Joy's World

Happy Monday morning everyone

2012-01-30T05:20:00.000-08:00

I went on a diet and this time I did things a little different-I started dieting on Sat. Now really have you ever heard of anyone starting a diet on a Sat. Really???? But I knew that I wanted to get some kind aof control and my dd wanted to go on a diet also and she started this morning----but I know me and I knew if I waited until Monday that I would have the mindset of "I'm going on a diet so I better eat all of my favorite foods before Monday."

So two days under the diet belt and it is going really good.

I started this diet a little different too-a very severe low carb fast almost--mostly eggs and pork and beef. Last night I had a small salad. Today I will add another low carb veggie. I feel good and positive about what I am doing and I know that as long as I keep a positive attitude about what I am doing I have a better chance of success.

My son in law is still coming and staying hour after hour after hour. I really am tired of it-about 3 weeks ago I told him that when he comes he needs to leave after an hour or two and not come every day. He rolled his eyes at me and said he came to see his wife and son. Rolling your eyes at me does not make me happy and I told him that if she wanted to be with him she would not be at my house and heneeded to leave. He had soemthing in his hands and he thru it down on the floor and told baby to get out of his way he was leaving because I was too controlling. I am stressed to the point of screaming. It did not do any good at all, he is still coming and staying and staying.

Lets see, I have been sick with a terrible sinus infection but I think I am on the way to getting better.

I feel almost hypocritical posting a bible verse considering how I am feeling about son in law coming .
but this one keeps coming into my mid so here it is.

King James Bible
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Have a wonderful day
God bless you

Hi remember me?

2012-01-21T15:58:00.000-08:00

When was the last time I posted-I should have looked oh well

I finally was able to go to the dr and get my synthyroid started back up how ever the damage was done to my weight. The month before I went to my dr. I gained 18 pounds I excercised every day and I kept my calories down around 1800 a day, how does a person gain weight like that trying so hard to lose? thyroid messed up big time. I had to have a blood test down and sure enough the number was high. She called in a higher dosage than I had before. As of now I have lost 4 pounds doing about the same thing that I was doing the month I gained 18 pounds.

My weight since I had to stop the pills has risen from 175 to 216 as of this morning . It really scared me to gain so much so quickly and I can only praise the Lord for changing our financial circumstances so that I could go back to the dr.

Daughter is still at my house and I really think she is here to stay.

I have been neglecting everyones blog and I tried to catch up on everyone today. I see that many of you are struggling just like I am. I wish OH I DO WISH that I could make it easy for all of us.

I still exercise every day

I am halping out more and more at the food bank with all the needy people in our area we are going twice a week to pick up food. I am the healthiest person there so I do most of the heavylifting. The way I look at it is, those two days are my days that I set aside for my "weight workout" I have to lift boxes and some of them weigh as much as 45-50 pounds.

Deb you and Josie write so very eloquently and I enjoy your posts a lot.   I have missed you both so much and I did not realize how much until I popped in today and started trying to catch up .

IF YOU PRAY THAT GOD WILL MOVE A
MOUNTAIN AND HE DOESN'T OR YOU HAVE THE
FAITH TO TELL A MOUNTAIN TO MOVE
AND IT WOUN'T, ASSUME THAT CHRIST WANTS
YOU TO CLIMB IT INSTEAD AND SEE HIM
TRANSFIGURED. EITHER WAY, THE
MOUNTAIN IS UNDER YOUR FEET.

anonymous

GOD BLESS

It just gets worse and worse

2011-11-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

Eveytime SIL comes grson gets hyper very hard to calm down. Monday when sil was here gr-son was so hard to handle yelling and running and not listening like he was on speed or something. Sil was yelling at him and had swatted him -I waled out of the house and husband followed me. We could hear sil yelling and I turned around and came back in. Sil had grandson on the bed holding him by his shoulders and had his knee beside boy. (to anyone else reading baby is 6 yrs old) I knew he was restraining him, but sil has hit child before and left welts on his body and I lost it, I screamed to get his hands off of gr-son. At the top of my lungs I told him to get his hands off of that boy or I would turn him in. He said thats my child I told him to let him go and to get out of my house -sil would not leave, I know that he is an abusive father. My husband saw it all and he agrees, he said we need to turn him in.We are only hesitating because of daughter and gr. son. Daughter said sil would not hurt gr son. But yelling is hurting him and smaking him on his bare legs is abusing him. Sil says such rediculous things like this-once when they were here grandson ran past him and kicked sil on the leg (I think accidently) SIL kicked gr son. I called sil on it and sil said "he kicked me first-I said you are the adult and he said thats my child. Like he can do what he wants because its his child.

I feel like a rubber band that is being stretched all the time and I know my breaking point is coming.

Family drama

2011-11-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

Why would you get mad at me for getting angry at someone that has hurt you? And if you feel that way why are you still in my house? You get your dad and me to help you get a refridgerator. you put it in the house you wanted. He moves in and you do not want to live with him so for almost 4 months you have lived here and your dad is paying the payments for the refridgerator andyour idiot husband signs up for cable. Is there something wrong with that picture?????? Plus no one is paying the rent or the electric and where do you think your idiot husband is going to be when he gets kicked out of the house for non payment?

So does anyone want to adopt a short old overweight mama-grandmama and get me out of this soap opera that I am living in/'

stress stress stress

it has not been a good morning and I still have to go lto the school to eat a lunch with grandbaby cause his mama and daddy can not miss a few hours of work to give to their son, I know that sounds bad on my part but they could make those hours up their jobs is a little flexable. Then off to the food bank and then home and homework and laundry and supper to cook. And now my car is undrivable .

I sure hope everyones elses day is going better than mine.

God bless

I am all alone

2011-10-29T17:34:00.000-07:00

Dh has gone to church, to hear a nationally renown preacer. daughter, her husband and grandson has gone to a trunk or treat party put on by a local church (I mildly disapprove,) It is cold here and baby had a sore throat but nothing would do but son in law take him to the party.

Sister came home from hospital this week and I gave her enough food that she would not have to cook for several days-just warm it up in the microwave. She is doing great, just has to take it easy

Thanks for all the prayers that was sent up,

Baby got his report card and he is on the superintendents list. His lowest grade was a 97 in P E His daddy almost seneered at him and said what kind of boy makes a low grade in P E now he made 100s in nearly everything else. Son in law never said one nice word about his high grades. I am really having to fight not to hate that man.

I know I complain a lot when I come here but the way things is seems to almost consume me sometimes.

My diet is gone completely. I feel like beating myself up but I know that if I give in to the self loathing I will want to eat more.

I am still exercising almost daily but only because it is a relief valve. I cope just a bit better if I can get out to walk every day. Monday is coming and I have realized that Monday is not preceeded by Magic. Monday is just a day and the beginning of the week seems to scream fresh start, new beginning, so Monday it is, I will try again. When I stop trying, when I stop hoping that this time will be the one that makes the differance, when I finally give up, I will probably be dead. So here it comes my plans for Monday, and if at first (or 2nd or 3rd or 155th) you don't succeed-----try try again.

I love you, thanks for being my buddies, thanks for your prayers and your support.

God bless
Sleep well

My life has just taken a turn

2011-10-20T06:58:00.000-07:00

My sister had a heart attack Sunday night. she is still in the hospital, the dr. is trying to find a med that she can take that will thin her blood and one that he gave her caused her to have uncontrollable constan diarhia. (I know that is not spell right).

She has been raising her granddaughter since she was 6 months old and she is the same age as my grandson. The granddaughter is at my house I told my daughter that watching children is what I love to do most in this life. He and her son is still here. I have a housefull and seems to be getting fuller. God has blessed me with a lot of patience.

Except for yesterday when grandson started yelling at me, now I don't yell, I don't think we should yell at children it causes them to be stressed, I feel you can handle them without yelling. This is p;robably because of my childhood but anyway he started yelling and i lost my patience. I didn't yell but I did tell him that he was not allowed to do that. He said his daddy yells and I said without thinking Your daddy is a bully. he is but I should not have said it. I am afraid that it is going to cause problems if he tells his daddy what I said. However he is a bully and I will tell him that he is.

It did not sound very Christian.

OK just gat a call that they need me at the foodbank.

Have a blessed day everyone.
Pray that I have not caused more problems than we already have.

God bless

still here

2011-10-10T06:00:00.000-07:00

I love Diet Mountain Dew and a couple of weeks ago I was at someones house and they offered mme a glass of what I thought was diet Mt. Dew. Turns out it is the Walmart brand and it tastes just as good. That is one store brand that I think is equal to the original, also the walmart brand for dr. pepper tastes the same. But their Pepsi one does not taste as good.
Some generics simply is not worth buying, I have never found a generic mac and cheese that tastes good, I always have to add, extra cheese and extra butter to make it taste as good as Kraft.

Some things I can't tell a differance, like bread and butter pickles, ketchup, bbq sauce, sugar, butter, flour,cornmeal. and a few others. I try to save when I can without compromising on taste.

What are your thoughts?

DD and her son is still here and I just got busy over the weekend and started finding places for her things. I gave her and grandson a dresser and went through the boxes and put things away. On Fri. night I walked through the room to check on baby and tripped over a box-so the next day I took the responsibility away from her and just began finding a place for her and babys things. I probably should not have but I could not keep living with the clutter. I will slowly find a place to put everything eventually. I already feel better about it the chaos.

I realised something-it makes sense on some weird level.

I ate more when I felt that the clutter was out of control. Today I already noticed that I do not feel stressed, you know stress=out of control appetite.

I figured something else out to

I still am not happy about going to the church that dh likes----
He is so quiet and reserved and he wants to go to achurch that he can worship and enjoy the fellowship but he can sink into the background. I-on the other hand-like the small intimate church, one where you feel you are part of the church family. I want a small church where everyone knows your name, and knows your kids, and cares about you if you have car problems or you slipped down the steps, or lost your job. I want a church that if you miss todays service, they will pray for you and if you miss two services they will call to make sure you are ok.
I think we will probably go to separate churches for a while and see what happens.

FROM: WALKING WITH THE LORD
page 110
chapter title GOD IS TRULY FAITHFUL

ONE DAY, HEAVENLY FAGTHER, I WILL LOOK BACK
ON MY ENTIERE LIFE AND SEE IT FROM YOUR
PERSPECTIVE. MEANWHILE, HELP ME LEARN THE
LESSONS YOU HAVE GIVEN ME ALONG THE WAY.
PARTICULARLY, WHEN PAINFUL ORDEALS COME AND
I CRY OUT IN MY DISTRESS, HELP ME REMEMBER TO
LOOK UP. THEN HELP ME LISTEN TO YOUR COMFORTING WORD,
WHICH REMINDS ME THAT YOU ARE WITH ME AND THAT YOU HAVE
A PLAN AND PURPOSE FOR ME EVEN IN MY PAIN---A PLAN AND
PURPOSE THAT BEGINS IN FELLOWSHIP WITH YOU AND ENDS IN
REJOICING WITH YOU IN MY ETERNAL HOME. AMEN

God Bless
have a wonderful day

Can I complain a while????

2011-10-06T11:33:00.000-07:00

I njust want to let of some steam, but I do not want it to sound like I am angry at my precious dd and my equally precious grandson.

My house looks like one of those hoarders houses you see on tv only a lot of time even with clutter they-the people that hoard-seem to have some sense of order about all of the stuff that they have collected.

If you walk intop my laundry room-washer, dryer, big freezer, that was it NOW there is washer dryer, huge book case full of dd's laundry room clutter cleaners and sprays and over by the freezer is 2 boxesw full of hangers and toys and shoes and hangers and other odd and end stuff. Now go straight through to the spare bedroom. stop right there turn to your right and see and king size bed-taken apart and mattress and boxsprings leaning against the wall in the middle of the floor is a HUGE computer desk taken apart I think there is about 8 pieces all togeather, it is big enough for a computer and about 4 drawers and shelves and place with a swinging door on it.

Against the wall is a free standing big kitchen cabinent with shelves and that is where I ended up putting the babys clothes on so that I could get to them easily while they were here but now the computer desk is in the middle of the floor and the bed is against the wall and I can't get there anymore to get his clothes . I wash often so he does have clean things but still------

continue on to the next bedroom, boxes of clothes -9 boxes of dds clothes and babys clothes -jeans and shirts and her work clothes and socks and shoes and toys and turn to the left and step into the hallbathroom , full of stuff more stuff sprays and mouse and perfume and polish and shampoo and conditioner and go down the hall and turn to the right and the smallest bedroom full almost floor to ceiling with boxes of stuff. keep going and there is the livingroobabys toys in 3 boxes and in the floor and I try to keep his socks on the computer stand so I do not have such a time in the morning tryi9ng to find them, his school shoes are to be put in the same place. I really do try to have some order,

The table is full of chips and crackers and things for his lunch becasue our pantry is full of stuff from her house.

ok ok I think I am done. The only rooms in the house that is not cluttered is our bedroom and our bathroom. She did say they were leaving this week and I know that i will miss them both but there is a little teeny tiny part of me that is going to heave a sigh of relief (and a sigh of sadness)

I got out yesterday evening with baby and played kick ball with him. That was a good workout, we both enjoyed it.

I took him to the parkb day before yesterday and we had a late picnic and then went down the nature trail. That was fun.

I think the times are changing so fast and what used to be ok is now totally wrong. He got a not yesterday from school becasue he had told another student that he wasww going to shoot him. Grandson does not own a gun except and little nerf gun and one water gun. But it is aqqgainst school rules fro a 6 yr. old to say even in play that he is going to shoot another c hild. I do understand, a teacher friend told me that aq kindergartener took a gun to school. I know it it a different time now than it used to be but it is sad.

I have told him to not say certain words, like bathroom words and no profanity. He is not allowed to watch familyl guy or the simplsons I just never thought to tell him he could not say "shoot"

Lots of mistakes here, its time to go get the baby from school. I prayed all day long that this would be a good day for him.

Lord Father please keep our beloved children and grandchildren in your hands. Guide them and keep them safe.
AMEN

God bless

Good Sunday morning

2011-09-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

Going to church with g-son today-

I tried to post a reply on my yesterday post and can not make it go through. Someone tell me how to make it so I can post on my own reply place.

Thanks for the encouragement Deb and Josie -

Josie I thought I had posted that they had moved in-they have been here almost 6 weeks. It has been a hectic time. Of course baby has toys and no where to put them except in the living room and I just push them against the wall. Some are in boxes and clothes are in boxes etc. Let me put my rose colored glasses back on. This could really stress me out if I allow it to get to me.

Deb. I do have a problem with wheat/flour. It's the white flour like breaded meats, biscuits, pancakes, cake, cookies, pie, etc. But I can eat whole grain bread, (I've only tried one brand, Natures Own 9-grain enriched bread, no artificial preservatives, colors or flavors, 3 times the fiber and only 40 calories per slice with no high fructose corn syrup) . I don't seem to have a problem with it and I amvery moderate in how much I eat of it.

I woke up this morning singing this song

I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning
I will meet you in the morning over there.

and I will meet you over there- We will hug each other and praise the Lord that we met and became friends. I think the Lord let us be friends here so we could pray for each other.
And I will meet you one day in person, but for now, just know that I am praying for you.

God bless you and keep you safe.

One day does not make a habit

2011-09-24T09:26:00.000-07:00

but

I did do good yesterday-calories were under 1500 and only whole grain sandwich bread and 3/4 cup whle grain high fiber cereal/ brussel sprouts, okra. talapia. 1 egg and one egg white, one peach, 1/4th cup mashed potatoes. That sounds like a lot but trust me it is not a lot of food. Oh I forgot coffee with creamer. Creamer has calories but I love it and just am not ready to get rid of that.

Today is going good, at least so far,

Daughter and her son are still living here and they have piles of clothes and toys and shoes and books and on and on and on all over the house. I am trying to not look at it because there is absollutely nothing that can be done at this time and so I choose to look away and try not to let the disarray upset me. The son in law is still trying to be a bully to her and to the baby.

Keep praying for us.

God bless

Here I am,

2011-09-23T13:06:00.000-07:00

I have gotten up each day, determined to do better. My resolve would melt like hot butter.

Yesterday dh took me out for an ealry supper and as I ate, (yummy chinese food) I took a long look at my life.

I realized that I am not eating good and that I was slowly losing my energy. Now I still exercised almost daily (I like the way I feel after I exercise) but my eating was slowly getting worse and worse. I recently had the blood tests done and all my numbers are good. Even the bone density tests show that I have the bones of a 20 yr. old. Blood pressure and cholesterol is normal, no sign of diabetes. But those pounds are slowly creeping up. They are doing it so slowly that when I got on the scales this morning I was shocked to see that I gained 10 pounds in the last 4 months. You know I weigh regularly and I should have seen it , but I guess, each day that I weighed myself I kept my rose colored glasses on.

With my belly full of high calorie food last night I told dh that I could not keep this up. I simply did not feel like myself, I told him I could not do it alone, and even if he does not join me in eating better, for him to eat his junk food away from the house. He agreed to this, and then we went to the brand new super walmart and I bought a few diet meals and some of my favorite vegetable and fruits. I have several boxes of low clorie high fiber cereal, and I like that for a snack.

I feel just the tiniest stirring of hope-hope that I have settled on something that will get me where I want to be. Hope that this time -(Please, God, Please) this time maybe just maybe--------

DO YOU NOT KNOW THAT YOUR BODY IS A TEMPLE OF THE HOLY SPIRIT, WHO IS IN YOU, WHOM YOU HAVE RECEIVED FROM GOD? YOU ARE NOT YOUR OWN, YOU WERE BOUGHT AT A PRICE. THEREFORE HONOR GOD WITH YOUR BODY

(1 COR. 6:19-20)

Good night
God Bless

its the little foxes,

2011-09-07T11:17:00.000-07:00

I went to Aldis this morning with dh-------------------

((side story here----we have a friend that had brain surgery Monday morning-he had a large tumor on his brain and it was discovered last week, anyway today we went to the hospital to see him and we circled the parking lot for 10 minutes before dh got so frustrated that we left. No parking places anywhere exept one area that was designated "patients only" ack ---I had called his wife ealrier to ask what time would be best to visit, and she said about 10 am so then I had to call her and tell her we could not find a parking place.Huge hospital and more construction going on to build even more hospital area. They took part of the parking lot to build the additional building.)

now back to aldis, so they had a sale on some of grandbabys favorite snacks. Cheese curls, and corn chips and something else, my mind has gone blank. Those are some of his favorite snacks and I love the way he eats maybe a handful and he is done. Problem is they are also my favorite and my hands are a lot bigger than his hands and seldom does one handful or even two handfulls satisfy me. So far I have managed to resist, and as soon as I finish here I am putting them away. You know out of sight out of mind. Anyway I can hope that is the way it goes. I do have some sugar free jello made and I love that, maybe that will soothe the raging "I want =I want=I want", side of me.
The chips are still in there and I am still in here.

One of my grandsons favorite songs.

LITTLE DAVID

CHORUS: "The battle's not mine," said Little David,
"Lord, it's Thine, I'm in Your favor.
I'm giving it all to You, I knew not what to do.
I'm so glad You let me see, You're really all that I need.
For the battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
1. Little David looked so small, Goliath looked so tall,
The odds were just too high for Little David.
So he shook off all of his load for with the power of God he was bold,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."
CHORUS:
2. A Little David he stood tall, now Goliath seemed so small,
Sweet victory had reigned for Little David.
He gave the battle to One with a record for getting things done,
He said, "The battle's not mine, I give it to You, Lord, it's Thine."

I did not fall of the edge of the world.

2011-09-06T05:43:00.000-07:00

Here I am-quick updates about what is going on in my life,
(I received an e-mail from a very good blog friend and felt quilty, lol)

Daughter and grandson is still here, my house still looks like a hurricane has gone through and really there is nothing that can be done. I am trying not to let the boxes and bags and suitcases get to me. We are working on the smaller place that she is moving into. Her husband has decided to move with her. Maybe her leaving was a wake up call, but I think he is just bringing his old attitude with him. I have already heard him tell baby that they were going to put a dress on him for the school pictures. Even though he may have been joking, to me it sounded like he was trying to demean grandson. The only good thing is baby will be here a lot more and since my services is free I know that he will leave grandson with me often. Hubby and I can give him a little stability nearly everyday. That time with him is priceless, and being able to see him daily is a bright spot in my life.

I still am not happy at the church my hubby is going to. Money talks and it is obvious that the pastor there caters to the people that have money. There is a small church near my house that I am thinking of starting to go to, I know that dh and I will be going to different churches and I don't want that, but I have just about stopped going to church at all. I am losing the joy of going to church. sigh-I miss that joy and excitement.

Now my diet, weight loss, excercise, successes and failures.

I had lost 5 pounds and was an the edge of thinking that I had gotten back in the groove. WELL let me tell you, dieting is like standing on the tip of a needle, you can't relax or take your position for granted for even a minute because it does not take but one minute to start the downward slide and once you start sliding it is so hard to get the grip back. Anyway - I gained the 5 pounds back plus a couple more before I was able to see that I had to do something or it will all come back. Remember that I mentioned that at one time-after the robbery-I gained up to 252. I'm only 5feet 4 inches so I looked like a basketball with legs.

I am going to start a new diet today, or maybe I am going to put on an old diet. Anyway never say never and I know this is not like a broken window or floor or car. You fix those and you can forget about them for a while. With a diet you have to be in diet mode at least5 99% of the time. And you have to be ultra careful that one percent becasue- at least with me, one bite of the wrong thing seems to set off a domino effect. Those tiles start falling and you can't stop the tiles from falling and when they are down you have to start all over again.

My dh is in the construction field, and everyone knows how bad that industry has suffered in the last couple of years. So about a yr ago my exercise/walking shoes wore out and I asked the Lord to send me a pair of shoes that I could wear while I work out. No one knew about the prayer except the Lord and me. About two weeks after that prayer-my dd called me and told me that a friend of hers had bought a pair of shoes to work in and then left that job for another and did not need the shoes. She GAVE the shoes to my daughter, who gave them to me. The shoes were SAS shoes and had never been worn. They were a perfect fit, and had great support/. The Lord is such a great and loving God.

Anyway the shoes finally wore out and Praise The Lord my husband is working regularly and we had the money for new shoes. So I tried on and tried on and tried on shoes and finally found a pair that I loved (couldn't find SAS for that is what I would have bought). I wore them all day Sat, and when I took them off I had a blister on the side of my foot almost the size of a dime. The blister is not the surprising part, what got me was it never hurt or felt irritated. Once I took the shoe off , that is when it startd feeling like it was burning. So I have not exercised for a few days.

