enough to leave a welt on his legs. I told his daddy he should not have done it and he said "he hit me first" I told him that he was the adult and then he said "and that is MY child" Like what he wanted to do to the baby was ok because it was his child. I want daughter to leave that man so bad. And she was going to leave him and then her husband said he was going too. He is going to move in with her and the baby. My dd really should tell him how she feels but she is so tender hearted that she is letting hem move with her.
I hate it and there is nothing I can do . If I say too much her husband may say that I can't watch him any more. And the way it looks my house is the only stability that baby gets. When baby prays he says everytime God bless mama and grandma and granddaddy and daddy and help daddy not be mean to me," When he blew out the candles on his cake he said his wish "please let daddy stop being mean to me." His daddy heard him and just laughed about it.
Josie HAPPY BIRTHDAY I hope your day was absolutely the best ever, God bless you and keep you safe, and may He give you many many more years.
Deb if I had a wish-I would not wish for wealth or fame or power-I would wish for all the children in the world to have the love and care that is exactly what God had in mind for them. I would wish for hands to hold them and not hurt them and I would wish for the caretakers to be calm and a great example for the children to follow. God bless you and yours
Time to get ready for church.
I posted this on facebook and I like it so much that I wanted to post it here,.
My diet is covered with slippery grease and I try to hold onto it but it just slides away and I really try to hold onto it but it slips out of my grip. Tomorrow I will use spray and wash degreaser so that I can get a better grip on it. lol
Baby is here and I helped him with his homework. He asked again if I was going to yell at him.
His birthday was earlier this month and I gave him a little party here at my house. He was so excited and he accidently hit his daddy. His daddy hit him back hard enough to leave a welt on his legs. I told his daddy he should not have done it and he said "he hit me first" I told him that he was the adult and then he said "and that is MY child" Like what he wanted to do to the baby was ok because it was his child. I want daughter to leave that man so bad. And she was going to leave him and then her husband said he was going too. He is going to move in with her and the baby. My dd really should tell him how she feels but she is so tender hearted that she is letting hem move with her.
I hate it and there is nothing I can do . If I say too much her husband may say that I can't watch him any more. And the way it looks my house is the only stability that baby gets. When baby prays he says everytime God bless mama and grandma and granddaddy and daddy and help daddy not be mean to me," When he blew out the candles on his cake he said his wish "please let daddy stop being mean to me." His daddy heard him and just laughed about it.
Josie HAPPY BIRTHDAY I hope your day was absolutely the best ever, God bless you and keep you safe, and may He give you many many more years.
Deb if I had a wish-I would not wish for wealth or fame or power-I would wish for all the children in the world to have the love and care that is exactly what God had in mind for them. I would wish for hands to hold them and not hurt them and I would wish for the caretakers to be calm and a great example for the children to follow. God bless you and yours
Time to get ready for church.
I posted this on facebook and I like it so much that I wanted to post it here,.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
The Lord is my Shepard
I had a most interesting and humbling time with the Lord today. Mostly it comes down to what is my God. It is not an idol that I worship or money that I am willing to commit sins to possess. It is not power or reputation. It is not my husband or my children. So after searching myself, after going over my days, after taking the time to see how I spend my minutes and hours and days, I have realized that while I do love the Lord while I do pray to Him while I do spend time reading the Holy Bible, there is something that I spend more time with.
I spend way too much time on the computer. I would love to be able to say that I don't but honestly I do.
Before I got this computer I did not have one at all, the old one broke and I just did not have another. I was praying more and reading my bible and listening to gospel music. NOW not so much.
My fault and I know it. It just sneaked up on me and now it is what it is. And it is up to me to change. So I am going to cut back a lot on my computer usage. I used the computer for intertainment and to pass the time until it was a habit . If I had a moment I would come to the computer, and that is not what I want.
I will be coming here some just not as much. Goodness even my house has suffered, I noticed that yesterday. dust balls in the corners. Babys movies in here and in there and over there. His cars and his books all over the place.
Keep praying for me, keep praying for daughter and her husband, I will be praying for each of you.
Josie you are a delight to know and I love you like you were my own. I am proud of what you are accomplising right now. I know how hard it is and I take pleasure in your successes. I will keep praying for you
Deb everyday when I open my bible I see a white ladies handkerchief with pink lace that used to be tucked in my grandmoms pocket. I see your name wrote on it and I remember that you need prayer. And I mention the special requests . I lift your names to our Father .
God bless you all
I love you
I spend way too much time on the computer. I would love to be able to say that I don't but honestly I do.
Before I got this computer I did not have one at all, the old one broke and I just did not have another. I was praying more and reading my bible and listening to gospel music. NOW not so much.
My fault and I know it. It just sneaked up on me and now it is what it is. And it is up to me to change. So I am going to cut back a lot on my computer usage. I used the computer for intertainment and to pass the time until it was a habit . If I had a moment I would come to the computer, and that is not what I want.
I will be coming here some just not as much. Goodness even my house has suffered, I noticed that yesterday. dust balls in the corners. Babys movies in here and in there and over there. His cars and his books all over the place.
Keep praying for me, keep praying for daughter and her husband, I will be praying for each of you.
Josie you are a delight to know and I love you like you were my own. I am proud of what you are accomplising right now. I know how hard it is and I take pleasure in your successes. I will keep praying for you
Deb everyday when I open my bible I see a white ladies handkerchief with pink lace that used to be tucked in my grandmoms pocket. I see your name wrote on it and I remember that you need prayer. And I mention the special requests . I lift your names to our Father .
God bless you all
I love you
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Charlotte, please read, I can not post on your blog
praise God for His moving in such a wonderful way-thats our God-He will always be there, He said He would, and He can not, and will not lie to us. His love is beyond compare, He is the master of all things and that includes our frail bodies. I love Him, He has never let me down. I am so happy for you and your husband, and what a wonderful testimony. I pray that your story will touch a heart-change a life-bring a soul to the prescence of the Lord. God bless and keep you and your husband in the palm of His hand.
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Stuff going on here-----
My dd has decided to leave her husband-I hope that is what she means. I know that she is getting a small place for her and baby to live. Her hubby does not like the new place because it is out in the country,even though it is half in rent to what they have been paying. He said he will stay where he is, and will visit over there. He complains about money Now it is in the country but she is renting from her uncles wife (my husbands bother that died some time ago the mobile home belongs to her)DShe is giving them the opportunity to rent to own, at a very reduced price, and she is giving dd furniture and tvs to help furnixh the mobile home, becasue dd is going there with just beds and dresser and chest of drawers. (added later----I removed the comment-I wish I had not even thought it-Thank you Lord for letting me know that it was not something that I should have allowed to form in my mind)
I worked yesterday, we did 3 houses anad and 9 condos. I work with a crew of usually 7 people and you would think we would be falling all over each other but we all have a job to do and we go in and do the job and get out. all togeather there are about 10 crews and this weekend a few crews was fired for slack work. Our crew was given a bonus for exemplary work. Made me feel good. It is so easy to clean a house when you don't have to move around a lived in house, AND when there is when there is so many people doing their work with you. Hard work but pay is pretty good, and I love the people that I am working with. Thank you Lord for providing a job for me.
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Psalm 9:1.2
I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart,I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you, I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.
DEAR LORD
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE YOU HAVE ACCEPTED ME, DEAR LORD. SOMETIMES I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL MY HAPPINESS
I SWIM IN YOUR GRACE LIKE A WHALE IN THE OCEAN. THE SAYING GOES 'AN OCEAN NEVER DRIES UP' BUT WE KNOW THAT YOUR GRACE ALSO NEVER FAILS. DEAR LORD, YOUR GRACE AND LOVE IS OUR HAPPINESS, HALLEJAH!!!!
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(copied from "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK")
May God bless each of you
and may our spirits meet each other at the throneroom of God on this wonderful day that the Lord has made just for us.
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Stuff going on here-----
My dd has decided to leave her husband-I hope that is what she means. I know that she is getting a small place for her and baby to live. Her hubby does not like the new place because it is out in the country,even though it is half in rent to what they have been paying. He said he will stay where he is, and will visit over there. He complains about money Now it is in the country but she is renting from her uncles wife (my husbands bother that died some time ago the mobile home belongs to her)DShe is giving them the opportunity to rent to own, at a very reduced price, and she is giving dd furniture and tvs to help furnixh the mobile home, becasue dd is going there with just beds and dresser and chest of drawers. (added later----I removed the comment-I wish I had not even thought it-Thank you Lord for letting me know that it was not something that I should have allowed to form in my mind)
I worked yesterday, we did 3 houses anad and 9 condos. I work with a crew of usually 7 people and you would think we would be falling all over each other but we all have a job to do and we go in and do the job and get out. all togeather there are about 10 crews and this weekend a few crews was fired for slack work. Our crew was given a bonus for exemplary work. Made me feel good. It is so easy to clean a house when you don't have to move around a lived in house, AND when there is when there is so many people doing their work with you. Hard work but pay is pretty good, and I love the people that I am working with. Thank you Lord for providing a job for me.
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Psalm 9:1.2
I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart,I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you, I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.
DEAR LORD
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE YOU HAVE ACCEPTED ME, DEAR LORD. SOMETIMES I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL MY HAPPINESS
I SWIM IN YOUR GRACE LIKE A WHALE IN THE OCEAN. THE SAYING GOES 'AN OCEAN NEVER DRIES UP' BUT WE KNOW THAT YOUR GRACE ALSO NEVER FAILS. DEAR LORD, YOUR GRACE AND LOVE IS OUR HAPPINESS, HALLEJAH!!!!
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(copied from "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK")
May God bless each of you
and may our spirits meet each other at the throneroom of God on this wonderful day that the Lord has made just for us.
Friday, July 29, 2011
My Week
and what a week
I had grandson everyday from Sunday to yesterday. He does take a good deal of my time and thoughts.
And then the drama started again at my Moms house-brother told her that he comes up here 2 and 3 times a week and I tell you I have not seen him since right around Christmas. What was he trying to do . Just to tell such a lie to her is beyand belief and it hit me wrong and I called her and told her that he lied to her, Isaid he seves his master and that she should not belief anything that comes out of his mouth. He came in to her house while I was talking and got mad cause I had said that and he jumped in his car (drunk of course)and headed this way. I am so tired of him just saying things to cause problems. Mom is not easy to get along with but she is 85 and that is her house that he stays in,. and he pays absolutely nothing to stay there. Does not even buy the food he eats. The only reason he said that was just to stir up problems. Remember he told her that I had put his and her names all over the computer and had her upset . I kept telling her I did not do it. but he was standing beside her telling her how I did it. He told her that I don't visit there and it was her fault becasue he and I hav e a good relationship. WHAT A LIAR----I am tired of the drama, and the lies and the way he tries to keep everything stirred up all the time .
