Sunday, December 26, 2010

me - thoughts-hopes-

The SS lesson for today was all about Jehoida.  I was prepared to do the lesson just in case teacher  did not make it today.  Well the snow came and came and came and no one went, Church was canceled.  It is ok I do not feel it was a waste of my time,  I learned a lot about not allowing ungodly people from being so close to me that they would have influence over my actions and decisions.

I started trying to get back into the swing of healthy eating today.  I went over in calories but I stayed on track as for what I ate,  I had broccoli, squash, edamame, and lean baked ham,and berries, and some nuts.  Too many calories but I did not eat any of the sweets that are in my kitchen.   I have fudge, cookies, Buckeyes, homemade banana pudding, sweet potatoe casserole, and green bean casserole.  All of those foods are really high in calories and I resisted each of them.  Tomorrow I have already told dh that he can take the sweets out to his buddies and we will throw out the rest of those foods.  Time to get rid of the foods that fall in the "no-no" catagory. All that sugar can't be good for anyone.

My hope is that I have not done too much damage to my weight loss.  I still have not weighed and I probably will not weigh until the first of January.   I hope to be able to undo some of the damage before I get on the scales.  I know just by the way my clothes fit that I have gained some.  It all started when I went to moms for those two weeks.  I really was not comfortable being there with my brother.  he is such a user and a drunk and I feel sure a drug user and he is so mean.  And I could not exercise.  Just excuses I know.   If I had been determined I could have found a way. 

But I can get back into the swing of things I can.  Tomorrow I will do my weights and then later I will do arobics.   I wll have the baby here and so I can not go walking but I can do something.  It is not just my weight,  I actually feel better when I when I eat healthy and when I exercise.      I wake up now and I feel sluggish and bloated and my joints hurt and my mind seems to not be as quick .  My skin is already starting to look haggard. 

I will do this for me.  I can and I will. 

Sleep well everyone
God bless

1 comment:

  1. i feel exactly like you do right now, Joy, except i think i'm worse off because i didn't even try to do well over Christmas. today was supposed to be the day i started cleaning up my diet, but i got home from an overnight trip and i had a ton of leftover sweets- bread pudding, fudge, cookies. i binged on it all tonight, and it wasn't even that good bc it was sorta old!? i am bloated like a planet in the solar system right now. i want to use this upcoming week to minimize th damage. i looked at my skin this morning when i got up- yellow and broken out! you can't tell me it's not what i eat!

    but as much as we might still be feeling "hungover," let's call it history and put it in its place and move on!

    love, Josie

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