I wonder sometimes if I was relying on exercise to repair my overeating. Now I don't enjoy exercising, I enjoy how I feel afterward, and I love the health benefitds but maybe I was using exercise to overindulge my eating. I could eat this and that because I stay active, but my metabolism is slow becasue of the thyroid problems, and because of my age, and someone told me that the hysterectomy slows the metabolism. BUT exercise is supposed to speed it up???

Anyway this was not a quick update-

I'll be back.

PROVERBS 16:3

COMMIT TO THE LORD WHTEVER YOU DO, AND YOUR PLAN WILL SUCCEED

Have a great day
God bless

My life is

2011-08-24T15:34:00.000-07:00

I was going to let you all know just how much I feel that I am a failure, but in looking at what I was going to talk about I realized that I don't feel like a failure. I am disappointed a bit in how I can not seem to get back on teh weightloss wheel. My mind is so full of metaphors perhaps that is not the right word but I can see myself on that little wheel that the rats run on. It goes round and round and they never goes anywhere-nothing is ever accomplilshed yet, each day the rat jumps on the wheel and runs his little heart out and deja fu never accomplishes anything and the next day he jumps on it again. Wonder if he ever looks at that wheel and asks himself why he is wasting his time. Wonder if he ever looks up and says why bother? Well this big rat does and yet I can't seem to let go of the hope that this day it is going to really go somewhere. Am I lying to myself? I don't like to think that maybe I am just lying about it. I sure do not want to look at my hopes and glance at them with rose colored glasses.

My diet is covered with slippery grease and I try to hold onto it but it just slides away and I really try to hold onto it but it slips out of my grip. Tomorrow I will use spray and wash degreaser so that I can get a better grip on it. lol

Baby is here and I helped him with his homework. He asked again if I was going to yell at him.
His birthday was earlier this month and I gave him a little party here at my house.   He was so excited and he accidently hit his daddy. His daddy hit him back hard enough to leave a welt on his legs. I told his daddy he should not have done it and he said "he hit me first" I told him that he was the adult and then he said "and that is MY child" Like what he wanted to do to the baby was ok because it was his child. I want daughter to leave that man so bad. And she was going to leave him and then her husband said he was going too. He is going to move in with her and the baby. My dd really should tell him how she feels but she is so tender hearted that she is letting hem move with her.

I hate it and there is nothing I can do . If I say too much her husband may say that I can't watch him any more. And the way it looks my house is the only stability that baby gets. When baby prays he says everytime God bless mama and grandma and granddaddy and daddy and help daddy not be mean to me,"   When he blew out the candles on his cake he said his wish "please let daddy stop being mean to me." His daddy heard him and just laughed about it.

Josie HAPPY BIRTHDAY I hope your day was absolutely the best ever, God bless you and keep you safe, and may He give you many many more years.

Deb if I had a wish-I would not wish for wealth or fame or power-I would wish for all the children in the world to have the love and care that is exactly what God had in mind for them.    I would wish for hands to hold them and not hurt them and I would wish for the caretakers to be calm and a great example for the children to follow. God bless you and yours

Time to get ready for church.
I posted this on facebook and I like it so much that I wanted to post it here,.

Whatever you tolerate, will eventually dominate! Compromise is a welcome mat for deception! Dont waver, stand on Gods Word and His Promises!

sleep well everyone
God bless

The Lord is my Shepard

2011-08-14T17:45:00.000-07:00

I had a most interesting and humbling time with the Lord today. Mostly it comes down to what is my God. It is not an idol that I worship or money that I am willing to commit sins to possess. It is not power or reputation. It is not my husband or my children. So after searching myself, after going over my days, after taking the time to see how I spend my minutes and hours and days, I have realized that while I do love the Lord while I do pray to Him while I do spend time reading the Holy Bible, there is something that I spend more time with.

I spend way too much time on the computer. I would love to be able to say that I don't but honestly I do.
Before I got this computer I did not have one at all, the old one broke and I just did not have another. I was praying more and reading my bible and listening to gospel music. NOW not so much.

My fault and I know it. It just sneaked up on me and now it is what it is. And it is up to me to change. So I am going to cut back a lot on my computer usage. I used the computer for intertainment and to pass the time until it was a habit . If I had a moment I would come to the computer, and that is not what I want.

I will be coming here some just not as much. Goodness even my house has suffered, I noticed that yesterday. dust balls in the corners. Babys movies in here and in there and over there. His cars and his books all over the place.

Keep praying for me, keep praying for daughter and her husband, I will be praying for each of you.

Josie you are a delight to know and I love you like you were my own. I am proud of what you are accomplising right now. I know how hard it is and I take pleasure in your successes. I will keep praying for you

Deb everyday when I open my bible I see a white ladies handkerchief with pink lace that used to be tucked in my grandmoms pocket. I see your name wrote on it and I remember that you need prayer. And I mention the special requests . I lift your names to our Father .

God bless you all
I love you

Charlotte, please read, I can not post on your blog

2011-08-07T04:02:00.001-07:00

praise God for His moving in such a wonderful way-thats our God-He will always be there, He said He would, and He can not, and will not lie to us. His love is beyond compare, He is the master of all things and that includes our frail bodies. I love Him, He has never let me down. I am so happy for you and your husband, and what a wonderful testimony. I pray that your story will touch a heart-change a life-bring a soul to the prescence of the Lord. God bless and keep you and your husband in the palm of His hand.

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Stuff going on here-----

My dd has decided to leave her husband-I hope that is what she means. I know that she is getting a small place for her and baby to live. Her hubby does not like the new place because it is out in the country,even though it is half in rent to what they have been paying. He said he will stay where he is, and will visit over there. He complains about money Now it is in the country but she is renting from her uncles wife (my husbands bother that died some time ago the mobile home belongs to her)DShe is giving them the opportunity to rent to own, at a very reduced price, and she is giving dd furniture and tvs to help furnixh the mobile home, becasue dd is going there with just beds and dresser and chest of drawers. (added later----I removed the comment-I wish I had not even thought it-Thank you Lord for letting me know that it was not something that I should have allowed to form in my mind)

I worked yesterday, we did 3 houses anad and 9 condos. I work with a crew of usually 7 people and you would think we would be falling all over each other but we all have a job to do and we go in and do the job and get out. all togeather there are about 10 crews and this weekend a few crews was fired for slack work. Our crew was given a bonus for exemplary work. Made me feel good. It is so easy to clean a house when you don't have to move around a lived in house, AND when there is when there is so many people doing their work with you. Hard work but pay is pretty good, and I love the people that I am working with. Thank you Lord for providing a job for me.

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Psalm 9:1.2
I will give thanks to the Lord with my whole heart,I will tell of all your wonderful deeds. I will be glad and exult in you, I will sing praise to your name, O Most High.

DEAR LORD
I AM HAPPY BECAUSE YOU HAVE ACCEPTED ME, DEAR LORD. SOMETIMES I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH ALL MY HAPPINESS
I SWIM IN YOUR GRACE LIKE A WHALE IN THE OCEAN. THE SAYING GOES 'AN OCEAN NEVER DRIES UP' BUT WE KNOW THAT YOUR GRACE ALSO NEVER FAILS. DEAR LORD, YOUR GRACE AND LOVE IS OUR HAPPINESS, HALLEJAH!!!!

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(copied from "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK")

May God bless each of you
and may our spirits meet each other at the throneroom of God on this wonderful day that the Lord has made just for us.

My Week

2011-07-29T16:18:00.000-07:00

and what a week

I had grandson everyday from Sunday to yesterday. He does take a good deal of my time and thoughts.

And then the drama started again at my Moms house-brother told her that he comes up here 2 and 3 times a week and I tell you I have not seen him since right around Christmas. What was he trying to do . Just to tell such a lie to her is beyand belief and it hit me wrong and I called her and told her that he lied to her, Isaid he seves his master and that she should not belief anything that comes out of his mouth. He came in to her house while I was talking and got mad cause I had said that and he jumped in his car (drunk of course)and headed this way. I am so tired of him just saying things to cause problems. Mom is not easy to get along with but she is 85 and that is her house that he stays in,. and he pays absolutely nothing to stay there. Does not even buy the food he eats. The only reason he said that was just to stir up problems. Remember he told her that I had put his and her names all over the computer and had her upset . I kept telling her I did not do it. but he was standing beside her telling her how I did it. He told her that I don't visit there and it was her fault becasue he and I hav e a good relationship. WHAT A LIAR----I am tired of the drama, and the lies and the way he tries to keep everything stirred up all the time .

I have stayed withing reason on my diet and have dropped about 1 and 1/2 pounds. I have not exercised any this week, I have b een having some allergy problems andit has sapped my energy. But today I felt better, (still did not exercise :) and tomorrow I go back to work. I really enjoyed it and am looking forward to going tomorrow.
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We've got the power in the name of Jesus
We've got the power in the name of the Lord
Though Satan rages, we cannot be defeated
We've got the power in the name of the Lord

God bless

work, tired, God does answer prayer

2011-07-24T05:12:00.000-07:00

ok answers prayer first

In order to  get job, I needed to have a printed copy of my ssi card and my driver liscence. I found my drivers liscence but could not find my ssi card. I searched and searched and just could not find it. Which is strange because I keep the important cards togeather in a special, plastic, small card holder tht fits easilly in my card purse inside my wallet. So I could not understand why it was not there. I looked for it on Fri could not find it so I called the ssi office to see about a replacement and found out that it could take up to 10 days to get it back-I needed it on Sat.   I began praying about it and I got the idea to go look my winter pocket book, I got it out and looked in all the pockets and zippered compartments and I found it.   I am still confused how it got moved because i have not even looked at it in months -like I said it was in a small folder that is in a special place in my wallet. I am just happy that God directed me to it;.

I worked,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I really worked hard and it was an all day job, got there and began working at 6 am and finished at 4:45 pm, with 1/2 hour for lunch.    One beach house was a 3 story and I was up and down those stairs I think 6 times . On the first time I went up quickly and kept thinking "imagine all the calories I am burning", on the last time I was thinking, "I wonder how many bones I will break if I fall" My leg muscles were so hurting and I could barely put my foot on the next step up. BUT I DID IT.  I truly loved the other people that worked with us. Everyone was friendly and funny and it is always nice to work with people that you have osmething in common with.  We all go to the same church and that meant that none of us used bad language. Than made a nice work atmosphere.

I was very tired when I got home and still a bit tired now. I am glad that no matter how I ate, good or bad (and lately it has been more bad than good) I always kept up my exercise because I think that my exercise made the work I was doing a lot easier.  My muscles might not have been totally prepared for the work I did but I think the exercises made it a lot better than it could have been.

The Psalms

122

A Prayer for the Peace of Jerusalem

A Song of degrees of David.

I was glad when they said unto me,

Let us go into the house of the LORD.

Our feet shall stand within thy gates, O Jerusalem.

Jerusalem is builded as a city that is compact together:

whither the tribes go up, the tribes of the LORD,

unto the testimony of Israel,

to give thanks unto the name of the LORD.

For there are set thrones of judgment,

the thrones of the house of David.

Pray for the peace of Jerusalem:

they shall prosper that love thee.

Peace be within thy walls,

and prosperity within thy palaces.

For my brethren and companions' sakes,

I will now say, Peace be within thee.

Because of the house of the LORD our God

I will seek thy good.

I hope everyone has a safe and wonderful Sunday.
God bless

UPDATE (like my life is so exciting that everyone needs to be updated)

2011-07-21T07:47:00.000-07:00

lol

I have had Ry guy since Sunday and he has been at his most needy. ???? I quess it is just a phase but he likes to keep me in seeing distance. Perhaps he heard dd and I talking about him going back to school and some children do not handle change well. Maybe he knows that he will not be coming here as much. He has recently been asking a lot of questions about death and maybe that is it. But anyway I am being patient with his clinging and with his questions. He keeps saying he does not want me to die. I am sure that death is scary to him, but I keep telling him about heaven and it's beauty and how we will all live togeather. And I reassure him that I am healthy and I do not think that I will die anytime soon.

While baby plays in the pool I have been working in the yard. I have gotten a lot done-weeding my garden, which is close to pool=and cleaning up the car port also close to the pool. It has been so hot here that one day I just jumped in the pool with him with all my clothes on.

I am thankful everyday for our AC and I have such compassion for those that do not have it. I don't think that it got this hot when I was a child, or maybe living with ac has spoiled us??????

I love not craving foods when I am on low carb but I want my veggies so I decided this morning to just count calories for a while. I know that I am so wishy washy but I have cucumbers and blueberries and squash and corn that is so yummy, and someone gave us a little over a bushel of fresh red skinned potaoes and they are screaming at me to eat them lol. tomatoes are coming off by the basket fulls. My okra is producing like crazy and my neighbor said they have all they want in their garden and so I can have whatever is left. Cheap food, nutritious and so I am going to walk this way for a while.

I am going to start working one day a week for a cleaning company. We will be working cleaning condos at the beach, or at least I am goiing to try it. Who knows maybe cleaning someone elses house is different from cleaning my own house.____________________________________

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FINALLY, BE STRONG IN THE LORD AND IN THE STRENGTH OF HIS POWER.
EPHESIANS 6:10

I DON'T WANT TO BE WEAK, FICKLE AND UNCERTAIN, GOD. I WANT TO BE A PERSON WHO IS SOLID, KNOWS WHAT IS TRUE AND OPERATES WITH A SENSE OF CONFIDENCE IN YOU. WHERE I AM WEAK, LORD, PLEASE BE MY STRENGTH. WHERE I AM INSECURE, TEACH ME TO BELIEVE IN YOUR ABILITY TO LEAD ME. WHERE I AM UNSTEADY, PLEASE BRING YOUR STABILITY TO ME. LET MY LIFE BE A TESTIMONY TO YOUR POWER.

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BE AS A TOWER, FIRMLY SET;
SHAKES NOT ITS TOP FOR ANY BLAST THAT BLOWS.

-DANTE

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I hope everyone is doing well
May God bless each of you

Charlotte (Chargaile)

2011-07-16T16:18:00.000-07:00

Charlotte (Chargaile)

Sometime ago you posted about the tests that your husband had to have done, and I began praying for him and for you. I read your post this morning and I wanted to let you know that I am still praying and will continue to hold him and you and the rest of your family in my prayers.

I have been unable to reply on your blog and I hope that you see this.

God bless you and give you strength now and in the days ahead.

I am so upset with son in law that I could scream

2011-07-14T09:40:00.000-07:00

baby will be 6 next month-he is advanced for his age and is reading the game guides for video games and playing some games for older children. -final fantasy series, dragon quest series, lunar, lufia, etc. He has been playing Chrono trigger and he had beaten several of the main bosses.

His daddy called yesterday evening and baby was telling him about beating the head boss and his daddy told him to stop talking about those stupid games. He was almost crying and he came running to me (we do not use the word stupid here) and said "daddy said the stupid word, grand ma" I was stunned he would say such a thing to a child. I said I don't think he meant to say it. Then his daddy started yelling and I could hear him yelling all the way across the room.

I realize some people are not into playing video games, but it does help with his reading, and his eye hand coordination. And you have to think about what to do next. Used the right way it is a great learning tool.

I don't care for any sports, none, My son in law loves all sports everything except golf. I feel it is a waste of money and that money would be better spent on academics. These sports stars are paid too much money and they are terrible role models for our young people. . That is just my opinion and we are all entitled to have our opinion. The child had a hard time going to sleep again last night and he was clinging to me even in his sleep. And started first thing this morning about not wanting to go home.

Nothing I can do. nothing at all.

So for him I gave him this day. I told him he could eat what he wanted because this is his day
he could wear what he wanted, etc. He is loving it.

Lord
please hold this chld in your hands protect him Father from those that do not understand how fragile a childs feelings are, how eaasily hurt they can be in their emotions. Lord I know that calling a child names can follow that child even into adulthood. put a fence around him and let him feel your loving prescence. In the name of Jesus Amen

4. Fathers, do not exasperate your children; instead, bring them up in the training and instruction of the Lord
Ephesians 6:4

God bless

my wonderful day

2011-07-13T07:51:00.000-07:00

I know it is just 10:30 and the most past of the day is still ahead of me but so far it has been great.

Grandbaby was hard to settle down last night and finally he slid over across the bed and snuggled up to me and quickly went to sleep,. I just lay there holding him trying to imagine the days ahead when he will grow up and those moments will not occur any more. He is hot natured and lying close to him will quickly be uncomfortable but I held him and cherished those moments. I finally drifted off and some time later he moved away from me.

I prepared his breakfast, nothing but dry cereal today, and some juice , and then some doritoes-(he wanted doritoes for his breakfast dessert) He already knows what he wants for lunch-some talapia cooked in butter just salt no pepper, and since I insist he eats vegetables, green beans and black eyed peas.

We need to do some of "play school" and he loves going to a site of the computer called abcmouse.com. It is wonderful for prekindergaten children up to I think grade 2. He loves it, there is a free part to it and then you can up grade to more things for 10.00 a month. My daughter bought him a subscription to it and he really enjoys it.

Finished my exercises and now am going to start laundry.

Such an exciting life.

I know thast God loves us much more than I love the baby. How very special we must be to Him.

ALL OF HIMSELF

AN INFINITE GOD CAN GIVE ALL OF
HIMSELF TO EACH OF HIS CHILDREN.
HE DOES NOT DISTRIBUTE HIMSELF
THAT EACH MY HAVE A PART, BUT TO
EACH ONE HE GIVES ALL OF HIMSELF
AS FULL AS IF THERE WERE NO OTHERS.

A. W. TOZER

God bless each of you

Good morning

2011-07-12T05:48:00.000-07:00

I found the book I mentioned yesterday and I think it is the same one that Deb mentioned , BREAKING FREE FROM COMPULSIVE EATING BY GENEEN ROTH. I have been reading it off and on since found it.

I found the place that gave a few guidelines about getting more in contol of your eating. This is on page 44 of the paperback edition

1. eat in full view of your friends partner, parents, children, colleagues
2. eat when you are sitting down
3. eat without distracions-radio,tv, newspapers, books or loud music.
4. wen you eat, do so in as lovely and as nourishing an enfironment as you can create.
5. when you eat, avoid emotional conversation.

Yesterday I began doing these 5 things or trying to anyway. It is difficult to eat without distractions when you have a child in the house BUT I can do the best I can with what I have.

Since the m &m incident I have been eating low carb, or maybe I should call this less carb-it is less than 100 and I am trying to keep it around 60 to 70 carbs and I already can tell that I don't feel so appetitidly stressed, (I couldn't think of the right word to use LOL) I don't feel so pushed to go get something/anything to eat. I am also eating low calorie. never say never, never give up, never quit.

I changed my table. It is still not to the point that I want it but dh has to go through his papers and things on the fqr end of the table and then it will be more attractive. I have red placemats at two place and two red and white place mats at the other two places. They are not alike but they compliment each other and it is very pleasing to look at.   I want to figure out a pleasant centerpiece to put out.
I do have things that I can put out, especially things for the fall and Christmas seasons. Just never got around to getting anything for spring/summer times and special occasions.
My dh is doing this too. No more mindless snacking in front of the computer or tv.    I eat pretty healthy-I have bad snacking habitsw. I think if I break those habits I will be better able to lose weight, be healthier, and be a better role model to my family.

Today I have to clean my baby pool for grandbaby, iron, do laundry, sweep and vacumn, and I have not exercised in 3 days and this is just not like me at all. I enjoy exercising.   but my time just kept being filled up with other things at the last minute, at the time I was going to esxercise yesterday someone came and so today I am going to exercise early and that way if something comes up to knock me out of doing it I will still have all day long to work it in.

Heat index here is supposed to be over 100--that is going to be miserable for everyone that is working outside.

FROM THE BOOK WHISPERS OF PROMISE

MAKE ME A CHANNEL

LORD MAKE ME A CHANNEL OF YOUR
PEACE, WHERE THERE IS HATRED,
LET ME BRING LOVE. WHERE THERE IS
OFFENSE, FORGIVENESS. WHERE THERE IS
DISCORD, RECONCILIATION. WHERE
THERE IS DOUBT, FAITH. WHERE
THERE IS DESPAIR,HOPE. WHERE THERE
IS SADNESS, JOY. WHERE THERE IS DARKNESS,
YOUR LIGHT.

ST. FRANCIS OF ASSISI

Have a good day everyone
God bless

The journey of a lifetime

2011-07-11T04:38:00.000-07:00

Did that title get your attention????

I was sitting here, drinking my coffee, and dd spent the night last night with the grandbaby. She will stay here with us for a few nights then she will go to her house for a few nights. SO I have baby here with me from Sunday evening/night until Thursday late evening. I have dd dwith me from Sunday eve./night to Tues Morning. I am so fortunate to have child in the house 3/4ths of the time and my dd I have about 1/2 of the time.

But back to drinking my coffee, I had a book here at one time about compulsive eating and I have misplaced it. I am a clutter bug and I have no problem with being a clutter bug except when I want to find something, then I know I have it but just can't seem to put my hands on it.

But in reading Debs latest blog post, or was it reading somewhere else? (do I have a clutter bug mind too?) anyway something about sitting at the table to eat, having set times to eat, controlling what you can controll and changing what you can change now. So I remember reading something similar to this a while back about eating from a smaller bowl, plate, allowing yourself to get 2nds if you feel you need it . I think it said most of the time you will be satisfied with what is on a smaller plate, but if you get a larger plate and fill it up you will eat as much as you can off of the larger plate. It did not say control yourself as for eating is concerned. Just control where you eat and how the food is presented to you.

I am so very lackadaisical and laid back about so many things. If it is not important in the long run I refuse to stress about it. My kitchen and den is togeather. and my table is a catch all for everything, toys and baby's snacks, and mail and well you get the picture. Dh and I seldom use the table to actually sit down and eat. lol We eat whereever we want to. Most of the time I am in fromt of the computer and he is in front of the tv.

The table will be cleaned off and my pretty place mats will be put down and we will use the table for what it was intended for-(and no my sweet husband it was not intended to hold your tools when you come in with the hammer in your hand it may be convenient to put it on the table but I'm just saying time for a change.o_o). The book or whatever I was reading said part of eating is the aesthetics part of it. Not only do we need to satisy our oral sensations we also need to please ourselves visually. So I will try this-I have tried so many other things that this does not seem like a stretch at all.