I have stayed withing reason on my diet and have dropped about 1 and 1/2 pounds. I have not exercised any this week, I have b een having some allergy problems andit has sapped my energy. But today I felt better, (still did not exercise :) and tomorrow I go back to work. I really enjoyed it and am looking forward to going tomorrow.
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We've got the power in the name of Jesus
We've got the power in the name of the Lord
Though Satan rages, we cannot be defeated
We've got the power in the name of the Lord
God bless
I had grandson everyday from Sunday to yesterday. He does take a good deal of my time and thoughts.
And then the drama started again at my Moms house-brother told her that he comes up here 2 and 3 times a week and I tell you I have not seen him since right around Christmas. What was he trying to do . Just to tell such a lie to her is beyand belief and it hit me wrong and I called her and told her that he lied to her, Isaid he seves his master and that she should not belief anything that comes out of his mouth. He came in to her house while I was talking and got mad cause I had said that and he jumped in his car (drunk of course)and headed this way. I am so tired of him just saying things to cause problems. Mom is not easy to get along with but she is 85 and that is her house that he stays in,. and he pays absolutely nothing to stay there. Does not even buy the food he eats. The only reason he said that was just to stir up problems. Remember he told her that I had put his and her names all over the computer and had her upset . I kept telling her I did not do it. but he was standing beside her telling her how I did it. He told her that I don't visit there and it was her fault becasue he and I hav e a good relationship. WHAT A LIAR----I am tired of the drama, and the lies and the way he tries to keep everything stirred up all the time .
I have stayed withing reason on my diet and have dropped about 1 and 1/2 pounds. I have not exercised any this week, I have b een having some allergy problems andit has sapped my energy. But today I felt better, (still did not exercise :) and tomorrow I go back to work. I really enjoyed it and am looking forward to going tomorrow.
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We've got the power in the name of Jesus
We've got the power in the name of the Lord
Though Satan rages, we cannot be defeated
We've got the power in the name of the Lord
God bless
Sunday, July 24, 2011
work, tired, God does answer prayer
ok answers prayer first
In order to get job, I needed to have a printed copy of my ssi card and my driver liscence. I found my drivers liscence but could not find my ssi card. I searched and searched and just could not find it. Which is strange because I keep the important cards togeather in a special, plastic, small card holder tht fits easilly in my card purse inside my wallet. So I could not understand why it was not there. I looked for it on Fri could not find it so I called the ssi office to see about a replacement and found out that it could take up to 10 days to get it back-I needed it on Sat. I began praying about it and I got the idea to go look my winter pocket book, I got it out and looked in all the pockets and zippered compartments and I found it. I am still confused how it got moved because i have not even looked at it in months -like I said it was in a small folder that is in a special place in my wallet. I am just happy that God directed me to it;.
I worked,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I really worked hard and it was an all day job, got there and began working at 6 am and finished at 4:45 pm, with 1/2 hour for lunch. One beach house was a 3 story and I was up and down those stairs I think 6 times . On the first time I went up quickly and kept thinking "imagine all the calories I am burning", on the last time I was thinking, "I wonder how many bones I will break if I fall" My leg muscles were so hurting and I could barely put my foot on the next step up. BUT I DID IT. I truly loved the other people that worked with us. Everyone was friendly and funny and it is always nice to work with people that you have osmething in common with. We all go to the same church and that meant that none of us used bad language. Than made a nice work atmosphere.
I was very tired when I got home and still a bit tired now. I am glad that no matter how I ate, good or bad (and lately it has been more bad than good) I always kept up my exercise because I think that my exercise made the work I was doing a lot easier. My muscles might not have been totally prepared for the work I did but I think the exercises made it a lot better than it could have been.
I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Sunday.
God bless
In order to get job, I needed to have a printed copy of my ssi card and my driver liscence. I found my drivers liscence but could not find my ssi card. I searched and searched and just could not find it. Which is strange because I keep the important cards togeather in a special, plastic, small card holder tht fits easilly in my card purse inside my wallet. So I could not understand why it was not there. I looked for it on Fri could not find it so I called the ssi office to see about a replacement and found out that it could take up to 10 days to get it back-I needed it on Sat. I began praying about it and I got the idea to go look my winter pocket book, I got it out and looked in all the pockets and zippered compartments and I found it. I am still confused how it got moved because i have not even looked at it in months -like I said it was in a small folder that is in a special place in my wallet. I am just happy that God directed me to it;.
I worked,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I really worked hard and it was an all day job, got there and began working at 6 am and finished at 4:45 pm, with 1/2 hour for lunch. One beach house was a 3 story and I was up and down those stairs I think 6 times . On the first time I went up quickly and kept thinking "imagine all the calories I am burning", on the last time I was thinking, "I wonder how many bones I will break if I fall" My leg muscles were so hurting and I could barely put my foot on the next step up. BUT I DID IT. I truly loved the other people that worked with us. Everyone was friendly and funny and it is always nice to work with people that you have osmething in common with. We all go to the same church and that meant that none of us used bad language. Than made a nice work atmosphere.
I was very tired when I got home and still a bit tired now. I am glad that no matter how I ate, good or bad (and lately it has been more bad than good) I always kept up my exercise because I think that my exercise made the work I was doing a lot easier. My muscles might not have been totally prepared for the work I did but I think the exercises made it a lot better than it could have been.
| The Psalms |
| 122 |
A Prayer for the Peace of Jerusalem | |||||
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| 1 | I was glad when they said unto me,
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| 2 | Our feet shall stand within thy gates, O Jerusalem. | ||||
| 3 | Jerusalem is builded as a city that is compact together: | ||||
| 4 | whither the tribes go up, the tribes of the LORD,
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| 5 | For there are set thrones of judgment,
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| 6 | Pray for the peace of Jerusalem:
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| 7 | Peace be within thy walls,
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| 8 | For my brethren and companions' sakes,
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| 9 | Because of the house of the LORD our God
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I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Sunday.
God bless
Thursday, July 21, 2011
UPDATE (like my life is so exciting that everyone needs to be updated)
lol
I have had Ry guy since Sunday and he has been at his most needy. ???? I quess it is just a phase but he likes to keep me in seeing distance. Perhaps he heard dd and I talking about him going back to school and some children do not handle change well. Maybe he knows that he will not be coming here as much. He has recently been asking a lot of questions about death and maybe that is it. But anyway I am being patient with his clinging and with his questions. He keeps saying he does not want me to die. I am sure that death is scary to him, but I keep telling him about heaven and it's beauty and how we will all live togeather. And I reassure him that I am healthy and I do not think that I will die anytime soon.
While baby plays in the pool I have been working in the yard. I have gotten a lot done-weeding my garden, which is close to pool=and cleaning up the car port also close to the pool. It has been so hot here that one day I just jumped in the pool with him with all my clothes on.
I am thankful everyday for our AC and I have such compassion for those that do not have it. I don't think that it got this hot when I was a child, or maybe living with ac has spoiled us??????
I love not craving foods when I am on low carb but I want my veggies so I decided this morning to just count calories for a while. I know that I am so wishy washy but I have cucumbers and blueberries and squash and corn that is so yummy, and someone gave us a little over a bushel of fresh red skinned potaoes and they are screaming at me to eat them lol. tomatoes are coming off by the basket fulls. My okra is producing like crazy and my neighbor said they have all they want in their garden and so I can have whatever is left. Cheap food, nutritious and so I am going to walk this way for a while.
I am going to start working one day a week for a cleaning company. We will be working cleaning condos at the beach, or at least I am goiing to try it. Who knows maybe cleaning someone elses house is different from cleaning my own house.____________________________________
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FINALLY, BE STRONG IN THE LORD AND IN THE STRENGTH OF HIS POWER.
EPHESIANS 6:10
I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK, FICKLE AND UNCERTAIN, GOD. I WANT TO BE A PERSON WHO IS SOLID, KNOWS WHAT IS TRUE AND OPERATES WITH A SENSE OF CONFIDENCE IN YOU. WHERE I AM WEAK, LORD, PLEASE BE MY STRENGTH. WHERE I AM INSECURE, TEACH ME TO BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO LEAD ME. WHERE I AM UNSTEADY, PLEASE BRING YOUR STABILITY TO ME. LET MY LIFE BE A TESTIMONY TO YOUR POWER.
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BE AS A TOWER, FIRMLY SET;
SHAKES NOT ITS TOP FOR ANY BLAST THAT BLOWS.
-DANTE
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I hope everyone is doing well
May God bless each of you
I have had Ry guy since Sunday and he has been at his most needy. ???? I quess it is just a phase but he likes to keep me in seeing distance. Perhaps he heard dd and I talking about him going back to school and some children do not handle change well. Maybe he knows that he will not be coming here as much. He has recently been asking a lot of questions about death and maybe that is it. But anyway I am being patient with his clinging and with his questions. He keeps saying he does not want me to die. I am sure that death is scary to him, but I keep telling him about heaven and it's beauty and how we will all live togeather. And I reassure him that I am healthy and I do not think that I will die anytime soon.
While baby plays in the pool I have been working in the yard. I have gotten a lot done-weeding my garden, which is close to pool=and cleaning up the car port also close to the pool. It has been so hot here that one day I just jumped in the pool with him with all my clothes on.
I am thankful everyday for our AC and I have such compassion for those that do not have it. I don't think that it got this hot when I was a child, or maybe living with ac has spoiled us??????
I love not craving foods when I am on low carb but I want my veggies so I decided this morning to just count calories for a while. I know that I am so wishy washy but I have cucumbers and blueberries and squash and corn that is so yummy, and someone gave us a little over a bushel of fresh red skinned potaoes and they are screaming at me to eat them lol. tomatoes are coming off by the basket fulls. My okra is producing like crazy and my neighbor said they have all they want in their garden and so I can have whatever is left. Cheap food, nutritious and so I am going to walk this way for a while.
I am going to start working one day a week for a cleaning company. We will be working cleaning condos at the beach, or at least I am goiing to try it. Who knows maybe cleaning someone elses house is different from cleaning my own house.____________________________________
____________________________________________________
FINALLY, BE STRONG IN THE LORD AND IN THE STRENGTH OF HIS POWER.
