I dreamed I had been invited to a party. I thought that would be fun so I went and it was so unusual I went with out dh. In real life I seldom go anywhere without someone with me. (That is a holdover from being robbed at gunpoint)
I was in a huge room and people were everywhere. I sat in a corner and actually faced the wall. I kept wondering why I was there because I knew a lot of people but I was not friends with any of them. A woman came by with a huge basket and told me "You have been chosen, and you get to have a gift" I reached in the basket and picked a box. It was patterened so intricutely with some of the most beautiful pieces of wood I had ever seen, I opened the box and immdiately saw a beautiful jewel. And I noticed that the box could be opened again, when I tried to open it a little girl came over and she said "Not yet." "Then she said "you have been chosen."
I took the jewel out of the box and it is impossible for me to describe how it looked I just knew it was beautiful. And I tried to open the box again and the little girl said "No, not yet. But you have been chosen"
I am at a place in my life that I am not satisfied with how my church is and I want to go to another church. I have been trying for well over a year, and every time I try to go I feel God pulling me back to where I am now. I think God is telling me to be patient. He has a plan and He has a job for me to do, but it is not time yet. I have to be patient. But it is hard for me to be patient when I feel so empty where I am now. My preacher is so dry and so unappealing and we are losing members every month. In the year since he came we have dropped from 125-150 to 75-90. That is a big drop in that short a period of time. I know it is not just me. Others are dissatisfied too. Lord help us.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
On my 4th week- post operation
Three weeks ago today I was operated on, I really have gotten along good. Sure I have the occasional ping and ting in my lower stomach but that is to be expected. I can not bend or pick up anything (including my 3 yr. old grandson ,,,,,sob)
I can not dry off my legs after I shower. I can not be on my feet much, I can not wash dishes or sweep the floor or pull on my sheets. Again I am getting along good.
I am thankful that I have so much stuff to keep me occupied, I am glad I enjoy video games I love to read I love to paint and put togeather puzzles, I love to cross stitch and do plastic canvas.
BUT
B U T
B U T
B U T
I MISS TAKING A TUB BATH
I shower and I get clean and refreshed, but I love taking a skin so soft bath. I love just laying back in my garden tub with the tub full of water and maybe having a sweet smelling tub of bubbles up to my neck with a candles flickering on the counter.
That is so relaxing and I can not do that for at least another week and possible longer than that. I miss the little things. I miss getting dressed and taking baby to the park and playing with him in the sand. I miss cleaning my living room and enjoying it being clean. Dh is sweet and he does the best he can but of course it is not a woman touch.
OH well enough complaining. I am very fortunate. A lot of women are still in bed with minamal time allowed to get up. But I only took a nap or two when I came home for maybe 3 days and then I stopped with the pain pills except at night and now I am just taking one motrin before I go to bed. I am very blessed to be getting along so good.
I give my God all praise and I thank Him for His hand on me that I am getting well so fast.
I can not dry off my legs after I shower. I can not be on my feet much, I can not wash dishes or sweep the floor or pull on my sheets. Again I am getting along good.
I am thankful that I have so much stuff to keep me occupied, I am glad I enjoy video games I love to read I love to paint and put togeather puzzles, I love to cross stitch and do plastic canvas.
BUT
B U T
B U T
B U T
I MISS TAKING A TUB BATH
I shower and I get clean and refreshed, but I love taking a skin so soft bath. I love just laying back in my garden tub with the tub full of water and maybe having a sweet smelling tub of bubbles up to my neck with a candles flickering on the counter.
That is so relaxing and I can not do that for at least another week and possible longer than that. I miss the little things. I miss getting dressed and taking baby to the park and playing with him in the sand. I miss cleaning my living room and enjoying it being clean. Dh is sweet and he does the best he can but of course it is not a woman touch.
OH well enough complaining. I am very fortunate. A lot of women are still in bed with minamal time allowed to get up. But I only took a nap or two when I came home for maybe 3 days and then I stopped with the pain pills except at night and now I am just taking one motrin before I go to bed. I am very blessed to be getting along so good.
I give my God all praise and I thank Him for His hand on me that I am getting well so fast.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Day after Christmas
I had such fun yesterday and did I pay for it yesterday afternoon.
Dh and I opened our gifts Christmas eve night and we had a nice just the two of us evening. It was calm and peaceful and then we watched Ice Age and Ice Age 2 togeather. i know it is a childs cartoon but it is just too cute. I like the first one better than the 2nd. And I fell in love with that squirrel and wanted to help him get the nut.