Anybody try the cabbage diet? grapefruit diet? etc.

This is something that actually makes some sense.

Any comments or thoughts ?????

The following from a book called "MY PERSONAL DAILY PRAYER BOOK" and todays prayer just seems appropriate

LORD, I MISTAKENLY THINK THAT MY DAY-TO-DAY ACTIONS-GOOD OR BAD-ARE NOT SIGNIFICANT, BUT THEY ARE. I KNOW THAT THE CUMULATIVE EFFECT OF MY SMALL DEEDS OVER A LIFE-TIME WILL CERTAINLY INFULIENCE THE PEOPLE I'M CLOSEST TO, AS WELL AS THOSE WITH WHOM I WORK. I ALSO KNOW THAT A NOT-EXACTLY-ETHICAL CHOICE MAKES A LASTING IMPRESSION ON SPOUSES, CHILDREN, AND COWORKERS. YET, A WISE CHOICE CAN SET SOMEONE ELSE ON THE PATH OF GOOD DECISION MAKING. ONE CAN NEVER KNOW WHO IS WATCHING. THEREFORE, HELP ME DO WHAT'S RIGHT, LORD. AMEN.

and then at the bottom of the page

EVERY HAIR MAKES ITS SHADOW ON THE GROUND
"spanish proverb"

I vow to try to make wise choises, help me Lord to do the best thing in all circumstances.

stay safe everyone
God bless

binge eating??????????????????????

2011-07-10T04:56:00.000-07:00

I have been reading blogs off and on -just random blogs-about being overweight -blogs that talk about how and what and when -all blogs about eating and dieting and starving, and over indulging. And with all of the reading I was doing I never once thought that I was a binge eater. (kinda like I was binging on reading about eating-and binging)

My idea of binging was a really out of control person that was eating uncontrollably, food in both hands, hoping no one knew, wild hair and housecoat on and never opening the door because you were too busy eating.   always like that-----I have a confession to make-I looked up the word binging and low and behold I am a binge eater, and I do get dressed and I do open the door and my hair is 99% of the time neat.

Yesterday I asked dh to get me a pack of peanut butter m &ms. I love them and I know there is nothing wrong with eating them but he came back with a large party size bag of them. I ate them until I felt sick. Not that much in the whole bag deal, dh had some too, I don't know how much he had. I poured some in a small party size cup. You know the kind that is clear and plastic and holds about 8 ounces of liquid (I know it holds that much cause I just went and measured it) I poured it about 3/4ths full and ate them all one at the time. Then I went back and got it about 1/2 full. That was enough to make my tummy hurt and and I felt like I was weak and tired. Too much sugar---I had a sugar overload. And I knew that too much sugar would make me feel that way but I did it anyway. Out of control eating??? I think so!

That is not the only thing I eat like that -at one time or another I have eaten all sorts of food at one sitting untill I felt sick.   I have eaten ----oh well I won't go into detail but as I sit here typing I am thinking of the times that I would eat peanut butter with honey or bananas with honey and that woulds ok but really 5 or 6 of them?

So now that I have the information --now that I have another label/name to add to my list of other labels and name that I call myself-what am I going to do with this new information???? I will read some more, I will try to find out what when where I can do to help me.   I have always felt that you can not make wise choices if you do not have all the information..

I wish I could stop saying "I hate my life"

Well maybe I don't hate my life- maybe I hate the feeling of being emotionally crippled. But wait-I love my husband and I love my children/grandchildren, and I love my God and I love going to church, and I love my friends, and I love holding hands and seeing my garden produce because I got out and planted, and weeded and and wartered it. And I love the fresh tomatoes and cucumbers and okra thast is coming off and I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!! So there it is---I have a minor flaw, but I can work on fixing it, IT IS NOT HOPELESS.

It is 7:30 am Sunday morning and i am going to church. The information absorbing will have to wait. After church this morning, dh and I have been invited to a singing that starts at 2:30 after that dd is bringing grandson over to me for the week.

He has been playing Final fantasy 7 the playstation1 that my kids left behind.   That is really helping his reading. He prononces correctlu and comprehends on a 3 or 4th grade level. We spend at least an hour 4 days a week doing math and reading and writing, and last week I started doing some subtraction and he caught on to that quickly. We also started doing some simple science projects and he gets excited about seeing things like the vinegar and baking soda.   I am glad he thinks of learning like a game.

Have a wonderful day everyone
God bless

SIGH

2011-07-09T04:32:00.000-07:00

I have not posted lately becasuse I have noting to post. I have gotten out of bed determined each day that I would get some kind of control overmy eating. And every day I have failed miserably. My body is not my own it is the temple of the Lord and as such I feel that my eating should show honor to the Lord that I worship.

AND YET--
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I can not seem to get the appetite under control....................
I feel strongly that with me, some of the eating is a matter of habit.

I took a small break from typing and talked with dh about my thoughts. Strong silent type that he is, he had no suggestions, just a quick quirk of his eyebrows, and a nod of his head, and a grunt. Then wise man that he is said "sounds to me like best thing is not to put it on if you don't want to take it off." lol He is so funny sometimes.

But he needs to take off a few pounds too and he is so willing to go along with me on most thingts. So we are going to go it togeather. My way is not working or maybe I don't give it enough time to work-maybe I want instant success.

Ok diet number I lost count maybe 2333 .

Heavenly Father
I am your vessel, but I am a vessel with flaws. Thank you God for loving me with all of my flaws and weaknesses-and thank you because "greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world." I leave it in your hands --

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." JERAMIAH 29;11

Amen

I will look to the Lord for direction in all things, If it causes me problems then I can ask Him for quidance. "The Lord is my Shepherd"

Have a wonderful day
God bless

Grandbaby, dd, diet, exercise

2011-07-06T04:53:00.000-07:00

Grandbaby is here and so is dd, The air conditioner is broken in their home and so they are here. and have been since Sunday morning.   I love having them here and I have asked son in law to come to but he won't do it.

yesterday I ate low carb and low calorie, I ate around 80 grams of carbs and about 1500 calories. Plus I did a 5 mile Leslie video, and I used 3 pound weights in each hand. I feel good and I am going to try to go a little more on the low carb veggies today. I have noticed that the veggies I love the most are lower in carbs AND calories. Dh bought some brussel sprouts for me yesterday- His way of saying he was sorry for the argument we had over the weekend. He is such a strong silent type and while he says he is sorry, he wants to buy me something to. He used to buy me chocolates, now he buys a bag of my favorite veggies. LOL   He brought in the bag and took the bag of brussel sprouts out and sounding like a bashful boy said "I bought this for you" I love brussel sprouts and I think I will do them like Josie likes them but instead of using butter I thinkI will use butter flavor pan spray. and pan fry them. I need to look up the carbs and see how many I can eat without going too far over my set limits.

I am glad grandson is not a big sweets eater. He love cheese sticks, and devilled eggs, and trix cereal and mini wheats for snacks. That keeps me from seeing and wanting the candy or cookies that most children want.

I don't know when grandson and dd will go home. Not only is her air not working but the house needs to be funigated.   She saw one of the huge roaches in her house and that is one thing she can not stand. She is afraid of them.    So if it is sprayed they all need to stay out of the house at least several hours.
This is the way I feel, I will always be their mother and my heart, my lap and my house will always be available to them if they need me. Just as God is always there for His children.

Matthew 7:9-11

King James Version (KJV)

⁹Or what man is there of you, whom if his son ask bread, will he give him a stone?
¹⁰Or if he ask a fish, will he give him a serpent?
¹¹If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good things to them that ask him?

Have a great day, be safe
God bless

New day, new outlook, new plans,

2011-07-05T05:39:00.000-07:00

Never say quit, never give up or give in, I will not allow what I consume to consume me.

I have to eat (for the most part)low carb because of the hives. They are so uncomfortable that I am not tempted to indulge in the breads and/or anything that has grains on or in it. I eat too much, when I am not watching what I eat being as careful as a warden in a prison, then I over eat. I hate knowing that if I indulge in the short term I will pay for it in the long term. I hate knowing and admitting that food or anything of this world has such a control over me.

I think for me since I eat fairly low carb all the time, in order for me to get a grip on my eating I need to count calories. I have to be able to say to myself , there is the number and after that number you are done for the day. When this stops working I will shake it up and go a different route. But wheather we go this route or that route, our destination is the same-healthy body, weight loss, energy to keep up with what we have to do each day, lower cholesterol, lower blood pressure, less chance of heart attack, less chance of stroke, less chance of, or lower diabetes, less chance of altzimers,less chance of obesity related cancers. And being able to fit in that pretty blue dress that my dd gave me. (just 10 pounds should get me in it) So short term goal is 10 pounds.

Thank you Deb and Josie for your loving response to my last post. I really needed to hear what you said, I prayed a lot and asked The Lord to guide me and help me in ALL areas. I love you both and I am so grateful that I "met" you and that you are my sisters in the Lord. I value your prayers and wisdom.

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The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He maketh me to lie down in green pastures:
he leadeth me beside the still waters.

He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the
paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the
shadow of death; I will fear no evil: for thou
art with me; thy rod and thy staff they
comfort me.

Thou preparest a table before me in the
presence of mine enemies: thou anointest
my head with oil; my cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all
the days of my life; and I will dwell in the
house of the Lord for ever.

Have a wonderful and safe day
God bless

Bare Naked part two

2011-07-04T04:55:00.000-07:00

Taking the covers off and really taking a good look at me

What do I see when I look at me. I know that as an adult survivor of childhood abuse, my percpetions are a little skewerd (is that a real word?) I see the world in a lot of totally black or totally white. Example from my perspective only =I do not think that everyone should look at the world the way I do-I expect everyone to give me that same right. I do not think that people that do bad things can be called good people. My sister tells me all the time that Person A is a good person. I tell her he is not good if he tells dirty jokes, or runs around on his wife. Good people don't do that.

Sometimes I look at myself, not the outer me but the inner me ,and I see someone that has been taken apart and a childs hand has tried to put the peices where they belong. Ry used to have a book that the pictures of people were cut at the neck and at the middle and at the knees. You could put a womans head on a mans body or have purple shirt polka dotted mens pants and high heeled shoes. I am glad he did not enjoy playing with it cause it seemed a little odd to want to do such a thing. And yet I feel that way like something is not quite right with me.

I seem to be constantly trying to get my mind to line up.

Why does it seem like I am all or nothing? Either I am dieting, to stay healthy, lose weight , have energy or I am trying to eat everything in the house wheather it is good or bad. What triggers me to be the bull in the china shop -not caring if I damage the fragile china (the fragile china is me :}

OK enough

I woke this morning back in the right mode-plans are made go get groceries and I will get what I need to sustain a healthy diet.
I started on diet number 2377 today. I have done this so much I could be called an expert on dieting-I know what should be done, I know what needs to be done, I don't know how to make myself continue the plan day after day after day after day---etc. And I don't know how to get right back up, and I don't know how to forgive myself when I fail and I don't know how to stop putting my self down for failing.

Why can't I say "oops" and keep on trucking.

But right now this minute

I prepared a low carb (and low calorie, although I did not plan it that way)

two egg whites and one whole egg
stir fried veggies (okra, broccoli, cauliflower, onions, shredded cheese)
in other words a veggie omelet- although I prepared the veggies like a stir fry becasue I wanted to put just a little soy sauce on my veggies, I should have looked it up first just to see if soy sauce is allowed I didn't and now it is too late becasue I ate it and I really enjoyed it.

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¹⁰When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up.
¹¹Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies.
¹²Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty.
¹³I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living.
¹⁴Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD.

Bare naked for all the world to see

2011-07-03T12:24:00.000-07:00

So I have no idea exactly what I will uncover. But I do know that I can not change what I am doing unless I uncover what I have been doing. I don't think I can change it unless I admit that I am daily getting worse and worse with my food choices.

Moose tracks
chocolate syrup
sandwiches
bologna
potatoe chips
etc.\\\\\I really can not remember it all but the past 4 days has been terrible. If I was drinking I would call it a 72 hour drunk.

I am going to change, I am going to make it different. I am going to work on this, I do not like the sluggish way I feel. I love having energy.

I know that I can eat unprocessed and I know that I will feel better and I will lose weight and I know that with me setting the example my dh will also eat better. Or at least he will eat better at home.

My dd wants to join us in our eating plan. so with that in mind Anyone that can give me advice please do it, I will be grateful to any and all that is willing to give me pointers. I will take advice tips and hints. After all I am not doing too well on my own am I? I have always felt that if what you are doing is not working, then do something different. You will eventually hit on what works for you.

I will be eating as unprocessed as possible.

Everyone please write down and let me know what you are eating. You might have thought of a different food that I have, you could give me ideas. I value your help.

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Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)
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God bless

I wish I had a pill,

2011-06-28T17:55:00.000-07:00

I think that title is the start of a really twangy country music song.

A magic pill====

Years ago probably close to 45 I read a book called stranger in a strange land. I don't remember a lot about it-His parents had been astronauts and crashed somewhere, they had a child and then both parents died. The child was raised by some (I think) spirit entitys and they imparted to him certains mental abilities. He could make people do things. He was found and taken back to earth. He escaped and met a woman that had a weight problem, he gave to her the ability to lose eweight. He changed something in her brain. Even as a young girl I had a weight problem-I wanted to get that ability. I still want that magic pill, that easy way, I mentioned before it was easier to stop smoking than lose weight. I would be a little satisfied to just be healthhy-the only problem is I noticed a long time ago that I am either gaining or losing --I am never just staying at the same weight.

Both kids were here today. They were not bad, just kids, they were loud at times and way too bouncy but they were just kids. My husband got a little short with them and I asked him what do you expect from 5 yr. olds. they forget instructions they do not think like we do. You can't expect kids to act like 20 yr. olds.

BIL is now being taken to rehabilitaion, he fought it at first but they told him if he did not try to move then they would have to put him in a nursing home. Almost immdieately he began making the effort to move cause he wants to go hom.

COMFORTING THOUGHTS

FOR EACH OF US THE TIME IS SURELY
COMING WHEN WE SHALL HAVE
NOTHING BUT GOD. HEALTH AND
WEALTH AND FRIENDS AND HIDING PLACES
WILL ALL BE SWEPT AWAY....
TO THE MAN OF PSEUDO FAITH THAT
IS A TERRIFYING THOUGHT, BUT TO
REAL FAITH IT IS ONE OF THE MOST
COMFORTING THOUGHTS THE HEART CAN
ENTERTAIN.

A. W. TOZER

Sleep well everyone
God bless

Six AM Tuesday morning-

2011-06-28T03:29:00.000-07:00

I have been up since 5 am My daughter and grandson have been here since Sunday. She has not left her husband but she has just stayed because she wanted to spend extra time with her son after she gets off work. Thats fine I really enjoy her being here and you know I love having the baby here. Anyway she packed all here little everyday things up this morning and said she would be back Thursday afternoon. I know that I should not voice my thoughts, I know that it is her decision but I wish she would leave him. I know that she has already had one bad marriage (the crack addict) and she does not want another failed marriage but really the first one becasue of drugs and this one is because he has no patience and he is selvish totally wrapped up in what he wants and he gets what he wants too even if it makes her and baby do without.
All I can do is be here and try to give to the baby reassurance that I will be here. He actually called the baby a piece of sh*t. He was angry but still you don't call a five yr old names. I know that things like that can scar children.

Deb I am happy for you, and still praising God for sending wonderful answer to our prayers. I love know that no problem is too big for our God and no matter what it is *The Answer is Already on the Way*

Now as for my diet-------WHERE DID MY DIET GO-----I know it is here somewhere???Someone else has decided to drive my body while I slept and they got control of it an I decided that Ineeded to eat sweets. I proceeded to eat and eat and eat. Yesterday it was almost like I was in a sound proof room and I was screaming "stop you must stop or you will really go too far in that direction and you will have to fix it later" But nothing I did could stop the out of control-ness of my desires for sweets I tried but the temporary desire for tastebud satisfaction overpowered my desire to eat healthy. Today is another day and I will try again.

Sometimes Iwish I could stick my fingers into my brain and rearrage things -move this to the basement part of my brain -delete that memoriy, cover that window with a very thick curtain-put a padlock on that room. Call in the house makeover people and have them just totally tear that part of my brain down and build me a new one.
But then I might lose the part of me that makes me who I am,

God loves me "just as I am" He sees all the parts, I know that if He did not like something that I do- He would let me know in no uncertain terms that I need to change.

Thank you Lord for being a loving and caring father. Thank you for letting me know that no matter what it is , no matter how many times I fail, you are there to help me back up to my feet. If I fail in a little thing or a big thing you are there with your hand out to help me. Today I have another day, and thank you for this day, give me strength to do the very best that I can with this valuable gift. Amen

Text: Charlotte Elliott, 1789-1871
Music: William B. Bradbury, 1816-1868
Tune: WOODWORTH, Meter: LM

1. Just as I am, without one plea, 
 but that thy blood was shed for me, 
 and that thou bidst me come to thee, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 

2. Just as I am, and waiting not 
 to rid my soul of one dark blot, 
 to thee whose blood can cleanse each spot, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 

3. Just as I am, though tossed about 
 with many a conflict, many a doubt, 
 fightings and fears within, without, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 

4. Just as I am, poor, wretched, blind; 
 sight, riches, healing of the mind, 
 yea, all I need in thee to find, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 

5. Just as I am, thou wilt receive, 
 wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve; 
 because thy promise I believe, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come. 

6. Just as I am, thy love unknown 
 hath broken every barrier down; 
 now, to be thine, yea thine alone, 
 O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

May each of us have a wonderful day in the Lord

God bless.

Thoughts going round and changes

2011-06-25T06:14:00.000-07:00

When I woke this morning, I started praying for Deb and her babies. My heart aches for her and for them and I am so frustrated tht I can not do something to make this right. To a much much much lesser degree I am having some issues with my dd and her husband. I called there and he was screaming (literally screaming) at the (5 yr. old) baby. I asked dd what he did to warrent being screamed at like that and she said baby would not stay in the tub . In other words they put him in the tub and leave the bathroom and then the baby gets out. That is not worthy of being screamed at.

It breaks my heart that I can't make the babies live safe and secure with the people that says they love them. My heart aches to know that there is nothing that I can do. I pray and I weep. Debs babies are living with what I lived with. I still have nightmres, I am almost 60 and I still have nightmares. My mom used to yell all the time dad would beat and mom would yell and the household was a terror. I had an ulcer by the time I was 20, and right after that I started drinking really heavy and i tried drugs but did not care for that my drug of choice was alcohol and my favorite drink was sloe gin fizz.

Ry cries to come back to my house. Thursday eveng when dd came to get him he wrapped his arms around my legs and kept saying he was not going home.

About 10 yrs ago there was a country music song "I've got to much on my mind" and that is the way I feel -just my heart hurts with the pain I know others are going through. Children are the most fulnerable.. and get hurt the worse.   I am grown and I can fight and defend myself but what hope does the children have.

After talking to dh about my diet, (yes I discuss just about everything with him) I have decided to go back to low calorie with modifications.   Several yrs ago I developed an allergy to wheat that I know for sure and possibly other grains as well. I just got tired of keeping the diary. So I cut out all grains except for the occasional cornmeal flapjack. I ate totally natural. NO processed foods at all. and I dropped weight quickly and I still ate a very well rounded diet.

The thing is my garden is coming off and I want to eat my vegetables, okra and squash and tomatoes and bell peppers and cucumbers and corn and beans.   So I will be omitting grains, minimizing intake of starchs and no processed sugars.

So it is 9:00 am and I have prayed and cried and made some changes in my diet. I am ready for some peace.

Deb, those children own a piece of my heart now. I have claimed them and I love them.   When my grandmother died (the only person I can ever remember hugging me) I received one of her handkerchiefs. I pulled it out today and wrote your name on it and "your grandchildren" on it. I annointed it in oil and I prayed over the cloth. it is in a little baggie and it is going in my bible. May the Lord hear our prayer, please dear Lord hasten to lift these children out of their abuse. Thank you Lord, for your Love, Thank you Jesus for interceding and thank you Holy Ghost for your comfort. In the name of our Jesus Christ.
Amen

God bless each of you that reads this and prays for this family

bil, urges, sister, baby

2011-06-24T07:01:00.000-07:00

Brother in law is back in ICU, sister had 24 hour virus and could not go to see him yesterday but she told my mom and brother that she was having so much trouble getting a baby sitter. I have offered over and over again, she is the one that kept asking everyone to watch her granddaughter. All this week she has put the little girl here I did not have a problem with it . I love children and I have a lot of patience with children. And I play with them and teach them through play and I read to them and help them cook cookies ack ack ack Why would she say that she was having trouble getting someone to keep the little girl. ---with her it is always drama always something always trying to say things that will make her look good and make others feel sorry for her. I know that is the way she is and it still hurts for her to do it.

My grandson went home last evening, I sure miss him when he is not here. He is not just a grandchild that I babysit for my daghter, he is an important part of my heart and my life.

I had baked leftover chicken this morning for breakfast with a little bit of spicy ranch dressing as a dip, one cup of steamed broccoli and a sliced cucumber. My husband stares at me a-lol I can eat breakfast for supper so why not supper for breakfast? I am having some problems with emotional cravings and yearnings.

I WISH I LIVED ON AN ISLAND no phone no neighbors and only my computer -oh and husband and children and grand children------oh never mind pretty soon I would have everyone around me there too. :)

BIBLE VERSES TO LIFT AND ENCOURAGE (me)

“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah. Psalm 46:1-3,7

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)

I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8 (AMP)

Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)

He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. Psalm 62:6 (AMP)

Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)

The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)

low carb, exercise, BIL,

2011-06-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

I did good today, Itried to keep my carbs low, I kept up with them and it is 15 to 17. I was very careful.

I excercised for an hour and the two kids were really good. Now this morning they were both sick, they threw up, niece once and grandson twice. ewwwweeee, I think it was because they were trying to stand on their heads. They were very proud of the fact that they were trying to stand on their heads. lol. NOPE nothing boring here.

Bil had been moved from ICU to a private room and he started bleeding through his bowels. It is one thing afrter another. Sister looks like she is ready to collapse.I'm doing all I can to take as much as I can from her. But she is still driving about 20 miles one way and then stays with him all day then drives back home picks up her granddaughter and goes home.

I was so glad to finally post of Josies blog. I would pm her on facebook and I loved being able to do that but I do like commenting on her blog.