EPHESIANS 6:10
I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK, FICKLE AND UNCERTAIN, GOD. I WANT TO BE A PERSON WHO IS SOLID, KNOWS WHAT IS TRUE AND OPERATES WITH A SENSE OF CONFIDENCE IN YOU. WHERE I AM WEAK, LORD, PLEASE BE MY STRENGTH. WHERE I AM INSECURE, TEACH ME TO BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO LEAD ME. WHERE I AM UNSTEADY, PLEASE BRING YOUR STABILITY TO ME. LET MY LIFE BE A TESTIMONY TO YOUR POWER.
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BE AS A TOWER, FIRMLY SET;
SHAKES NOT ITS TOP FOR ANY BLAST THAT BLOWS.
-DANTE
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I hope everyone is doing well
May God bless each of you
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Charlotte (Chargaile)
Charlotte (Chargaile)
Sometime ago you posted about the tests that your husband had to have done, and I began praying for him and for you. I read your post this morning and I wanted to let you know that I am still praying and will continue to hold him and you and the rest of your family in my prayers.
I have been unable to reply on your blog and I hope that you see this.
God bless you and give you strength now and in the days ahead.
Sometime ago you posted about the tests that your husband had to have done, and I began praying for him and for you. I read your post this morning and I wanted to let you know that I am still praying and will continue to hold him and you and the rest of your family in my prayers.
I have been unable to reply on your blog and I hope that you see this.
God bless you and give you strength now and in the days ahead.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
I am so upset with son in law that I could scream
baby will be 6 next month-he is advanced for his age and is reading the game guides for video games and playing some games for older children. -final fantasy series, dragon quest series, lunar, lufia, etc. He has been playing Chrono trigger and he had beaten several of the main bosses.
His daddy called yesterday evening and baby was telling him about beating the head boss and his daddy told him to stop talking about those stupid games. He was almost crying and he came running to me (we do not use the word stupid here) and said "daddy said the stupid word, grand ma" I was stunned he would say such a thing to a child. I said I don't think he meant to say it. Then his daddy started yelling and I could hear him yelling all the way across the room.
I realize some people are not into playing video games, but it does help with his reading, and his eye hand coordination. And you have to think about what to do next. Used the right way it is a great learning tool.
I don't care for any sports, none, My son in law loves all sports everything except golf. I feel it is a waste of money and that money would be better spent on academics. These sports stars are paid too much money and they are terrible role models for our young people. . That is just my opinion and we are all entitled to have our opinion. The child had a hard time going to sleep again last night and he was clinging to me even in his sleep. And started first thing this morning about not wanting to go home.
Nothing I can do. nothing at all.
So for him I gave him this day. I told him he could eat what he wanted because this is his day
he could wear what he wanted, etc. He is loving it.
Lord
please hold this chld in your hands protect him Father from those that do not understand how fragile a childs feelings are, how eaasily hurt they can be in their emotions. Lord I know that calling a child names can follow that child even into adulthood. put a fence around him and let him feel your loving prescence. In the name of Jesus Amen
4. Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord
Ephesians 6:4
God bless
His daddy called yesterday evening and baby was telling him about beating the head boss and his daddy told him to stop talking about those stupid games. He was almost crying and he came running to me (we do not use the word stupid here) and said "daddy said the stupid word, grand ma" I was stunned he would say such a thing to a child. I said I don't think he meant to say it. Then his daddy started yelling and I could hear him yelling all the way across the room.
I realize some people are not into playing video games, but it does help with his reading, and his eye hand coordination. And you have to think about what to do next. Used the right way it is a great learning tool.
I don't care for any sports, none, My son in law loves all sports everything except golf. I feel it is a waste of money and that money would be better spent on academics. These sports stars are paid too much money and they are terrible role models for our young people. . That is just my opinion and we are all entitled to have our opinion. The child had a hard time going to sleep again last night and he was clinging to me even in his sleep. And started first thing this morning about not wanting to go home.
Nothing I can do. nothing at all.
So for him I gave him this day. I told him he could eat what he wanted because this is his day
he could wear what he wanted, etc. He is loving it.
Lord
please hold this chld in your hands protect him Father from those that do not understand how fragile a childs feelings are, how eaasily hurt they can be in their emotions. Lord I know that calling a child names can follow that child even into adulthood. put a fence around him and let him feel your loving prescence. In the name of Jesus Amen
4. Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord
Ephesians 6:4
God bless
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
my wonderful day
I know it is just 10:30 and the most past of the day is still ahead of me but so far it has been great.
Grandbaby was hard to settle down last night and finally he slid over across the bed and snuggled up to me and quickly went to sleep,. I just lay there holding him trying to imagine the days ahead when he will grow up and those moments will not occur any more. He is hot natured and lying close to him will quickly be uncomfortable but I held him and cherished those moments. I finally drifted off and some time later he moved away from me.
I prepared his breakfast, nothing but dry cereal today, and some juice , and then some doritoes-(he wanted doritoes for his breakfast dessert) He already knows what he wants for lunch-some talapia cooked in butter just salt no pepper, and since I insist he eats vegetables, green beans and black eyed peas.
We need to do some of "play school" and he loves going to a site of the computer called abcmouse.com. It is wonderful for prekindergaten children up to I think grade 2. He loves it, there is a free part to it and then you can up grade to more things for 10.00 a month. My daughter bought him a subscription to it and he really enjoys it.
Finished my exercises and now am going to start laundry.
Such an exciting life.
I know thast God loves us much more than I love the baby. How very special we must be to Him.
ALL OF HIMSELF
AN INFINITE GOD CAN GIVE ALL OF
HIMSELF TO EACH OF HIS CHILDREN.
HE DOES NOT DISTRIBUTE HIMSELF
THAT EACH MY HAVE A PART, BUT TO
EACH ONE HE GIVES ALL OF HIMSELF
AS FULL AS IF THERE WERE NO OTHERS.
A. W. TOZER
God bless each of you
Grandbaby was hard to settle down last night and finally he slid over across the bed and snuggled up to me and quickly went to sleep,. I just lay there holding him trying to imagine the days ahead when he will grow up and those moments will not occur any more. He is hot natured and lying close to him will quickly be uncomfortable but I held him and cherished those moments. I finally drifted off and some time later he moved away from me.
I prepared his breakfast, nothing but dry cereal today, and some juice , and then some doritoes-(he wanted doritoes for his breakfast dessert) He already knows what he wants for lunch-some talapia cooked in butter just salt no pepper, and since I insist he eats vegetables, green beans and black eyed peas.
We need to do some of "play school" and he loves going to a site of the computer called abcmouse.com. It is wonderful for prekindergaten children up to I think grade 2. He loves it, there is a free part to it and then you can up grade to more things for 10.00 a month. My daughter bought him a subscription to it and he really enjoys it.
Finished my exercises and now am going to start laundry.
Such an exciting life.
I know thast God loves us much more than I love the baby. How very special we must be to Him.
ALL OF HIMSELF
AN INFINITE GOD CAN GIVE ALL OF
HIMSELF TO EACH OF HIS CHILDREN.
HE DOES NOT DISTRIBUTE HIMSELF
THAT EACH MY HAVE A PART, BUT TO
EACH ONE HE GIVES ALL OF HIMSELF
AS FULL AS IF THERE WERE NO OTHERS.
A. W. TOZER
God bless each of you
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Good morning
I found the book I mentioned yesterday and I think it is the same one that Deb mentioned , BREAKING FREE FROM COMPULSIVE EATING BY GENEEN ROTH. I have been reading it off and on since found it.
I found the place that gave a few guidelines about getting more in contol of your eating. This is on page 44 of the paperback edition
1. eat in full view of your friends partner, parents, children, colleagues
2. eat when you are sitting down
3. eat without distracions-radio,tv, newspapers, books or loud music.
4. wen you eat, do so in as lovely and as nourishing an enfironment as you can create.
5. when you eat, avoid emotional conversation.
Yesterday I began doing these 5 things or trying to anyway. It is difficult to eat without distractions when you have a child in the house BUT I can do the best I can with what I have.
Since the m &m incident I have been eating low carb, or maybe I should call this less carb-it is less than 100 and I am trying to keep it around 60 to 70 carbs and I already can tell that I don't feel so appetitidly stressed, (I couldn't think of the right word to use LOL) I don't feel so pushed to go get something/anything to eat. I am also eating low calorie. never say never, never give up, never quit.
I changed my table. It is still not to the point that I want it but dh has to go through his papers and things on the fqr end of the table and then it will be more attractive. I have red placemats at two place and two red and white place mats at the other two places. They are not alike but they compliment each other and it is very pleasing to look at. I want to figure out a pleasant centerpiece to put out.
I do have things that I can put out, especially things for the fall and Christmas seasons. Just never got around to getting anything for spring/summer times and special occasions.
My dh is doing this too. No more mindless snacking in front of the computer or tv. I eat pretty healthy-I have bad snacking habitsw. I think if I break those habits I will be better able to lose weight, be healthier, and be a better role model to my family.
Today I have to clean my baby pool for grandbaby, iron, do laundry, sweep and vacumn, and I have not exercised in 3 days and this is just not like me at all. I enjoy exercising. but my time just kept being filled up with other things at the last minute, at the time I was going to esxercise yesterday someone came and so today I am going to exercise early and that way if something comes up to knock me out of doing it I will still have all day long to work it in.
Heat index here is supposed to be over 100--that is going to be miserable for everyone that is working outside.
FROM THE BOOK WHISPERS OF PROMISE
MAKE ME A CHANNEL
LORD MAKE ME A CHANNEL OF YOUR
PEACE, WHERE THERE IS HATRED,
LET ME BRING LOVE. WHERE THERE IS
OFFENSE, FORGIVENESS. WHERE THERE IS
DISCORD, RECONCILIATION. WHERE
THERE IS DOUBT, FAITH. WHERE
THERE IS DESPAIR,HOPE. WHERE THERE
IS SADNESS, JOY. WHERE THERE IS DARKNESS,
YOUR LIGHT.
ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI
Have a good day everyone
God bless
I found the place that gave a few guidelines about getting more in contol of your eating. This is on page 44 of the paperback edition
1. eat in full view of your friends partner, parents, children, colleagues
2. eat when you are sitting down
3. eat without distracions-radio,tv, newspapers, books or loud music.
4. wen you eat, do so in as lovely and as nourishing an enfironment as you can create.
5. when you eat, avoid emotional conversation.
Yesterday I began doing these 5 things or trying to anyway. It is difficult to eat without distractions when you have a child in the house BUT I can do the best I can with what I have.
