I simply could not get control of myself. I know what happened it just did not do any good for me to know. I called my mom this morning and our talk was going good and I told her about me and grandson putting up a tiny tree for him and letting him decorate it. I thought it was cute. And she started her harsh talking and made me feel like she was calling me a sinner becasue I put up a tree. All day long thoughts of my abusive childhood kept popping into my head. I could not help it. The bruises and scars that dad put there and how she would call me stupid and ugly. I know that all of that was covered by the blood when she became a Christian and I know I have forgiven her but sometimes those memories keep popping there ugly head up and I just want to eat and eat and eat.
Only God can help me to forget.
Sleep well everyone
God bless
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You've done all you can do, Joy- you've turned to God. It sounds like your childhood was hard, but your forgiveness is all that matters now. I am praying for your strength and for your family.
ReplyDeleteAll I ever want to do when I'm sad/angry/stressed is EAT! I dread visiting my family this month, Lord willing. If I don't have a plan I will lose control.
Love you, and God bless!