I cling to His hand

I cling to His hand
as I go along
for I am so weak
and He is so strong.

I'll sing of His love
where ever I go
for I want the whole wide world
my Jesus to know.

Hello

We have storms coming and I want to journal before i have to unplug my computer.

I got a call today from a local church and they want me to come on a Wed. night and speak. They have not got the date set yet, they just wanted to know if I would do it. Of course I agreed. God is a wonderful God, and I do not pass up a chance to praise Him.

Calories for today-1385
Exercise-90 minutes pushing mower
pedometer steps-7718 (it was turned sideways and did not count my steps for all the time I mowed)
Calories burned off=931

When I first started here my weight went up and down and up and down lose one and next day gain 3---that type of thing. I had told my dr. that there was a problem cause I ate less than 1500 calories a day and I exercised daily. I don't think he believed me. When I took my latest blood test to him, and he saw how high my thyroid numbers were he started me on stronger synthyroid and it has only been a few days but my weight is already going down and it is not going up, each day it has gone down a pound. I have not got my hopes up yet but it is looking good and i am praying that the new pills takes care of the problem.

Need to go it is really looking bad outside.

Take care,
stay safe
God bless

There's a light in the window and the tables set in splender someones standing by the open door

I just got in from church and i really enjoyed this nights service. My pastor is going to Texas for a huge meeting of churches. He said there would be churchs represented from all over the world. I hope they all have a wonderful time.

Calories for today -1455

exercise today was 70 minutes of arobics
and dancing and playing with grandbaby

Calories burned during the 70 minutes of arobics =795

Tomorrow I cut grass for an hour. My mom said that the "bee" that had bitten me twice while I cut grass was actually a yellow jacket. She said they were full of nasty venom. No wonder this last time my leg was swollen so bad. I hope to avoid them tomorrow. I have been spraying my clothes with bug spray but it must not be strong enough to deter yellow jackets. If anyone has suggestions please let me know. Your help will be greatly appreciated.

God bless you all
Sleep well

Angels bow before Him, Heaven and Earth adore Him,

Six months ago I had my blood work done and my TSH was 3.78. I have had trouble with high ths for years and we had it in the upper percentile of normal. Two weeks ago I had another blood work done and my tsh had jumped to 5.11. So today I went to the dr. and he said we had to up my synthyroid again. I am now taking 75mcg. And he took me off of the generic, he said sometimes they just are not as potent. Anyway I have such a hard time losing weight and maybe with the more "potent" pills i can lose weight.

On this past Friday I got bee stung again. Did I tell you that already ?????? I was stung twice and my entire leg was swollen. and itched and hurt and turned red. Dh talked to the pharmacist and he said that was normal and keep putting rubbing alcohol on it. And rub it with benedril. I did and today it is allmost normal.

Tomorrow I start the new pills and continue with my routine of exercising and counting calories. I am hoping for great results.

Sleep well everyone

I've come to far to turn back now

calories for today (I went to a church social tonight and I was very proud of me-I ate very moderatelyonly a small amount I left over half of everything I put on my plate, and I got 4 desserts and I took one bite of each thing and gave the rest to my dh) BUT you know how fast calories mount up, so I estimate that I ate around 2000 calories for today. way to many but it could have been a lot worse. You should have seen the food they had there, purlow, and cakes and pies and ham and fried chicken and home made hot just from the oven country style biscuits, blueberry cobbler, banana pudding, potatoe salad, macaroni salad, green bean casserole, and more, so much more. Like I said, I did really good.

Exercise was 50 minutes of mowing with my non manual push mower. I burned off 513 calories.

pedometer steps was 612

I had so many butterflys I am surprised that they were not flying around my head, but the speech went over good. I started off by saying that I was not a professionl speaker and I was country as a lima bean. Someone in the audience said " praise God, we all love lima beans" That kinda put me at ease and I was able give a prelude to the speech with out stuttering or losing my train of thought and then I got into the speech. Afterward I had many of them come up to me and tell me they enjoyed it. And then a person from another church came and asked me to speak at her church. I do not charge for giving the devotionals, I want to praise God, and this is one way that I can tell everyone just how wonderful God is. He gets all praise and all glory.