Since the m &m incident I have been eating low carb, or maybe I should call this less carb-it is less than 100 and I am trying to keep it around 60 to 70 carbs and I already can tell that I don't feel so appetitidly stressed, (I couldn't think of the right word to use LOL) I don't feel so pushed to go get something/anything to eat. I am also eating low calorie. never say never, never give up, never quit.
I changed my table. It is still not to the point that I want it but dh has to go through his papers and things on the fqr end of the table and then it will be more attractive. I have red placemats at two place and two red and white place mats at the other two places. They are not alike but they compliment each other and it is very pleasing to look at. I want to figure out a pleasant centerpiece to put out.
I do have things that I can put out, especially things for the fall and Christmas seasons. Just never got around to getting anything for spring/summer times and special occasions.
My dh is doing this too. No more mindless snacking in front of the computer or tv. I eat pretty healthy-I have bad snacking habitsw. I think if I break those habits I will be better able to lose weight, be healthier, and be a better role model to my family.
Today I have to clean my baby pool for grandbaby, iron, do laundry, sweep and vacumn, and I have not exercised in 3 days and this is just not like me at all. I enjoy exercising. but my time just kept being filled up with other things at the last minute, at the time I was going to esxercise yesterday someone came and so today I am going to exercise early and that way if something comes up to knock me out of doing it I will still have all day long to work it in.
Heat index here is supposed to be over 100--that is going to be miserable for everyone that is working outside.
FROM THE BOOK WHISPERS OF PROMISE
MAKE ME A CHANNEL
LORD MAKE ME A CHANNEL OF YOUR
PEACE, WHERE THERE IS HATRED,
LET ME BRING LOVE. WHERE THERE IS
OFFENSE, FORGIVENESS. WHERE THERE IS
DISCORD, RECONCILIATION. WHERE
THERE IS DOUBT, FAITH. WHERE
THERE IS DESPAIR,HOPE. WHERE THERE
IS SADNESS, JOY. WHERE THERE IS DARKNESS,
YOUR LIGHT.
ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI
Have a good day everyone
God bless
Monday, July 11, 2011
The journey of a lifetime
Did that title get your attention????
I was sitting here, drinking my coffee, and dd spent the night last night with the grandbaby. She will stay here with us for a few nights then she will go to her house for a few nights. SO I have baby here with me from Sunday evening/night until Thursday late evening. I have dd dwith me from Sunday eve./night to Tues Morning. I am so fortunate to have child in the house 3/4ths of the time and my dd I have about 1/2 of the time.
But back to drinking my coffee, I had a book here at one time about compulsive eating and I have misplaced it. I am a clutter bug and I have no problem with being a clutter bug except when I want to find something, then I know I have it but just can't seem to put my hands on it.
But in reading Debs latest blog post, or was it reading somewhere else? (do I have a clutter bug mind too?) anyway something about sitting at the table to eat, having set times to eat, controlling what you can controll and changing what you can change now. So I remember reading something similar to this a while back about eating from a smaller bowl, plate, allowing yourself to get 2nds if you feel you need it . I think it said most of the time you will be satisfied with what is on a smaller plate, but if you get a larger plate and fill it up you will eat as much as you can off of the larger plate. It did not say control yourself as for eating is concerned. Just control where you eat and how the food is presented to you.
I am so very lackadaisical and laid back about so many things. If it is not important in the long run I refuse to stress about it. My kitchen and den is togeather. and my table is a catch all for everything, toys and baby's snacks, and mail and well you get the picture. Dh and I seldom use the table to actually sit down and eat. lol We eat whereever we want to. Most of the time I am in fromt of the computer and he is in front of the tv.
The table will be cleaned off and my pretty place mats will be put down and we will use the table for what it was intended for-(and no my sweet husband it was not intended to hold your tools when you come in with the hammer in your hand it may be convenient to put it on the table but I'm just saying time for a change.o_o). The book or whatever I was reading said part of eating is the aesthetics part of it. Not only do we need to satisy our oral sensations we also need to please ourselves visually. So I will try this-I have tried so many other things that this does not seem like a stretch at all.
Anybody try the cabbage diet? grapefruit diet? etc.
This is something that actually makes some sense.
Any comments or thoughts ?????
The following from a book called "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK" and todays prayer just seems appropriate
LORD, I MISTAKENLY THINK THAT MY DAY-TO-DAY ACTIONS-GOOD OR BAD-ARE NOT SIGNIFICANT, BUT THEY ARE. I KNOW THAT THE CUMULATIVE EFFECT OF MY SMALL DEEDS OVER A LIFE-TIME WILL CERTAINLY INFULIENCE THE PEOPLE I'M CLOSEST TO, AS WELL AS THOSE WITH WHOM I WORK. I ALSO KNOW THAT A NOT-EXACTLY-ETHICAL CHOICE MAKES A LASTING IMPRESSION ON SPOUSES, CHILDREN, AND COWORKERS. YET, A WISE CHOICE CAN SET SOMEONE ELSE ON THE PATH OF GOOD DECISION MAKING. ONE CAN NEVER KNOW WHO IS WATCHING. THEREFORE, HELP ME DO WHAT'S RIGHT, LORD. AMEN.
and then at the bottom of the page
EVERY HAIR MAKES ITS SHADOW ON THE GROUND
"spanish proverb"
I vow to try to make wise choises, help me Lord to do the best thing in all circumstances.
stay safe everyone
God bless
I was sitting here, drinking my coffee, and dd spent the night last night with the grandbaby. She will stay here with us for a few nights then she will go to her house for a few nights. SO I have baby here with me from Sunday evening/night until Thursday late evening. I have dd dwith me from Sunday eve./night to Tues Morning. I am so fortunate to have child in the house 3/4ths of the time and my dd I have about 1/2 of the time.
But back to drinking my coffee, I had a book here at one time about compulsive eating and I have misplaced it. I am a clutter bug and I have no problem with being a clutter bug except when I want to find something, then I know I have it but just can't seem to put my hands on it.
But in reading Debs latest blog post, or was it reading somewhere else? (do I have a clutter bug mind too?) anyway something about sitting at the table to eat, having set times to eat, controlling what you can controll and changing what you can change now. So I remember reading something similar to this a while back about eating from a smaller bowl, plate, allowing yourself to get 2nds if you feel you need it . I think it said most of the time you will be satisfied with what is on a smaller plate, but if you get a larger plate and fill it up you will eat as much as you can off of the larger plate. It did not say control yourself as for eating is concerned. Just control where you eat and how the food is presented to you.
I am so very lackadaisical and laid back about so many things. If it is not important in the long run I refuse to stress about it. My kitchen and den is togeather. and my table is a catch all for everything, toys and baby's snacks, and mail and well you get the picture. Dh and I seldom use the table to actually sit down and eat. lol We eat whereever we want to. Most of the time I am in fromt of the computer and he is in front of the tv.
The table will be cleaned off and my pretty place mats will be put down and we will use the table for what it was intended for-(and no my sweet husband it was not intended to hold your tools when you come in with the hammer in your hand it may be convenient to put it on the table but I'm just saying time for a change.o_o). The book or whatever I was reading said part of eating is the aesthetics part of it. Not only do we need to satisy our oral sensations we also need to please ourselves visually. So I will try this-I have tried so many other things that this does not seem like a stretch at all.
Anybody try the cabbage diet? grapefruit diet? etc.
This is something that actually makes some sense.
Any comments or thoughts ?????
The following from a book called "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK" and todays prayer just seems appropriate
LORD, I MISTAKENLY THINK THAT MY DAY-TO-DAY ACTIONS-GOOD OR BAD-ARE NOT SIGNIFICANT, BUT THEY ARE. I KNOW THAT THE CUMULATIVE EFFECT OF MY SMALL DEEDS OVER A LIFE-TIME WILL CERTAINLY INFULIENCE THE PEOPLE I'M CLOSEST TO, AS WELL AS THOSE WITH WHOM I WORK. I ALSO KNOW THAT A NOT-EXACTLY-ETHICAL CHOICE MAKES A LASTING IMPRESSION ON SPOUSES, CHILDREN, AND COWORKERS. YET, A WISE CHOICE CAN SET SOMEONE ELSE ON THE PATH OF GOOD DECISION MAKING. ONE CAN NEVER KNOW WHO IS WATCHING. THEREFORE, HELP ME DO WHAT'S RIGHT, LORD. AMEN.
and then at the bottom of the page
EVERY HAIR MAKES ITS SHADOW ON THE GROUND
"spanish proverb"
I vow to try to make wise choises, help me Lord to do the best thing in all circumstances.
stay safe everyone
God bless
Sunday, July 10, 2011
binge eating??????????????????????
I have been reading blogs off and on -just random blogs-about being overweight -blogs that talk about how and what and when -all blogs about eating and dieting and starving, and over indulging. And with all of the reading I was doing I never once thought that I was a binge eater. (kinda like I was binging on reading about eating-and binging)
My idea of binging was a really out of control person that was eating uncontrollably, food in both hands, hoping no one knew, wild hair and housecoat on and never opening the door because you were too busy eating. always like that-----I have a confession to make-I looked up the word binging and low and behold I am a binge eater, and I do get dressed and I do open the door and my hair is 99% of the time neat.
Yesterday I asked dh to get me a pack of peanut butter m &ms. I love them and I know there is nothing wrong with eating them but he came back with a large party size bag of them. I ate them until I felt sick. Not that much in the whole bag deal, dh had some too, I don't know how much he had. I poured some in a small party size cup. You know the kind that is clear and plastic and holds about 8 ounces of liquid (I know it holds that much cause I just went and measured it) I poured it about 3/4ths full and ate them all one at the time. Then I went back and got it about 1/2 full. That was enough to make my tummy hurt and and I felt like I was weak and tired. Too much sugar---I had a sugar overload. And I knew that too much sugar would make me feel that way but I did it anyway. Out of control eating??? I think so!
That is not the only thing I eat like that -at one time or another I have eaten all sorts of food at one sitting untill I felt sick. I have eaten ----oh well I won't go into detail but as I sit here typing I am thinking of the times that I would eat peanut butter with honey or bananas with honey and that woulds ok but really 5 or 6 of them?
So now that I have the information --now that I have another label/name to add to my list of other labels and name that I call myself-what am I going to do with this new information???? I will read some more, I will try to find out what when where I can do to help me. I have always felt that you can not make wise choices if you do not have all the information..
I wish I could stop saying "I hate my life"
Well maybe I don't hate my life- maybe I hate the feeling of being emotionally crippled. But wait-I love my husband and I love my children/grandchildren, and I love my God and I love going to church, and I love my friends, and I love holding hands and seeing my garden produce because I got out and planted, and weeded and and wartered it. And I love the fresh tomatoes and cucumbers and okra thast is coming off and I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! So there it is---I have a minor flaw, but I can work on fixing it, IT IS NOT HOPELESS.
