I did not fall of the edge of the world.

Here I am-quick updates about what is going on in my life,
(I received an e-mail from a very good blog friend and felt quilty, lol)

Daughter and grandson is still here,  my house still looks like a hurricane has gone through and really there is nothing that can be done.  I am trying not to let the boxes and bags and suitcases get to me.  We are working on the smaller place that she is moving into.  Her husband has decided to move with her.  Maybe her leaving was a wake up call, but I think he is just bringing his old attitude with him.  I have already heard him tell baby that they were going to put a dress on him for the school pictures.  Even though he may have been joking, to me it sounded like he was trying to demean grandson.  The only good thing is baby will be here a lot more and since my services is free I know that he will leave grandson with me often.  Hubby and I can give him a little stability nearly everyday. That time with him is priceless, and being able to see him daily is a bright spot in my life.

I still am not happy at the church my hubby is going to.  Money talks and it is obvious that the pastor there caters to the people that have money.  There is a small church near my house that I am thinking of starting to go to, I know that dh and I will be going to different churches and I don't want that, but I have just about stopped going to church at all.  I am losing the joy of going to church.  sigh-I miss that joy and excitement. 

Now my diet, weight loss, excercise, successes and failures.

I had lost 5 pounds and was an the edge of thinking that I had gotten back in the groove. WELL let me tell you, dieting is like standing on the tip of a needle,  you can't relax or take your position for granted for even a minute because it does not take but one minute to start the downward slide and once you start sliding it is so hard to get the grip back.  Anyway - I gained the 5 pounds back plus a couple more before I was able to see that I had to do something or it will all come back.  Remember that I mentioned that at one time-after the robbery-I gained up to 252. I'm only 5feet 4 inches so I looked like a basketball with legs. 

I am going to start a new diet today, or maybe I am going to put on an old diet. Anyway never say never and I know this is not like a broken window or floor or car.  You fix those and you can forget about them for a while.  With a diet you have to be in diet mode at least5 99% of the time.  And you have to be ultra careful that one percent becasue- at least with me, one bite of the wrong thing seems to set off a domino effect. Those tiles start falling and you can't stop the tiles from falling and when they are down you have to start all over again.

My dh is in the construction field, and everyone knows how bad that industry has suffered in the last couple of years.  So about a yr ago my exercise/walking shoes wore out and I asked the Lord to send me a pair of shoes that I could wear while I work out.   No one knew about the prayer except the Lord and me.  About two weeks after that prayer-my dd called me and told me that a friend of hers had bought a pair of shoes to work in and then left that job for another and did not need the shoes.  She GAVE the shoes to my daughter, who gave them to me.  The shoes were SAS shoes and had never been worn.  They were a perfect fit, and had great support/.  The Lord is such a great and loving God.

Anyway the shoes finally wore out and Praise The Lord my husband is working regularly and we had the money for new shoes.  So I tried on and tried on and tried on shoes and finally found a pair that I loved (couldn't find SAS for that is what I would have bought).   I wore them all day Sat, and when I took them off I had a blister on the side of my foot almost the size of a dime.  The blister is not the surprising part, what got me was it never hurt or felt irritated.  Once I took the shoe off , that is when it startd feeling like it was burning.  So I have not exercised for a few days. 

I wonder sometimes if I was relying on exercise to repair my overeating. Now I don't enjoy exercising, I enjoy how I feel afterward, and I love the health benefitds but maybe I was using exercise to overindulge my eating.  I could eat this and that because I stay active, but my metabolism is slow becasue of the thyroid problems, and because of my age, and someone told me that the hysterectomy slows the metabolism.  BUT exercise is supposed to speed it up???

Anyway this was not a quick update-

I'll be back.


PROVERBS 16:3

COMMIT TO THE LORD WHTEVER YOU DO, AND YOUR PLAN WILL SUCCEED

Have a great day
God bless