Yesterday morning we got up late ate just a quick snack/breakfast just to take my meds, (take with food) then went to my dds house. This was the first time that I did not have entire family at my house and it felt good to have some one else in the family do it this time. My daugter in law had been in the hospital for a week so son and his family could not come. My DIL had a gastric bypass, she has lost over 100 pounds in 5 months, she only takes in about 100 calories a day and she gets dehydrated often. She actually had to have it because the weight ofn her body restricted her breathing to the point of having to go to hospital to be put on oxygen.My dd cooked as good as I could have done. She fixed baked ham, rolls, deviled eggs, stuffing, brown sugar smokies hmmm hmmm good. green bean casserole, tiny ears of corn mixed with broccoli and beans, hmmm hmmm good. And she make home made banana pudding.
we opened gifts first and you know having a child around brings more Christmas smiles. The baby turned 3 in Oct and at that age nearly everything a child does or says is funny. And they are so easy to please. SIL had a shirt put in a pop corn box for easy wrapping. Baby saw the box and said "Wow daddy, you got pocorn can I have some too" He was dissappointed when he found out that it was a shirt for daddy and not a box of popcorn.
I over did the hugging and the standing up, but I resisted and did not pick the baby up and that is so hard to do when he says "pick me up, gan ma" When we got home it felt as if something was pulling the flesh in my tummy. I started running a fever and kept telling my dh it was 35 degrees in the house and he tried to convince me that it was 75. I was sitting there with a heating pad on my tummy, a thick housecoat on and a blanket covering me and was still shivering.I took and oxycodone and went to bed and this morning I am better actually feel really good.
BAD NEWS- just got phone call my mom is on her way to the hospital, dr. thinks she has pneamonia (gosh thats a hard word to spell) Any way I knew she was sick and when I called her this morning to check on her (she is 82)I gently berated her for not going to the dr. the beginning of the week and told her to get ready I would call Sis and Sis would take her to the dr. She finally has agreed to go. Sis just called. Pneumonia is serious at any age but especially at her age. Please keep her in your prayers.I have always heard things comes in 3's-Fist DIL in hospital for her breatheing, then me for hysterectomy, now mom. Hopefully we will soon be through with hospitals.
Dh and I opened our gifts Christmas eve night and we had a nice just the two of us evening. It was calm and peaceful and then we watched Ice Age and Ice Age 2 togeather. i know it is a childs cartoon but it is just too cute. I like the first one better than the 2nd. And I fell in love with that squirrel and wanted to help him get the nut.
Yesterday morning we got up late ate just a quick snack/breakfast just to take my meds, (take with food) then went to my dds house. This was the first time that I did not have entire family at my house and it felt good to have some one else in the family do it this time. My daugter in law had been in the hospital for a week so son and his family could not come. My DIL had a gastric bypass, she has lost over 100 pounds in 5 months, she only takes in about 100 calories a day and she gets dehydrated often. She actually had to have it because the weight ofn her body restricted her breathing to the point of having to go to hospital to be put on oxygen.My dd cooked as good as I could have done. She fixed baked ham, rolls, deviled eggs, stuffing, brown sugar smokies hmmm hmmm good. green bean casserole, tiny ears of corn mixed with broccoli and beans, hmmm hmmm good. And she make home made banana pudding.
we opened gifts first and you know having a child around brings more Christmas smiles. The baby turned 3 in Oct and at that age nearly everything a child does or says is funny. And they are so easy to please. SIL had a shirt put in a pop corn box for easy wrapping. Baby saw the box and said "Wow daddy, you got pocorn can I have some too" He was dissappointed when he found out that it was a shirt for daddy and not a box of popcorn.
I over did the hugging and the standing up, but I resisted and did not pick the baby up and that is so hard to do when he says "pick me up, gan ma" When we got home it felt as if something was pulling the flesh in my tummy. I started running a fever and kept telling my dh it was 35 degrees in the house and he tried to convince me that it was 75. I was sitting there with a heating pad on my tummy, a thick housecoat on and a blanket covering me and was still shivering.I took and oxycodone and went to bed and this morning I am better actually feel really good.
BAD NEWS- just got phone call my mom is on her way to the hospital, dr. thinks she has pneamonia (gosh thats a hard word to spell) Any way I knew she was sick and when I called her this morning to check on her (she is 82)I gently berated her for not going to the dr. the beginning of the week and told her to get ready I would call Sis and Sis would take her to the dr. She finally has agreed to go. Sis just called. Pneumonia is serious at any age but especially at her age. Please keep her in your prayers.I have always heard things comes in 3's-Fist DIL in hospital for her breatheing, then me for hysterectomy, now mom. Hopefully we will soon be through with hospitals.
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