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The LORD [is] my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, [and] my high tower.

sleep well everyone

God bless

30for30,eating & exercise, children

2011-06-20T17:19:00.000-07:00

My 30 for 30 update for the week- I really did do good except for (possibly) Fri. when my kids came in and we went to the chinese restaurant. I was picky about what I got from the buffet. I only chose foods that were not fried but as I mentioned elsewhere you just don't know what is in the sauce they put on the meat.
Each day I stayed low carb, I am not really seeing a differance in the scales but I am seeing a differance in the way my clothes fit. I am not nearly as miserable in my church clothes. I have more energy, I have less cravings.

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Josie, I read you blog and I want to reply to your blog here

I never was a big pasta or rice eater, my weakness was sandwiches. I would eat what ever woud fit between two pieces of bread. It was very difficult the first time I went to Golden Corral and they put that buttered bread in the middle of the table. But the desire to eat like that gets a little easier to handle as I got more into the low carb eating. I am not even going to try to say that I didn't want it I am saying it just got a little easier.

I quess I am lucky that I love broccoly and brussel sprouts and okra and cauliflower, I love celery -I put chicken salad on celery and eat it as finger food. Fooling myself with child psychology that I am eating an unusual sandwich.

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I ate good today, and I exercised for an hour. I love doing leslie sansonne videos. My niece asked today what I was doing I told her I was exercising and she asked why, (remember she's 5 and it don't pay to give too much details) I said to get big muscles she asked to see my muscle and I showed her and she said "where is it "so I pointed and she said where I pointed again and she said "that flappy thing under your arm is a muscle, too?"

I laughed, I mean what else could I do?

I am Thanking you Right NOW

author unknown

Dear GOD:
I want to thank You for what you have already done.
I am not going to wait until I see results or receive rewards;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until I feel better or things look better;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until people say they are sorry or until they stop talking about me;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the pain in my body disappears ;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until my financial situation improves;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until the children are asleep and the house is quiet;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I get promoted at work or until I get the job;
I am going to thank you right now.
I am not going to wait until I understand every experience in my life that has caused me pain or grief;
I am thanking you right now.
I am not going to wait until the journey gets easier or the challenges are removed;
I am thanking you right now.
I am thanking you because I am alive. I am thanking you because I made it through the day's difficulties. I am thanking you because I have walked around the obstacles.
I am thanking you because I have the ability and the opportunity to do more and do better.
I'm thanking you because FATHER, YOU haven't given up on me.

Sleep well
God bless

eating, baby, exercise

2011-06-19T17:26:00.000-07:00

I skipped a few days writing but I have stayed on track as far as the eating is concerned. Stayed low carb except maybe on Friday but I really tried to stay away from the obvious high carb foods.

I exercised everyday either cutting grass or hoeing the garden or exercising by video. My clothes are really starting to be less tight. I am not evengoing to fool myself into thinking that I have lost a lot becasue the scales are not showing that and you all know that I weigh every day and I would notice if there was a differance. BUT my clothes are less snug. They are more comfortable. I'll take it and be pleased with it.

Baby came last Sunday and has been here day and night since then. He does not want to go home. I asked him yesterday why he did not want to go home and he said "daddy yells at me" He never gets yelled at here. I raise my voice a bit but mostly I bend down to his level look him in the eye and just tell him when I expect . Most of the time it works. I asked my dd about it and she said her husband has no paitence with the baby. I know that can cause problems in a child. Well if they don't mind him being with me then it is fine with me. I tell him about God and we laugh and I read to him and hug him.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

PS -Deb I am still praying for you and your family. I believe God is working.

psalm 25, my family,

2011-06-17T20:09:00.000-07:00

I woke early this morning and as I prayed , I was led to psalm 25, I read it several times and was comforted. I could feel the prescence of God, and I could feel the combined prayes of others.

My Children came in around noon to celebrate fathers day. They took us both out for lundh and I was very careful not to eat anything tht was high carb. It is a little more difficult to stay low carb when you eat out. So everyone was here at my little house except my son in law and he had to work. I had my neice here with me while my sister was at the hospital with my sick brother in law. He is now sitting up and eating jello and ice. lungs is working fine and now they are saying that he had kneumonia(sp)
So sister stopped by to pick her up.

So at onetime there was 6 adults and 5 children in the house and it was a loud happy time. Then mydaughter and daughter in law and me went shopping. I bought a beautiful black and white dress with a black thin jacket from Ross. I love it .

The Holy Bible: King James Version. 2000.

The Psalms

A Prayer for Guidance, Pardon and Protection

A Psalm of David.

Unto thee, O LORD, do I lift up my soul.

O my God, I trust in thee:

let me not be ashamed,

let not mine enemies triumph over me.

Yea, let none that wait on thee be ashamed:

let them be ashamed which transgress without cause.

Show me thy ways, O LORD;

teach me thy paths.

Lead me in thy truth, and teach me:

for thou art the God of my salvation;

on thee do I wait all the day.

Remember, O LORD, thy tender mercies and thy loving-kindnesses;

for they have been ever of old.

Remember not the sins of my youth, nor my transgressions:

according to thy mercy remember thou me

for thy goodness' sake, O LORD.

Good and upright is the LORD:

therefore will he teach sinners in the way.

The meek will he guide in judgment:

and the meek will he teach his way.

All the paths of the LORD are mercy and truth

unto such as keep his covenant and his testimonies.

For thy name's sake, O LORD,

pardon mine iniquity; for it is great.

What man is he that feareth the LORD?

Him shall he teach in the way that he shall choose.

His soul shall dwell at ease;

and his seed shall inherit the earth.

The secret of the LORD is with them that fear him;

and he will show them his covenant.

Mine eyes are ever toward the LORD;

for he shall pluck my feet out of the net.

Turn thee unto me, and have mercy upon me;

for I am desolate and afflicted.

The troubles of my heart are enlarged:

O bring thou me out of my distresses.

Look upon mine affliction and my pain;

and forgive all my sins.

Consider mine enemies; for they are many;

and they hate me with cruel hatred.

O keep my soul, and deliver me:

let me not be ashamed; for I put my trust in thee.

Let integrity and uprightness preserve me;

for I wait on thee.

Redeem Israel, O God,

out of all his troubles.

Sleep well everyone
God bless and protect and keep safe the ones that we prayed for
May He hold them in the palm of His hand, may He build a fence around each of them and keep the enemy from coming near.
Amen

BIL, grandson, eating and exercising, my garden

2011-06-16T17:38:00.000-07:00

Bil in siiting up. They actually had him get up and take a few steps to a chair and he sat there for a short time. Miracle only by Gods grace could he have come this far, I would not have thought he would last another 24 hours. Why do I have such little faith? I know what my God can do. He shows me His love every day.

Grandson went home today I truly miss him (yes I do know he is not my child, :) but I have been watching him in my home as his primary babysitter/and only living grandma since he was 6 weeks old)And for two to 2 and 1/2 years he spends the first part of each week here day and night. so while I know he is not mine he sure feels like mine.

I am so blessed that I get to watch grandson during the summer months. He keeps me on my toes. I can't remember my children being this smart, but he is so quick that I decided last summer I would start teaching him a little bit each day. His teacher told my dd that he was very bright and he aced the tests he needed to take to go up, he did a perfect scores. In fact they said he was doing work on a 3rd grade level.

So this week I started teaching him again, he is doing math in his head, I started with pennys and he quickly out grew the need to have the pennies. I put the problem on a card and put it in front of him like 7 + 8 he lifts his eyes moves his lips and gives the correct answer. Same way with spelling, I show him the word and we go over it one time and then he can spell it without looking, even the next day he can spell it . And he is so excited about being able to read big boy books (what he calls them) I really feel he needs someone that knows what they are doing to teach him.

I don't want to try teaching him something he is not ready for and I don't want to try teaching him something that is boring to him. dI quess I need to do some goolgle searching to find out what is best.

I ate good today, I love that my cravings have dropped down to the point that they are like distant whispers instead of ear splitting yelling. I told dh once that some foods calls me so lound I can hear it anywhere I go =no matter what I am doing I could hear the chocolate cake and icecream calling me.
You remember reading about the sirens that set on rocks and sang beautiful songs to entice the sailors and when the sailors would come toward the sirens the rocks would tear the ship up and the sailors would be doomed. The sailors just could not resist the beautifulsongs, and that was the way I was ===I could hear the voice of the forbidden food and I would go look at it and then I would just be so tempted and usually I would succumb to that siren song.

I also exercise really good, Over an hour hoeing and over an hour pushing the mower.

Just Like Me

Dear Lord, forgive our yielding to temptation;
Forgive our pride, our love of worldly things.
Have mercy on our love of sensual pleasure,
Compassion on the sins that self love brings.

It must be hard to understand us sometimes;
So very different is your heart and mind.
But wait, I just remembered that you do know
What it’s like to be a part of humankind.

You suffered just like we do, and you were tempted.
You lived with us so you could comprehend
The things that we go through each trying day,
So you could give us mercy, and be our friend.

Thank you for compassion and forgiveness;
Thank you for your love and empathy.
Thank you, Lord, for coming down from heaven
To experience life’s trials, just like me.

By Joanna Fuchs Sleep well everyonePlease remember that we have a date in the morning A time that we will be lifting up a friend, someone that we care for A sister in the Lord, We will gather togeather in one accord to bring this need to theone that is in control, I hope to see you there,God bless

This is going to have complaints in it---

2011-06-15T19:06:00.000-07:00

I am tired of dishonest people. My husbands brother (the one that just died)was a hard working manhestayed busy and he has been a Christiansince he was a young man. He worked hard and his efforts paid off. He left his wife VERY well off. NOW another brother is trying to say that some of the propert that her husband worked hard for actrually belonged to him . Nothing onpaper nothing writtten down ==she called me tonight crying and telling me about it. I told her to go talk to their lawyer, bring the concerns to the probate judge/ I know brother number two and yes he is that type always trying to get soemthing the easy way.

I am tired of all of the dishonorable politicions that are running our country. I pay (some of it) their salary and I expect better than what they are doing. I amtired of themlivingthe life of riley on our tax dollars while they do their dishonest immoral unetical dirty deeds/.

Ok on to happier news-sisters husband is still improving I want to say by leaps andbounds but actually it is by a snails pace BUT he is off of all the drips and he is cognizant of where he is and why he is there. I can only praise God because last night I was sure he would not last another 24 hours. God is good.

MM ( widow of deceased bil) gave my grandson a huge pool andblow up toysfor the pool. She said her grands had out grown it. It is practically brand new . My baby is just excited about it. I cleaned it up today and Ifilled it with water so it would be warmer tomorrow I turned around to turn the water off and heard a splash and he had jumped in it. completely naked.

Verses to give us strength and hope.

“These things I have spoken to you, so that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth should change and though the mountains slip into the heart of the sea; though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains quake at its swelling pride. Selah. The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Selah. Psalm 46:1-3,7

‘Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’ Isaiah 41:10
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. 2 Tim 1:7 (AMP)

I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved. Psalm 16:8 (AMP)

Cast your burden on the Lord [releasing the weight of it] and He will sustain you; He will never allow the [consistently] righteous to be moved (made to slip, fall, or fail). Psalm 55:22 (AMP)

He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved. Psalm 62:6 (AMP)

Casting the whole of your care [all your anxieties, all your worries, all your concerns, once and for all] on Him, for He cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully. 1 Peter 5:7 (AMP)

The Lord is good, a Strength and Stronghold in the day of trouble; He knows (recognizes, has knowledge of, and understands) those who take refuge and trust in Him. Nahum 1:7 (AMP)

“The steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3

Sleep well everyone
God bless and keep you safe
I love each of you-and thank you for your prayers

Wed. june 15,2011---1:10 PM

2011-06-15T10:27:00.000-07:00

This morning about an hour ago, they took off the oxygen and bil is breathing on his own, his kidneys are not working 100 percent but they said there is nothing to prevent him from regaining the usage of his kidneys. Temps is normal,. and he is talking normal for the first time in over 2 weeks. He is no longer tied down and he does not have full motor control but again they said if he started slowly he would regain his leg and arm muscles.

God answers prayer, I am praying for two other important requests. The friend that died a few weeks ago-I saw his widow Sunday and she really needs to belifted up. She is on the edge of collapse , her son in law told me she just lies inbed all the time. please pray

and Debs precious babies, I pray that God just wraps His loving arms around those children and Deb. He sees the smallest sparrow and I know He is there with the children. They are so much more important than little birds. God I know they are not mine to give but I place them in Your hands -protect them Father and keep them from harm in their bodies and in their minds. Amen

quick update,

2011-06-14T19:31:00.000-07:00

bil is not on dialysis, he is making a sound that my sister calls the death rattle, I've never heard it.

He is getting blood tonight, he is a rare type andit is being brought in by the red cross.

Things is just looking worse and worse.

Sleep well everyone
love you all and thanks for your prayers.

been a few days, bil, singing, grandson

2011-06-13T18:02:00.000-07:00

I have been busy the last couple of days, not anything imposrtant just one of those few days that seems like something is going on or soemthing is happing all the time.

My bil is now not responding to what they are doing in the hospital. he is getting weaker and he is still hooked to so many drips and lines going into so many different parts of his body> it is just sad.

We went to a singing Sunday night and the spirit of God just touched everyone there. I know thaqt I got a blessing. I love being in services like that. I love going to church and I love hearing the word preached and I love it when the spirit is sweetly touching each of us, it is like manna from heaven.

I started with my grandsons lessons today. I know he is just five, (6 in august) but he is smart. I started him on third grade math and he is doin great on it. I started teaching him spelling and he already knew almost all of the 2 letter words and most of the 3 letter words and some of the 4 letter words. Reading is not a problem, he plays video games and he reads the instruction guides for the games. I am not pushing just gently leading him and for the most part he acts like it is all a game. he read a book to me when he got finished. We only work about an hour.

30for30
I have been letting the exercise slide a bit in the last week-I still have been doing ok with it-I mowed grass two days last week and 3 days my leg hurt so I did weights one day and thendid chair exercises one day andoneday I did nothing. Before the knee hurt I walked at the park with a friend, and the day before that I did an arobics exercise.

Now for the eating, I have stayed on the low carb eating everyday and at this time I have lost about 5 pounds and while that is not a lot of weight, I have lost size and one of the dresses that was just a touch snug is now fitting. I am not hungry------that is the best thing I am not hungry and I do eat veggies and I have a salad almost every day. I eat veggies and cauliflower, and broccoli and brussel sprouts. I am not tempted by the things that used to call me by name. I love fudge. My husband volunteers at harvest hope and today two people did not show up for their boxes so the boxes were devided amoung the workers. In the box dh got was a box of fudge. now usually when he gets stuff from there I take a few things and send the rest to someone that needs a little extra and today instead of lookin gat the fudge and yearning I just put it into a box to give to the family. I love this diet.

I used to think it was all meat and eggs and cheese and I thought how unhealthy that sounds. But I read up on it and it is actually very nutritious.

And that is my week on the 30for30......

Here is one of my favorite songs

Four Days Late

The news came to Jesus,
"Please come fast.
Lazarus is sick and
Without your help he will not last."
Mary and Martha watched their brother die.
They waited for Jesus, He did not come
And they wondered why.

The dead watch was over -
Buried four days.
Then somebody said,
"He'll soon be here, the Lord's on his way."
Martha ran to him and then she cried,
"Lord if you had been here
You could have healed him,
He'd still be alive."

But You're four days late
And all hope is gone.
Lord, we don't understand
Why You waited so long.
But His way is God's way
Not yours or mine.
And isn't it great
When He's four days late
He's still on time?

Jesus said, "Martha, show me the grave"
But she said, "Lord, you don't understand,
He's been there four days."
The grave stone was rolled back
Then Jesus cried,
"Lazarus, come forth!"
Then somebody said,
"He's alive, he's alive!"

You may be fighting a battle of fear
You cry to the Lord,
"I need you now."
But he has not appeared
Friend, don't be discouraged
'Cause he's still the same.
He'll soon be here,
He'll roll back the stone,
And he'll call out your name.

But He's four days late
And all hope is gone.
Lord, we don't understand
Why You waited so long.
But His way is God's way
Not yours or mine.
And isn't it great
When He's four days late
He's still on time?

He's still on time
Oh my God is great
When He's four days late
He's still on time
He's still on time

Sleep well
God bless

BIL, shopping, friend, church

2011-06-10T17:25:00.000-07:00

Dh and I went this morning to see BIL and it was very pitiful, he had a drip going into his temple and several going into each arm and oxigen going into his nose and tube going down his throat. I talked to him and his eyes would blink but of course he could not talk. He kept blinking his eyes likehe wanted to let me know he was hearing me. Dh andI prayed for him before we left, and while I prayed he it looked he was crying. I felt so sorry for him, my sister asked him later if he remembered us coming and he moved his head just a bit to indicate no. I really am afraid that he may not come home;. His kidneys are not working and his muscles are atrophying (sp). Just sad. And my sister is going up there every day to sit with im and she will be 69 in a few weeks. This is wearing her out.

When we left there we stopped by aldis and I bought lots of low carb meats and veggies. I bought a huge bag of pork skins. Zero carbs, eggs, 0 carbs and I bought green beans and mushrooms and a lettuce and other salad vegetables and two low carb dressings. I am psyched about this way of eating, I don't get hungry and if I do I go get something. And I am full of energy, And I am losing weight.

One of my followers has left me, I hope I did not say anything to hurt her. If I did I am so sorry.

Now for something that I want to discuss with my internet friends.

My husband likes the church we go to, I really do not. The Sunday School teacher is so dry and he laughs at the most inappropriate times and at the most unfunny things.

Thats not all-but with everything my dh still wants to go there. So give me advice, I could start talking about it to him, but knowing how he feels should I mention it?

O God, You are my God;
Early will I seek You;
My soul thirsts for You;
My flesh longs for You
In a dry and thirsty land
Where there is no water,
So I have looked for You in the sanctuary,
To see Your power and Your glory,
Because Your lovingkindness is better than life,
My lips shall praise You.
Thus I will bless You while I live;
I will lift up my hands in Your name.
My soul shall be satisfied as with marrow and fatness,
And my mouth shall praise you with joyful lips.
Psalm 63: 1-5

Sleep well everyone
God bless

empty house, thank you Becky, (hugs to Josie)knee still hurts

2011-06-09T17:29:00.000-07:00

The baby went home today-and my house seems so empty. I know he will be back Sunday afternoon, but I still miss him. When he is here I try to spend a lot of time with him. I want to give to him what I never got from my mom and my children never got that love and attention from my mom. I want him to remember me with fondness and joy when he talks about me to his children. I want him to have wonderful memories. But now that he is gone I don't have an excuse not to clean my house. Tomorrow I honestly have to sweep and clean commode. lol   :0

Becky thanks so much for your prayers and sorry I can't post on your blog. I don't know what the problemis but I can't post on several others blog either.

Josie I love how you express your thoughts, so many times it is like you are connected to my mind. I love all kinds of fish, even canned tuna and sardines although to be totally honest about that, I like the omega 3 oils in them more than the actual taste of sardines. They are the power house of fish.

I know that some people have a weakness for a certain food and sometimes that just triggers binge eating. I don't know what you would call me. I can go along for weeks and weeks staying within a certain parameter of the foods I feel is what I should be eating for optimum health and weight loss. Then one day I will stumble and I will stay down for a few days-long enough to throw the weight that I have lost right back on me. Then I will climb back on the wagon, and I will be "good" for a while.

I am still having trouble with my knee I tried to do arobics today and I had only taken one side step on that leg and I flet the pain. I stopped right then, and I did 1/2 hour of hand weights. Most of the time when I do arobics I hold the hand weights so doing them for 1/2 hour really was not challenging but I still did something. I know me-I know that if I leave it off more than once a week I will soon be leaving it off 2 times a week and then 3 and then I will be stopped all togeather.    I am so easily misled and I can talk me into letting it go so fast. I don't think anyone else could talk me into it,,,,,, only me--I suppose I am my worst enemy.

Josie I am sorry about your ankle-and I hope it starts feeling better really soon. Hugs darling. Just think someday we want have these frail bodies, our bones won't ache, our head won't hurt, and we will not be tempted. Come quickly Lord, but let me pray for my lost friends and family one more time.

Heaven

Oh, there's no disappointment in Heaven
No weariness, sorrow nor pain,
No hearts that are bleeding and broken,
No song with minor refrain.

The clouds of our earthly horizon
Will never appear in the sky,
For all will be sunshine and gladness,
With never a sob nor a sigh.

We'll never pay rent for our mansions;
The taxes will never come due.
Our garments will never grow threadbare,
But always be fadeless and new.

We'll never be hungry or thirsty,
Nor languish in poverty there;
For all the rich bounties of Heaven,
His Heaven-bound children will share.
--F.M. Lehman

sleep well everyone

God Bless

My day, babys, exercise,

2011-06-08T18:41:00.000-07:00

Josie I tried again to post on your blog and I still can't. Maybe they will have it worked out soon.

OK update on my oh so interesting life.

Niece spent the night with grandson and they both slept with me. During the night they never woke up but slowly came toward me, until she was pressed up against me and grandson was pressed up against her and I was on the very edge of the bed. I did not get a lot of sleep last night but it should be better tonight, I only have grandson here with me.

Did I mention last time that I hurt my knee? Well there is no way I could do any arobics so I found an old vid for much older people with arthritus. I think it was a free video from advil. Anyway most of the exercise was sitting in a chair-and that was perfect. The only thing I did different was that I held 3 pound weights while I did the workout. It was about 40 minutes long and it was no where near what I usually do but I was glad I did it. It kept me in the routine of doing something.

My grandson fell of the potty today-I asked him if he fell asleep and he said "no mam" So how did you fall off of the potty. shrug and "I don't know"He came in just now and read what I wrote and bam - fell in the floor. The kid trips over air.

My brother in law came through the surgery pretty good. but now his kidneys are failing. He does have sugar diabetes and he has been on a cathater since last Tuesday so his kidneys have weakened and right now they can not get his kidneys to do what they are supposed to do. I am afraied for him, he is 70, he has a lot of health problems, high bp, high cholesterol, and he has had heart surgery in the last 2 years. I hate to see himhaving one problem after another. Please keep praying for him and my sister, she will soon be 69 and this is stressful for her.