It is 7:30 am Sunday morning and i am going to church. The information absorbing will have to wait. After church this morning, dh and I have been invited to a singing that starts at 2:30 after that dd is bringing grandson over to me for the week.
He has been playing Final fantasy 7 the playstation1 that my kids left behind. That is really helping his reading. He prononces correctlu and comprehends on a 3 or 4th grade level. We spend at least an hour 4 days a week doing math and reading and writing, and last week I started doing some subtraction and he caught on to that quickly. We also started doing some simple science projects and he gets excited about seeing things like the vinegar and baking soda. I am glad he thinks of learning like a game.
Have a wonderful day everyone
God bless
My idea of binging was a really out of control person that was eating uncontrollably, food in both hands, hoping no one knew, wild hair and housecoat on and never opening the door because you were too busy eating. always like that-----I have a confession to make-I looked up the word binging and low and behold I am a binge eater, and I do get dressed and I do open the door and my hair is 99% of the time neat.
Yesterday I asked dh to get me a pack of peanut butter m &ms. I love them and I know there is nothing wrong with eating them but he came back with a large party size bag of them. I ate them until I felt sick. Not that much in the whole bag deal, dh had some too, I don't know how much he had. I poured some in a small party size cup. You know the kind that is clear and plastic and holds about 8 ounces of liquid (I know it holds that much cause I just went and measured it) I poured it about 3/4ths full and ate them all one at the time. Then I went back and got it about 1/2 full. That was enough to make my tummy hurt and and I felt like I was weak and tired. Too much sugar---I had a sugar overload. And I knew that too much sugar would make me feel that way but I did it anyway. Out of control eating??? I think so!
That is not the only thing I eat like that -at one time or another I have eaten all sorts of food at one sitting untill I felt sick. I have eaten ----oh well I won't go into detail but as I sit here typing I am thinking of the times that I would eat peanut butter with honey or bananas with honey and that woulds ok but really 5 or 6 of them?
So now that I have the information --now that I have another label/name to add to my list of other labels and name that I call myself-what am I going to do with this new information???? I will read some more, I will try to find out what when where I can do to help me. I have always felt that you can not make wise choices if you do not have all the information..
I wish I could stop saying "I hate my life"
Well maybe I don't hate my life- maybe I hate the feeling of being emotionally crippled. But wait-I love my husband and I love my children/grandchildren, and I love my God and I love going to church, and I love my friends, and I love holding hands and seeing my garden produce because I got out and planted, and weeded and and wartered it. And I love the fresh tomatoes and cucumbers and okra thast is coming off and I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! So there it is---I have a minor flaw, but I can work on fixing it, IT IS NOT HOPELESS.
It is 7:30 am Sunday morning and i am going to church. The information absorbing will have to wait. After church this morning, dh and I have been invited to a singing that starts at 2:30 after that dd is bringing grandson over to me for the week.
He has been playing Final fantasy 7 the playstation1 that my kids left behind. That is really helping his reading. He prononces correctlu and comprehends on a 3 or 4th grade level. We spend at least an hour 4 days a week doing math and reading and writing, and last week I started doing some subtraction and he caught on to that quickly. We also started doing some simple science projects and he gets excited about seeing things like the vinegar and baking soda. I am glad he thinks of learning like a game.
Have a wonderful day everyone
God bless
Saturday, July 9, 2011
SIGH
I have not posted lately becasuse I have noting to post. I have gotten out of bed determined each day that I would get some kind of control overmy eating. And every day I have failed miserably. My body is not my own it is the temple of the Lord and as such I feel that my eating should show honor to the Lord that I worship.
AND YET--
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I can not seem to get the appetite under control....................
I feel strongly that with me, some of the eating is a matter of habit.
I took a small break from typing and talked with dh about my thoughts. Strong silent type that he is, he had no suggestions, just a quick quirk of his eyebrows, and a nod of his head, and a grunt. Then wise man that he is said "sounds to me like best thing is not to put it on if you don't want to take it off." lol He is so funny sometimes.
But he needs to take off a few pounds too and he is so willing to go along with me on most thingts. So we are going to go it togeather. My way is not working or maybe I don't give it enough time to work-maybe I want instant success.
Ok diet number I lost count maybe 2333 .
Heavenly Father
I am your vessel, but I am a vessel with flaws. Thank you God for loving me with all of my flaws and weaknesses-and thank you because "greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world." I leave it in your hands --
AND YET--
'
I can not seem to get the appetite under control....................
I feel strongly that with me, some of the eating is a matter of habit.
I took a small break from typing and talked with dh about my thoughts. Strong silent type that he is, he had no suggestions, just a quick quirk of his eyebrows, and a nod of his head, and a grunt. Then wise man that he is said "sounds to me like best thing is not to put it on if you don't want to take it off." lol He is so funny sometimes.
But he needs to take off a few pounds too and he is so willing to go along with me on most thingts. So we are going to go it togeather. My way is not working or maybe I don't give it enough time to work-maybe I want instant success.
Ok diet number I lost count maybe 2333 .
Heavenly Father
I am your vessel, but I am a vessel with flaws. Thank you God for loving me with all of my flaws and weaknesses-and thank you because "greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world." I leave it in your hands --
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." JERAMIAH 29;11
Amen
I will look to the Lord for direction in all things, If it causes me problems then I can ask Him for quidance. "The Lord is my Shepherd"
Have a wonderful day
God bless
Amen
I will look to the Lord for direction in all things, If it causes me problems then I can ask Him for quidance. "The Lord is my Shepherd"
Have a wonderful day
God bless
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Grandbaby, dd, diet, exercise
Grandbaby is here and so is dd, The air conditioner is broken in their home and so they are here. and have been since Sunday morning. I love having them here and I have asked son in law to come to but he won't do it.
yesterday I ate low carb and low calorie, I ate around 80 grams of carbs and about 1500 calories. Plus I did a 5 mile Leslie video, and I used 3 pound weights in each hand. I feel good and I am going to try to go a little more on the low carb veggies today. I have noticed that the veggies I love the most are lower in carbs AND calories. Dh bought some brussel sprouts for me yesterday- His way of saying he was sorry for the argument we had over the weekend. He is such a strong silent type and while he says he is sorry, he wants to buy me something to. He used to buy me chocolates, now he buys a bag of my favorite veggies. LOL He brought in the bag and took the bag of brussel sprouts out and sounding like a bashful boy said "I bought this for you" I love brussel sprouts and I think I will do them like Josie likes them but instead of using butter I thinkI will use butter flavor pan spray. and pan fry them. I need to look up the carbs and see how many I can eat without going too far over my set limits.
I am glad grandson is not a big sweets eater. He love cheese sticks, and devilled eggs, and trix cereal and mini wheats for snacks. That keeps me from seeing and wanting the candy or cookies that most children want.
I don't know when grandson and dd will go home. Not only is her air not working but the house needs to be funigated. She saw one of the huge roaches in her house and that is one thing she can not stand. She is afraid of them. So if it is sprayed they all need to stay out of the house at least several hours.
This is the way I feel, I will always be their mother and my heart, my lap and my house will always be available to them if they need me. Just as God is always there for His children.
9Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?
10Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?
11If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?
Have a great day, be safe
God bless
yesterday I ate low carb and low calorie, I ate around 80 grams of carbs and about 1500 calories. Plus I did a 5 mile Leslie video, and I used 3 pound weights in each hand. I feel good and I am going to try to go a little more on the low carb veggies today. I have noticed that the veggies I love the most are lower in carbs AND calories. Dh bought some brussel sprouts for me yesterday- His way of saying he was sorry for the argument we had over the weekend. He is such a strong silent type and while he says he is sorry, he wants to buy me something to. He used to buy me chocolates, now he buys a bag of my favorite veggies. LOL He brought in the bag and took the bag of brussel sprouts out and sounding like a bashful boy said "I bought this for you" I love brussel sprouts and I think I will do them like Josie likes them but instead of using butter I thinkI will use butter flavor pan spray. and pan fry them. I need to look up the carbs and see how many I can eat without going too far over my set limits.
I am glad grandson is not a big sweets eater. He love cheese sticks, and devilled eggs, and trix cereal and mini wheats for snacks. That keeps me from seeing and wanting the candy or cookies that most children want.
I don't know when grandson and dd will go home. Not only is her air not working but the house needs to be funigated. She saw one of the huge roaches in her house and that is one thing she can not stand. She is afraid of them. So if it is sprayed they all need to stay out of the house at least several hours.
This is the way I feel, I will always be their mother and my heart, my lap and my house will always be available to them if they need me. Just as God is always there for His children.
Matthew 7:9-11
King James Version (KJV)
9Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?
10Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?
11If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?
Have a great day, be safe
God bless
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
New day, new outlook, new plans,
Never say quit, never give up or give in, I will not allow what I consume to consume me.
I have to eat (for the most part)low carb because of the hives. They are so uncomfortable that I am not tempted to indulge in the breads and/or anything that has grains on or in it. I eat too much, when I am not watching what I eat being as careful as a warden in a prison, then I over eat. I hate knowing that if I indulge in the short term I will pay for it in the long term. I hate knowing and admitting that food or anything of this world has such a control over me.
I think for me since I eat fairly low carb all the time, in order for me to get a grip on my eating I need to count calories. I have to be able to say to myself , there is the number and after that number you are done for the day. When this stops working I will shake it up and go a different route. But wheather we go this route or that route, our destination is the same-healthy body, weight loss, energy to keep up with what we have to do each day, lower cholesterol, lower blood pressure, less chance of heart attack, less chance of stroke, less chance of, or lower diabetes, less chance of altzimers,less chance of obesity related cancers. And being able to fit in that pretty blue dress that my dd gave me. (just 10 pounds should get me in it) So short term goal is 10 pounds.
Thank you Deb and Josie for your loving response to my last post. I really needed to hear what you said, I prayed a lot and asked The Lord to guide me and help me in ALL areas. I love you both and I am so grateful that I "met" you and that you are my sisters in the Lord. I value your prayers and wisdom.
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The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.
Have a wonderful and safe day
God bless
I have to eat (for the most part)low carb because of the hives. They are so uncomfortable that I am not tempted to indulge in the breads and/or anything that has grains on or in it. I eat too much, when I am not watching what I eat being as careful as a warden in a prison, then I over eat. I hate knowing that if I indulge in the short term I will pay for it in the long term. I hate knowing and admitting that food or anything of this world has such a control over me.
