When I woke this morning, I started praying for Deb and her babies. My heart aches for her and for them and I am so frustrated tht I can not do something to make this right. To a much much much lesser degree I am having some issues with my dd and her husband. I called there and he was screaming (literally screaming) at the (5 yr. old) baby. I asked dd what he did to warrent being screamed at like that and she said baby would not stay in the tub . In other words they put him in the tub and leave the bathroom and then the baby gets out. That is not worthy of being screamed at.
It breaks my heart that I can't make the babies live safe and secure with the people that says they love them. My heart aches to know that there is nothing that I can do. I pray and I weep. Debs babies are living with what I lived with. I still have nightmres, I am almost 60 and I still have nightmares. My mom used to yell all the time dad would beat and mom would yell and the household was a terror. I had an ulcer by the time I was 20, and right after that I started drinking really heavy and i tried drugs but did not care for that my drug of choice was alcohol and my favorite drink was sloe gin fizz.
Ry cries to come back to my house. Thursday eveng when dd came to get him he wrapped his arms around my legs and kept saying he was not going home.
About 10 yrs ago there was a country music song "I've got to much on my mind" and that is the way I feel -just my heart hurts with the pain I know others are going through. Children are the most fulnerable.. and get hurt the worse. I am grown and I can fight and defend myself but what hope does the children have.
After talking to dh about my diet, (yes I discuss just about everything with him) I have decided to go back to low calorie with modifications. Several yrs ago I developed an allergy to wheat that I know for sure and possibly other grains as well. I just got tired of keeping the diary. So I cut out all grains except for the occasional cornmeal flapjack. I ate totally natural. NO processed foods at all. and I dropped weight quickly and I still ate a very well rounded diet.
The thing is my garden is coming off and I want to eat my vegetables, okra and squash and tomatoes and bell peppers and cucumbers and corn and beans. So I will be omitting grains, minimizing intake of starchs and no processed sugars.
So it is 9:00 am and I have prayed and cried and made some changes in my diet. I am ready for some peace.
Deb, those children own a piece of my heart now. I have claimed them and I love them. When my grandmother died (the only person I can ever remember hugging me) I received one of her handkerchiefs. I pulled it out today and wrote your name on it and "your grandchildren" on it. I annointed it in oil and I prayed over the cloth. it is in a little baggie and it is going in my bible. May the Lord hear our prayer, please dear Lord hasten to lift these children out of their abuse. Thank you Lord, for your Love, Thank you Jesus for interceding and thank you Holy Ghost for your comfort. In the name of our Jesus Christ.
Amen
God bless each of you that reads this and prays for this family
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It brings a tear to my eye just reading this, Joy. I know, but I don't understand, what you and Deb go through with these grandchildren. God made grandparents. If you could call it a source of comfort, it is comforting to know the grandchildren -in both situations- have solace in their grandparents (and, specifically, you grandmothers). I know that fact might seem stunted in the face of all the evil these children are enduring; but it's their saving grace. God is working through Deb and you. That's something.
ReplyDeleteLove ya, and God bless. Am praying for both your families. Thank you for being a good sister to Deb.
Thank you, Joy.
ReplyDeleteIt is clear that you understand how I feel aoout what is happening in my grandchildren's lives. I'm sorry that you are also experiencing the same kind of heartache. That feeling of standing by and not being able to rescue is so tormenting.
Thank you for your prayers and making the prayer cloth. Your grandmother's handkerchief--how wonderfully fitting. You have come alongside in this crisis and I am so grateful to you, and to God for placing you in my life.
I will certainly continue praying for your little one. I will pray for him when I pray for my own. We will see victory here; we have a compassionate Father and He will not ignore our distress or these little one's plight.
As far as diet goes. The plan you listed is the one that I have for myself. (I just need to follow it!) I am gluten intolerant. When I eat wheat products, I get what I call a rash, although it's well beyond that and I have considered calling it hives. It ends up looking like sores, much like shingles. It's called "dermititis herpetaformis". Which means "a skinn condition that is like shingles." :)
At any rate, a diet can still be considered low carb if it includes veggies and some fruit as long as it removes intense carbs like potatoes, pasta, rice, wheat stuff, sweets, etc. The old, cut out all carbs Atkins type diet that started the low carb movement is not the only way to go low carb.
Most nutritionists think it is too extreeme and damaging. I think the morre moderate approach to low carb dieting calls for a range of carb grams of 40 to 80 grams a day as opposed to Atkins, which if I remember correrctly, was less than 20 grams a day.
Often when you hear low carb now, the diet is similar to what you're going to follow. Next time you're over on my blog, if you look on the sidebar and click on the picture of the silly dog holding a "health" banner, you'll get a post that details my food plan.
I bet it looks much like yours.
Now to just follow it.
We'll pray this thru for our grchildrren, Joy. God is moving, we just aren't seeing what we need to see, yet.
And--Josie, thanks. Your such a blessing to me, and I know you bless God.
Deb
You're both a blessing from God, and if this much to me then so very much to your family and friends "offline." Thank you, Deb, for giving the carb rundown above. I'd made a mental note to really look further into what it means, ie, how many grams a day is low carb? I've just kinda been winging it, wondering if a little bbq sauce sinks the ship, etc. You have helped assuage those fears. Anyway, I'm glad I can draw inspiration from you both, including from your diets. Keep your faith!
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