My mom has really never been a motherly mother. She has told me over and over that she did her duty by her children. She is a very cold woman. Horrible father and cold mother. Neither one of them should have been parernts. But I am who I am and I am miles and miles away from how they were. I treated my children with love and respect. And now I am blessed to have a chance to help with my youngest grandson. I am so blessed.

Baby went home about an hour ago. I had him since Monday afternoon. Last night I slept in the king sized quest bed with him and about 3:30 am he rolled over against me put his hand against my face and said "A-ma, wake up, I go peepee in potty with you" He is so funny. I am so glad I have these wonderful memories that I can think back on in years to come.

Commercial on tv about the hippie years, "Don't you want somebody to love" Born to be wild" California dreamin" "Times of the Season" "Inscence and pepperment" "Take another piece of my heart now baby" A whiter shade of Pale" "Brand new key"OH MY I have not thought of those songs in years. I have many of them on 45's and vinal __HMMM final nope vinyl Yep I think that is right. lol Can you tell I don't spell too good. And I don't have proper sentance structure lololol

Calories for today-1590

exercise walking almost 3 miles while baby played nearby, and some floor exercises- leg lifts and knee lifts that type thing.

pedometer steps-6388

Ahhhh now I want to pull all of my hippie music out, I have the mama's and the papa's and Melody and early Sonny and Cher. Memories of bell bottoms and pheasant shirts, earth shoes Indian style hair bands long straight hair, and dancing in fields with bonfires and music, and everyone drinking and smoking (not going there) Viet nam war and two brothers that was sent over and my brothers came back and some of my friends brothers did not make it back alive.

I bet I could youtube some of those songs---

No I made a promise when I got saved that I would not look back. I gave up worldly music and I sure do not need the associations that the music would bring back to me. I had to ask God to forgive me of so much. No I love the Lord and I love the music that praises Him.

Sleep well everyone and may God keep you safe.