Good Sunday morning

Going to church with g-son today-

I tried to post a reply on my yesterday post and can not make it go through.  Someone tell me how to make it so I can post on my own reply place.

Thanks for the encouragement Deb and Josie  -

Josie I thought I had posted that they had moved in-they have been here almost 6 weeks.  It has been a hectic time.  Of course baby has toys and no where to put them except in the living room and I just push them against the wall.  Some are in boxes and clothes are in boxes etc.  Let me put my rose colored glasses back on.  This could really stress me out if I allow it to get to me.

Deb. I do have a problem with wheat/flour.  It's the white flour like breaded meats, biscuits, pancakes, cake, cookies, pie, etc.  But I can eat whole grain bread, (I've only tried one brand, Natures Own 9-grain enriched bread, no artificial preservatives, colors or flavors, 3 times the fiber and only 40 calories per slice with no high fructose corn syrup) . I don't seem to have a problem with it and I amvery moderate in how much I eat of it. 


I woke up this morning singing this song

I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning over there.

and I will meet you over there- We will hug each other and praise the Lord that we met and became friends.  I think the Lord let us be friends here so we could pray for each other. 
And I will meet you one day in person, but for now, just know that I am praying for you.

God bless you and keep you safe.

One day does not make a habit

but


I did do good yesterday-calories were under 1500 and only whole grain sandwich bread and 3/4 cup whle grain high fiber cereal/  brussel sprouts, okra. talapia. 1 egg and one egg white, one peach,  1/4th cup mashed potatoes.  That sounds like a lot but trust me it is not a lot of food. Oh I forgot coffee with creamer.  Creamer has calories but I love it and just am not ready to get rid of that. 


Today is going good,  at least so far, 

Daughter and her son are still living here and they have piles of clothes and toys and shoes and books and on and on and on all over the house.  I am trying to not look at it because there is absollutely nothing that can be done at this  time and so I choose to look away and try not to let the disarray upset me.   The son in  law is still trying to be a bully to her and to the baby. 

Keep praying for us.

God bless

Here I am,

I have gotten up each day, determined to do better.  My resolve would melt like hot butter.

Yesterday dh took me out for an ealry supper and as I ate, (yummy chinese food) I took a long look at my life. 

I realized that I am not eating good and that I was slowly losing my energy.  Now I still exercised almost daily (I like the way I feel after I exercise) but my eating was slowly getting worse and worse.  I recently had the blood tests done and all my numbers are good.  Even the bone density tests show that I have the bones of a 20 yr. old.  Blood pressure and cholesterol is normal, no sign of diabetes. But those pounds are slowly creeping up. They are doing it so slowly that when I got on the scales this morning I was shocked to see that I gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months. You know I weigh regularly and I should have seen it , but I guess, each day that I weighed myself I kept my rose colored glasses on.

With my belly full of high calorie food last night I told dh that I could not keep this up.  I simply did not feel like myself,  I told him I could not do it alone, and even if he does not join me in eating better, for him to eat his junk food away from the house.  He agreed to this, and then we went to the brand new super  walmart and I bought a few diet meals and some of my favorite vegetable and fruits.   I have several boxes of low clorie high fiber cereal, and I like that for  a snack. 

I feel just the tiniest stirring of hope-hope that I have settled on something that will get me where I want to be. Hope that this time -(Please, God, Please) this time maybe just maybe--------


DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO IS IN YOU, WHOM YOU HAVE RECEIVED FROM GOD? YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN, YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE.  THEREFORE HONOR GOD WITH YOUR BODY

(1 COR. 6:19-20)

Good night
God Bless

its the little foxes,

I went to Aldis this morning with dh-------------------

((side story here----we have a friend that had brain surgery Monday morning-he had a large tumor on his brain and it was discovered last week, anyway today we went to the hospital to see him and we circled  the parking lot for 10 minutes before dh got so frustrated that we left.   No parking places anywhere exept one area that was designated "patients only"  ack ---I had called his wife ealrier to ask what time would be best to visit, and she said about 10 am so then I had to call her and  tell her we could not find a parking place.Huge hospital and more construction going on to build even more hospital area.  They took part of the parking lot to build the additional building.)

now back to aldis, so they had a sale on some of grandbabys favorite snacks.  Cheese curls, and corn  chips and something else, my mind has gone blank.  Those are some of his favorite snacks and I  love the way he eats maybe a handful and he is done.  Problem is they are also my favorite and my hands are a lot bigger than his hands and seldom does one handful or even two handfulls satisfy me.  So far I have managed to resist, and as soon as I finish here I am putting them away.  You know out of sight out of mind.   Anyway I can hope that is the way it goes.  I do have some sugar free jello made and I love that, maybe that will soothe the raging "I want =I want=I want", side of me. 
The chips are still in there and I am still in here.


