Monday, December 6, 2010

My eating was out of control today

I simply could not get control of myself.  I know what happened it just did not do any good for me to know.  I called my mom this morning and our talk was going good and I told her about me and grandson putting up a tiny tree for him and letting him decorate it.  I thought it was cute.  And she started her harsh talking and made me feel like she was calling me a sinner becasue I put up a tree.  All day long thoughts of my abusive childhood kept popping into my head.  I could not help it.  The bruises and scars that dad put there and how she would call me stupid and ugly.  I know that all of that was covered by the blood when she became a Christian and I know I have forgiven her but sometimes those memories keep popping there ugly head up and I just want to eat and eat and eat. 

Only God can help me to forget. 

Sleep well everyone
God bless

1 comment:

  1. You've done all you can do, Joy- you've turned to God. It sounds like your childhood was hard, but your forgiveness is all that matters now. I am praying for your strength and for your family.

    All I ever want to do when I'm sad/angry/stressed is EAT! I dread visiting my family this month, Lord willing. If I don't have a plan I will lose control.

    Love you, and God bless!

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