Saturday, January 31, 2009

A week in the life of me

The temp has gone back down to 28, but I have heat and I have warm clothes so I am fortunate.


Dh and I have been going to a revival all week. This is a woman evangelist and she is an old time holiness preacher, full of a lot of energy and enthusiasm. She is very interesting and motivational.


Last night we did not go to the revival becasue we had accepted an invitation to go to a different church for a special service. It was good and the speaker talked about girding yourself in the full armour of God. She did a good job and brought out a lot of good points.
Afterward the church provided a meal for everyone and while I tried to eat moderately, I failed. Not bad bad bad, just bad.

I got different things and ate about half of what was on my plate, and then I got 3 desserts and I shared with dh. I ate moderately but still the calories went up and up .
One day won't kill me I will just have to do a little extra today, and cut back a bit on the food for today.


Today we are having Christmas at my dd house for the rest of the family. There was so much sickness and my son had to work part of the day so we all decided to get togeather now and have Christmas.

It will be good to see my baby. He turned 30 on the 28th of this month. Seems like yesterday he was 4 yrs.old and aking me "mama why is my privates hard when I need to go to bathroom" lol I did not laugh at him then I simply answered his question but i remind him of it now.
Another time when he was in 2nd grade I had a few friends over and he came home from school. He walked over to me and said "mama what does masturbation mean?" I was embarrased but after the company went home I told him.

yall have a great day.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Still trying to lose weight, Someday I will get it right

I did pretty good today, I started a 3 mile Leslie but I could only manage to do 30 minutes. I rested for a while and then baby and I went outside. The temp was 64 and he and I needed fresh air. We walked and talked and played hide and seek in the yard. We played outside about 35 minutes.

With all of that I put 6136 steps on my pedometer, but I ate1485 calories. I would like to get that down to around 1200-1300.

I was talking to a younger woman that had the same operation done. She had hers a little over 6 months ago and she carried her baby up several flights of stairs and then began spotting and having pain.

My dr. told me that this operation is not like normal operations and it takes a long time to get over it. I did not realize it would be so long. And 57 does not heal like age 20 and 30 does. So how long will I be tired? How long before I can pick baby up and put him in the car seat? Maybe never. Will I be well enough to ever push the lawn mower ? I still can't sweep or vacumn, I can't rake my yards.


My complaining is done. I am still better off than I was before the operation. I would have had no quality of life had I not had it done. The prolapse was pretty bad. And maybe I won't be able to do some things but I can still do a lot of things like walk and in time lift light weights. I can do arobics.

I will get stronger.

Sleep well

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

The baby has been here since Monday evening, I had a dr. appointment Monday and went out to lunch with dd and then brought baby back home with me. He sleeps right up next to me, and I get about 3 hours of interrupted sleep a night. I am not complaining because next year he will start to school and I won't see him as much. He probably won't remember the times he was here and we colored and watched videos togeather, but I hope that I never forget him sitting on my lap and kissing me and saying "gan-ma, I love you so much and I gad I here"

I am such a packrat and I kept vhs movies that my children watched. Believe it or not, they still work and baby is watching them now. And he is enjoying them as much as my children did.

Proud grandmama moment here- he turned 3 in august and he can navigate several sites on the computer with the mouse and click the right things. He plays games on disney.com and sesame street and cars.com and several other childrens sites. His little hand looks so cute on my mouse. I never would have thought that he would catch on so fast. He recognizes all of his letters and can count to 20 , not just count-he counts things like his cars, and his trains. He knows all of his colors. I really think children are smarter now than they used to be, and I think it has something to do with the formula they drink and the mha or mho or some additive they put in the formula.

The dr. said I have a stitch inside that has not dissolved. He said it is no problem and will probably dissolve by my next appointment, but if not then he will snip it and pull it out. NOW that is something to look forwanrd to, right?

He told me that he had tightened me ummmmm you know what . He said I should expect it to be painful when I am intamate with dh. Gotta go, have a great day everyone.

My dieting really is not going good, I know that I can do this. I have not done bad just not good. To me doing good is not going over a certain ammount. I have gone ove a hundred calories (give or take a few calories) everyday since I stated this time. Not a lot but you know that piece of candy I scarcd down, or the handful of nuts another day, Just a few calories here and there that adds up at the end of the day.

I did exercise for 16 minutes yesterday. It has been a little over two months since I really tried to keep up with my leslie video, and after 16 minutes I was exhausted. I know that I have to work myself back up to where I was before my problem but I sure am impatient.