I hope everyone had a great weight loss day
Sleep well
sweep dreams

Thank you Lord for Your blessings on me

So much has happened that has kept me from my journal so before I get into it all I will say that yesterday and today I have eaten below 1500 calories. For exercise yesterday I mowed grass for an hour and today my exercise was spending about 4 hours on the phone and walking while I talked.

I talked to several of my church sisters and one in paticular is always such a blessing to talk to I actually call her MY Patty. I feel God gave her to me because she is such a blessing to be around she simply glows with the love of God.

I might have told you before I write devotions and give them at different churches. Some months ago I felt the movement of God telling me to write about the power of words. My mom had just had such negative things to say about my devotions that I had quit writing or going to give the devotions. Even though I knew God was prompting me I still did not write it.
Becasue of what my sister had said, I had again felt I needed to write it, and I was getting my thoughts in order about what I should say.

I got a call this morning from a lady at a different church and this is what she said.
"Last month I lined up someone to come a give the devotional and God let me know that He wanted you (me) to come and give the speech. I did not know how to cancel with the other woman but she called this morning and told me she could not come. (by this time I had chills going down my back) God again told me that He wanted you to come and give the devotional."
God was already working on me telling me that the speech He had given to me is what I would be speaking on.

I came to the computer and typed out what I felt He wanted me to say. It is short but that is ok. I prayed about it and I feel that is exactly the way it should be.

God is so wonderful
I know now why I had to go through the bad moments of knowing how my sister felt about me. God needed me to tell someone that He is still in control.

OH and my friend the one that I call MY Patty is going to play the piano and sing the Easters song "Thank you Lord for your blessing on me" I feel so honored to be asked to speak and I feel so blessed to be able to hear my friend sing.

God bless you all
May you be safe and have sweet dreams

Amazing Grace, How sweet the sound

Calories for today-1320

pedometer steps-17190

exercise-5 mile leslie sansone walk at home advanced video

walked -4 miles while i talked on the portable phone (I think I talked to about 10 people this morning)

vacumned 25 minutes

calories burned off-1835

I burned off more than I took in. I hope that is not a bad thing.

I talked to my mom this morning and I only normally call her when I feel guilty about not calling her. I dread talking to her because she is so harsh to me. BUT this morning she was in a good mood and I took the opportunity of her good mood to tell her about the comment that my sister made. I told her that when God comes to people they love Him and they love talking about Him and for sister to say such a thing sounds like she wants me to stifle the spirit. I do forgive her for it but it did hurt me and if I was a little weaker or going through a sad and discouraged time that kind of comment could cause me to stumble. She agreed and said that sister had told her the same thing about me. She said the next time she would talk to sister about it. The Lord is good and I feel that sister will not be saying uglys any more.



I do not have a good relationship with my family. It has not ever been good, my mom called me fat and ugly when I was under 10 years old. I can remember where we lived and what we were doing when she told me I had an ugly smile I was about 7 and she was trying to take a picture of me. She told me at 9 that I was fat and needed to lose weight. She told me when I was about 14 she wished I had never been born and she beat me with her fist when I was 15.

I know there is a verse in the bible that says something like "though my mother and father turn against me I will still cling to the Lord". That is me, that is what I am doing, I have a heavenly Father and he is what I am trying so hard to keep my eyes on. Sometimes things are thrown at me and it hurts but I get up and put my eyes back on my Heavenly Father.

Sleep well everyone
sweet dreams and God bless

I will talk about Him to everyone I meet

Calories for today- 1540
pedometer steps-5934

exercise for today- 40 minutes pushing nonmanual mower and 70 minutes ironing

I burned off 941 calories.