"GOD IS EVERYWHERE"

THERE'S NOT A TINT
THAT PAINTS THE ROSE
OR DECKS THE LILY FAIR,
OR MARKS THE HUMBLEST
FLOWER THAT GROWS,
BUT GOD HAS PLACED IT THERE...
THERE'S NOT A PLACE
ON EARTH'S VAST ROUND,
IN OCEANS DEEP OR AIR,
WHERE LOVE AND BEAUTY
ARE NOT FOUND,
FOR GOD IS EVERY WHERE

JAMES C. WALLACE

Sleep well everyone
God bless

They are operating again on bil

2011-06-07T16:35:00.000-07:00

right now Tuesday, 7:30 pm They said his bowels is leaking into his body. That sounds vey serious. They have already said that he was a very sick man. Please be praying. I will update when I hear news.

visitation, bil. posting, 30for30-first week

2011-06-06T16:28:00.000-07:00

I hate when people I like die, when I see the sorrow of their loved ones, the tears and the grief. Somehow regardless of how sincere I am, it seems inadequate to say "I'm so sorry" and yet that is all that you can say. I held His wife and she cried and I could barely make out her saying "I will see him again" I was trying to comfort her and I hugged her and told her how much I liked and admired her husband. And yet my words that were meant to bring a little comfort did not. So I wen ton down the line to the daughter and I hugged her and the dauaghters husband and then the mother of the deceased.

My bil is still in hospital and they still have him in an induced coma and now they are saying again that it was the gall bladder. I don't think they know and they are just trying to cover their bottoms to keep from getting into trouble.

I was able to post on Debs blog and I was really (this is going to sound so terrible of me) really glad to find that she was having a little problem posting too. At least I know it was not something that I was having a senior moment about. :)

Grandbaby is here for the summer, at least he will be here 3-4 days aweek. Today my niece was here also. She is only 17 days younger than my grandson. and they play togeather good, only problemis grandson is typical boy rough and tumble and she is typical girly girl. They both call each other best friend, but you ought to see them play she wants to play with dolls and he wants to use them for target practice with his plastic bowling ball.

I had a good week last week I ate healthy, and I exercised 6 days out of last week. Still eating low carb and have morre energy, and my husband says that he can tell that I am smaller when he hugs me. When he said that I probably smiled all day long.

I hope that the problem with posting gets worked out soon I do love posting on my friends blogs

LITTLE THINGS

THANK YOU, GOD, FOR LITTLE THINGS
THAT OFTEN COME OUR WAY,
THE THINGS WE TAKE FOR GRANTED BUT
DON'T MENTION WHEN WE PRAY.
THE UNEXPECTED COURTESY,
THE THOUGHTFUL, KINDLY DEED,
A HAND REACHED OUT TO HELP US
IN THE TIME OF SUDDEN NEED.

"UNKNOWN"

I love you
God bless

yesterday and today

2011-06-04T16:48:00.000-07:00

My brother in law is still in icu-they do not know what is wrong at first they thought it was his gall bladder was gangrene but they removed that and there was no indication of anything wrong with it.

God is still in control

A frind of ours died at 8:37 last night. We were all praying for him when the call came in. He had diabetes and his kidneys were failing quickly. The dr. removed one of them a month or so ago and yesterday they removed the other and it was just too much for him and he died.

God is still in control

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose."
Romans 8:28 ESV

"The LORD reigneth, he is clothed with majesty; the LORD is clothed with strength, wherewith he hath girded himself: the world also is stablished, that it cannot be moved. Thy throne is established of old: thou art from everlasting." Psalm 93:1-2

For the eyes of the LORD run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him..." 2Chr 16:9

How excellent is thy lovingkindness, O God! therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of thy wings."
Ps 36:7

Please be praying for us

God bless

Still can't post in any blogs,

2011-06-02T15:52:00.000-07:00

I feel like I am going to lose my friends. I simply can't post in anyones blogs. I have tried almost all of them and nothing works.

I have dumped cookies I have signed out and signed back in, it did not work.

I worked in my garden for about 2 hours today, that was my exercise for today. Iate very good today with my carbs being less than 20.

Tomorrow I will be outside working again and I will have to hoe but also need to mow the back yard.

Have a good nite everyone
God bless.

work, candy :) **still can't post

2011-06-01T18:13:00.000-07:00

So I had planned on working in my garden this morning before it got too hot and I received a call from my ve4ry good friend asking if I would go to her shop today and sit with her helper. Of course I said yes.   She has been there for me so many times so Ifeltfortunate that Ihad the opportunity to do something for her so I did not work in the garden.
And when I got home this afternoon it was way too hot to do anything outside except complain about the heat which I did when I went out to pick my cucumbers.

While I was there at friends shop they were selling candy bars for little Josh to help with the cost of the operation he has to have. So the bars were 1 dollar each and I got two bars and gave a donation of 5 dollars and brought both bars home for dh to eat. I did not even so much as nibble his bars (Patting myself on the shoulder so hard I prabably have a bruise.)

Friday their church is having a yard sale bake sale and chicken bog dinners for sale to help with the cost. Dh and I bought 4 dinners for us an dd and her husband.

POST ABOUT THE CALLENGE

My challenge for this month was keeping my carbs down per day. My carbs for today was less than 20, I ate sausage and cucumbers, and broccoli for breakfast, and I skipped lunch because I thought I would be home by lunch time -it was 3:30 before Igot home. For my evening meal I had 2 and 1/2 palm sized pieces of pork loin (6 ounces) and I had cucumbers, and okra, and broccoli and cheese sprinkled over the top. And I exercised for an hour with Leslie sansone "walk away the pounds."

I did delete all my cookies and tried to post but still could not .

Now to the "I CAN'T POST ON YOUR BLOGS" complaint.

When I try to post comments in the comment box -underneith that box it says
               COMMENT AS

and in a drop down box it gives options
                      SELECT PROFILE

                       Google Account
                       LiveJournal
                       WordPress
                       TypePad
                       AIM
                       Open ID

I'v tried them all and all it does is take me back to SELECT PROFILE.

It does make me frustrated. But even if I can't comment on your blogs, I still read them and I still love my blog friends.

GIFTS OF OURSELVES

THE GREATEST GIFTS WE CAN GIVE TO
OTHERS ARE NOT MATERIAL THINGS BUT
GIFTS OF OURSELVES. THE GREAT GIFTS
ARE THOSE OF LOVE, OF INSPIRATION,
OF KINDNESS, OF ENCOURAGEMENT,
OF FORGIVENESS, OF IDEAS AND
IDEALS. HOW MANY GREAT GIFTS CAN
WE GIVE THIS DAY? EACH DAY LET'S
DO SOMEONE A GOOD TURN---ONE
THAT WILL EITHER NOT BE DISCOVERED
OR WILL BE DISCOVERED ONLY BY ACCIDENT.

MARGUERITE HARMON BRO
(from Whispers of Joy)

Sleep well everyone
God bless

mowed, low carb, b-in law

2011-05-31T18:54:00.000-07:00

I was suffering this morning but I persevered and I completed the front yard. I can only think that the rain that came a few days ago has caused mold and mildew and I am allergic to those plus a few other things. ''''''''''''

I have been low carbing a few days now and I am enjoying the wide diversity of foods that I can have. It is restrictive for the first week but it is worth it when You consider that I have lost almost 4 pounds since Thursday. I don't go hungry and I don't have cravings.

My brother in law is in the hospital and we have no idea what is wrong. He has had heart surgery 2 yrs. ago and today he started shaking and sweating and huting in his chest. I hope he does not have to have surgery again he kept saying last time that he wished he had died.

Speaking of sick people, a friendofmine has a grandson that has bone cancer (I have talked about him before-his name is Josh) He goes in the hospital in NC next week for a bone marrow transplant, the dr.s are only giving him a 50-50 chance of survival. PLEASE BE PRAYING FOR HIM.

In the morning I start on my garden the weeds are taking over. and I think I will plant some more cucumber seeds. I know it will be a late crop but my first ones are not doing too good and I love cucumbers and home grown is so much better than store bought.

I am looking forward to doing the new 30for30 challenge next month. I am going to try to follow the low carb every day. I will look up how many carbs I should have a day and then stick to that for the week that I am on. Each week you get to add a few carbs to your menu.     That will be my challenge and I will continue to do the exercises every day. I should say I am going to do it 6 days a week, that was if something happens that I can't do it one day it will be ok.

If anyone reading here wants to join us -you an find details here>>>>
http://apjosie.blogspot.com/2011/05/challenge-30-days-of-eating-well-in.html

I am hoping and praying for the success in our chosen challenge next month. I will keep trying to post in Josies blog but if I can't please everyone know thaqt I am praying for each of us.

Hope.
A simple word that brings light into darkness.
It is not just wishful thinking, but an earnest expectation.
Often times, when the whole world seems to be against us, hope can appear to be really dim. It is at these times that we often feel helpless and depressed. Yet, we forget that even IF the whole world is against us (which often isn’t the case), God is still there for us. He has promised to never leave us or forsake us, and will always be there for us no matter how bad we may have messed up.
In fact, His Word continually declares how much He loves us and wants the very best for us. We can be encouraged in His Word as they show us how much God desires for us to succeed and achieve great things in our lives.
Therefore, let us be joyful in His presence, and be encouraged in our hearts, knowing that He desires to see us accomplish our purposes. We can trust Him and hang our hopes on Him as He has promised to fulfill His plans for us.
As you read through the quotations on hope recorded below, remember this - not only is God our Help in the ages past, He is even more so our Hope and Strength in the years to come.

UNKNOWN

Sleep well everyone
God bless

30 for 30 for June

2011-05-31T12:48:00.000-07:00

Josie I don't know what happened but I can not comment on your blog anymore. So I guess I will have to either post everything on my blog, or just sit this one out. OH I can't post on Debs blog anymore either. I don't have a clue what has happened. I can defrag and reprogram but sometimes a computer just confuses me.

Sorry about this, Love you

frustrated, trying something different, grandson went home

2011-05-30T17:23:00.000-07:00

I am just slightly frustrated that when I try to post on my friends blogs I get this pop up and I have to put in my email address and I do and it says url is invalid and I try so many ways to get it through and I cant.

Has anyone tried   low carbs dieting and if you did -did you have success?

I have several friends and some relatives and lots of people in my church that is doing something called Synergy, they get shots and vitamins and shakes , I am not sure of all that they get. But what i got out of it was it is basically low carb. So I did a little research adn I decided tht I would try this.   I take a good multivitamin and I eat just low carb vegetable and no grains and no sugars,   My sister in law gave me some of the shakes and while they are nopt delicious they are acceptable. I have lost a small amount of weight in a few days and I am eating more than I was when I was counting calories and not getting anywhere.

My grandson was here yesterday and I had everything arranged to go to go to church but he woke up sick. Oh well I am glad he felt better today. I was looking something up on Utube and I started looking for things from my childrens childhood to show him and I found this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JlVqfC8-UI

Grandbaby loved it. and he loved it at least 5 times. lol

He has gone home now and my house seems empty.

I exercised after he left. so another day dune.

I love getting movies from feature films for families and recently I ordered a movie called Beautiful Dreamer. It stars Brooke Langton and Colin Egglesfield, and it was a most beautiful love story about a husband and wife, the man had to go off to war and was injured with a serious head wound. He had total amnesia. His dog tags got mixed up and he was thought to be someone else.   It was very good.

“"Patriotic families do more than fly our country's flag and vote. They pray for the brave men and women, including their families, who serve our great country. No greater service can they give, than to be willing to give their lives for others. May God be with them, as we pray daily for their safe returns." ~Tom Baker”

Tom Baker aka The Pondering Man

Sleep well

God bless

Baby is here, exercise

2011-05-28T19:44:00.000-07:00

I spent time today with a pot lid in my hand as a shield and rolled up socks as my ammunition. lol We would run and then sneak up on the other and attack with the sock. It was a lot of fun. I love to hear him laugh.

I did laundry and ironed his church clothes. I cooked and straightened and then decided it cfould just stay messy. He will go home on Monday, and then I can get my house neat. I do not want to spend the time with him doing things that can easily be put off.

While he was playing the playstation, I put a video in my computer and exercised for an hour. Twice he snuck up behind me and hit me in the backside with socks. He is so funny.

Things that I did today that makes me feel happy,I prayed and read my bible, I held hands with dh while we watched tv. I played with baby and laughed with him. I exercised, got my hair cut, ate healthy, Picked home grown cucumbers from my garden.

Each of us has a different idea of what makes a perfect day, and for me this day was perfect.

Psalm 138

¹I will praise thee with my whole heart: before the gods will I sing praise unto thee.
²I will worship toward thy holy temple, and praise thy name for thy lovingkindness and for thy truth: for thou hast magnified thy word above all thy name.
³In the day when I cried thou answeredst me, and strengthenedst me with strength in my soul.
⁴All the kings of the earth shall praise thee, O LORD, when they hear the words of thy mouth.
⁵Yea, they shall sing in the ways of the LORD: for great is the glory of the LORD.
⁶Though the LORD be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off.
⁷Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me.
⁸The LORD will perfect that which concerneth me: thy mercy, O LORD, endureth for ever: forsake not the works of thine own hands.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

less processed food, mowed,

2011-05-27T17:54:00.000-07:00

My phone rang so much this morning, a dear friend of mine just needed to talk. I am so glad that I was here. She was heartbroken so please be praying for her that things will work out. Her husband is handicapped and she is legally blind. And right now the two of them is having soem problems.

I noticed that when I was eating less processed food some time ago I seemed to have less aches and pains. I realized that lately I have been experiencing some minor discomfort in my joints and I am going to see if it has anything to do with how I eat. I hope so because otherwise I may have to accept that I amgetting older. Which is true but I want to go out like Jack LaLanne-I know he is dead now but even one year before he died ( I think he was in his 80's) he was exercising an hour a day!!!!! I was told that my bones are as strong as a 20 year olds. That has to count for something.

I mowed today-usually I can do the backi in aabout 45 minutes but today I cut a little farther to the back. I love it when it is fresh mowed and when the weeds are cut it makes the grass a little less appealing for snakes and other small creatures that like to hide in the tall weeds and grass. So I pushed the mower for ab out 70 minutes. I came in and rested for about an hour then started cleaning and doing laundry .

So that was my day

Nothing exciting

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What the caterpillar calls the end of the world, the master calls a butterfly.
-Richard Bach

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If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you.
You may have a fresh start any moment you choose,
for this thing we call 'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.
-Mary Pickford
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If one dream should fall and break into a thousand pieces,
never be afraid to pick one of those pieces up and begin again.
-Flavia Weedn
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When you feel like giving up,
remember why you held on for so long in the first place.
-unknown
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I was looking for a quote that would inspire us and I found many. They all seem to fit exactly what I needed to hear.

Sleep well
and
God bless

exercise, ironing, frustaration

2011-05-26T18:31:00.000-07:00

Today I exercised and I truly enjoyed the workout. I used weights and I used stretchy bands. Those stretchy band are something that I started using a few days ago and it really challenges my muscles. In my video she uses the bands but I did not have any and I thought that using the weights would give the same results. Don't you believe it. When I used the bands I found muscles I did not even know I had. It felts good -you know what I mean? using muscles that you don't normally use, but I am sore today.That part always feels good.

I wish that I could get a grip on my appetite, I wish that I could control that part of me that seems like a roaring tiger. I did fair today I did ok I ate moderately but I had to use my emotional muscles to keep from indulging.   Will this ever get easy? Or will I be fighting myself the rest of my life? Will I ever be able to take a deep breath -glad that the worst is over with?

I ironed today, and I ironed and ironed and still have ironing to do.    I let it pile up until it is almost overwhelming. Not all the time I mean most of the time I iron once or twice a week. But I got kinda lax about it and it piled up.   OH well I looked it up and I burned 85 calories an hour and I ironed close to 2 hours. Not bad. I would have preferred burning off a couple hundred -now that was wishful thinking.

Baby is coming to spend the weekend with me. My dd and her husband has to work.   He came a little while today with my son in law and we played charades. You can't get too detailed with a 5 yr. old so I did a clock with one arm going slowly down like the "seconds" hand and he says the sun. No darling not the sun. Are you God grandma. No darling (laughing almost uncontrollable)I'm not God.
How did he get God out of one arm going down.

That was my day-Looking back over my day-I really am satisfied with all of it. It has been a beautiful day that the Lord made for me.

THE JOY IN YOU
GOD CREATED YOU. HE KNOWS YOU AND
EVERY ASPECT OF YOU. HIS LOVE FOR
YOU IS BOUNDLESS, AND HIS JOY
IN YOU COMES FULL CIRCLE EACH TIME
YOU CALL HIM INTO YOUR LIFE IN
PRAYER.

KAREN MOORE

(FROM THE BOOK-WHISPERS OF JOY)

Sleep well
God bless

new video-clothes, sermon tonight

2011-05-25T19:25:00.000-07:00

We had a young preacher at our church tonight and he preached on them dry bones. This young man was only 15 yrs old and he did a wonderful job preaching about dry spells, and dry bones.

Last night while we were at sister in laws house she gave dh some clothes of her husbands, lots of clothes. Now there was probably75 shirts and 15 suits, and 30 pairs of pants, 3 windbreakers, and 10 sports jackets.She said she wanted my husband to have them. So many things with tags still on them, never worn. A brand new pair of boots, never worn, shoes and socks never worn and ties probably close to 70 ties. some still folded and with tags. So today I had to start washing them. I trust her, she is a clean woman but dh is allergic to so many detergents and fabric softeners and so I have to wash them. Tomorrow I have to start ironing.

I bought a new Leslie video today, it is called Leslie Sansone Walk at home-5mile FAT BURNING Walk
It is divided up into the five mile, and every few minutes it will have written on the bottom of the screen things like "boosted walk" or Tummy tightener" things like that . My other 5 mile walk is called 5-mile walk at home with Leslie Sansone ADVANCED  . I like them both Now I have been doing Leslie for many years and so in order to get my heart rate up I always carry 3 pound weights. I like the way it is toning my arms. While I do have the old lady flapping underarm, when I tighten my arm you can see a lot of devinition in the upper arms across the shoulders and in the area between my elbow and my wrist.

I am not even going to talk about my eating for today. I will not give up, one of these days I will get it right.Tomorrow is another day.

Another day that I can love the Lord. \\

One day as I was going about my day, dd and her son came to visit, it was not expected and when I saw them I got a burst of pure joy and happiness that they had come.   Grandson ran to me smiling saying grandma here Iam, he was very happy, dd wrapped her arms around me and we just hugged because we were all glad to see each other. I got to thinking I would love for everyone to be that happy when I come near to them. Perhaps not to that point but at least be happy that I am there. I want them to greet me with real joy,

A little self examination-do I act in a way that people would be glad to see me? When I come into the prescence of the Lord is He glad to see me?   Do I treat others as nice as I want them to treat me?    The Lord said for us to love everyone, it must be possible or the Lord would not have told us to do it. BUT there is some very unlovable people out there. Lord help me to see people as you do. -Help me Father to see the bitter and the angry as lost and lonely people -remind me Father to pray for them instead of finding fault. Amen.

Title: Faith

Author: John Oxenham

Lord, give me faith!--to live from day to day,
With tranquil heart to do my simple part,
And, with my hand in Thine, just go Thy way.
Lord, give me faith!--to trust, if not to know;
With quiet mind in all things Thee to find,
And, child-like, go where Thou wouldst have me go.
Lord, give me faith!--to leave it all to Thee,
The future is Thy gift, I would not lift
The vail Thy Love has hung 'twixt it and me.

[The end]
John Oxenham's poem: Faith

sleep well
God bless

Not a very interesting day at all

2011-05-24T18:58:00.000-07:00

I exercised,

I cooked,

I cleaned,

I talked on the phone,

and then I got a cal from sister in law, the one that her husband just passed away. She asked us -dh and me-to come for supper, I told her we would. So off we go and the place where she worked had prepared a huge (really really huge) meal for her and brought it to her. Fried chicken a big ham big pot of southern butter beans, a crock pot full of mac and cheese and biscuits, and desserts, and on and on and on. Eating like that I am never going to lose weight.

When we went to leave she asked us to pray with her and we did. I could feel the Lord there. I asked Gods protection on her, there is a family member that is already trying to cause problems.

And that was my day.

Storms are doing damage in the mid USA continue to pray for those people.

This is a beautiful song, I hope it is on Utube,

THE ANCHOR HOLDS

i have journeyed
through the long dark night
out on the open sea
by faith alone
sight unknown
and yet his eyes were watching me

CHORUS
the anchor holds
though the ship is battered
the anchor holds
though the sails are torn
i have fallen on my knees
as i faced the raging seas
the anchor holds
in spite of the storm

i've had visions
i've had dreams
i've even held them in my hand
but i never knew
they would slip right through
like they were only grains of sand

CHORUS

i have been young
but i am older now
and there has been beauty these eyes have seen
but it was in the night
through the storms of my life
ohh thats where God proved his love to me

May the Lord keep you safe

30 for 30 for this week

2011-05-23T16:38:00.000-07:00

I did good on the exercise but terrible on the eating. ( Blueberry mini wheats) I did something everyday, I forgot to mentioned that I aloso hoed in my garden one day, I really don't have aproblem being active, I have a lot to do and I do enjoy being outside a LOT more than being inside. I hate housework and I love pulling weeds inbetween my plants. I hate laundry I love to weed my flower borders.

I had some yoghut today and it has been a few weeks since I ate yogurt. lets see I also had some sausage been a while ssince I had that too.Oh guess what I fixed today-grilled cabbage. I read this recipe and it sounded so very good I decided to try it on my george forman grill. You just cut slices of the cabbage about the size of a slice of bread and lay it on the grill salt and pepper and then put small pats of butter on the cabbage and cook on medium about 8-10 minutes -check it to see if it is tender according to your own preference. Add more minutes if needed. delicious. dI'll say it again-I could lose weight if I did not like food so much.
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The Psalms

131

Childlike Repose in the LORD

A Song of degrees of David.

LORD, my heart is not haughty,

nor mine eyes lofty:

neither do I exercise myself in great matters,

or in things too high for me.

Surely I have behaved and quieted myself,

as a child that is weaned of his mother:

my soul is even as a weaned child.

Let Israel hope in the LORD

from henceforth and for ever.

Love you all
sleep well
God bless

My Lord, and Father

2011-05-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

As we go through our days, please everyone be praying for the people that lost so much yesterday. We all need to be praying for them, just as we would desire prayers if this happened to us. The devastation was unbelievable. So much damage done in such a short period of time and again people have lost everything, loved ones gone forever,

Please pray but also help in other ways if you have the opportunity.

