Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound

Calories for today-1320

pedometer steps-17190

exercise-5 mile leslie sansone walk at home advanced video

walked -4 miles while i talked on the portable phone (I think I talked to about 10 people this morning)

vacumned 25 minutes

calories burned off-1835

I burned off more than I took in. I hope that is not a bad thing.

I talked to my mom this morning and I only normally call her when I feel guilty about not calling her. I dread talking to her because she is so harsh to me. BUT this morning she was in a good mood and I took the opportunity of her good mood to tell her about the comment that my sister made. I told her that when God comes to people they love Him and they love talking about Him and for sister to say such a thing sounds like she wants me to stifle the spirit. I do forgive her for it but it did hurt me and if I was a little weaker or going through a sad and discouraged time that kind of comment could cause me to stumble. She agreed and said that sister had told her the same thing about me. She said the next time she would talk to sister about it. The Lord is good and I feel that sister will not be saying uglys any more.



I do not have a good relationship with my family. It has not ever been good, my mom called me fat and ugly when I was under 10 years old. I can remember where we lived and what we were doing when she told me I had an ugly smile I was about 7 and she was trying to take a picture of me. She told me at 9 that I was fat and needed to lose weight. She told me when I was about 14 she wished I had never been born and she beat me with her fist when I was 15.

I know there is a verse in the bible that says something like "though my mother and father turn against me I will still cling to the Lord". That is me, that is what I am doing, I have a heavenly Father and he is what I am trying so hard to keep my eyes on. Sometimes things are thrown at me and it hurts but I get up and put my eyes back on my Heavenly Father.

Sleep well everyone
sweet dreams and God bless