Let me tell you about the dream I had last night

I dreamed I had been invited to a party. I thought that would be fun so I went and it was so unusual I went with out dh. In real life I seldom go anywhere without someone with me. (That is a holdover from being robbed at gunpoint)

I was in a huge room and people were everywhere. I sat in a corner and actually faced the wall. I kept wondering why I was there because I knew a lot of people but I was not friends with any of them. A woman came by with a huge basket and told me "You have been chosen, and you get to have a gift" I reached in the basket and picked a box. It was patterened so intricutely with some of the most beautiful pieces of wood I had ever seen, I opened the box and immdiately saw a beautiful jewel. And I noticed that the box could be opened again, when I tried to open it a little girl came over and she said "Not yet." "Then she said "you have been chosen."

I took the jewel out of the box and it is impossible for me to describe how it looked I just knew it was beautiful. And I tried to open the box again and the little girl said "No, not yet. But you have been chosen"

I am at a place in my life that I am not satisfied with how my church is and I want to go to another church. I have been trying for well over a year, and every time I try to go I feel God pulling me back to where I am now. I think God is telling me to be patient. He has a plan and He has a job for me to do, but it is not time yet. I have to be patient. But it is hard for me to be patient when I feel so empty where I am now. My preacher is so dry and so unappealing and we are losing members every month. In the year since he came we have dropped from 125-150 to 75-90. That is a big drop in that short a period of time. I know it is not just me. Others are dissatisfied too. Lord help us.