I am angry

I am angry at my dad for never telling me he was sorry for abusing me. I am so upset that he had the opportunity to speak to me about how he treated me and he never did. He turned his heart over to God and he died without telling me he was sorry. He had the chance time after time, he talked withme about the weather and church and sermans and preacher and his children and grandchildren and he never once said he was sorry he never once/
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I know I forgave him, I k now in my heart I did I forgave him and mom for hating me and hitting me and yelling and tearing my flesh and my heart, I forgave him for sexually using me BUT klstill it would have been a healing thing for me for him to say he was sorry. And I have to go forever wondering if he was sorry for the tears I cried and the bruises he and mom put on my body.
HE IS DEAD
no grief. no sorrow. Have I acted in such a way as to have my dh and my children not care if I die. I must speak with my children-----I must make sure I ask them to forgive me for anything I might have said or done to them. Please Lord give me enough time left here on earth that I might ask their forgiveness.