God bless you all.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

day 6-diet going well and I am feeling better

I had a little bit more energy today and I did a little leslie kicks and sidesteps, very low level. Imanaged to get 3534 steps on my pedometer. I was pleased with that.

Monday I have an appointment with my surgeon, I hope he tells me I can begin my normal duties. My house is really beginning to suffer from not having consistant in depth cleaning and straightening. Dh does the best he can but usually a man just does not do as good of a job as a woman. I am not saying all men just some men.

menu for today
coffee
salad
yogurt
icecream
crackers and cheese
nuts
and just in case I underestimated anything
extra

total calories =========1450

I am pleased.


It is supposed to be very cold here tonight and tomorrow night. I hate the really cold weather, but then I hate the very hot weather.

My cable has been downgraded to just 13 channels, and I am now on RR lite. I sure do miss all the channels I used to have. SIGH

Good night and God bless

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

day 5-

I played hide and seek today with my 3 yr. old grandson

Now remember that I am not a tiny person and there is only 2 or 3 places that I can really hide. Baby said I will help you hide ga-ma. so he put me behind the door, turned to leave the room, then turned around and said "I found you"He sounded just like the kid in AI the movie about the robot kid.

Baby came yesterday early and he went home about an hour ago. I miss him already and yet -------one side of me is kinda glad to be able to go to the bathroom by myself, and fix a sandwich without baby wanting some just to hear him say it is ewweee. Does that make me a bad grandma??????

I did not eat very healthy today but i did keep my calories down.



I ate
cereal
prunes
milk
coffee
ham and cheese sandwich
chicken and mayo sandwich
and the rest of food was snacks (crackers, nuts, raisens)

I kept up with calories and that was 1520

not bad lets hope I do not eat anything else tonight.

I suppose you could call playing hide and seek with the baby for about 20 minutes exercise. I did a lot of walking and it was a lot of fun.

God bless you all

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Day 4( thoughts and feelings) will be back later to add in my menu and calories

Today,
I am going to try (for the 56th time) to stay on a healthy eating plan. It would be so easy to do that if food was not so delicious. BUT I am strong I am invincible, I can do anything I CAN DO THIS. It is not that I want to be gorgeous (that would be nice but---) I want to get/be/stay healthy.

The person that took my x rays said I had a very strong heart, but my lungs were -I think she said striated from the years of smoking. I quit smokin almost 6 yrs, ago and my lungs have repaired some but I want my entire body to be strong. That means healthy eating and exercise.
The dr.. said I could do very moderate exercise, nothing that willstrain my stomach muscles. So I exercise twice and took a cold. ack I feel so tired ,


Baby is here and wants me to play cars with him on the floor. I said soon but we will play cars on the bed. I think it would be hard for me to get on the floor and impossible to get up from the floor. ;D And what a sight that would be. ;D


They still have not down graded my time warner. Buck is going to take the box to the place where we pay locally. We got the next bill and from last months bill to this months bill it went up 13 dollars. The economy is so bad this is the wrong time to be raising the cable bills.


Have a good day


edited for menu

coffee
ham and mustard sandwich
soup with extra baked chicken
chicken and light mayo sandwich
salad with imitation crab

total calories 1525

I know that this does not look like a lot of food but it was and I feel satisfied and I think I ate healthy. I had 1/2 grapefruit and 1/2 apple in the salad so I had fruit and veggies and fish and chicken for protein, and I always have lemon in my unsweetened tea so I always get citrus. and I had whole wheat bread so that added fiber.

Plus usually I take a weight conscious one a day vitamin, I forgot this morning. I really try to get all of my vitamins every day.

Thats it for today

Monday, January 12, 2009

day 3-223.6

Man what a day--I have a cold, fever a little and no coughing (thank God) but I was eating supper and chewed the inside of my cheek. ouch ouch ouch ouch=now it is swollen and I have to be doubly careful that the swollen place does not get in between my teeth and do more damage to the swollen place.

I am thankful that I do not have something worse than a head cold
I am thankful that I have teeth
I am thankful that I have many people that are praying for me
I am thankful that my pastor calls me to check on how I feel
I am thankful that I am a Christian and that God loves me

My menu for today

coffee
ham and cheese sandwich
cheese and crackers
imitation crab
sou[
bean
yams
sausage sandwich
nuts
prunes


total calories was 1685

I hope that with all that I ate today that I can still lose weight . I don't look to lose weight everyday but at least a pound a week would be nice.

Today I heard from my friend up north it was nice to finally hear from her. The last time she emailed me was on the 6 of dec. so you can imagine how worried I was. She said that with her work and their elec. going off she just could not get the time to email me. I am just glad she is ok.