I love the being able to see how much calories i burn off with my exercise. It gives me motivation. I know a lot of you may not think that ironing should be considered exercise but it is hard work.

I had a nice time in church, the pastor preached on forgiveness and I really think I needed that guidance and wisdom. My sister and mom have said so many unkind things to me and about me since I became a Chrisian. I think (I hope not but it is all I can think of)they are jealous becasue the church just reached out to me and within a year of being a Christian they almost unanimously voted me as president of the G.H. It is a group of older people and we get togeather once a month and fellowship one with another and worship and testify.

The latest thing that happened is my sister told my daughter that she (sister)did not want to talk to me anymore because I talk about God tooo much. Now I love God and he is the center of my life-How can anyone that loves God not want to talk about Him? Besides why would she tell my dd that knowing that dd is MY dd and saying something like that would hurt my dd and that my dd would probably come and tell me?

I forgive her. I was just letting you know what was going on. But when you think about it, it is a compliment. I used to talk about drinking and smoking,and the horror shows on tv, I used to talk about my neighbors and the man down the street. I used to cuss and gossip and and kick the dog, and give the bird. I used to sing songs about cheating women, and druken men. Now I talk about God. Now I praise him for loving me. I tell everyone God loves me. Can a person really talk too much about a God that gave so much so that we could live with Him forever?

I think it is in the bible that what is in the heart will come out. My love for God truly comes out in my praises and my songs. I will raise my voice and let the world know I love God, I will speak it over and over. I will not be silenced.

God bless you all
Sleep well

Reach out and touch the Lord as He passes by

Calories for today=1490

exercise for today=40 minutes pushing mower
and 68 minutes leslie WATP video. I felt so jazzed after exercising it is amazing how wonderful I feel after I exercise.

Dh and I went to the last night of the revival and it was such a spiritual time, everyone was blessed. Tomorrow night we are going to a religious concert. We have heard these singers once before and dh and I both enjoy hearing them.

I am so glad I have the Lord in my life. He gives me so much joy and peace and I have hope in the future. God loves me and He loves you.

Sleep well everyone
God bless you all.

How Great is our God, How Great is our God

Today I had

calories=1490
exercise=75 minutes of arobics. My dd bought a 5 mile leslie sansone walk away the pounds video for me. It is about 68 minutes long but I felt so good that I started it over and did a few more minutes of the video. I tell you I really felt good getting in all that painless exercise. My foot does hurt but not so very much, and I don't put much weight on the heel. It is getting better. (Praise God)

I did some normal house cleaning and taking care of the baby so

Pedometer steps were-12496

I went to a revival tonight and it was a wonderful service. The evangelist preached on Eagles. It does not sound like it would make a sermon does it ? But it did and the evangelist tied it in with Christians.

God bless you all ,
Sleep well

Let us all praise the Lord,

I took a few days off of journaling, I was still watching my calories but did not get in any exercise except the normal , cleaning, sweeping and doing laundry and hanging it up.

Today I very forcefully said do it. So I did.

I did 45 minutes of a step arobics video, and along with the normal taking care of grandbaby, laundry cleaning, dishes, etc I managed to put 10252 steps on my pedometer. I do check it a couple of times a week to make sure it is accurate. I am so glad I bought one of the upper end of pedometers. I have a little more confidence that it is accurate.

The baby was so cute ' I go esseesise wit a-ma" Thirty seconds and he says "I done"

My calories for today was 1435. And that was mostly a huge dinner salad full of vegetables and fruits. I do love apples and oranges in my salad, (and peaches and plums, and grapes, and strawberries with a low calorie vinagrate. *I know that word it spelled wrong* or kens salad spritzers.)

I have such a hard time losing weight and I have been praying about it. Yesterday dh and I went to a revival and the evangelist said something like this, God is bigger than any problem that you face, and Satan is a liar.
So I turned it over to God and asked God to lead me the right way. Ths morning I had renewed enthusiasm and hope. I feel sure God is helping me.