I found these prayer and it says just how I am feeling

A Prayer for these times of natural calamities

Posted on March 19, 2011 by desertfishing

Dearest God,
these are very uncertain times,
times of suffering for the people of Japan and the rest of humanity,
times triggering our deep-seated fear of death,
of the pain of losing,
or being swallowed into the immeasurable vastness beyond our space-time;
times fed by our human interpretation
of fire, water, earth, and wind going berserk
in their Biblical cataclysmic sense.

Our minds cry for clarity,
but we know not how Nature will move, reconfigure
in the coming days, months, years.

Our bodies cry for safety,
yet Nature shakes us, reminds us in a painful way
the fragility of human life,
for we are like “flowers quickly fading, here today and gone tomorrow,
waves tossed in the ocean; vapors in the wind.”

Have mercy on us and our human folly of arrogance and self-importance.
Help us toss into the vast humble Silence of Your self-giving love
the deceiving obstinate desires to become successful, popular, secure, important,
needed, ever-calculating Supermen and Superwomen.
Have mercy for we do not even know what really is worth-desiring – You and You alone.

Our hearts cry with the suffering, the grieving, the homeless, the orphaned,
the wounded, the hungry.
We cry for mercy with them.
We cry with them,
for their humanity is also our humanity,
the very earth they trod on is also the earth we trod on.

As we approach Your altar of Bread and Wine,
we bring our tears,
and our cries for mercy and forgiveness as our offering,
hoping that as the host is raised and the cup of wine consecrated,
our tears be transformed into our bread of steadfast faith in You,
our cries into our wine of deep trust in You,
that they may become our prayer with the Psalmist:

“Impregnate us with Love, O Comforter!
Let our fears be transformed;
let all that keeps us separated and confused flee!
As smoke is blown away, so let our fears rise up before You;
as wax melts before fire,
let our fears be melted by Love!
Then we will be released from bondage;
we will exult before the Beloved;
we will be jubilant with joy!

As the earth quakes, as floods strike without warning,
let your Presence be near.
As the mountains tremble and volcanoes spew forth ash,
let your Presence be near.
As rain falls in abundance on desert floors
restore the lands that they might flourish,
that the flocks may roam and graze on fertile fields.
In your Mercy, O Beloved,
You provide for the needy.
You are with us.”

Amen to your Presence…

Doing the "I won" dance

2011-05-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

Went to a singing this morning at my friends church , and it was a most wonderful service. God moved in such a remarkable way. A member of thast church gooes into the hospital this week to have his only remaining kidney removed. It is deseased and that is all that I know about it. How does one live without any kidney?

After the singing we had a meal in the fellowship hall and while I ate accorcing to what Ishould eat, I still ate too much andwhen I got home I did not feel I should exercise. Tummy was still full so then I went to the evening service, and I knew I needed to exercise BUT I did not want to, so back and forth went my thoughts. "missing one day won't matter-but I really need to work off some of those calories-sometimes your bady needs to take a break-but exercise speeds up the metabolism-but it will be too late when you get home-so what yeah so what ---so I get home change clothes and start exercising with a leslie video and dh came in and joined me for one mile. I won the battle=I won I won I won. It don't take much to make me happy. I am mentally doing the "I won dance"

Josie-the giveaway is sponsered by the church that mydd goes to. I love the people there and the service is always moving but it is too far away for dh and I to go to regularly. So I just try to be involved with things that go on there as much as I can. When times got hard a few years ago several of the women in the church were moved to start thegiveaway because there were people that had lost their homes and there jobs and were sleeping in dumpsters. I started helping as much as Icould.

When the storms were so bad a few weeks ago those same women started collectiong clothes and food and toiletries to take a huge 18 wheeler out there to help out. I don't have much but I was able to send a box of canned goods and a box of toiletries. I don't have much but some of those people lost everything. I will never miss the items i sent and can you imagine how much you would appreciate a bottle of sanitizer or a container of wet wipes. paper towels or toilet paper if you were in their situation? Anyway they could use those items more than I could.

This is a beautiful poem by Francis Ridley Havergal

Take My Life": Frances Ridley Havergal by Amos R. Wells

Frances Ridley Havergal wrote so many helpful books, and lived a life so earnest and devoted, that she has had a very deep influence over the hearts of Christians.

Take my life, and let it be
Consecrated, Lord, to Thee.
Take my moments and my days;
Let them flow in ceaseless praise.

Take my hands, and let them move
At the impulse of Thy love.
Take my feet, and let them be
Swift and beautiful for Thee.

Take my voice, and let me sing,
Always, only, for my King.
Take my lips, and let them be
Filled with messages from Thee.

Take my silver and my gold;
Not a mite would I withhold.
Take my intellect, and use
Every power as Thou shalt choose.

Take my will, and make it Thine;
It shall be no longer mine.
Take my heart, it is Thine own;
It shall be Thy royal throne.

Take my love; my Lord, I pour
At Thy feet its treasure-store.
Take myself, and I will be
Ever, only, all for Thee.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

giveaway, aldis, yard sale, clothes, dds, sister, friends. gospel singing

2011-05-21T18:40:00.000-07:00

This morning dh and I went to the clothing giveaway. I had a lot of grandsons clothes he had outgrown and some things that dh got out of his closet, and some Billy Graham books that I was finished with to donate to the giveaway. I found a few tops for me to wear and a few things for my dd and a few things for my sister. I love giving to help others out and I love getting things that I can use.    I found a few shirts and shorts for my grandson. If I had not been led to help others out I would not have gotten some things for myself. God is good.

We left there and went to aldis for some groceries. I feel like I get such good deals when I shop there. We got the equivalent of 7 plastic grocery bags full of groceries and it only cost us 44 dollars.

On the way home we stopped at a yard sale and I bought a beautiful honey brown skirt with yellow flowers scattered randomly over the skirt. It is so pretty.
I aloso bought grandbaby 3 movies and five books all for 3 dollars. GOOD DEAL One of the books was "the old woman that ate a bat" It was so cute and when I took dd the things I had picked up for her I had to read the book to baby. It talks about all the things this old woman eats and on the last page she says 'BURP" and being a typical male child he thought that was funny.

My sister and her family and me and dh and my friends all went to the gospel singing tonight.    It was very good time and then the church invited us all to eat with them and the only thing that I could eat was beans. The chicken was fried, chicken and dumpling were made with flour of course. all the desserts were made with flour, biscuits and pies, so the only thing I could eat was some beans. I was disappointed of course but on the other hand I surely didn't overeat or eat high fattening foods.   I suppose it is true that there is a silver lining behind the clouds.

Tomorrow is sunday and some of our dear friends is singing in the area and dh and I are going to hear them. I will be in church just not the church that we are members at. I don't have a problemwith that and I hope no one else has a problem either.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

The Beatitudes

3 Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
4 Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.
5 Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth.
6 Blessed are they which do hunger and thirst after righteousness: for they shall be filled.
7 Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy.
8 Blessed are the pure in heart: for they shall see God.
9 Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God.
10 Blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness' sake: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11 Blessed are ye, when men shall revile you, and persecute you, and shall say all manner of evil against you falsely, for my sake.
12 Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you.

CONGRATULATIONS GRADUATES

2011-05-20T13:29:00.000-07:00

This morning dh and I went to watch our grandson graduate. All of the 5K class were on the stage and He was so excited he could not keep still. He was bouncing all over his seast and when he saw dh and me you could hear him say thats my grandma and granddaddy We were sitting beside dd and her husband and he was so happy to see us all there. He had been chosen to give a speech of appreciation to the 5K teachers and their aides. He did not write it but he did have to memorize it and he did wonderful. We are the typical PROUD grandparents. We gave him some money for a gift because he loves to go shopping for toys.

I came home and did my exercise early because dd was going to bring baby to me for the weekend but something came up and so instead of enjoying grandson, I ate m and ms. It did not take the place of grandson visiting me. sigh. (and while it is understanble that I am disappointed,) why in the name of everything logical, would I even try to calm my feelings with candy.

I think there may be a significantly important screw loose in the deep part of my brain. :)

Something is wrong with a person that eats m and ms, and then trys to counter balance that with unsweetened tea.

Have a wonderful evening
God bless

"I swear I'll never be hungry again"

2011-05-19T17:32:00.000-07:00

I love Gone with the wind, and it has been several years since I watched it. Sooooo today I popped it into my little tv beside my computer. I put a leslie walk away the pounds video in my computer and I watched Scarlett and Rhett and Ashley and Mammy and Prissy . When she stands there in the garden at Tara and she says "I swear I'll never be hungry again, no and none of my kin." That is heart wrenching. I have watched it probably 10 times all togeather and I cry everytime. It is the same way with the Titanic. I cry every time when that mother is telling her children bedtime stories as she waits on death to take her babies. and as the old man and woman lie togeather in the bed knowing that not even death can separate them.. I am such a softie.   and I loved the movie "The Love Dare" with kirk Cameron.

I read something about serotonin and vitamin B6 this morning.   Itwas interesting. If you crave carbs a lot you might be deficit in b6 Look it up -----and something about serotonin + weight loss. That was interesting too.

I hoed this morning for an hour in my garden. I got my exercise in.    Every time I sould slide the hoe just under the dirt to get the weeds. I noticed that my upper tummy would tighten up, then I noticed that my legs would tighten a little. And of course my arms were flexing and relaxing. I got a good workout, Remember Tom Sawyer, and painting the fence.   Well that really was a good workout, and I enjoy it a lot but if you want to Iwill let you pay me 5 dollars and I will let you enjoy hoeing too:)

My eating was not realy bad today, I kept it below 1800. I would be so much happier to tell you it was close to 1300 but I have to be honest.   I don't eat beef I know that is one of those foods that I enjoy. I prepared caramalized onions and hamburgers and I had okra and brussel sprouts. Don't that sound yummy.
You know I could lose weight easier if I did not like food so much!!!! lol

Here is a few interesting things that I found on the computer-I don't know if they are true or not just a few things that I read

You can burn 1 calorie every 30 steps (roughly depends on how small or big you are)
A 200 pound woman can aburn approximately 120 carlories walking 1 mile

a 200 pound woman walking at 2.5 MPH will burn around 300 calories every 65 minutes.

Psalm 73-------
23 Nevertheless I am continually with thee: thou hast holden me by my right hand.

24 Thou shalt guide me with thy counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.

26 My flesh and my heart faileth: but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

Sleep well
God bless

complaint of the day

2011-05-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

Not that I have a complaint everyday-but this happens often and for some reason today it just got to me. I have been married -in December it will be 36 years ---and in all that time I don't think my dh has filled up the salt shaker once. I have no idea why this morning it seems to bother me more than it usually does but this morning it seemed like if he had been here we would have argued over this very minor thing. I am glad he had already left for work.

Thought of the day, DON'T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF

Anyone else get slightly twisted about something so minor and unimportant?

He knows my name

2011-05-18T04:52:00.000-07:00

Rebecca Hansen He Knows my Name Lyrics:

(Tommy Walker)
I have a maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hand
Chorus
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
I have a Father
He calls me his own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go
Chorus
He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
And hears me when I call
Copyright ©1996
Doulos Publishing
Lyrics: He Knows my Name, Rebecca Hansen [end]

I love this song-itjust reminds me that He is not a distant God, He is right here beside me, He knows who I am, He knows my hurts, sorrows, joys, heartache, strengths, and weaknesses, He know what brings me happiness and what brings me sadness. He knows me by name. I am His child just as my children are my children. He wants whats best for me just as I want what is best for my chldren.

God has given me a new day. I have a day to be, do, act, say, live in a way that brings honor to the one I serve, What I eat impacts on my health, my body and as the vessel of the Lord I know it is my responsibility to eat healthy. I will make mistakes, I am not perfect, I will fall, I DO NOT HAVE TO STAY DOWN. I will pick myself up and praise God for being a forgiving God. If God forgives me for my failures (whatever they are), if God is the God of 2nd, 3rd and 4th etc chances then I should be that forgiving of myself.

Today is a new day, yesterday is gone. It rained yesterday and it stormed and lightening flashed. Today all that is there to remind me that it was stormy is water in mudholes and wet grass. But the sun is shining and soon it will be dry outside. It is not raining today.
Yesterday I overate, and I was miserable, today is a new day, I feel great and the Lord is with me. The only thing that is left of how I ate yesterday is a couple of pounds on my scale. Today is a new day.
I am so glad that the Lord gives us a new day and we do not have to live with the yesterdays of our lives.

God bless you all

It's no use crying over spilled milk

2011-05-17T18:16:00.000-07:00

You just can't change what has been done. You know? I ate too much today-my stomach feels tight. I do not like physically feeling like this and I do not like emotiionally feeling this way. If I was two people I would feel like I had betrayed the other me. I ate a healthy breakfast and a fairly healthy lunch and I had some applesauce (still doing good) and I had some pork loin and some veggie sides. andI drank a lot. I got overheated mowing the grass. And I have been thristy all day. I know I overate today, I feel swollen in my stomach. It is most uncomfortable.

Years ago I read a story about a frog that fell in a well and he tried to jump out. He would jump three times and then he would fall back two. Of course eventually he is going to get out of the well.
That is pretty much what I am doing. I succeed in my goals two days out of three, Or five days out of seven but I feel like what I am doing is spinning my wheels in the mud and getting nowhere.

I am praying for a better day tomorrow.

My Prayer--
Dear God, I want to be healthy and lose weight.
but I keep on eating, and eating.

Help me to understand why I do this.

Help me understand why I eat when I am not hungry
Am I trying to cover up an unhappy childhood with food?
Am I trying to stifle my need for affection as a child,

affection that will never come to that lonely child.
Am I eating to get strong so that I can fight back against the abuse that I suffered.
Am I confusing a feeling of weakness as a child with hunger as an adult?

Am I trying to smother my feelings of helplessness and rage with food?
Please Father,

give me the peace of heart I need in order to understand me.

And help me to to deny myself of the things that I do not need ,

to control my urge to put something in my mouth,

to acquire some self discipline.

Help me to accept that saying no to excess food is saying yes to health.

Strengthen me to say "no" to myself and "yes" to You.

Amen.

God bless each of you.

This thing has turned into a run a way train

2011-05-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

by Roseanne Cash

Her song is all about love but as I atput piece after piece of the chocolate that one phrase kept running through my head. I supppose I was calling my appetite a runa way train it is today anyway. I can't seem to capture this tiger and get him back in his cage--so many metaphores fit. He is running free and only distruction is left behind him.

I got a call yesterday file://i/ know it is confusing but the woman that called was the mother of my my dead brother in laws wife. Now she started off saying she knew I was a Christian and she needed to talk to me. I being polite said ok. She started telling me that BIL was a drug dealer and that is how he made a;ll his money (yes he was wealthy BUT he worked all the time,. )he bought houses and fixed them he drove a bread truck for a local bread company worked himself up in the company and he did mechanic work on the side and he was a Chritian since I knew him. I do no believe he dealt drugs. She put him down and put her own daughter down. I do not understand-she asked me hadn't I heard these things and I said no the only thing I ever heard about BIL was that he haed aquick temper. That was it.

Well dh came home about 5 minutes before I got off the phone with her and he heard some of my side of the conversation,.

Ever since then all I have wanted to do is eat and eat, I do not handle controversy well, I used to drink bad and I would turn to alcohol and cigarettes, I have no desire to go back to that, but the one addiction that is acceptable is eating and that is what I what to do. My heart is hurt and I want to comfort me.

I told dh what she said and he said that he did not think that his brother would do that. He simply did not believe it. He would have heard soemthing in the last 10 yrs -some whisper of it if it was true. She said that BIL had been selling for about 10 yrs. I don't believe it either. My spirit says he was a good man. I can understand why this woman would say all these things the day after the mans funeral.

And now I have stepped onto that runaway train.

I got this in my email this moring

2011-05-17T04:00:00.000-07:00

Psychological Effects of Exercise

The psychological benefits of aerobic exercise are numerous: mood enhancing, reduced anxiety and depression and also stress reduction.
In this article, I will explore the many benefits of aerobic exercise, but specifically, I will talk about the psychological benefits, which to my (healthy and happy) mind are almost more important. After all, an unhealthy mind is an unhealthy body!

But, what IS aerobic exercise??

According to the definition from the Global Healing Centers website, “Aerobic exercise is a type of movement such as running or cycling that gets your heart pumping faster and increases your oxygen intake.” Fine examples of aerobic exercise are running, dynamic yoga, cycling, fast walking, circuit training, skiing and rollerblading.

OK, so we are all told we need to partake in aerobic exercise to obtain many benefits, such as weight loss and better skin and muscle tone. But that’s not all! There are psychological benefits of aerobic exercise too!

So, what are the psychological benefits of aerobic exercise? In short, the benefits are improved mood, reduced anxiety, reduced depression and a buffer against stress.

But let’s go into a little more detail…

The Psychological Payoffs

Mood Enhancer

When we exercise aerobically, our bodies produce little chemicals called endorphins Scientifically speaking, endorphins are polypeptides, which are able to bind to the neuron-receptors in the brain to give relief from pain. Endorphins are not just produced from exercise; they are also triggered by deep-breathing, meditation, eating spicy food and deep laughter. Just don’t do all five at once!

Endorphins are believed to produce four key effects on the body: they relieve pain, they reduce stress, they enhance the immune system and they postpone the aging process. It may be worth your while to stock up on some fitness equipment—it might make things easier for you. I prefer to exercise outside but I do have an indoor stationary bike—that way, if it’s raining, I have no excuse not to exercise.

Reduced Anxiety and Depression

Depression and anxiety can lead to a feeling of isolation. By partaking in aerobic sports, one can choose to join a running club, swimming club, gym or any other sports club. These activities get you out an about and can put you in positions where you HAVE to speak to people.

Aerobic exercise offers a distraction. For an hour or so each day, you can put yourself in a position where you are too busy worrying about the prospect of having to run another two miles before you can stop.

Burning excess fat and toning up can boost anyone’s confidence. Clothes fit better, and you receive compliments from friends, which often is enough to begin to lift the heavy cloud of a mild depression.

Stress Reduction

Do you feel like the whole world is collapsing on top of you? I think everyone does at one stage or another. If you keep positive, it will pass. Aerobic exercise is a great way to keep positive. When you are stressed, it is important to get enough sleep. Exercisers actually go to sleep faster, are more refreshed when they wake up, and have sharper memories. Exercise increases the blood flow to the brain, bringing extra sugar and oxygen, which can help when concentrating. And once again, the little endorphins can make you happier, making you feel like maybe it will all be OK after all.

So, in conclusion, exercise! There are too many benefits that you will be missing out on if you don’t.

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About the author:

Ciara Carruthers is an aspiring raw foodist. She has created a website dedicated to raw food at http://www.rawfoodhealth.co.uk/, where you can find her raw food blog, health related articles and raw food recipes.

30FOR30

2011-05-16T17:38:00.000-07:00

(1)I can't remember exactly what I did I could go look but I know that I exercised everyday. I really don't have to struggle to do the exercise. I think I must be a bit unusual in that I actually like the way I feel when I am lifting weights and my feet are moving and my blood starts pumping and my breathing starts speeding up-it is like I am on a high. So I don't have to struggle to exercise.Plus I have been doing it for about 7 years. I always enjoyed it on some level.

(2)One side of me feels great, I am glad that I have the energy that I have and I really think it is because I speed my heart up when I exercise. I am glad I am able to face life in the middle of our hardships and sorrow I still am able to see the glory of God all around me. (I think I just got off track):)

(3)Honestly I can't see next week being any different-I will exercise-Sometimes I will do more than other days. I love to use a pedometer when I exercise, and I try to get it up to 10,000 steps a day. That is just a personal challenge that I do not meet every day but I still try.

Summary-The purpose of me keeping a blog and having blog mates is because it keeps me accountable. I want to be healthy, and of less importance I want to lose weight. However, the blog does not keep my craving for certain food down. When I am hungry I eat healthy, when I prepare a meal it is well balanced. Once a month or thereabouts, my craving gets uncontrollable. I really have to fight myself to keep it managable. Sometimes I lose the battle, I insist on winning the war. I will not give up. I just wish that controlling what and how much I eat was as enjoyable as exercising.

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Josie I am really enjoying the thinking that I do when I answer the questions. I don't think I do very good on keeping the answers on topic, because there is so much I want to say and it seems like all the thoughts are screaming type  me- type me.

Today I mowed for almost 95 minutes. I loved the way I felt in the fresh air, and it was cool and my heart was beating in a good controlled way.   Tomorrow I will either finish my mowing or I will hoe in my garden.

My other garden is doing really good. The deer is leaving my plants alone since I sprinkled hair down. Mr. Jack told me in a few weeks to soak some rags in ammonia and put the rags out around and the deer will leave the vegetables alone.   Someone else told me to sprinkle our urine at the end of each row in the garden and that will keep them away.   Sure is some interesting home solutions out there. I can just hear grandson now pointing to a huge jar of stinky yellow liquid "grandma what in the jar and why does it smell so bad?"

BE SILENT
HOW CAN YOU EXPECT GOD TO SPEAK
IN THAT GENTLE AND INWARD VOICE
WHICH MELTS THE SOUL, WHEN YOU ARE
MAKING SO MUCH NOISE?
BE SILENT AND GOD WILL SPEAK AGAIN.

FRANCOES FENELON

Sleep well everyone
God bless

Been a long day

2011-05-15T18:45:00.000-07:00

It has been a long day and a very sad one. The funeral was at 3 pm and dh is always so quiet and strong and he broke down andcried. I felt so helpless, I just held his hand there was nothing else I could do.

I ate after the funeral, not a lot but still I feel like I went over the calories and so I exercised when I came back home. I only meant to do 30 minutes but I started feeling more energetic and exercise really does seem to destress (is that a real wowrd???) me so I kept going until I finished the entire video. The church that my brother in law attended had prepared a huge meal for the family. I left off a lot of things like chicken and dumplings and fried chicken and macaroni salad and about 10 differents cakes andcookies and pies. I ate sweet peas and green beans cooked with cubed red potatoes, and lean baked ham and a small piece of baked chicken and some kind of green jello with marshmallows and pineapple.
They told me the name of it but I forgot and it was delicious.