Let us all praise God for His goodness mercy and grace.

good night

Sunday, January 11, 2009

This is the amount of calories I need to eat perday

1784 =================

wow that is a lot of food to eat for me to feel like I am on a diet. I am moderately active when I am feeling better. Before I started having trouble with my uterus I was doing 70 minutes of arobics a day while I held 3 pound weights in each hand. Maybe I have been trying to cut it down too much and it was causing my body to rebel in some way. hmmmmmmmok I will try to eat a bit more when I start exercising regularly and for longer periods of time.


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day 2-my goals for today

1. eat some dairy and citrus
2. take vitamin
3. exercise 15 minutes
4, get at least 6-8 servings of vegetables

Those are such little goals but I am sick with a cold and sore throat so I may not exercise, but I can eat healthy.

Here is my menu for today and my calorie intake.

grits
egg
4 oz milk
whole wheat bread
1/2 grapefruit
1 T. jam
2 coffee


salad
1/2 crab (imitation crab)

1 cup soup
1/2 cup sweet peas
2 sandwich ham slices
2 whole wheat low calorie bread
1 T mustard
2/3 cup yams

if I need a snack I will eat some cashews
and that boosts my calories for today to =====

1515 calories for today,

and I will have dairy, and fiber, and protein, and fish, and raw vegetables, and fruit, and dairy.
That sounds to me like it is everything I need for today/

I will come back later and let you know if i succeeded in my goals for today.

I don't think i will be able to go to church today, I hate it because I do love to go to church but also because tonight the singing Couriers are coming to sing and I will not hear them. I do not think it is right to go out when you can spread germs. I know that sometimes you have to get out, but when you don't HAVE to get out then you should stay at home. I have been in church and hear peple sniffing and coughing and blowing their noses and I can't help but think they should have stayed at home.


My prayer and hope for each of you that read this---
Have a blessed day everyone
go to church if you can
hug your mama and tell her you love her
be good
and stay safe

Saturday, January 10, 2009

another yr., another month, another diet

I pray this one goes better than the last 55 diets I have been on. lol

breakfast was
725 calories

My food for today
grits
toast
eggs
prunes
butter
2 oz. of cheese
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2 coffees
salad
diet meal
cheese and crackers

total calories==========1580




I ate and then figured the calories, AND I WON'T DO IT THAT WAY AGAIN!!!!!!!!

purple letters-I love it .

OK

I will come back tonight and edit my post to add the rest of my calories.


OH OH OH

Let me tell you about my exercise,

If you read previous post you know that I had a hysterectomie on Dec. 8th, 2008.

The dr. said I must take it easy for 6 wks. and then work up to exercise slowly. I called last week and I was allowed to do slow walking and low level kicks and side steps. I really felt good to start doing something. I gained 20 pounds from the time I began having problems with my pro lapse uterus and pro lapse bladder . I could not do anything because things would move quickly inside of me. Plus they blew me up with air and I really looked and felt bloated.

Any way I weighed this morning and at this time I am 10 pounds heavier than I was before my problems began.

BUT today I walked for about a mile and it took me 30 minutes to do it. I am not upset by this , I will get stronger and I will get back to where I was physically before my problems.
Dh went with me. There was a tree that had blown over the firetrail and it had to be climbed over to keep walking. I held on to the downed tree and slowly threw my leg over and then the other leg. Who knew so much thought would have to go into straddling a blown over tree. lol
Dh practically just jumped over it.
I hope to be able to keep exercising -either walking or doing a 15 minute arobic video every day.

I have thouroughly enjoyed playing with all these lovely colors, I feel like I am writing with a rainbow.

God bless

another shade of blue

end of day thoughts and thinking about things I should have done different==-=-=-=-everything, I should have done everything different.

I ate too much of the wrong thing and not enough of the good stuff, and too many calories.

I need to leave off the mild chedder cheese.
I need to eat more veggies and fruits, although I did eat 1/2 grapefruit and 1/2 apple and 1/2 orange and 2 cups of raw salad.

I vow to do better tomorrow. I pray that I will do better tomorrow.

I wish I could find a spiritual weight loss support forum. I have joined so many boards and for one reason or another things just do not work out. I do not like profanity and you would be surprised how many people think it is ok to sprinkly their posts with profanity. I suppose they think everyone wants to read the nasty that they want to say. I wish they would understand that I really do not want to read it.

I am going now to get my menu wrote up for tomorrow. I think that will make it easier for me to stay within a certain calorie guideline.


Have a good night everyone
God bless.