That was my day,
now it is time to get myself and grandbaby ready for church.

Have a great evening

and sweet dreams everyone.

God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Ghost

Today was high exercise and high calorie

I ate 1820 calories (I am going to have to divorce that man-"Your honor I have to divorce him---he buys me moose tracks ice cream at least once a week")

exercise-60 minutes of pushing a nonmanual lawn mower

pedometer steps-10475

I had to soak my foot cause all that walking really hurt my heel. But I mowed and soaked and then wrapped my foot.

Sleep well everyone

The next time that you see me I may be walking on the streets of Gold

Calories for today-1560

exercise-not much, mostly cleaning, and I did some vegetable blanching an freezing, and I did some laundry, hanging up clothes

Pedometer steps-5010

I went this morning to have some blood work done. I have small veins and they roll. The nurse used a butterfly needle but she had to stap me multible times. She was so upset, I was comforting her. I thried to tell her it was not her fault.

I go back home and within 1 hour someone gave us a pile of squash, and okra, and cucumbers and I spent several hours canning the veggies. Last night at church someone gave me soem venison sausage and cube steak, and venison burger. This will feed us for a while. God provides for us .

Sweet dreams everyone
God bless

So prepare me, to be a sactuary, pure and holy, tried and true.

calories for today===1640

exercise======walking, playing with baby, cleaning house, some arobics.

pedometer steps=====8217

I had a lot of things I wanted to talk about but bad weather here and I need to cut off computer.

Sleep well everyone

Though Satan rages, we will not be defeated

Calories for today -146

exercise-walking and leg lifts and knee lifts, crunchs,and lets not forget lifting weights lol I picked grandbaby up about 20 times and he weighs 39 pounds.

Pedometer steps-7110


I had an absolutely wonderful day, my foot stopped hurting and I was able to walk pain free, and then the sweetest thing happened. I was praying and praising the Lord for His love and grace and when I stopped and opened my eyes grandson was standing there with his little hands togeather and he said "AAAAAA-MEEEEN" I remembered reading in the bible, (Paraphrase) teach a child in the way he should go and when he is old he will not depart from it.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

weigh in today
6-15-----232.6
6-22----227.6
6-29----227.0
7-6------228.7
Calories for today was 1485
No exercse

It went up a little and I am very grateful it was not more. I promise myself it will be less nest Sunday morning. Today was church day, and what a wonderful time we had this morning and this evening. This morning God came down and preacher did not even get a chance to preach. Tonight preacher did preach about "The giants in your life" He did a wonderful job on his sermon.

Nothing else happened today. I kept grandson. Took him to church and his juice leaked into his seat and got his clothes wet. On a good note he did not pee pee in his pull ups. When we got home I pulled his cloths off and told him he did not have to take a nap. He seems to have outgrrown the need to have a midday nap. Anyway he said " no nap but baby sit in ga-ma's lap. " He is not yet 3 and the feeling of this little grandson snuggled in my arms is indescribable. I don't think I told you all that he almost died when he was born. I love holding him and I praise God for letting us have him in our life.

Sweet dreams everyone

God bless you

I am such a loser at losing

exercise-hanging up two loads of laundry, bending and stretching
plus walking almost 3 miles
pedometer steps 7285
calories 1470

I swept and straightened and moved things around. I have an extra room in my house stuffed with things from dd's first marriage to the crackhead. I started to say "crackhead loser" but felt that was toooooooooooo harsh. He sold nearly everything they had to pay for his habit. Sold her car, sold her wedding rings. I paid for her divorce. She is married again and has given me a most wonderful grandchild.