I think for me since I eat fairly low carb all the time, in order for me to get a grip on my eating I need to count calories. I have to be able to say to myself , there is the number and after that number you are done for the day. When this stops working I will shake it up and go a different route. But wheather we go this route or that route, our destination is the same-healthy body, weight loss, energy to keep up with what we have to do each day, lower cholesterol, lower blood pressure, less chance of heart attack, less chance of stroke, less chance of, or lower diabetes, less chance of altzimers,less chance of obesity related cancers. And being able to fit in that pretty blue dress that my dd gave me. (just 10 pounds should get me in it) So short term goal is 10 pounds.
Thank you Deb and Josie for your loving response to my last post. I really needed to hear what you said, I prayed a lot and asked The Lord to guide me and help me in ALL areas. I love you both and I am so grateful that I "met" you and that you are my sisters in the Lord. I value your prayers and wisdom.
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The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.
He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.
Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.
Have a wonderful and safe day
God bless
Monday, July 4, 2011
Bare Naked part two
Taking the covers off and really taking a good look at me
What do I see when I look at me. I know that as an adult survivor of childhood abuse, my percpetions are a little skewerd (is that a real word?) I see the world in a lot of totally black or totally white. Example from my perspective only =I do not think that everyone should look at the world the way I do-I expect everyone to give me that same right. I do not think that people that do bad things can be called good people. My sister tells me all the time that Person A is a good person. I tell her he is not good if he tells dirty jokes, or runs around on his wife. Good people don't do that.
Sometimes I look at myself, not the outer me but the inner me ,and I see someone that has been taken apart and a childs hand has tried to put the peices where they belong. Ry used to have a book that the pictures of people were cut at the neck and at the middle and at the knees. You could put a womans head on a mans body or have purple shirt polka dotted mens pants and high heeled shoes. I am glad he did not enjoy playing with it cause it seemed a little odd to want to do such a thing. And yet I feel that way like something is not quite right with me.
I seem to be constantly trying to get my mind to line up.
Why does it seem like I am all or nothing? Either I am dieting, to stay healthy, lose weight , have energy or I am trying to eat everything in the house wheather it is good or bad. What triggers me to be the bull in the china shop -not caring if I damage the fragile china (the fragile china is me :}
OK enough
I woke this morning back in the right mode-plans are made go get groceries and I will get what I need to sustain a healthy diet.
I started on diet number 2377 today. I have done this so much I could be called an expert on dieting-I know what should be done, I know what needs to be done, I don't know how to make myself continue the plan day after day after day after day---etc. And I don't know how to get right back up, and I don't know how to forgive myself when I fail and I don't know how to stop putting my self down for failing.
Why can't I say "oops" and keep on trucking.
But right now this minute
I prepared a low carb (and low calorie, although I did not plan it that way)
two egg whites and one whole egg
stir fried veggies (okra, broccoli, cauliflower, onions, shredded cheese)
in other words a veggie omelet- although I prepared the veggies like a stir fry becasue I wanted to put just a little soy sauce on my veggies, I should have looked it up first just to see if soy sauce is allowed I didn't and now it is too late becasue I ate it and I really enjoyed it.
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10When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
What do I see when I look at me. I know that as an adult survivor of childhood abuse, my percpetions are a little skewerd (is that a real word?) I see the world in a lot of totally black or totally white. Example from my perspective only =I do not think that everyone should look at the world the way I do-I expect everyone to give me that same right. I do not think that people that do bad things can be called good people. My sister tells me all the time that Person A is a good person. I tell her he is not good if he tells dirty jokes, or runs around on his wife. Good people don't do that.
Sometimes I look at myself, not the outer me but the inner me ,and I see someone that has been taken apart and a childs hand has tried to put the peices where they belong. Ry used to have a book that the pictures of people were cut at the neck and at the middle and at the knees. You could put a womans head on a mans body or have purple shirt polka dotted mens pants and high heeled shoes. I am glad he did not enjoy playing with it cause it seemed a little odd to want to do such a thing. And yet I feel that way like something is not quite right with me.
I seem to be constantly trying to get my mind to line up.
Why does it seem like I am all or nothing? Either I am dieting, to stay healthy, lose weight , have energy or I am trying to eat everything in the house wheather it is good or bad. What triggers me to be the bull in the china shop -not caring if I damage the fragile china (the fragile china is me :}
OK enough
I woke this morning back in the right mode-plans are made go get groceries and I will get what I need to sustain a healthy diet.
I started on diet number 2377 today. I have done this so much I could be called an expert on dieting-I know what should be done, I know what needs to be done, I don't know how to make myself continue the plan day after day after day after day---etc. And I don't know how to get right back up, and I don't know how to forgive myself when I fail and I don't know how to stop putting my self down for failing.
Why can't I say "oops" and keep on trucking.
But right now this minute
I prepared a low carb (and low calorie, although I did not plan it that way)
two egg whites and one whole egg
stir fried veggies (okra, broccoli, cauliflower, onions, shredded cheese)
in other words a veggie omelet- although I prepared the veggies like a stir fry becasue I wanted to put just a little soy sauce on my veggies, I should have looked it up first just to see if soy sauce is allowed I didn't and now it is too late becasue I ate it and I really enjoyed it.
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10When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
11Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
12Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
13I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
14Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Bare naked for all the world to see
So I have no idea exactly what I will uncover. But I do know that I can not change what I am doing unless I uncover what I have been doing. I don't think I can change it unless I admit that I am daily getting worse and worse with my food choices.
Moose tracks
chocolate syrup
sandwiches
bologna
potatoe chips
etc.\\\\\I really can not remember it all but the past 4 days has been terrible. If I was drinking I would call it a 72 hour drunk.
I am going to change, I am going to make it different. I am going to work on this, I do not like the sluggish way I feel. I love having energy.
I know that I can eat unprocessed and I know that I will feel better and I will lose weight and I know that with me setting the example my dh will also eat better. Or at least he will eat better at home.
My dd wants to join us in our eating plan. so with that in mind Anyone that can give me advice please do it, I will be grateful to any and all that is willing to give me pointers. I will take advice tips and hints. After all I am not doing too well on my own am I? I have always felt that if what you are doing is not working, then do something different. You will eventually hit on what works for you.
I will be eating as unprocessed as possible.
Everyone please write down and let me know what you are eating. You might have thought of a different food that I have, you could give me ideas. I value your help.
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Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
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God bless
Moose tracks
chocolate syrup
sandwiches
bologna
potatoe chips
etc.\\\\\I really can not remember it all but the past 4 days has been terrible. If I was drinking I would call it a 72 hour drunk.
I am going to change, I am going to make it different. I am going to work on this, I do not like the sluggish way I feel. I love having energy.
I know that I can eat unprocessed and I know that I will feel better and I will lose weight and I know that with me setting the example my dh will also eat better. Or at least he will eat better at home.
My dd wants to join us in our eating plan. so with that in mind Anyone that can give me advice please do it, I will be grateful to any and all that is willing to give me pointers. I will take advice tips and hints. After all I am not doing too well on my own am I? I have always felt that if what you are doing is not working, then do something different. You will eventually hit on what works for you.
I will be eating as unprocessed as possible.
Everyone please write down and let me know what you are eating. You might have thought of a different food that I have, you could give me ideas. I value your help.
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Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
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God bless
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I wish I had a pill,
I think that title is the start of a really twangy country music song.
A magic pill====
Years ago probably close to 45 I read a book called stranger in a strange land. I don't remember a lot about it-His parents had been astronauts and crashed somewhere, they had a child and then both parents died. The child was raised by some (I think) spirit entitys and they imparted to him certains mental abilities. He could make people do things. He was found and taken back to earth. He escaped and met a woman that had a weight problem, he gave to her the ability to lose eweight. He changed something in her brain. Even as a young girl I had a weight problem-I wanted to get that ability. I still want that magic pill, that easy way, I mentioned before it was easier to stop smoking than lose weight. I would be a little satisfied to just be healthhy-the only problem is I noticed a long time ago that I am either gaining or losing --I am never just staying at the same weight.
Both kids were here today. They were not bad, just kids, they were loud at times and way too bouncy but they were just kids. My husband got a little short with them and I asked him what do you expect from 5 yr. olds. they forget instructions they do not think like we do. You can't expect kids to act like 20 yr. olds.
BIL is now being taken to rehabilitaion, he fought it at first but they told him if he did not try to move then they would have to put him in a nursing home. Almost immdieately he began making the effort to move cause he wants to go hom.
COMFORTING THOUGHTS
FOR EACH OF US THE TIME IS SURELY
COMING WHEN WE SHALL HAVE
NOTHING BUT GOD. HEALTH AND
WEALTH AND FRIENDS AND HIDING PLACES
WILL ALL BE SWEPT AWAY....
TO THE MAN OF PSEUDO FAITH THAT
IS A TERRIFYING THOUGHT, BUT TO
REAL FAITH IT IS ONE OF THE MOST
COMFORTING THOUGHTS THE HEART CAN
ENTERTAIN.
A. W. TOZER
Sleep well everyone
God bless
A magic pill====
Years ago probably close to 45 I read a book called stranger in a strange land. I don't remember a lot about it-His parents had been astronauts and crashed somewhere, they had a child and then both parents died. The child was raised by some (I think) spirit entitys and they imparted to him certains mental abilities. He could make people do things. He was found and taken back to earth. He escaped and met a woman that had a weight problem, he gave to her the ability to lose eweight. He changed something in her brain. Even as a young girl I had a weight problem-I wanted to get that ability. I still want that magic pill, that easy way, I mentioned before it was easier to stop smoking than lose weight. I would be a little satisfied to just be healthhy-the only problem is I noticed a long time ago that I am either gaining or losing --I am never just staying at the same weight.
Both kids were here today. They were not bad, just kids, they were loud at times and way too bouncy but they were just kids. My husband got a little short with them and I asked him what do you expect from 5 yr. olds. they forget instructions they do not think like we do. You can't expect kids to act like 20 yr. olds.
BIL is now being taken to rehabilitaion, he fought it at first but they told him if he did not try to move then they would have to put him in a nursing home. Almost immdieately he began making the effort to move cause he wants to go hom.
COMFORTING THOUGHTS
FOR EACH OF US THE TIME IS SURELY
COMING WHEN WE SHALL HAVE
NOTHING BUT GOD. HEALTH AND
WEALTH AND FRIENDS AND HIDING PLACES
WILL ALL BE SWEPT AWAY....
