Thursday, January 6, 2011

shame on me

If a man walked up to you and said "I was bad this weekend" what would you think?  I would think he drank too much or had a wild fling with someone.
If a woman walked up to you and said the same thing what would you think?  I would think she ate an entire cake and ice cream and fried chicken, and candy.  
Why do I think eating is a bad thing.  ack and ack.  Such deep thoughts for this day however I was bad today,  and no I did not go out and do an improper thing.  I ate and ate and ate.  I don't look at it as a binge or even out of control although it probably could  be called that .  I ate nuts and trail mix and chocolate covered cashews.  Not all at the same time no I did not sit down with the bag just kept a small cup beside me and while I worked on the computer I kept noshing on the snacks.  I feel bad in my stomach and I feel bad emotionally.  Where was my Brunhilde?  My dh was no help at all.  He was doing the same thing in the living room.  I sould tir him up and dare him to bring that stuff back in the house.The only real food I had was at lunch I had a small bit of sweet peas and some green beans and a bowl of salmon stew.  The rest of the day was snacking and snacking .........I just had a talk with him about us trying to be strong when the other is weak.  Maybe we can support each other.. 

I already have my menu worked out for tomorrow

baked chicen
grille squash
steamed cabbage
crowder field peas
apple
milk
oj


Tomorrow night I will go to a church function and they have some food there.  I think I will eat before I go and then I will just give a donation to the church instead of buying a supper..

You know eating healthy and losing weight should not be this hard.

oh oh oh oh before I forget , day before yesterday dh and I went for a walk in the woods and we started playing like a couple of kids just being silly, and he started chasing me and I started running -trust me 200 pound , 59 year old women should not run, anyway I get up this morning and my knee is swollen and so very painful.  So I could not even go walking today.  I have babied that knee today and as of the last couple of hours, the swelling has gone down and it is no longer hurting.  I don't think I will do that again.  The next time I will just let him catch me. 

I hope everyone that reads this had a better eating and exercise day than I did
Sleep well everyone
God bless

1 comment:

  1. hey Joy. today has been hard for me. i'm HUNGRY! i started exercising monday, and i was so sore on tuesday and wednesday that ever step i took i could feel it, and just went, "ow!"
    i like that you're thinking ahead about tomorrow's menu. i bet it helps you stick to it! do you do a "cheat meal" or anything like that during the week? i am trying to stick to healthy eating at all meals except one cheat meal per week, where i usually have high calorie foods and dessert. some people aren't into that, but it's worked for me in the past, when i do it right. i know we're all different and can't do the same thing, and it can be hard to re-adjust to healthy eating after a big meal. but otherwise i think i'd just be bingeing.

    do you weigh yourself weekly? i haven't stepped on the scales this week, but i need to because the accountability part of weight loss is so key. i'm thinking maybe tuesday.

    goodnight and God bless you, dear!

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