New day, more weight, new resolve

It seems like I have been here a few times before.

UPDATE


I was on a low calorie high exercise diet and I was not losing---so I started doing a low carb diet and I was sticking to it -less than 20 carbs a day- and was gaining weight. So today I read an article that people that eat a high protein diet get cancer more than people that eat a lot of fruits and vegetables so it is back to a low calorie diet. I do love a lot of fruits and vegetable and even if I do not lose weight at least I will be more healthy.

That is my life diet and gain change diets and gain lol it is sorta funny/

My dad is in the veterans hospital. He is 88 yrs old and I know that he is failing. I feel no real sorrow over him being sick. He gave up his right to have a daughters love the first time he molested me. I love him only because God lives in my heart. I would like to know why he thought it was ok for him to do the things he did. I am sure I will never get an answer.

Soon he will be moved to a nusing home cause he has to be on a breathing machine. Am I supposed to fake a love that I do not feel?

Sleep well