One of my grandsons favorite songs.

LITTLE DAVID

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CHORUS: "The battle's not mine," said Little David,
"Lord, it's Thine, I'm in Your favor.
I'm giving it all to You, I knew not what to do.
I'm so glad You let me see, You're really all that I need.
For the battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
1. Little David looked so small, Goliath looked so tall,
The odds were just too high for Little David.
So he shook off all of his load for with the power of God he was bold,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
CHORUS:
2. A Little David he stood tall, now Goliath seemed so small,
Sweet victory had reigned for Little David.
He gave the battle to One with a record for getting things done,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."

I did not fall of the edge of the world.

Here I am-quick updates about what is going on in my life,
(I received an e-mail from a very good blog friend and felt quilty, lol)

Daughter and grandson is still here,  my house still looks like a hurricane has gone through and really there is nothing that can be done.  I am trying not to let the boxes and bags and suitcases get to me.  We are working on the smaller place that she is moving into.  Her husband has decided to move with her.  Maybe her leaving was a wake up call, but I think he is just bringing his old attitude with him.  I have already heard him tell baby that they were going to put a dress on him for the school pictures.  Even though he may have been joking, to me it sounded like he was trying to demean grandson.  The only good thing is baby will be here a lot more and since my services is free I know that he will leave grandson with me often.  Hubby and I can give him a little stability nearly everyday. That time with him is priceless, and being able to see him daily is a bright spot in my life.

I still am not happy at the church my hubby is going to.  Money talks and it is obvious that the pastor there caters to the people that have money.  There is a small church near my house that I am thinking of starting to go to, I know that dh and I will be going to different churches and I don't want that, but I have just about stopped going to church at all.  I am losing the joy of going to church.  sigh-I miss that joy and excitement. 

Now my diet, weight loss, excercise, successes and failures.

I had lost 5 pounds and was an the edge of thinking that I had gotten back in the groove. WELL let me tell you, dieting is like standing on the tip of a needle,  you can't relax or take your position for granted for even a minute because it does not take but one minute to start the downward slide and once you start sliding it is so hard to get the grip back.  Anyway - I gained the 5 pounds back plus a couple more before I was able to see that I had to do something or it will all come back.  Remember that I mentioned that at one time-after the robbery-I gained up to 252. I'm only 5feet 4 inches so I looked like a basketball with legs. 

I am going to start a new diet today, or maybe I am going to put on an old diet. Anyway never say never and I know this is not like a broken window or floor or car.  You fix those and you can forget about them for a while.  With a diet you have to be in diet mode at least5 99% of the time.  And you have to be ultra careful that one percent becasue- at least with me, one bite of the wrong thing seems to set off a domino effect. Those tiles start falling and you can't stop the tiles from falling and when they are down you have to start all over again.

My dh is in the construction field, and everyone knows how bad that industry has suffered in the last couple of years.  So about a yr ago my exercise/walking shoes wore out and I asked the Lord to send me a pair of shoes that I could wear while I work out.   No one knew about the prayer except the Lord and me.  About two weeks after that prayer-my dd called me and told me that a friend of hers had bought a pair of shoes to work in and then left that job for another and did not need the shoes.  She GAVE the shoes to my daughter, who gave them to me.  The shoes were SAS shoes and had never been worn.  They were a perfect fit, and had great support/.  The Lord is such a great and loving God.

Anyway the shoes finally wore out and Praise The Lord my husband is working regularly and we had the money for new shoes.  So I tried on and tried on and tried on shoes and finally found a pair that I loved (couldn't find SAS for that is what I would have bought).   I wore them all day Sat, and when I took them off I had a blister on the side of my foot almost the size of a dime.  The blister is not the surprising part, what got me was it never hurt or felt irritated.  Once I took the shoe off , that is when it startd feeling like it was burning.  So I have not exercised for a few days. 

I wonder sometimes if I was relying on exercise to repair my overeating. Now I don't enjoy exercising, I enjoy how I feel afterward, and I love the health benefitds but maybe I was using exercise to overindulge my eating.  I could eat this and that because I stay active, but my metabolism is slow becasue of the thyroid problems, and because of my age, and someone told me that the hysterectomy slows the metabolism.  BUT exercise is supposed to speed it up???

Anyway this was not a quick update-

I'll be back.


PROVERBS 16:3

COMMIT TO THE LORD WHTEVER YOU DO, AND YOUR PLAN WILL SUCCEED

Have a great day
God bless