My weekend

Have you ever heard of toxic relationships? I think that is what I have with my mom. I can remember so many things from my childhood and right on up to this month. Mom has always treated me with contempt. I asked my sister if mom yells at her and she said no. But Sunday mom just about brought tears to my eyes the way she talked to me. It has always been this way. That tone of voice that says "if you were my dog I would shoot you"

She does not talk to anyone else that way. Just me

Sunday we had a group come to our church and they were such a blessing such a wonderful service. Mom was not there and I call ed to be sure she was all right. She was sick and I commiserated with her about how bad it is to have sinus problems and then started telling her about how wonderful the morning service was. She immediately told me in that tone of vice that we spend too much time now on singing and preaching the word was more important than singing. I reminded her that the bible does say to sing to the Lord and she started again on the singing and on the pastor and how she is bored with how juvenile he preaches and she already knows everything he talks about.

I called her full of love and joy and got off of the phone feeling like the world was a dark and gloomy place.

We had a healing service Sunday night and I went up for prayer for a healing in my family. The preacher brought a message for me about being given a shield. The Lord will be my shield and protector. So I will trust in God for my joy. I know there is a place in the bible about "though my father and mother turn against me"

And he has given to me the verse "I know the way I have for you , a way of good and not for evil." He gave this to me 7 times in one week by different people and different times and different circumstances. I praise my God.