Anyway back to the room-it has clothes that grandson has outgrown and stuff I no longer want and i am going through the things to donate everything I don't want to a local church youth group. So I started this morning and called dd and asked if she wanted the chinese ceramic eggs and she practically ordered me to not touch anything else until she had a chance to go through it all again. ACK I am never going to be able to get that room cleaned out and painted and it has a HUGE walk in closet. I want that room. I WANT THAT CLOSET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We moved here about 7 years ago and that room was the one I wanted for dh and me and he said we would move into a smaller room and he would have time to paint and put linolium down. he wants carpet but my allergies are so bad and I suffer so much that it is best if we just have a floor that I can mop easily. So we go to the smaller room and then dd comes and she moves into that room and then when she gets remarried she left so much of her stuff and now it is like a junk room or a catch all room. That is about to change.

I do not think I am going to be lost any weigh this week, all that fruit, even though it is good for me, it still adds calories, PLUS yesterday and the yeast rolls and honey butter. I feel like I gained 10 pounds but that is probably cause I feel guilty. I did weigh this morning and I had gained 2 pounds. I hope that was temporary - I will be honest and put my weight for my Sunday morning weigh in.

We are about to get a thunder storm here, I hope we get about 3 days of slow rain we need it so bad. i need to get off of here and cut my computer off. I do have a surge protector but I still do not like to take any chances.

God bless
Sleep well
and sweet dreams to all

Hello

calories for today 1420
exercise for today-walking 3 miles
Pedometer steps-7635

I don't know why some parents don't realize that they are hurting their children by the words they say. I did tell my mom that everytime she called me stupid and ugly and fat, it hurt me as badly as all those belts she would beat me with. She said she had so many children she was stressed all the time. I told her I did not make her have all those children and I should not have been punished for it. I really need to learn to keep my mouth from talking without thinking. That always did get me in a lot of trouble.

I have to really fight to make sure I do not allow her to rob me of my joy. And I am joyous-filled with joy, overflowing with happiness and peace.

I did not keep grandson today, I was able to straighten my family room and clean the table and sweep and everything stayed right where I put it. And I missed him so much it was like my feet did not have any thing to trip over. lol

I hope everyone has a wonderful Fourth of July,
if you are traveling, stay safe.
Be sure and tell your family you love them, give them a hug.
God bless you all

My mom has really never been a motherly mother. She has told me over and over that she did her duty by her children. She is a very cold woman. Horrible father and cold mother. Neither one of them should have been parernts. But I am who I am and I am miles and miles away from how they were. I treated my children with love and respect. And now I am blessed to have a chance to help with my youngest grandson. I am so blessed.

Baby went home about an hour ago. I had him since Monday afternoon. Last night I slept in the king sized quest bed with him and about 3:30 am he rolled over against me put his hand against my face and said "A-ma, wake up, I go peepee in potty with you" He is so funny. I am so glad I have these wonderful memories that I can think back on in years to come.

Commercial on tv about the hippie years, "Don't you want somebody to love" Born to be wild" California dreamin" "Times of the Season" "Inscence and pepperment" "Take another piece of my heart now baby" A whiter shade of Pale" "Brand new key"OH MY I have not thought of those songs in years. I have many of them on 45's and vinal __HMMM final nope vinyl Yep I think that is right. lol Can you tell I don't spell too good. And I don't have proper sentance structure lololol

Calories for today-1590

exercise walking almost 3 miles while baby played nearby, and some floor exercises- leg lifts and knee lifts that type thing.

pedometer steps-6388

Ahhhh now I want to pull all of my hippie music out, I have the mama's and the papa's and Melody and early Sonny and Cher. Memories of bell bottoms and pheasant shirts, earth shoes Indian style hair bands long straight hair, and dancing in fields with bonfires and music, and everyone drinking and smoking (not going there) Viet nam war and two brothers that was sent over and my brothers came back and some of my friends brothers did not make it back alive.

I bet I could youtube some of those songs---

No I made a promise when I got saved that I would not look back. I gave up worldly music and I sure do not need the associations that the music would bring back to me. I had to ask God to forgive me of so much. No I love the Lord and I love the music that praises Him.

Sleep well everyone and may God keep you safe.