TO THE MAN OF PSEUDO FAITH THAT
IS A TERRIFYING THOUGHT, BUT TO
REAL FAITH IT IS ONE OF THE MOST
COMFORTING THOUGHTS THE HEART CAN
ENTERTAIN.
A. W. TOZER
Sleep well everyone
God bless
Six AM Tuesday morning-
I have been up since 5 am My daughter and grandson have been here since Sunday. She has not left her husband but she has just stayed because she wanted to spend extra time with her son after she gets off work. Thats fine I really enjoy her being here and you know I love having the baby here. Anyway she packed all here little everyday things up this morning and said she would be back Thursday afternoon. I know that I should not voice my thoughts, I know that it is her decision but I wish she would leave him. I know that she has already had one bad marriage (the crack addict) and she does not want another failed marriage but really the first one becasue of drugs and this one is because he has no patience and he is selvish totally wrapped up in what he wants and he gets what he wants too even if it makes her and baby do without.
All I can do is be here and try to give to the baby reassurance that I will be here. He actually called the baby a piece of sh*t. He was angry but still you don't call a five yr old names. I know that things like that can scar children.
Deb I am happy for you, and still praising God for sending wonderful answer to our prayers. I love know that no problem is too big for our God and no matter what it is *The Answer is Already on the Way*
Now as for my diet-------WHERE DID MY DIET GO-----I know it is here somewhere???Someone else has decided to drive my body while I slept and they got control of it an I decided that Ineeded to eat sweets. I proceeded to eat and eat and eat. Yesterday it was almost like I was in a sound proof room and I was screaming "stop you must stop or you will really go too far in that direction and you will have to fix it later" But nothing I did could stop the out of control-ness of my desires for sweets I tried but the temporary desire for tastebud satisfaction overpowered my desire to eat healthy. Today is another day and I will try again.
Sometimes Iwish I could stick my fingers into my brain and rearrage things -move this to the basement part of my brain -delete that memoriy, cover that window with a very thick curtain-put a padlock on that room. Call in the house makeover people and have them just totally tear that part of my brain down and build me a new one.
But then I might lose the part of me that makes me who I am,
God loves me "just as I am" He sees all the parts, I know that if He did not like something that I do- He would let me know in no uncertain terms that I need to change.
Thank you Lord for being a loving and caring father. Thank you for letting me know that no matter what it is , no matter how many times I fail, you are there to help me back up to my feet. If I fail in a little thing or a big thing you are there with your hand out to help me. Today I have another day, and thank you for this day, give me strength to do the very best that I can with this valuable gift. Amen
Text: Charlotte Elliott, 1789-1871
Music: William B. Bradbury, 1816-1868
Tune: WOODWORTH, Meter: LM
May each of us have a wonderful day in the Lord
God bless.
All I can do is be here and try to give to the baby reassurance that I will be here. He actually called the baby a piece of sh*t. He was angry but still you don't call a five yr old names. I know that things like that can scar children.
Deb I am happy for you, and still praising God for sending wonderful answer to our prayers. I love know that no problem is too big for our God and no matter what it is *The Answer is Already on the Way*
Now as for my diet-------WHERE DID MY DIET GO-----I know it is here somewhere???Someone else has decided to drive my body while I slept and they got control of it an I decided that Ineeded to eat sweets. I proceeded to eat and eat and eat. Yesterday it was almost like I was in a sound proof room and I was screaming "stop you must stop or you will really go too far in that direction and you will have to fix it later" But nothing I did could stop the out of control-ness of my desires for sweets I tried but the temporary desire for tastebud satisfaction overpowered my desire to eat healthy. Today is another day and I will try again.
Sometimes Iwish I could stick my fingers into my brain and rearrage things -move this to the basement part of my brain -delete that memoriy, cover that window with a very thick curtain-put a padlock on that room. Call in the house makeover people and have them just totally tear that part of my brain down and build me a new one.
But then I might lose the part of me that makes me who I am,
God loves me "just as I am" He sees all the parts, I know that if He did not like something that I do- He would let me know in no uncertain terms that I need to change.
Thank you Lord for being a loving and caring father. Thank you for letting me know that no matter what it is , no matter how many times I fail, you are there to help me back up to my feet. If I fail in a little thing or a big thing you are there with your hand out to help me. Today I have another day, and thank you for this day, give me strength to do the very best that I can with this valuable gift. Amen
Text: Charlotte Elliott, 1789-1871
Music: William B. Bradbury, 1816-1868
Tune: WOODWORTH, Meter: LM
1. Just as I am, without one plea, but that thy blood was shed for me, and that thou bidst me come to thee, O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 2. Just as I am, and waiting not to rid my soul of one dark blot, to thee whose blood can cleanse each spot, O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 3. Just as I am, though tossed about with many a conflict, many a doubt, fightings and fears within, without, O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 4. Just as I am, poor, wretched, blind; sight, riches, healing of the mind, yea, all I need in thee to find, O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 5. Just as I am, thou wilt receive, wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve; because thy promise I believe, O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 6. Just as I am, thy love unknown hath broken every barrier down; now, to be thine, yea thine alone, O Lamb of God, I come, I come.
May each of us have a wonderful day in the Lord
God bless.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
Thoughts going round and changes
When I woke this morning, I started praying for Deb and her babies. My heart aches for her and for them and I am so frustrated tht I can not do something to make this right. To a much much much lesser degree I am having some issues with my dd and her husband. I called there and he was screaming (literally screaming) at the (5 yr. old) baby. I asked dd what he did to warrent being screamed at like that and she said baby would not stay in the tub . In other words they put him in the tub and leave the bathroom and then the baby gets out. That is not worthy of being screamed at.
It breaks my heart that I can't make the babies live safe and secure with the people that says they love them. My heart aches to know that there is nothing that I can do. I pray and I weep. Debs babies are living with what I lived with. I still have nightmres, I am almost 60 and I still have nightmares. My mom used to yell all the time dad would beat and mom would yell and the household was a terror. I had an ulcer by the time I was 20, and right after that I started drinking really heavy and i tried drugs but did not care for that my drug of choice was alcohol and my favorite drink was sloe gin fizz.
Ry cries to come back to my house. Thursday eveng when dd came to get him he wrapped his arms around my legs and kept saying he was not going home.
About 10 yrs ago there was a country music song "I've got to much on my mind" and that is the way I feel -just my heart hurts with the pain I know others are going through. Children are the most fulnerable.. and get hurt the worse. I am grown and I can fight and defend myself but what hope does the children have.
After talking to dh about my diet, (yes I discuss just about everything with him) I have decided to go back to low calorie with modifications. Several yrs ago I developed an allergy to wheat that I know for sure and possibly other grains as well. I just got tired of keeping the diary. So I cut out all grains except for the occasional cornmeal flapjack. I ate totally natural. NO processed foods at all. and I dropped weight quickly and I still ate a very well rounded diet.
The thing is my garden is coming off and I want to eat my vegetables, okra and squash and tomatoes and bell peppers and cucumbers and corn and beans. So I will be omitting grains, minimizing intake of starchs and no processed sugars.
So it is 9:00 am and I have prayed and cried and made some changes in my diet. I am ready for some peace.
Deb, those children own a piece of my heart now. I have claimed them and I love them. When my grandmother died (the only person I can ever remember hugging me) I received one of her handkerchiefs. I pulled it out today and wrote your name on it and "your grandchildren" on it. I annointed it in oil and I prayed over the cloth. it is in a little baggie and it is going in my bible. May the Lord hear our prayer, please dear Lord hasten to lift these children out of their abuse. Thank you Lord, for your Love, Thank you Jesus for interceding and thank you Holy Ghost for your comfort. In the name of our Jesus Christ.
Amen
God bless each of you that reads this and prays for this family
It breaks my heart that I can't make the babies live safe and secure with the people that says they love them. My heart aches to know that there is nothing that I can do. I pray and I weep. Debs babies are living with what I lived with. I still have nightmres, I am almost 60 and I still have nightmares. My mom used to yell all the time dad would beat and mom would yell and the household was a terror. I had an ulcer by the time I was 20, and right after that I started drinking really heavy and i tried drugs but did not care for that my drug of choice was alcohol and my favorite drink was sloe gin fizz.
Ry cries to come back to my house. Thursday eveng when dd came to get him he wrapped his arms around my legs and kept saying he was not going home.
About 10 yrs ago there was a country music song "I've got to much on my mind" and that is the way I feel -just my heart hurts with the pain I know others are going through. Children are the most fulnerable.. and get hurt the worse. I am grown and I can fight and defend myself but what hope does the children have.
After talking to dh about my diet, (yes I discuss just about everything with him) I have decided to go back to low calorie with modifications. Several yrs ago I developed an allergy to wheat that I know for sure and possibly other grains as well. I just got tired of keeping the diary. So I cut out all grains except for the occasional cornmeal flapjack. I ate totally natural. NO processed foods at all. and I dropped weight quickly and I still ate a very well rounded diet.
The thing is my garden is coming off and I want to eat my vegetables, okra and squash and tomatoes and bell peppers and cucumbers and corn and beans. So I will be omitting grains, minimizing intake of starchs and no processed sugars.
So it is 9:00 am and I have prayed and cried and made some changes in my diet. I am ready for some peace.
Deb, those children own a piece of my heart now. I have claimed them and I love them. When my grandmother died (the only person I can ever remember hugging me) I received one of her handkerchiefs. I pulled it out today and wrote your name on it and "your grandchildren" on it. I annointed it in oil and I prayed over the cloth. it is in a little baggie and it is going in my bible. May the Lord hear our prayer, please dear Lord hasten to lift these children out of their abuse. Thank you Lord, for your Love, Thank you Jesus for interceding and thank you Holy Ghost for your comfort. In the name of our Jesus Christ.
Amen
God bless each of you that reads this and prays for this family
Friday, June 24, 2011
bil, urges, sister, baby
Brother in law is back in ICU, sister had 24 hour virus and could not go to see him yesterday but she told my mom and brother that she was having so much trouble getting a baby sitter. I have offered over and over again, she is the one that kept asking everyone to watch her granddaughter. All this week she has put the little girl here I did not have a problem with it . I love children and I have a lot of patience with children. And I play with them and teach them through play and I read to them and help them cook cookies ack ack ack Why would she say that she was having trouble getting someone to keep the little girl. ---with her it is always drama always something always trying to say things that will make her look good and make others feel sorry for her. I know that is the way she is and it still hurts for her to do it.
My grandson went home last evening, I sure miss him when he is not here. He is not just a grandchild that I babysit for my daghter, he is an important part of my heart and my life.
