You know thin people probably don't have bad eating days. They probably just go on with there lives when they eat a little more than usual. Why do I have to tell myself that I had a bad eating day? I did eat more than I should have, I called a pastor friend and unburdened myself to her. I told her about the way mom lambasted me about the tree I had told her previously about how mom had treated me when I was a child. When I got through this morning she said. "consider the source of your pain" She pretty well said that mom is what mom is . And yes she is now a Christian and she is old but she is still living with the same personality she always had. She said I could not allow her to steal my joy. AND SHE IS RIGHT. I need to show her respect but hold on to my joy. I need to stop trying to find peace in food. She did not tell me that cause she does not know how much I ate today.. lolol
But she did tell me that she wanted dh and I to go to her church this coming Fri. She wants us to be a part of their Christmas celebrations because I am an unofficial member of her church. She is the preacher of the church and i just thought that was very sweet.
Dh and I are going because we do love the people there. It is just a simple country church but the people there are very loving and that is the kind of church I like to go to.
The church I am goin g to now is a little stand offish and I know that God put dh and me there so that I could help the Sunday School teacher, She loves being a teacher but she is slowly going blind and I am her assistant teacher. She is a dear lady and I know that the time is coming probably in the next 6 to 12 months when she will not be able to teach at all. She is a good teacher and I feel honored that she wanted me to help her. I think when she no longer needs me I am going to my friends church. The people there are just a lot nicer.
I pray that tomorrow I will have a little more control. The bad thing is I could not even exercise today. I had hurt my knee and it is swollen. But also it would have been too cold. This is the south and we just do not have the thick clothes to handle 35 degree weather. I mean when it is just a hint of snow the schools are close down and all the bread and milk flies out of the supermarkets. But I am praying for a better day tomorrow.\\
Sleep well
God bless
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i know that down-south feeling, Joy. i also like going to a little country church where it feels like family. you know, you can go on with your life from this, too. you don't need to be "thin" to have permission to do that. i pray you are feeling better today!
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