Dh has gone to church, to hear a nationally renown preacer. daughter, her husband and grandson has gone to a trunk or treat party put on by a local church (I mildly disapprove,) It is cold here and baby had a sore throat but nothing would do but son in law take him to the party.
Sister came home from hospital this week and I gave her enough food that she would not have to cook for several days-just warm it up in the microwave. She is doing great, just has to take it easy
Thanks for all the prayers that was sent up,
Baby got his report card and he is on the superintendents list. His lowest grade was a 97 in P E His daddy almost seneered at him and said what kind of boy makes a low grade in P E now he made 100s in nearly everything else. Son in law never said one nice word about his high grades. I am really having to fight not to hate that man.
I know I complain a lot when I come here but the way things is seems to almost consume me sometimes.
My diet is gone completely. I feel like beating myself up but I know that if I give in to the self loathing I will want to eat more.
I am still exercising almost daily but only because it is a relief valve. I cope just a bit better if I can get out to walk every day. Monday is coming and I have realized that Monday is not preceeded by Magic. Monday is just a day and the beginning of the week seems to scream fresh start, new beginning, so Monday it is, I will try again. When I stop trying, when I stop hoping that this time will be the one that makes the differance, when I finally give up, I will probably be dead. So here it comes my plans for Monday, and if at first (or 2nd or 3rd or 155th) you don't succeed-----try try again.
I love you, thanks for being my buddies, thanks for your prayers and your support.
God bless
Sleep well
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
My life has just taken a turn
My sister had a heart attack Sunday night. she is still in the hospital, the dr. is trying to find a med that she can take that will thin her blood and one that he gave her caused her to have uncontrollable constan diarhia. (I know that is not spell right).
She has been raising her granddaughter since she was 6 months old and she is the same age as my grandson. The granddaughter is at my house I told my daughter that watching children is what I love to do most in this life. He and her son is still here. I have a housefull and seems to be getting fuller. God has blessed me with a lot of patience.
Except for yesterday when grandson started yelling at me, now I don't yell, I don't think we should yell at children it causes them to be stressed, I feel you can handle them without yelling. This is p;robably because of my childhood but anyway he started yelling and i lost my patience. I didn't yell but I did tell him that he was not allowed to do that. He said his daddy yells and I said without thinking Your daddy is a bully. he is but I should not have said it. I am afraid that it is going to cause problems if he tells his daddy what I said. However he is a bully and I will tell him that he is.
It did not sound very Christian.
OK just gat a call that they need me at the foodbank.
Have a blessed day everyone.
Pray that I have not caused more problems than we already have.
God bless
She has been raising her granddaughter since she was 6 months old and she is the same age as my grandson. The granddaughter is at my house I told my daughter that watching children is what I love to do most in this life. He and her son is still here. I have a housefull and seems to be getting fuller. God has blessed me with a lot of patience.
Except for yesterday when grandson started yelling at me, now I don't yell, I don't think we should yell at children it causes them to be stressed, I feel you can handle them without yelling. This is p;robably because of my childhood but anyway he started yelling and i lost my patience. I didn't yell but I did tell him that he was not allowed to do that. He said his daddy yells and I said without thinking Your daddy is a bully. he is but I should not have said it. I am afraid that it is going to cause problems if he tells his daddy what I said. However he is a bully and I will tell him that he is.
It did not sound very Christian.
OK just gat a call that they need me at the foodbank.
Have a blessed day everyone.
Pray that I have not caused more problems than we already have.
God bless
Monday, October 10, 2011
still here
I love Diet Mountain Dew and a couple of weeks ago I was at someones house and they offered mme a glass of what I thought was diet Mt. Dew. Turns out it is the Walmart brand and it tastes just as good. That is one store brand that I think is equal to the original, also the walmart brand for dr. pepper tastes the same. But their Pepsi one does not taste as good.
Some generics simply is not worth buying, I have never found a generic mac and cheese that tastes good, I always have to add, extra cheese and extra butter to make it taste as good as Kraft.
Some things I can't tell a differance, like bread and butter pickles, ketchup, bbq sauce, sugar, butter, flour,cornmeal. and a few others. I try to save when I can without compromising on taste.
What are your thoughts?
DD and her son is still here and I just got busy over the weekend and started finding places for her things. I gave her and grandson a dresser and went through the boxes and put things away. On Fri. night I walked through the room to check on baby and tripped over a box-so the next day I took the responsibility away from her and just began finding a place for her and babys things. I probably should not have but I could not keep living with the clutter. I will slowly find a place to put everything eventually. I already feel better about it the chaos.
I realised something-it makes sense on some weird level.
I ate more when I felt that the clutter was out of control. Today I already noticed that I do not feel stressed, you know stress=out of control appetite.
