Thursday, October 6, 2011

Can I complain a while????

I njust want to let of some steam, but I do not want it to sound like I am angry at my precious dd and my equally precious grandson. 

My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.

If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom.  stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.

Against the wall is a  free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes .  I wash often so he does have clean things but still------

continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school  shoes are to be put in the same place.  I really do try to have some order, 

The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.

ok ok I think I am done.  The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom.  She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)

I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him.  That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.

I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.

I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong.  He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him.  Grandson does not own  a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun.  But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in  play that he is going to shoot another c hild.  I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school.  I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad. 

I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity.  He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot" 

Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school.  I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him. 

Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands.  Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN

God bless

2 comments:

  1. Always remembering you in my prayers, Joy. Life never stays the same. It will get better, then worse, will feel like it's the same and will never end, repeat. Keep doing all you can to show your little grandson that you love him, and teach him the way of the Lord. He needs you.

    Love ya, and God bless you and your whole family, friend.

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  2. Oh, Joy, I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you--you know that I understand and, in many ways, am experiencing many of the same things. It is so hard.

    Don't feel guilty about that little bit of relief you feel at regaining order to your home. The current situation is intolerable.

    If the dd and grdson had decided to move in permanently, you would have found a way to incorporate their stuff in an organized and livable way. Since it was temporary, you could not do that.

    No one can live in a "temporary" situation for any length of time without it becoming unlivable.

    And, yes, you'll be sad they go. I know. In my own situation , I am overwhelmed when the grkids stay overnight, but glad they stay because at least they're safe when they're here. So I'm fearful if they don't--guilty at how I feel when they do--sad when they go. It's so no win.

    I was just agonizing over this & all that is behind it, before I sat down and read your post. The bottom line is that we just need to trust God. He will do right by our grandchildren.

    The truth is--I find it hard to rest in that. And I feel badly about that, too. sigh. I just keep waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    Sorry, Joy. This probably wasn't helpful. Just know you're not alone in gradnma grief. God understands our hearts and is with us both.

    You have been and will continue to be in my prayers.

    Deb

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