Some one told me once that if you want to dance then you have to pay the fiddler. So I suppose that I danced and then I had to pay for it. :)

DO NOT FEAR
DO NOT FEAR, FOR I AM WITH YOU;
DO NOT BE DISMAYED, FOR I AM YOUR
GOD. I WILL STRENGTHEN YOU AND
HELP YOU': I WILL UPHOLD YOU WITH MY
RIGHTEOUS RIGHT HAND.

ISAIAH 41;10 NIV

Thank you for all of your prayers,
I love each of you
God bless

exercise, visitation, relatives, son in law & candy bar

2011-05-14T18:20:00.000-07:00

Today I exercised, I really did not think I would be abloe to work it in but I was determing=ed to do something-I hate to exercise but I think I am addicted to the endorphins. lol So I told myself I would do at least 15 minutes and once I got started I kept saying to mayself 5 more minutes. I got a phone call in the middle of the exercise and I just toned it down a little but would not stop moving. I knew that if I stopped I would not start it back.

Showered dressed quickly and off to the funeral home. I don't handle crouds well, I start to panic a little, (I am much better than I used to be but there is stillo a little bit of the anxiety still there.)So as sthe people came in I kept moving to the side until I was in the backof the room right in a doorway at the side. I could keep going backwards if I had to. Sister was there and she saw me and she came over to buffer me from people. All of this is a small hold over from the robbery. I really am better than I used to be. I saw some of hubbys relatives that I had not seen in 20 years. Itwas good seeing them all again.

When dd and her family left I went with them so dh could spend more time with his family, I told son in law that I was stressed and anxious and I needed some comfort food and to stop andget me a candy bar. He wouldn't do it. He laughed at me, so at this timeI amgoing to write himout of my will. My two children have laughed about my will for years. I told them one day when they were children that I had 3 dollars in a jar buried in the backhyard and each of them could have on dollar and they would have to fight over the 3rd one. My dd told son that he could have it all cause she was not going to dig holes in the backyard looking for the jar just for a dollar.

My neighbor came over today she brought a roasted chicken, a bowl of potatoe salad, a loaf of honey bread, and a soda. She said she wanted to do something for me and hubby. And she knew that we would need to eat and maybe not have time to fix anything because of visiting our sister in law and the visitation and all that needs to be down at times like this. I was absolutely touched by her thoughtfulness.

Matthew 5:13-16 (King James Version)

13Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.

14Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid.

15Neither do men light a candle, and put it under a bushel, but on a candlestick; and it giveth light unto all that are in the house.

16Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven.

I am glad that I have such wonderful friends. And I know that unsaved people can be wonderful friends but to tell you the truth, I did not have such loving and giving, and caring friends when I lived an unsaved life. The world just did not give to me what a God filled life has given to me.Such peace and contentment, such joy, I have the secureity of knowing that I have a Father that I can run to when I am sad or happy, I have a Father that is there when I am sick, sad or lonely. He is with me on the mountain and He is with me in the valley. He is my God and I love Him.

God bless you

sad news, birthday, chinese food, double exercise

2011-05-13T19:02:00.000-07:00

A little after midnight this mornign wegot a phone call and just about anytime we get a late phone call we always think the worse. So far it has always some drunk saying somehting in a hugly slurred phone like thessi my thessi Ilove you let me come to you-me saying in my most angry voice, sleep it off buddy, don't drive, get in your car lock the doors and sleep it off-no thessi you know I love you we can work this out. Usually I just hang up. BUT this time we got bad news. Hubbys brother died and it was just so sad. he died before midnight and that means that he died on my hubbys birthday. His wife came in from working late and she kissed him on the forhead and he was dead. Visitation tomorrow night funeral Sunday afternoon. DH is destraught over it. This brother was only two years older that dh, and dh just turned 60 yesterday.

My daughter took dh out for a late lunch today to celebrate his birthday, grandson was there along with our son in law. The baby was at his cutest, he kept saying Happy birthday granddaddy over and over, people were wishing dh happy birthday-people that he did not even know. It was just a cute time with the baby and I am glad because it took his mind off of his brother.

Chinese food always puts so muchg weight on me and it takes me days to get it off so I did double exercise today, I know that exercise speeds up your metabolism so I exercised this morning and then I went to eat with the family and then dh and I went to his brothers house and visited with that family. That was a very sad time;. When we left I came home and exercised again to keep the metabolism speeded up. I hope that it will negate some of the damage I did today. I really did not eat much of their food. I kept it to broccoli, sesame seed green beans, sugared sweet potatoes, mushrooms in some kind of sauce, and just a few pieces of meat. But even though I ate moderately it does not take much to accumalate calories when it is chinese food..

I must remember that I do not do this often and it was a special occasion and tomorrow is a new day to get it done right.

Father God, how your beloved Son, Jesus Christ, must have suffered for us!
Yet here we are with our petty complaints about life, not realizing that
we could have it much worse. Today I would like to pray for the inner peace
that only you can give and for the well being of others. I'm grateful to know
that I can overcome anything with your love, God, but now I would like
to assure others of that some love, which is available to them anytime
they go to you and ask for it. May they be brought back home to you in faith.
AMEN

Sleep well everyone
I love you
God bless

Lots of reasons to exercise

2011-05-12T07:15:00.000-07:00

I was searching for something this morning and I "fell" into this site. Now a lot of these I knew from personally exercising.
I seem to think faster and clearer when I exercise everyday,
my recovery rate from arobics is about 1-2 minutes
I used to hurt in a few of my joints and now not so much in fact rarely do I have arthritus.
Exercise produces endorphins endorphins is a natural feel good chemical that is produced when you exercise-so I am happier and I smile more
I get up in the morning and I hit the floor ready to get started with my day.
I am alert

Anyway here is the link I hope you thinkit is as interesting as I found it to be.

http://www.busywomensfitness.com/exercise-benefits.html

Have a good day everyone

my day-my evening

2011-05-11T18:25:00.000-07:00

I ate very healthy today, a few almonds for a snack, and for my dinner I fixed an oriental stir fry. It came with a sauce but I could not use it because it has flour in it. Wheat flour causes me to have hives. I just used some soy sauce in it and it was good, then I cut up some turkey breast in it and then it was delicious. Tomorrow I am going to add some fresh onions to it and then it will be indescribably scrumptious.

I used weights with my arobics today. I was huffing and puffing but I got through the workout and I felt good. Amazing how good you feel when you challenge yourself.

My garden did ok through the storm. -the tomatoe plants were blown over and the cucumber plants looked like they had been twisted by the wind but I think they will be ok. My pepper plants were not eaten by the deer last night but that could be becasue it was raining to hard for them to come into the garden and nibble on the plants.

Preacher preached tonight on the first 4 verses of Jude. He did an excellant job. There were not many people there but i think we were all blessed.

Habakkuk 3:

17 Though the fig tree may not blossom, Nor fruit be on the vines; Though the labor of the olive may fail, And the fields yield no food; Though the flock may be cut off from the fold, And there be no herd in the stalls--

18 Yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.

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Sleep well everyone

God bless

storms are coming

2011-05-10T15:59:00.000-07:00

Yep storms are coming again. My dd lives about 30 miles from me and she already called and said hail had covered the ground. Everyone say a prayer for our safety.

Josie I know it was hard to understand how I could pour so much dressing on my salad without realizing it, but dh and I have a small kitchen and we were working in there togeather. We used to do that all the time when we were first married=sometimes I look back and i really miss those first few years of marriage. I soppose real life just got in the way. But anyway yesterday it seemed we stepped back in time for a little while and we were laughing and bumping into each other, at first by accident and then we both started just acting silly and bumping on purpose.. It was a lot of fun.

Today I have really had to battle myself -I had to mentally refuse to let it get to me. I called my pasor and talked to him for a few minutes. I told him nearly everything, I told him that evernone needs to be nurtured and mothered and I feel like I have been cheated. He prayed for/with me and I feel a lot better. It is not gone but it is sorta like when I used to have migrane headaches, the day after I had them I would not hurt but it would feel like Iwas going to start to hurt. I always called that the echoes of the hurt and that is a good way to describe what I feel--- I am having echoes of my past pain.

I cleaned and did laundry and ironed for about an hour today. I only iron our church clothes, and even though most of them say something like permanent press or cool iron if needed, the clothes simply look better if they are pressed.

I also did a 5 mile leslie video.

I went out to check my peppers that I planted yeasterday and the deer had eaten the tops out of two and had eaten all the leaves out ofone. SO I called a friend she runs a barber shop and I asked her to save all the hair. She did and late this afternoon I got the hair and placed it all around my plants. Deer does not like human hair. That won't work long and next I will get some amonia and put it on a rag and put the rag on a post and that will keep the deer away for a while.

This afternoon I also fertilized my tomatoes and cucumbers.
My neighbor gave me some fresh home grown onions. I like onions but truthfully the ones you buy in the stores are not nearly as good as fresh ones.

Now I waited until the last paragraph to put down my eating-that way you might be done bored with reading and just skip over my eating for today. It was bad-I stopped keeping up with it when I hit 1600+

Rough estimate I am thinking close to 2200. BUT I DID EXERCISE

The Good Shepherd

Is any name more comforting to weary, needy children
of our God, than Jesus' name of the Shepherd?
Feeding, leading beside the still water, watching
over all our wanderings, bringing us out of the
wilderness over the Jordan into the land
of peace and plenty.

CHARLES E. HURLBURT AND T. C. HORTON

Stay safe
Sleep well
God bless

round and round the mulberry bush

2011-05-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

My thoughts attack me as soon as I wake up. I feel so cheated. The last time mom verbally attacked me was about 2 months ago. My brother told her that I had put her name and his name all over the computer and they were know from coast to coast. My brother is a drunk he served time in prison for molesting his daughter, he has no where to go so he stays with mom even though she does not want him there. He is constantly stirring up some kind of trouble. When she accused me of doing that I told her calmly that I did not do it over and over again I told her respectfully never raised my voice finally I told her I had to gfo.
I cried for days over that. Dh finally told me not to call her again. I did-two days later just to get it worked out calmly told her that I really did not do such a thing and she started again.This has been the way it always has been,

When I grew up I hoped things would change
when I got married I hoped things would change
when I moved 100 miles away I hoped things would change
when I moved closer to her house I hoped things wouldchange
when I got saved I hoped things would change
when she had her strokes and I stayed with her and helped her I hoped things would change

it never did-it never did-it never did

I have prayed that my heart would stop hurting-please pray with me that I will stop missing what I never had.

I got this in my email this morning-it is profound and I pray that I can put the pain and sorrow behind me that it will stop tormenting me.

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Randall was only trying to do what the boss wanted him to do but he found his colleagues talking behind his back. They didn't like it that the boss confided in Randall instead of them.

Amy faithfully brings her children to church. She does this although her husband constantly criticizes her.

Sam's parents constantly criticized him. Although he was a good student, they thought he should be making straight A's.

How do you deal with unfair criticism? What happens when you are doing the best job you can do, you are giving 100% or yourself to your job and someone criticizes you? How do you react?

Think about how the Lord reacted to the cross. He didn't curse and rail. Sure, it's tempting to think, "Since I can't possibly react to criticism as the Lord did, then I don't even want to try."

Don't forget one crucial difference. The Holy Spirit. While your own strength is woefully inadequate for the job, His strength is enough to handle whatever criticism comes your way. Why don't you take a moment right now and appropriate some of that strength?

Lord, help me to handle criticism without getting a critical spirit.

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God bless

talk and talk

2011-05-09T14:11:00.000-07:00

This morning when dh got up I just talked and bless him he just listened to me. He is such a rock for me.

Then dh and I went to buy groceries and visited our daughter and -wonderful news for me-someone she works with is pregnant and this woman wants me to watch her little girl after she is born. I love babies and children. This woman has only known me from going in the business where they work and just listening to my dd talk and seeing how grandbaby acts. She said she wants that for her child. I actually felt honored because   I know they could find a babysitter closer to them and,, like it is, she will be traveling almost 40 minutes one way to bring the baby to me, and then of course 40 minutes to come back and get the baby.

Afterwe got back I planted my sweet peppers and replanted some okra and replanted some squash seeds.

I did something really dumb today,
When dh and I got back from groceries we both wanted a salad and we worked togeather to make the salads. I wanted honey mustard dressing and he wanted ranch. so I poured my dressing and tossed my salad and decided I needed a bit more. I did not realize the I had poured almost 1/2 bottle in my salad and I noticed it after I ate the salad and was putting everything away..   I don't even want to think about how much calories there are, I only use that occsionally because it is high in calories.

That was my day.

Your word reminds me that my body is the temple of you holy spirit and that you dwell within me. It is from within this temple, dear Lord, that I find myself thinking about your love. I remember how you have revealed your love for me time and again in the many ways you have cared for me. You are my provision with your healing, protection, salvation, comfort, peace, forgiveness, kindness, goodness, gentleness,and faithfulness. There are so many ways you have made it clear to me that you love me. As I continue pondering your great love, make me aware of how I can show that love to those around me.

Sleep well everyone
God bless

church, exercise -thoughts first then the rest

2011-05-08T16:02:00.000-07:00

I went to church this morning.and I really had to fight myself not to get depressed. I am very fortunate that I really am not a person to get depressed easily and when Ido it mostly lasts about 5 to 10 minutes. I am a positive person for the most part and just usually do not let things get me down. BUT BUT BUT The sermon this morning was about mothers and how special mothers are and we should respect our mothers. I do respect the position that mom holds she is my mother. I show her respect and I talk to her with respect.
I set behind her while the sermon was going on and he said such glowing remarks about our moms and none of what was being said fit her at all. Then they sang songs about how wonderful moms are and how ----,,,,People in the church were crying and I looked at her and she looked like she was so angry. I have no idea why she was angry. ok ok I know it does no good to go on about it.Anyway when the people went up to be prayed for I walked out. Dh caught up with me later and he knew what I was going through. I think the best way to describe my feeling is "I feel cheated" I remember my grandma hugging me. My mom never hugged me -I have been thinking a lot about my grandma lately she has been dead for a little over 25 yrs. I can remember her hugging me. I made sure I hugged and kissed my children often.

ENOUGH

When I got up this morning I let dh sleep in (I can cook a bit better than him)and I fixed breakfast
I made some home made potatoes and small pieces of hillshire turkey sausages and scrambled eggs So that was my Mothers Day breakfast. and coffee of course with International coffee creamer(got a new one, called peppermint mocha, yummy) went to church and after church dh wanted KFC -what is it with that man and grease? I ordered grilled chicken, the place was swamped with people. When our order came it was fried chicken so I just ate potaoes w/gravy and cole slaw and a diet soda.It was good, and if it had not been so busy I would have taken the chicken back but anybody could make a mistake with that many people in there. I brought the chickenhome and dh ate it later.

Later, i had a some turkey in the refridgerator, so had a low calorie bread, and turkey and mustard sandwich and then I had 2 small pieces of cantaloupe. Calories for today is just a bit over 1400 calories.

Then about 2:30 I exercised for 30+ minutes.

I ate fair, and I exercised ---so far so good.

That was my day'

Here is a prayer that is in my new book. I love it and it seems to speak to my heart today.

O heavenly Father, even on a short journey it's one thing to have a map and an entirely different thing--a far better and more assuring thing--to have a guide. Thank you for being my guide in this lifelong journey, for taking up the road with me and giving me the benefit of your wisdom and the pleasure of your company along the way. I would be lost and lonely without you, but because you walkwith me, I am confident and content. Amen

Sleep well everyone
God bless

What a wonderful day I had

2011-05-07T18:40:00.000-07:00

Dd came and picked me up and we with grandson, went to the beach. My son and his family joined us and we went out to eat where I made a proverbial pig of myself. (Said with a guiltless and very satisfied smile). Then later,I was taken to an icecream place. They make their icecream on the premisis and it was the most expensive ice cream I have ever eaten and it was probably the BEST ice cream I have ever eaten. Then they took me shopping. Now dh had given me a beautiful card and he said in it that he would marry me all over again. He also told me to go shopping and so I bought two beautiful blouses. (I love to shop) I love my family, without them I would not be able to celebrate Mothers day.

When I got back home it was 6:30 so I changed clothes quick and went outside and started mowing. My front yard really did need it so i did that for my exercise for the day. It took me almost an hour. and even though you can burn off a lot of calories mowing, I really think that I could have mowed 3 hours and still not burn off all the calories I took in today.

DD bought me two books also one is called Walking With the Lord and the other is calledMy Daily Psalms and Prayers. I love them both.

SPREAD LOVE--

SPREAD LOVE EVERYWHERE YOU GO;
FIRST OF ALL IN YOUR OWN HOUSE.
GIVE LOVE TO YOUR CHILDREN, TO YOUR
WIFE OR HUSBAND, TO A NEXT -DOOR
NEIGHBOR....LET NO ONE EVER COME TO YOU
WITHOUT LEAVING BETTER AND HAPPIER.

MOTHER TERESA

Sleep well everyone
love you
God bless

garden, beach, ross

2011-05-06T14:25:00.000-07:00

I good today=I kept my calories to below 1500 I think it was 1430 (I am getting lazy about chicking that before i sit down and start typing. I used to have it beside me so there would be no mistake-I KNOW that it was in the 1400's .

Igot out this morning with my hoe and worked the soil and made holoes in the dirt and I planted 5 rows of okra (not real long rows) and then I worked two rows of squash. Dh said that Monday we might put down some cantalope seeds and ,like I said I want some sweet peppers. Now I know that some people freeze their peppers but frankly I don't care for the texture of peppers that have been frozen.

Even though hoeing and bending is not traditional exercise -it did take me almost an hour, so can I count that as my exercise for the day? Not only did I bend and stoop and dig but I walked the rows 3 times, once to dig holes again to drop seeds and again to cover the seeds up.

In the morning dd and I and little grandson are going to the beach. we are going to meet my son there and have breakfast togeather and then we will go to Myrtle beach. I am not going to get in the water I love seeing the water,but not getting wet. (I know I am weird) I lived within 5 miles of the beach for 15 years and probably got to the beach 10 times. I used to love it, but once I could get there often it lost it's appeal.

Have a great evening, and to all the mothers out there, I hope you have a wonderful mothers day.

Love you all
God bless

Praise of a Good Woman

10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. 11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. 12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life. 13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. 14 She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar. 15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens. 16 She considereth a field, and buyeth [1] it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. 17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. 18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night. 19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff. 20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy. 21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet. [2] 22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple. 23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land. 24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant. 25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come. 26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness. 27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness. 28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her. 29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all. 30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the Lord, she shall be praised. 31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

My busy day

2011-05-05T15:19:00.000-07:00

Today I seemed to stay busy all day long. I cooked and did laundy and pushed my mower in the back (50 min) caqme inside and finished cooking our dinner. Then I worked out with my weights. I get plenty of lower body exercise and I forget that at least 2 - 3 times a week I need todo something for my arms and chest and stomach.

Dh and i are going to go to a revival tonight. I love hearing this man speak. I love going to church -I would rather go to church than anything else that I can think of.

My neighbor gave a piece of land to dh and me for a garden area. So in the morning I am going to plant some more vegetables. I have two freezers and I would love to have them both filled with okra and beans and squash and berries, and corn, and tomatoes. Last year people just loaded us up with these things. I don't expect people to do that this year. I have the place to plant a good sized garden. Can you tell I am excited? I love fresh vegetables and growing your own and working with it makes it even better. I know what is being used on the vegetables and I can pick it and it is put up the same day. It does not get any fresher than that. I want some sweet peppers too, We'll see. i might not have room for that.

When this growing season is over I will replant broccoli and cauliflower and brussel sprouts. I told My neighbor that I was not a farmer and he might have to give me advice, and he said hewould so, he has been farming all his life and he is close to 70. I think he would know what he is doing by this time.

Time to get ready for church,
have a wonderful evening
God bless.

I fixed it

2011-05-04T20:05:00.000-07:00

spyware--I called dell and they said i would have to pay extra to get it removed, I called the local geek squad and they said 149.00 dollars. I said there is nothing on my computer that I really need to keep SO I reformatted and reinstalled and now I only have to remember to put my favorites on . If I can't remember then they were not really favorites after all---right?

I still did an hour of arobics. and I ate about 1400 calories. I do have it wrote down in the kitchen just too lazy to go get it'

NOW

I have a very serious prayer request-everyone that reads this please pray.

Josh is a 7 yr.old little boy and he had leukemia. He went through all the treatments and was cured and now it has come back. I think he was free of it for a year. But our God is still in the healing business. He still performs miracles. He is our omnipitent Father and He can do all things, Please help me to pray for my friends little grandson.

Have a good night everyone
God bless

GOD IS IN CONTROL
God is still in control of every
situation. The universe belongs to
Him, including all the people in it.
At such times as this, He may be
planning something wonderful, a
mere step beyond the problem we
face. Just because we don't see
the blessing yet doesn't mean it
isn't on it's way.

yesterday

2011-05-03T05:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday evening my dd came for a short time to use my computer. Hers is in the hospital.

She had a bag of chips and I reached in the bag and got one, with the thought that I would just have one. I see it in my mind in slow motion, like a movie slowed down.My hand came up to my mouth and my mouth opened, and there-before the chip made it in my mouth-I stopped- and I thought

ONE CHIP IS ONE TOO MANY
BECAUSE
ONE CHIP WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH

and I put the chip back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the next time I may not be this strong--The next time that chip may find it's way home. But maybe -just maybe-this time made my "leave it in the bag" muscle just a little bit stronger.

God bless

what a wonderful ending to this day that the Lord gave me

2011-05-02T19:23:00.000-07:00

I just want to sing His praises. I went to a revival tonight and a man got saved. This man drank really bad and he started coming to church just a few weeks ago, he had to have been seeking for more in his life. God touched him in such a wonderful way, He became a Christian and this man shook all over almost like vibration. What a wonderful God we serve. God is just so merciful and so full of Grace and He loves each of us.

My eating was less than 1350 and my exercise was over a 5 mile leslie sansone.

Psalm 36:5-10

5 Your mercy, O LORD, is in the heavens;

Your faithfulness reaches to the clouds.

6 Your righteousness is like the great mountains;

Your judgments are a great deep;

O LORD, You preserve man and beast.

7 How precious is Your lovingkindness, O God!

Therefore the children of men put their trust under the shadow of Your wings.

8 They are abundantly satisfied with the fullness of Your house,

And You give them drink from the river of Your pleasures.

9 For with You is the fountain of life;

In Your light we see light.

10 Oh, continue Your lovingkindness to those who know You,

And Your righteousness to the upright in heart.

