Saturday, October 29, 2011

I am all alone

Dh has gone to church, to hear a nationally renown preacer.  daughter, her husband and grandson has gone to a trunk or treat party put on by a local church (I mildly disapprove,)  It is cold here and baby had a sore throat but nothing would do but son in law take him to the party. 

Sister came home from hospital this week and I gave her enough food that she would not have to cook for several days-just warm it up in the microwave.  She is doing great, just has to take it easy

Thanks for all the prayers that was sent up, 

Baby got his report card and he is on the superintendents list.  His lowest grade was a 97  in  P E  His daddy almost seneered at him and said what kind of boy makes a low grade in P E  now he made 100s in nearly everything else.  Son in law never said one nice word about his high grades.  I am really having to fight not to hate that man.

I know I complain a lot when I come here but the way things is seems to almost consume me sometimes.

My diet is gone completely.  I feel like beating myself up but I know that if I give in to the self loathing I will want to eat more. 

I am still exercising almost daily but only because it is a relief valve.  I cope just a bit better if I can get out to walk every day.   Monday is coming and I have realized that Monday is not preceeded by Magic.  Monday is just a day and the beginning of the week seems to scream fresh start, new beginning, so Monday it is,  I will try again.  When I stop trying, when I stop hoping that this time will be the one that makes the differance, when I finally give  up, I will probably be dead. So here it comes my plans for Monday, and if at first (or 2nd or 3rd or 155th) you don't succeed-----try try again.


I love you, thanks for being my buddies, thanks for your prayers and your support.

God bless
Sleep well

2 comments:

  1. Joy, you know we are glad to be here to support you. I saw a quote once that said, "If your heart belongs to God, it can never be broken." In the Bible, we see examples of people cast down but not destroyed; and I thought of that quote when I read this post. It's easy to say, "Just love your SIL because we're commanded to love like Christ loved." And I know that's God's will in our lives. And I know it must be hard to see and hear the things you have to see and hear. Jesus knows what your pain feels like, and your grandson's pain, and he knows your SIL's pain. I bet you wouldn't have to dig deeply into his life to find pain. I'll be praying for him and and all of you.

    October 31, 2011, is unprecedented in your life. You've had a lot of Mondays, but you've never had that Monday! Lord willing, it will be a blessing.

    Love ya!

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  2. Well, hi, Joy. I just assumed that you hadn't commented on my blog for so long because you weren't really blogging much.

    Perhaps you didn't change to my new URL.

    Really, the easiest thing to do is to just follow me again, if you haven't already done that.

    Just come over to my blog and click on follow lke you did to begin with.

    You can get to my blog by clicking on my icon with this comment. Or you can type in my new URL. It's http://satisfiedwithgoodthings.blogspot.com

    You can make the changes thru your dashboard, too, tho. Go to where the blogs you follow are listed. At the bottom of the list you'll see two buttons "Add" and "Manage"

    Click Manage to delete my old blog. Click Add to add in my new URL.

    Since you were at my blog, I'm figuring you did something already, tho.

    So nice to see you!

    I've been praying for you and yours, too. I certainly undrstand how emotionaly/mentally consuming the situation with your grandson can be. It can make weight loss seem so insignificant, can't it?


    Deb

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