God was on the throne last year and He will still be on the throne in 2013.I do worry about the world and where it is headed but on the other hand I KNOW that God is in control.Some one told me that worry is lack of faith in God, I see what she meant but I am not worried about my God or what He can do -I am not worried about my security, peace,or contentment in being His child. I know I am goimg to a better place should I die. I do worry and pray for my unsaved loved ones. They do not have that same security or peace. If God comes today and they have not listened to Gods voice call to them they will be left behind. My heart aches for them.
I am sickened by so much that goes on in the world. I was molested at an early age (5)my sister was, my daughters church sister, my daughters new boyfriend. He really has had a rough life e turned to crime andwas in prison by the time he was 17 and after he was released he broke probation so many times and never had an education, never held a real job. When I met him I felt in my heart that there was good in him. Here was this 35 yr. old uneducated ex con, tatooed, and cussing and a cigarette dangling from his mouth and God said he needs to be loved. So slowly she and I have reached out to him and took him to church with us, he has just about quit cssing, every now and then he slips. He went to a singing with us and got saved. He has applied for a job and looks like he may get it. If God had not spoke to me I would have told my daughter to run the other way fast. His mom had him when she was young and did not want him his grandmother raised him and she was cruel, his mom went on to have other children by different fathers and then his real dad did the same hting. So there are real siblings, step siblings and half siblings. And the family is riddled with drug users thiefs prostitutes, and I see this same scenario being played over and over again. I hear the term "my babys daddy" Sodom and Gomrroh is being visited over and over again and God has to be weeping as He watches the sins being revisited just as it was before He destroyed those cities.
Now we are going into 2013 and really I don't see the world getting any better. What I see is me clinging even harder to God me worshipping him even more for he is my hope He is my joy, He is my peace, without Him I would have nothing but the world -and that is no joy and no hope and certainly no peace.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Friday, August 24, 2012
One month later
This month went quickly,
UPDATE
I have lost 8.2 pounds, I love my digital scales, it shows to the ounce if I have lost or gained, I have to be careful with that because I think I could let it begin to have control over me and my emotions.
I was given the pill adipex and I was told to break it in half for a few days, well I continued to half it. I was really afraid that I would begin to depend on it.
Anyway I have lost weight but I really had to make a few changes. I know that dr. thought I was fudgeing on how I ate and all that I did but I really was not. But if I were a dr. looking at someone gaining weight maybe I would feel that way too. Maybe she has had other patients that did that and she just jumped to that conclusion.
In any event -she does not realize that as a Christian, born again God loving and devoted to my Lord I would not lie to her and would not decieve. She does not realize that I have a covenant with God and if I do anything to break that covenant I will hurt my Heavenly Father.
So I figured I had to determine soemthing, different to do. I took the pill and contiued on with what I was doing for over a week and sow no change. I used MY FITNESS PAL and according to their chart I should have lost a little over a pound, nope did not.
So I began doing more. Time is not something that I can manufacture when I need more of it, and with all that is on my plate right now I did not have more time to give to more exercise. So I began running. Not the bone jarring, all out, breast bumping me in the chin run but faster than a fast walk, but slow enough that my joints would not take a beating.
I found out that I absolutely love the high that comes from running. I walk a 2 mile round trip and most days I walkit later in the evening, when I have the time I would walk another mile to make it my 5. At first I could barely run 100 steps and now well yesterday I can run 1/2 mile then I walk fast for around 100 steps and then run another 1/2 mile. By that time I have to walk a little more but still I try to run more than I walk and now that my legs are a bit stronger and I have better stamina I don't even stop I immediately start again on another round trip.
Since MY FITNESS PAL keeps up with fat and protein and carbs, I began lowering my carbs -not a lot but I try to keep the number 75 or less;. So when I began doing these two things the weight started coming off slowly. I am happy.
Yesterday dh and I got our puppy. DH is totally in love with this tiny dog, now I can not spell chiwawa I have to look it up everytime but I'm sure you know what I am trying (and failing) to spell.
Daughter calls him Butter Bean, dh calls him BB and I call him lil B, He is doing reat with his training. has not wet the floor at all and he wimpers when he needs to be put on the pad, or go outside. But he does not like to be left alone, and I don't know how that will work when all of us has to be gone. We may need to get him a little stuffed animal to cuddle with when we have to leave him.
God bless,
Have a great day.
UPDATE
I have lost 8.2 pounds, I love my digital scales, it shows to the ounce if I have lost or gained, I have to be careful with that because I think I could let it begin to have control over me and my emotions.
I was given the pill adipex and I was told to break it in half for a few days, well I continued to half it. I was really afraid that I would begin to depend on it.
Anyway I have lost weight but I really had to make a few changes. I know that dr. thought I was fudgeing on how I ate and all that I did but I really was not. But if I were a dr. looking at someone gaining weight maybe I would feel that way too. Maybe she has had other patients that did that and she just jumped to that conclusion.