I figured something else out to
I still am not happy about going to the church that dh likes----
He is so quiet and reserved and he wants to go to achurch that he can worship and enjoy the fellowship but he can sink into the background. I-on the other hand-like the small intimate church, one where you feel you are part of the church family. I want a small church where everyone knows your name, and knows your kids, and cares about you if you have car problems or you slipped down the steps, or lost your job. I want a church that if you miss todays service, they will pray for you and if you miss two services they will call to make sure you are ok.
I think we will probably go to separate churches for a while and see what happens.
FROM: WALKING WITH THE LORD
page 110
chapter title GOD IS TRULY FAITHFUL
ONE DAY, HEAVENLY FAGTHER, I WILL LOOK BACK
ON MY ENTIERE LIFE AND SEE IT FROM YOUR
PERSPECTIVE. MEANWHILE, HELP ME LEARN THE
LESSONS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ALONG THE WAY.
PARTICULARLY, WHEN PAINFUL ORDEALS COME AND
I CRY OUT IN MY DISTRESS, HELP ME REMEMBER TO
LOOK UP. THEN HELP ME LISTEN TO YOUR COMFORTING WORD,
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT YOU ARE WITH ME AND THAT YOU HAVE
A PLAN AND PURPOSE FOR ME EVEN IN MY PAIN---A PLAN AND
PURPOSE THAT BEGINS IN FELLOWSHIP WITH YOU AND ENDS IN
REJOICING WITH YOU IN MY ETERNAL HOME. AMEN
God Bless
have a wonderful day
Some generics simply is not worth buying, I have never found a generic mac and cheese that tastes good, I always have to add, extra cheese and extra butter to make it taste as good as Kraft.
Some things I can't tell a differance, like bread and butter pickles, ketchup, bbq sauce, sugar, butter, flour,cornmeal. and a few others. I try to save when I can without compromising on taste.
What are your thoughts?
DD and her son is still here and I just got busy over the weekend and started finding places for her things. I gave her and grandson a dresser and went through the boxes and put things away. On Fri. night I walked through the room to check on baby and tripped over a box-so the next day I took the responsibility away from her and just began finding a place for her and babys things. I probably should not have but I could not keep living with the clutter. I will slowly find a place to put everything eventually. I already feel better about it the chaos.
I realised something-it makes sense on some weird level.
I ate more when I felt that the clutter was out of control. Today I already noticed that I do not feel stressed, you know stress=out of control appetite.
I figured something else out to
I still am not happy about going to the church that dh likes----
He is so quiet and reserved and he wants to go to achurch that he can worship and enjoy the fellowship but he can sink into the background. I-on the other hand-like the small intimate church, one where you feel you are part of the church family. I want a small church where everyone knows your name, and knows your kids, and cares about you if you have car problems or you slipped down the steps, or lost your job. I want a church that if you miss todays service, they will pray for you and if you miss two services they will call to make sure you are ok.
I think we will probably go to separate churches for a while and see what happens.
FROM: WALKING WITH THE LORD
page 110
chapter title GOD IS TRULY FAITHFUL
ONE DAY, HEAVENLY FAGTHER, I WILL LOOK BACK
ON MY ENTIERE LIFE AND SEE IT FROM YOUR
PERSPECTIVE. MEANWHILE, HELP ME LEARN THE
LESSONS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ALONG THE WAY.
PARTICULARLY, WHEN PAINFUL ORDEALS COME AND
I CRY OUT IN MY DISTRESS, HELP ME REMEMBER TO
LOOK UP. THEN HELP ME LISTEN TO YOUR COMFORTING WORD,
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT YOU ARE WITH ME AND THAT YOU HAVE
A PLAN AND PURPOSE FOR ME EVEN IN MY PAIN---A PLAN AND
PURPOSE THAT BEGINS IN FELLOWSHIP WITH YOU AND ENDS IN
REJOICING WITH YOU IN MY ETERNAL HOME. AMEN
God Bless
have a wonderful day
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Can I complain a while????
I njust want to let of some steam, but I do not want it to sound like I am angry at my precious dd and my equally precious grandson.
My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.
If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom. stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.
Against the wall is a free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes . I wash often so he does have clean things but still------
continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school shoes are to be put in the same place. I really do try to have some order,
The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.
ok ok I think I am done. The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom. She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)
I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him. That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.
I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.
I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong. He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him. Grandson does not own a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun. But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in play that he is going to shoot another c hild. I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school. I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad.
I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity. He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot"
Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school. I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him.
Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands. Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN
God bless
My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.
If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom. stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.
Against the wall is a free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes . I wash often so he does have clean things but still------
continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school shoes are to be put in the same place. I really do try to have some order,
The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.
ok ok I think I am done. The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom. She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)
I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him. That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.
I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.
I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong. He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him. Grandson does not own a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun. But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in play that he is going to shoot another c hild. I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school. I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad.
I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity. He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot"
Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school. I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him.
Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands. Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN
God bless
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