I had baked leftover chicken this morning for breakfast with a little bit of spicy ranch dressing as a dip, one cup of steamed broccoli and a sliced cucumber. My husband stares at me a-lol I can eat breakfast for supper so why not supper for breakfast? I am having some problems with emotional cravings and yearnings.
I WISH I LIVED ON AN ISLAND no phone no neighbors and only my computer -oh and husband and children and grand children------oh never mind pretty soon I would have everyone around me there too. :)
BIBLE VERSES TO LIFT AND ENCOURAGE (me)
“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah. Psalm 46:1-3,7
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)
I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8 (AMP)
Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)
He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. Psalm 62:6 (AMP)
Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)
My grandson went home last evening, I sure miss him when he is not here. He is not just a grandchild that I babysit for my daghter, he is an important part of my heart and my life.
I had baked leftover chicken this morning for breakfast with a little bit of spicy ranch dressing as a dip, one cup of steamed broccoli and a sliced cucumber. My husband stares at me a-lol I can eat breakfast for supper so why not supper for breakfast? I am having some problems with emotional cravings and yearnings.
I WISH I LIVED ON AN ISLAND no phone no neighbors and only my computer -oh and husband and children and grand children------oh never mind pretty soon I would have everyone around me there too. :)
BIBLE VERSES TO LIFT AND ENCOURAGE (me)
“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah. Psalm 46:1-3,7
‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)
I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8 (AMP)
Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)
He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. Psalm 62:6 (AMP)
Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
low carb, exercise, BIL,
I did good today, Itried to keep my carbs low, I kept up with them and it is 15 to 17. I was very careful.
I excercised for an hour and the two kids were really good. Now this morning they were both sick, they threw up, niece once and grandson twice. ewwwweeee, I think it was because they were trying to stand on their heads. They were very proud of the fact that they were trying to stand on their heads. lol. NOPE nothing boring here.
Bil had been moved from ICU to a private room and he started bleeding through his bowels. It is one thing afrter another. Sister looks like she is ready to collapse.I'm doing all I can to take as much as I can from her. But she is still driving about 20 miles one way and then stays with him all day then drives back home picks up her granddaughter and goes home.
I was so glad to finally post of Josies blog. I would pm her on facebook and I loved being able to do that but I do like commenting on her blog.
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I excercised for an hour and the two kids were really good. Now this morning they were both sick, they threw up, niece once and grandson twice. ewwwweeee, I think it was because they were trying to stand on their heads. They were very proud of the fact that they were trying to stand on their heads. lol. NOPE nothing boring here.
Bil had been moved from ICU to a private room and he started bleeding through his bowels. It is one thing afrter another. Sister looks like she is ready to collapse.I'm doing all I can to take as much as I can from her. But she is still driving about 20 miles one way and then stays with him all day then drives back home picks up her granddaughter and goes home.
I was so glad to finally post of Josies blog. I would pm her on facebook and I loved being able to do that but I do like commenting on her blog.
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The LORD [is] my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, [and] my high tower.
sleep well everyone
God bless
Monday, June 20, 2011
30for30,eating & exercise, children
My 30 for 30 update for the week- I really did do good except for (possibly) Fri. when my kids came in and we went to the chinese restaurant. I was picky about what I got from the buffet. I only chose foods that were not fried but as I mentioned elsewhere you just don't know what is in the sauce they put on the meat.
Each day I stayed low carb, I am not really seeing a differance in the scales but I am seeing a differance in the way my clothes fit. I am not nearly as miserable in my church clothes. I have more energy, I have less cravings.
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Josie, I read you blog and I want to reply to your blog here
I never was a big pasta or rice eater, my weakness was sandwiches. I would eat what ever woud fit between two pieces of bread. It was very difficult the first time I went to Golden Corral and they put that buttered bread in the middle of the table. But the desire to eat like that gets a little easier to handle as I got more into the low carb eating. I am not even going to try to say that I didn't want it I am saying it just got a little easier.
I quess I am lucky that I love broccoly and brussel sprouts and okra and cauliflower, I love celery -I put chicken salad on celery and eat it as finger food. Fooling myself with child psychology that I am eating an unusual sandwich.
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I ate good today, and I exercised for an hour. I love doing leslie sansonne videos. My niece asked today what I was doing I told her I was exercising and she asked why, (remember she's 5 and it don't pay to give too much details) I said to get big muscles she asked to see my muscle and I showed her and she said "where is it "so I pointed and she said where I pointed again and she said "that flappy thing under your arm is a muscle, too?"
I laughed, I mean what else could I do?
Each day I stayed low carb, I am not really seeing a differance in the scales but I am seeing a differance in the way my clothes fit. I am not nearly as miserable in my church clothes. I have more energy, I have less cravings.
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Josie, I read you blog and I want to reply to your blog here
I never was a big pasta or rice eater, my weakness was sandwiches. I would eat what ever woud fit between two pieces of bread. It was very difficult the first time I went to Golden Corral and they put that buttered bread in the middle of the table. But the desire to eat like that gets a little easier to handle as I got more into the low carb eating. I am not even going to try to say that I didn't want it I am saying it just got a little easier.
I quess I am lucky that I love broccoly and brussel sprouts and okra and cauliflower, I love celery -I put chicken salad on celery and eat it as finger food. Fooling myself with child psychology that I am eating an unusual sandwich.
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I ate good today, and I exercised for an hour. I love doing leslie sansonne videos. My niece asked today what I was doing I told her I was exercising and she asked why, (remember she's 5 and it don't pay to give too much details) I said to get big muscles she asked to see my muscle and I showed her and she said "where is it "so I pointed and she said where I pointed again and she said "that flappy thing under your arm is a muscle, too?"
I laughed, I mean what else could I do?
I am Thanking you Right NOW
author unknown
Dear GOD:
I want to thank You for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed;
I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.
Sleep well
God bless
I want to thank You for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed;
I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.
Sleep well
God bless
Sunday, June 19, 2011
eating, baby, exercise
I skipped a few days writing but I have stayed on track as far as the eating is concerned. Stayed low carb except maybe on Friday but I really tried to stay away from the obvious high carb foods.
I exercised everyday either cutting grass or hoeing the garden or exercising by video. My clothes are really starting to be less tight. I am not evengoing to fool myself into thinking that I have lost a lot becasue the scales are not showing that and you all know that I weigh every day and I would notice if there was a differance. BUT my clothes are less snug. They are more comfortable. I'll take it and be pleased with it.
Baby came last Sunday and has been here day and night since then. He does not want to go home. I asked him yesterday why he did not want to go home and he said "daddy yells at me" He never gets yelled at here. I raise my voice a bit but mostly I bend down to his level look him in the eye and just tell him when I expect . Most of the time it works. I asked my dd about it and she said her husband has no paitence with the baby. I know that can cause problems in a child. Well if they don't mind him being with me then it is fine with me. I tell him about God and we laugh and I read to him and hug him.
Sleep well everyone
God bless
PS -Deb I am still praying for you and your family. I believe God is working.
I exercised everyday either cutting grass or hoeing the garden or exercising by video. My clothes are really starting to be less tight. I am not evengoing to fool myself into thinking that I have lost a lot becasue the scales are not showing that and you all know that I weigh every day and I would notice if there was a differance. BUT my clothes are less snug. They are more comfortable. I'll take it and be pleased with it.
Baby came last Sunday and has been here day and night since then. He does not want to go home. I asked him yesterday why he did not want to go home and he said "daddy yells at me" He never gets yelled at here. I raise my voice a bit but mostly I bend down to his level look him in the eye and just tell him when I expect . Most of the time it works. I asked my dd about it and she said her husband has no paitence with the baby. I know that can cause problems in a child. Well if they don't mind him being with me then it is fine with me. I tell him about God and we laugh and I read to him and hug him.
Sleep well everyone
God bless
PS -Deb I am still praying for you and your family. I believe God is working.
Friday, June 17, 2011
psalm 25, my family,
I woke early this morning and as I prayed , I was led to psalm 25, I read it several times and was comforted. I could feel the prescence of God, and I could feel the combined prayes of others.
My Children came in around noon to celebrate fathers day. They took us both out for lundh and I was very careful not to eat anything tht was high carb. It is a little more difficult to stay low carb when you eat out. So everyone was here at my little house except my son in law and he had to work. I had my neice here with me while my sister was at the hospital with my sick brother in law. He is now sitting up and eating jello and ice. lungs is working fine and now they are saying that he had kneumonia(sp)
So sister stopped by to pick her up.
So at onetime there was 6 adults and 5 children in the house and it was a loud happy time. Then mydaughter and daughter in law and me went shopping. I bought a beautiful black and white dress with a black thin jacket from Ross. I love it .
My Children came in around noon to celebrate fathers day. They took us both out for lundh and I was very careful not to eat anything tht was high carb. It is a little more difficult to stay low carb when you eat out. So everyone was here at my little house except my son in law and he had to work. I had my neice here with me while my sister was at the hospital with my sick brother in law. He is now sitting up and eating jello and ice. lungs is working fine and now they are saying that he had kneumonia(sp)
So sister stopped by to pick her up.
So at onetime there was 6 adults and 5 children in the house and it was a loud happy time. Then mydaughter and daughter in law and me went shopping. I bought a beautiful black and white dress with a black thin jacket from Ross. I love it .
| The Holy Bible: King James Version. 2000. |
| The Psalms |
| 25 |
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| 1 | Unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul. | ||||
| 2 | O my God, I trust in thee:
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| 3 | Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed:
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| 4 | Show me thy ways, O LORD;
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| 5 | Lead me in thy truth, and teach me:
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| 6 | Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy loving-kindnesses;
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| 7 | Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions:
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| 8 | Good and upright is the LORD:
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| 9 | The meek will he guide in judgment:
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| 10 | All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth
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| 11 | For thy name's sake, O LORD,
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| 12 | What man is he that feareth the LORD?
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| 13 | His soul shall dwell at ease;
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| 14 | The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him;
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| 15 | Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD;
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| 16 | Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me;
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| 17 | The troubles of my heart are enlarged:
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| 18 | Look upon mine affliction and my pain;
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| 19 | Consider mine enemies; for they are many;
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| 20 | O keep my soul, and deliver me:
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| 21 | Let integrity and uprightness preserve me;
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| 22 | Redeem Israel, O God,
Sleep well everyone God bless and protect and keep safe the ones that we prayed for May He hold them in the palm of His hand, may He build a fence around each of them and keep the enemy from coming near. Amen | ||||
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