In any event -she does not realize that as a Christian, born again God loving and devoted to my Lord I would not lie to her and would not decieve. She does not realize that I have a covenant with God and if I do anything to break that covenant I will hurt my Heavenly Father.
So I figured I had to determine soemthing, different to do. I took the pill and contiued on with what I was doing for over a week and sow no change. I used MY FITNESS PAL and according to their chart I should have lost a little over a pound, nope did not.
So I began doing more. Time is not something that I can manufacture when I need more of it, and with all that is on my plate right now I did not have more time to give to more exercise. So I began running. Not the bone jarring, all out, breast bumping me in the chin run but faster than a fast walk, but slow enough that my joints would not take a beating.
I found out that I absolutely love the high that comes from running. I walk a 2 mile round trip and most days I walkit later in the evening, when I have the time I would walk another mile to make it my 5. At first I could barely run 100 steps and now well yesterday I can run 1/2 mile then I walk fast for around 100 steps and then run another 1/2 mile. By that time I have to walk a little more but still I try to run more than I walk and now that my legs are a bit stronger and I have better stamina I don't even stop I immediately start again on another round trip.
Since MY FITNESS PAL keeps up with fat and protein and carbs, I began lowering my carbs -not a lot but I try to keep the number 75 or less;. So when I began doing these two things the weight started coming off slowly. I am happy.
Yesterday dh and I got our puppy. DH is totally in love with this tiny dog, now I can not spell chiwawa I have to look it up everytime but I'm sure you know what I am trying (and failing) to spell.
Daughter calls him Butter Bean, dh calls him BB and I call him lil B, He is doing reat with his training. has not wet the floor at all and he wimpers when he needs to be put on the pad, or go outside. But he does not like to be left alone, and I don't know how that will work when all of us has to be gone. We may need to get him a little stuffed animal to cuddle with when we have to leave him.
God bless,
Have a great day.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
my fitness pal
Yesterday morning ealry say 4:00 am grandson woke us up complaing about itching and sure enough it looked like he had been bitten sev eral times. This morning at 2:20 agaoin on ly tis time it was widespread and looked just like I looked when the hives were trying to cover my body. So off to the dr. early and seems thaqt he is allergic to something and now he is on steroids to bring down the swelling and something else to reduce the itching.
Now the dr. saw that I was there with the child and after she took care of him she said, that I need to really get something done about my gaining weight (her words were much nicer than mine, I am paraphrasing) and she has put me on a appetite suppresant. I do not like taking pills. and there are side affects but on the other hand if it helps, will it be worth some diarrea ok I know that is spelled wrong . I feel myself going into chicken little mode screaming oh no the sky is going to fall.
she wrote the perscription for it, I cant remember the name of it.
the dr. told me about a site on the computer called my fitness pal and how easy it is to keep up with what you eat. I checked it out and really do like it. and it is easy to learn what to do and how to use it.
That see saw just goes up and down and up and down
Life could be so much worse,
my friends husband has copd, and he has only been given a matter of months to live. hospice has come in to help out and she told me that she is sitting there day after day watching him slowly die and she feels that she is going to go crazy, watching him deteriorate in front of her eyes.
He is ready to meet the Lord but it is still so hard on her. Pray for her and him please.
God bless you all
and I pray that we remember to count our blessings every day.
Now the dr. saw that I was there with the child and after she took care of him she said, that I need to really get something done about my gaining weight (her words were much nicer than mine, I am paraphrasing) and she has put me on a appetite suppresant. I do not like taking pills. and there are side affects but on the other hand if it helps, will it be worth some diarrea ok I know that is spelled wrong . I feel myself going into chicken little mode screaming oh no the sky is going to fall.
she wrote the perscription for it, I cant remember the name of it.
the dr. told me about a site on the computer called my fitness pal and how easy it is to keep up with what you eat. I checked it out and really do like it. and it is easy to learn what to do and how to use it.
That see saw just goes up and down and up and down
Life could be so much worse,
my friends husband has copd, and he has only been given a matter of months to live. hospice has come in to help out and she told me that she is sitting there day after day watching him slowly die and she feels that she is going to go crazy, watching him deteriorate in front of her eyes.
He is ready to meet the Lord but it is still so hard on her. Pray for her and him please.
God bless you all
and I pray that we remember to count our blessings every day.
Friday, July 20, 2012
my bucket is being dumped out
you know how when you kick a bucket of water over it all goes out all over the place. I am not happy with the call from my dr. so here it is
she said that I may be undrestimating my calories (possibly sometimes but not as a general rule-I measure and weigh) she said that averaged out for the week-I eat more than 1700 calories-possibly but I really do not WANT to think so. After all if I think that then I also have to say l that I am responsible for my weight and who wants to think that?????
So I have to start weighing and measuring everything and she emphasized everything to get an accurate picture of what I eat-making sure that the majority is totally healthy and cooked without butters or oils.
Also I have to start exercising, now I took in a journal of 8 days wihich is typical of my weeks of food and activity.
Monday is foodbank and after I get home I usually walk for 1/2 hour
Thesday is mowing w/push mower for 1 hour and then walking
Wed. is mowing and then walking/working out wih hand weights.
Thurs. is food bank and walking
Fri. is finishing mowing and walking
Sat. was walking and house work and laundry etc.-now I have started cleaning condos on Sat.
Sun is the Lords day.
so now along with all that I do I have to start doing situps (crunchs) and stretching etc. and more weights, and maybe I will try some other type of vidio like tae bo.
It is going to be so dissapointing if it has been my own fault all along. In am like adam in the garden, I want to blame someone else.
The bucket is now empty.
Have a blessed day everyone
she said that I may be undrestimating my calories (possibly sometimes but not as a general rule-I measure and weigh) she said that averaged out for the week-I eat more than 1700 calories-possibly but I really do not WANT to think so. After all if I think that then I also have to say l that I am responsible for my weight and who wants to think that?????
So I have to start weighing and measuring everything and she emphasized everything to get an accurate picture of what I eat-making sure that the majority is totally healthy and cooked without butters or oils.
Also I have to start exercising, now I took in a journal of 8 days wihich is typical of my weeks of food and activity.
Monday is foodbank and after I get home I usually walk for 1/2 hour
Thesday is mowing w/push mower for 1 hour and then walking
Wed. is mowing and then walking/working out wih hand weights.
Thurs. is food bank and walking
Fri. is finishing mowing and walking
Sat. was walking and house work and laundry etc.-now I have started cleaning condos on Sat.
Sun is the Lords day.
so now along with all that I do I have to start doing situps (crunchs) and stretching etc. and more weights, and maybe I will try some other type of vidio like tae bo.
It is going to be so dissapointing if it has been my own fault all along. In am like adam in the garden, I want to blame someone else.
The bucket is now empty.
Have a blessed day everyone
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Really yep
I got an email asking me if I needed enlargement pills. REALLY
NO I do not, what I need is shrinking pills lol
NO I do not, what I need is shrinking pills lol
Sunday, June 17, 2012
It's Fathers Day
When dh got up I wished him a happy fathers day. It is 8:30 and I soon need to get dressed because I am going to my Fathers House this morning. My earthlyfather was not a good person, evil and full of selfishness and cruelty , he came first in all that he did. he did not let anyone know this but his family knew. I read one time and I think it was Billy Graham said (I may be wrong about who said it) and I am paraphrasing--The world knows me and speaks well of me but if I die and my own family does not speak well of me then I have failed as a Christian and as a husband, father, etc.
I am so happy that I now have a Father that loves me, that I have a Father that wants the best for me, that listens to me when I talk to Him, that holds me when I hurt and is always there for me-
So to the best and only Father I could ever have or need, HAPPY FATHERS DAY and God thank you for putting dh and me togeather all those years ago. He has been a really good husband to me and a terrific father to our 2 children and a wonderful grandfather to our 3 grandchildren.
A friend just said
"it is easier to become a father than it is to be one." How true
Have a great day everyone
God bless
I am so happy that I now have a Father that loves me, that I have a Father that wants the best for me, that listens to me when I talk to Him, that holds me when I hurt and is always there for me-
So to the best and only Father I could ever have or need, HAPPY FATHERS DAY and God thank you for putting dh and me togeather all those years ago. He has been a really good husband to me and a terrific father to our 2 children and a wonderful grandfather to our 3 grandchildren.
A friend just said
"it is easier to become a father than it is to be one." How true
Have a great day everyone
God bless
Friday, June 15, 2012
Sigh
This is hard-
I decided to take a different path for a while and see if I can win a little in this struggle. I am on Day one of a full induction. I am keeping my carbs down to 10 or less for a few days and then slowly add a couple more per day. We'll see. I still am walking every day (unless it rains) most days i get in 5 miles, still working out with weights, still helping out at Harvest Hope/food bank two to 3 days a week and still pushing a mower to cut my grass several hours a week.
Still taking the synthyroid and still gained a pound this week. I know that everyone says they do not eat that much but I write down everything I eat and it is always below 1800 and most days it is below 1500. Today it was less than 1300, and carbs were 10.
We'll see. I've danced to this tune before and I pray that the results are different this time.
Sleep well every one.
God Bless
I decided to take a different path for a while and see if I can win a little in this struggle. I am on Day one of a full induction. I am keeping my carbs down to 10 or less for a few days and then slowly add a couple more per day. We'll see. I still am walking every day (unless it rains) most days i get in 5 miles, still working out with weights, still helping out at Harvest Hope/food bank two to 3 days a week and still pushing a mower to cut my grass several hours a week.
Still taking the synthyroid and still gained a pound this week. I know that everyone says they do not eat that much but I write down everything I eat and it is always below 1800 and most days it is below 1500. Today it was less than 1300, and carbs were 10.
We'll see. I've danced to this tune before and I pray that the results are different this time.
Sleep well every one.
God Bless
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