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May God bless and keep you

My Sunday

2011-05-01T18:48:00.000-07:00

Church was good this morning. Dh and I joined the church we had been going to. I do realize that everyone needs a good church family andI know that dh really does enjoy that church. But mom and sister go there and we get along better when we do not have to see each other so often. I know that maybe the Lord is trying to teach me to be patient and loving even in the face of family difficulties. Dh does like it there and he is spiritual head of household and I do respect his decisions, so I joined with him. I will do my best and I will be praying about my dissatisfaction.

I ate very good, plus I exercised today. Usually I don't exercise on Sunday but I just felt like it would help me with some of the stress that I had and it did, IT WORKED.

I kinda lost my appetite after I exercised so I only ate 1245 calories for today. That is ok I will eat a healthy breakfast. I am thinking oatmeal and blueberries, and a couple of strawberries and low calorie toast w/low fat cream cheese, and 1/2 apple slices on top. Doesn't that sound good.

Does everyone spend time thinking about their next meal?

DO GOOD
DO ALL THE GOOD YOU CAN, BY ALL THE WAYS YOU CAN,IN ALL THE PLACES YOU CAN, TO ALL THE PEOPLE YOU CAN, AS LONG AS EVER YOU CAN.
JOHN WESLEY

Sweet dreams everyone
God bless

Just popping in for a quick daily entry.

2011-04-30T18:23:00.000-07:00

We just got back from a concert, They were really good singer s and I enjoyed hearing them praising the Lord with song. One song they sung was Beulah Land. It is a slow song but so beautiful. My bff (lol) was there and we both enjoyed their rendition of the song.

I ate good today I lost track after the singing and we went into the fellowship hall for a late snack. I ate moderately -only a few things and only a little bit but stillo it was impossible to to anything but guess at the calories. I knew there would be food so I left off my lunch except for a cup of cheerios and 1/8thof a cantaloupe.    So I think that I still kept it within the calories that I was aiming for.

Exercise was hoeing in my garden one half hour. I know that was not a long time but it was hard hoeing the weeds. I got the beginning of a blister on my thumb.

And I did a 5 mile Leslie sansone video. And I was holding 3 pound weights and I did curls and llifts and backrows and side steps and arm ups and I moved my arms for the entire 70 minutes that I exercised.

My dd bought me 3 pounds of strawberries and I am already looking forward to having strawberries in my cereal in the morning,   YUMMY YUMMY

Josie I love stone ground oatmeal except for the fact that it is so plain tasting so I have to put something in it to give it some taste. I sure do experiment on the diffent thingts that I put init.. I am thinking about trying it with some orange pieces in it. I really thing it would be good. I love it with raisens and cinnamon, and apple and cinnamon.

Sleep well everyone
Have a blessed Sunday'

grandson, chicken breast, oatmeal, shopping, aldis, Roses

2011-04-29T16:12:00.000-07:00

Grandson went home today. He came here Sunday afternoon and he stayed until noon today. I really enjoy my grandchildren, and I wish i could see the older two more often and I am grateful that I get to be such an important part of the youngests life. My family calls him the Ry-guy. I don't know why or how it started but it stuck. He is a hoot. He told me this morning that "when we play chase you don't have to run hard because you're old and it might hurt you". And this morning he was talking about archaology, i asked him if he knew what that was and he said the study of old bones and ancient things.He actually used the word ancient in the right context. He was talking in spanish today. He said "Juwain???"(that is what it sounded like)and him were friends and Juwain talks like that. He wants to play chess and now he wants to learn to tell time.

I wonder if this kind of curiosity is normal. Remember that my children are in their 30s it has been a long time since they were young. But I do know that mine did not know who the president was when they were 5, or if they did they did not talk about it, Ry does know and he talks about him.

I found a wonderful recipe and fixed it today it is a pineapple glazed chicken breast.

2 chicken breasts cut into thumbsized pieces
2 tablespoons soy sauce
1 T. lemon juice
1 20 oz. can pineapple tidbits
2tablespoons honey

Use a pan big enough to hold all of the chicken, medium high heat turn pieces untill browned.

Combine honey, soy sauce, lemon juice, and mix well then add pineapple juice reserving the chunks.

Pour over the browned chicken and cook on a low simmer for 5 to 10 minutes.

Add the pinapple chunks,cover and simmer for just a few minutes longer,

Serve warm and if any mixture remains, spoon over the chicken.

This is super delicious and 4 ounces only has 351 calories.

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This morning I fixed oatmeal, for my breakfast and I do not like just plain oatmeal SOOOOOOOO I made some minor changes. I have some food allergies and I can not eat the instant oatmeal. I prepared the stone ground oatmeal and when it was almost done I added a dash of cinnamon and 1/4 cup berries and a T.spoon of honey, then about 2 Tablespoons of applesauce. That was so very good. It satisfied as well as kept me feeling energetic until much later. Did you know that eating blueberries helps to prevent cataracs?

Dh finished that huge house he was working on and then he and I went grocery shopping at aldis. But I told him that I wanted to run into Roses for a moment and they had some of the cutest tops in there. They were only 7 dollars apiece so I got 2 of them- I love shopping for clothes.'They were actually sheer overshirts. And I have the perfect shell and skirt to wear with one and a simple black sleeveless dress to wear with the other.

When I was a child Mom told me often that I was fat and I could not fit in the clothes that other girls wore. So I had to wear clothes that were for old people and she would hem them up a bit so they would not be too long. I really believed her. I can remember some of the clothes that I wore, they were too big, and drab, and plain.
Even as an adult I thought that clothes that looked nice would never fit me. But in time I found that there were pretty clothes out there for large women. Now I love to buy clothes I love to have color in my clothes, I want my clothes to look as happy as my heart feels.

We went to aldis and bought groceries-who doesn't like going there to save money. If we had bought these groceries anywhere else I think it would have cost us about 75 dollars we only paid 54.

I am not going to list what I ate today
BUT
it was 1395 calories
and exercise was leslie sansone 5 mile walk at home advanced workout.

A SECURE HOME

The bible does not say very much
about homes; it ays a great deal
about the things that make them.
It speaks about life and love and
joy and peace and rest. If we get a
house and put these into it,
we shall have a secured home.

JOHN HENRY JOWETT

Sleep well everyone
I love each of you
May God bless and keep you

dresses, storms-tornadoes-prayer for us

2011-04-28T17:50:00.000-07:00

The weather was really bad this morning, but God took care of us. A church near us had a huge tree come down on it. the hospital near us had to remove people out of the out side offices into the main hospital. Dh came home and took me and baby to a safer building. God is good.They said that A tornadoe touched down about 3 miles from us and that is way to much for comfort. I sure hope all of my blog friends and readers came through the storms safe.

While I was at my dds house she gave me some dresses dthat she could not wear anymore. She has a weight problem too and she hates it but is not to the point that she wants to do anything about it. Anyway the dresses are too small for her and they look so pretty . I am dtermined to get into them, there is one dress that is sky blue with a single braid around all the edges neckline sleeves and bottom of dress. The braid is slightly darker and just a little shiny. It is elegant and so pretty. I am simply determined now to get into that dress.

It is so easy for me to pray for each of you, the ones that struggle just as I do, the ones that fight themselves just to eat healthy and not let our flesh dictate what we are going to put into our mouths and our bodies and from there onto our hips and thighs and arms. I pray for each of you. BUT I find it so difficult to pray for me in that same regard. I would love to get a prayer chain started that we could post on it and from there we would know that we would have a circle that would be praying not just about my eating but also for my son, who is such a wonderful and good man, but he is an athiest. We all have things that we need prayer with and yet we don't feel comfortable talking to our church family.

Josie I usually steam all my vegetables except just a few. I love the taste of most vegetables and even though dh loves cheese on his veggies or loaded with seasonings, salt pepper butter, I really like the taste of broccoli with a touch of salt, same with cauliflower, brussel sprouts, beans. Now with cabbage I like to shred that and fry it in bacon grease. I only allow myself that treat about twice a year.

Eating moderately is getting easier. I find that I am not craving the high calorie foods quite as much, in fast dh was going to buy baby a candy bar today and he asked me if I wanted one and I could not believe it I actually said no.
Food for today
cereal, milk, ,blueberries,cofee, plums, salad, dressing, 1/2 orange, turkey crumble, 1 low calorie whole wheat bread, 1 T. reduced fat cream cheese, 1/2 tomatoe, 1 shredded carrot, 2/8ths of a cantaloupe, squash, tuna, broccoli, okra, brussel sprouts, mushrooms.1 boiled egg white.

=====calories is 1317

exercise was running with baby and doing a video.-Leslie sansone walk away the pounds low impact. I did her 5 mile walk today and that is a workout, some running in it back and forth, oh and while I did the moving part of her video I carried 3 pound weights to add to my workout.

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Hang in there

""When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.""

-Harriet Beecher Stowe

That was my day,

Sleep well
God bless

Baby, dr, cleaning, cooking food and calories

2011-04-27T19:54:00.000-07:00

Baby spent the night and he sleeps w/ me when he stays over. The bed we sleep in is a huge king size bed and he has a pillow on one side and mine is on the other. He can be hard asleep when I go to bed and within 5 minutes he has moved across the bed until he is right up against me. He never even wakes up!!!!

He was sick today with diarhea (thats not spelled right Is it?)so I called dd at work and told her he had went 5 times no fever and he was playing and running around, just had to go a lot .She took him to the dr. I know that I am not a dr but really his explanation made a lot of sense. He said-when small children have the 24 hour virus it desrupts the balance of good bacteria and bad bacteria. The bad bacteria gets a stronger kind of bad bacteria growing in the intestines and that cause problems He prescribed probiotics for him. and just to be on the safe side DD has to take swabs of his stool on 3 different occasions.

I cleaned some today and cooked, I made sure that I cooked healthy stuff for me and dh. Our tastes are so different on so many foods. I like brussel sprouts him not at all, I like broccoli he does not-he like collards me not so much. Oh well we've been married 35 years so those minor differances are not going to cause problems now;
I cooked southern butter beans and grilled squash and fresh corn, ham and green beans. Seems like there was something else but Ican't remember now.l

my foodfor today

oatmeal
berries
3 egg whites
coffee

salad w/
1/2 orange
turkey crumbles
plums
strawberries
dressing

squash
chicken breast
fresh corn
butter beans
calories-----1385

exercise was\
playing with the baby

and after he went to the dr. dh and I went for a 2 mile walk. I had almost 10000 steps on my pedometer.

I know that God wants me to be moderate in all things, sometimes I feel so weak and out of control. I am so glad that He sees my weakness and loves me anyway. I am a work in progress and I will continue to praise Him for His grace and His love.

ALL I NEED
O Father,. You have draped me
in the garments of salvation and
wrapped me snugly in the robe of
righteousness. I am beautifully
adorned by You---for You.
You have given me all I need to
live a joyful life, and I rejoice in
Your gifts of beauty.

author unknown

Sleep well everyone
God bless

baby, laundry, mowing, food and calories

2011-04-26T16:36:00.000-07:00

This has been a very enjoyable day----

So Baby is here with me and he was very good while I mowed, I kept checking on him and he was playing chess on my computer. Please don't think that he is a genuis for playing chess, he does not do very well at it but he is interested in learning. He does have some of the moves down, and he understands the basic concept of some of the pieces. It has been years since I played and I am having to relearn all of it. The last time I played I don't think my dd was even born, and she just turned 34. But I have a chess game for the computer that my son gave me a few years ago. It teaches the moves on the elementary level. It kept him busy for a couple of hours. I never even put it into my computer until today.

After mowing I came back in and did laundry straightened the house, cooked for me and baby. And then he wanted to play chase, so I ran and he ran and I tried to stay away from him. But he runs a lot faster than I do. You think it might be my age that is slowing me down?
I played with some of his toys that he calls bactogons (speled phonetically).They are round balls about an inch and a half across and you roll them across a magnetic card and it turns into different things like one is a robot and one is a snake and one is a spider and on and on.

I ate good today, I love eating healthy, it seems to give me energy and I feel that I do something for me when I eat high antioxidant foods. I probably won't do this every day but for today here goes

coffee
cereal
milk
strawberries

salad w/ many veriets of baby leafy greens
1/2 apple
tuna
2 boiled eggs-whites only
samll amount of shredded cheese
dressing

brussel sprouts \
broccoli all vegetables were steamed in the microwave.
okra
cup sweet peas /
1 and 1/2 talapia fillets

calories were 1375

it was all filling and I was satisfied

Exercise was mowing for over an hour with a push mower, and letting the baby chase me, and I almost want to count getting down on the floor and back up again as a workout. lol

SMALL PLEASURES

Happiness consists more in small
conveniences or pleasures that
occur every day, than in great
pieces of good fortune that happen
but seldom, to a man in the course
of his life.
by
BENJAMIN FRANKLIN

sleep well my friends
God bless

Back home

2011-04-25T19:18:00.000-07:00

So dh worked all day long and thought he had it fixed and still when he cut the power back to it the dsmell came back. BAby and I were already back here and so dh went to a friend of his,. THis man is an electrician and he came out and worked for about an hour at 8 pm and when dh went to pay him all he would take was 20 dollars.

This has been a bad day for me because of allergies and worrying about dh and about our house. But it all wowrked out and I thank God for hearing my prayers.
I was at dd house and it is really hard to diet at someones elses house she had a lot of healthy stuff she had bought for me. BUT she also had a lot of really delicious foods that were very high calorie-but today is over with and a new day is going to be here tomorrow. And I am all ready to go and be a full time dietor or is it dieter what ever I am going to be it. I am stoked and my refridgerator is stocked. lol ......

2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (King James Version)

9And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

10Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.

Sleep well and be safe,
God bless

I am at my dd's house

2011-04-24T18:57:00.000-07:00

When dh and I got home from church, there was a terrible odor near the fuse box. It smelled like burning wires so since the baby had come to spend a few days with us, I could not take a chance and I packed up some clothes and some food and we went to to my dds house. My dh would not come, said he would stay there and work on it. I love being married to a jack of all trades, he said he thought he knew what to do and he would have it fixed by tomorrow. He said he believed it was either the box that had the wires to the air pump, or the one to the water heater. I don't know anything about it. I do know that when it smells like that something is wrong.

Just pray with me that it is nothing serious and he will be safe .

Love you
Be safe and sleep well
God bless

A little this and a little that

2011-04-22T17:33:00.000-07:00

This morning it misted rain and I went walking anyway. What a glorius feeling, walking in the light mist, and hearing birds, and thanking the Lord for walking with me.   I asked God to loet the rain stay away until I got back, and it did. I did some fast walking and some running. And right after I got back the rain came.

I bought some sandles today, they are criss cross white and eggshell. They have a very low heel -usually I don't wear any heel because I am flat footed totally and I have always been afraid that I would damage my feet even more. But I tried them on and walked a bit and they were ok. So here is hoping that I will not fall, like Isaid they are only about 1 and 1/2 inches high.

Today I ate, orange, 1/2 apple, turkey breast on salad, low calorie ranch dressing,(I prefer blu cheese, but it is so high in calories and I can not find a good tasting one that is low calorie, so Isave that indulgence to once or twice a year.) what else, hmmmmmm-cheerios, blueberries, and coffee, and black tea, and milk, and cheese, cucumber and carrots on the salad, oh and tomatoe,

I walked for 2 miles today and then this avternoon I did a leslie video,, now I like her videos you do marching in place, knee ups, back kicks , side steps, and since I have not done any weights this week even though I had the best of intentions, I decided that while I did the video I would hold the 3 pound weights, WELL that did not last very long-I did not realize that I had gotten so out of practice. So after ten minutes I swapped them in for my 2 pound weights. I did a 45 minute video. It is called leslie sansonnes 3 mile walk and she says that when you finish it you will be burned off the same amount of calories as if you had walked 3 miles. Add the weights that I did and maybe I burned of a hundred more calories.

My family will be here tomorrow to celebrate Easter w/dh and me. We decided against cake, (just a pile of empty calories) We are going to have ice cream(still high in calories but it has milk in it and somehow does not seem as bad as cake.) of course what is ice cram without chocolate sauce, or nuts, or cherries. LOLOLOL    It is just one day and I can handle it, i hope.

Dress rehearsal tomorrow night at my church, and baby will be with me, I hope that he will be on his best behavior but you just never know with children. DH has something he wants to do so that puts him with me and me at the church helping with the play. Lets hope everything goes ok.

Josie the poem I used yesterday came from a book called A Heart of Wisdom. A friend gave it to me and it has been a very inspirational and moving book.

This next poem is sweet. It is not fancy but it is really nice. It is by Joanna Fuchs, And I just love her poems;.

Easter Joy

Jesus came to earth,

To show us how to live,

How to put others first,

How to love and how to give.

Then He set about His work,

That God sent Him to do;

He took our punishment on Himself;

He made us clean and new.

He could have saved Himself,

Calling angels from above,

But He chose to pay our price for sin;

He paid it out of love.

Our Lord died on Good Friday,

But the cross did not destroy

His resurrection on Easter morn

That fills our hearts with joy.

Now we know our earthly death,

Like His, is just a rest.

We'll be forever with Him

In heaven, where life is best.

So we live our lives for Jesus,

Think of Him in all we do.

Thank you Savior; Thank you Lord.

Help us love like you!

By

Joanna Fuchs

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Have a safe evening
God bless

I checked the site out and

2011-04-21T15:14:00.000-07:00

It really is very interesting. I filled in the bleanks on the first page to see how many calories that I should eat to keep my weight just like it is-cant remember exactly but it was over 2000-well with me eating usually below 1500 calories a day and dwith me exercising the way I do I should be a size 10. LOL But it was fun.
http://fitbie.msn.com/fit_tools/daily_calories?height_1&height_2&h_unit=0&weight&w_unit=0&

This morning I walked and then came home and cleaned and swept and vacumned and straightened. I have family coming in on Saturday. I love Easter, resurrection day, It is just a beautiful celebration. BUT I think the importance of Easter is in our heart more than it is in a day. In other words we are getting togeather on Saturday to celebrate this wonderful day. And I refuse to stay out of church to be with family that can come on Saturday. How do you feel about it?

I am baking a smoked ham and making a green bean casserole and deviled eggs, and brown and serve rolls, a little potatoe salad just for my dh. Maybe I will make a cake-I have all the ingredients for it. I just do not want anything that is high calorie left here . Dh is diabetic, I let him splurge once in a while. He is so like a child sometimes cause if it is here he wants it, He has a sweet tooth bigger than his mouth.

At 1:00 I went out and pushed my mower over the back yard. Tomorrow I will get the front. Most people have a riding mower, and dh wanted one but I said no because it is such good exercise.

Sat. night I will be in a dress rehearsal for our Easter play. It is going to be all about the resurrection. I am not really in the play I will be helping everyone with there costumes and helping prep them with their lines and filling in just in case someone does not show up. I am excited about being involved with the play.

I got a lot of exercise and my calories were below 1500. I keep thinking about how uncomfortable I was in my new dress, and right now that is keeping me from craving anything. Every time I start wanting something I tell myself "misery in the new dress" and that stops me .

I don't know what the title of this poem is but I liked it-

I CAME TO THE SWIFT, RAGING RIVER,

AND THE ROAR HELD THE ECHO OF FEAR;

"OH, LORD GIVE ME WINGS TO FLY OVER,

IF YOU ARE, AS YOU PROMISED, QUITE NEAR"

BUT HE SAID, "TRUST THE GRACE I AM GIVING,

ALL-PERVASIVE, SUFFICIENT FOR YOU,

TAKE MY HAND--WE WILL FACE IT TOGETHER,

BUT MY PLAN IS NOT OVER, BUT THROUGH."

by

LEE WEBBER

Sleep well everyone and God bless

Helpful site

2011-04-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

I saw this and went to it and it seemed to be something useful. I don't have time right now to check it out fully

If you go to it tell me what you think. I will be back later to look at it better and then I will give my opinion.

http://fitbie.msn.com/fit_tools/daily_calories?height_1&height_2&h_unit=0&weight&w_unit=0&

I have a full day lots of things to do

2011-04-20T08:56:00.000-07:00

It is noon and I have already finished my 2 mile walk and ironed for 1 and 1/2 hours . I have started laundry soon to hang them up to dry. I like to hang my clothes as opposed to putting them in the dryer- it makes them smell fresh, makes them last longer , savfes on the electric bill and gives me extra exercise. BUT if I were pressed for time I would throw them in the dryer.

I have started cooking for later and and after lunch I will go help dh on his job.

Josie I saw the turtle on my walk through the woods and I have heard the old saying only what I heard was "if a snapping turtle bites you he won't release you until the sun goes down."" If it had bit me it would have really hurt cause he actually left a mark on my metal pole.

I need to get busy- like I said I have a lot to do and I want to rest a bit before church tonight.

I finished reading Jude this morning and next is Revelations. I find Revelations just a little confusing, I know that it should not be but it is. But I will read it anyway, and I will start each day with a prayer that God will give me the understanding that I need.

Revelation

Chapter 1

1 The Revelation of Jesus Christ, which God gave unto him, to shew unto his servants things which must shortly come to pass; and he sent and signified it by his angel unto his servant John:
2 Who bare record of the word of God, and of the testimony of Jesus Christ, and of all things that he saw.

3 Blessed is he that readeth, and they that hear the words of this prophecy, and keep those things which are written therein: for the time is at hand.

4 John to the seven churches which are in Asia: Grace be unto you, and peace, from him which is, and which was, and which is to come; and from the seven Spirits which are before his throne;

5 And from Jesus Christ, who is the faithful witness, and the first begotten of the dead, and the prince of the kings of the earth. Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood,

6 And hath made us kings and priests unto God and his Father; to him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen.

7 Behold, he cometh with clouds; and every eye shall see him, and they also which pierced him: and all kindreds of the earth shall wail because of him. Even so, Amen.

8 I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.

9 I John, who also am your brother, and companion in tribulation, and in the kingdom and patience of Jesus Christ, was in the isle that is called Patmos, for the word of God, and for the testimony of Jesus Christ.

May the Lord bless and keep each of you
Have a wonderful day

My day went down and then up

2011-04-18T14:41:00.000-07:00

My sister called me first thing this morning and she just talked and talked and talked (insert the word brag)
I know that everyone mentions how proud they are of their grandson (waving hand in the air screaming -me me me)But truly I know that one or two sentances is enough. 15 minutes ack

Then I went for a walk and I saw a snapping turtle, it was as big as a salad plate. I was not sure it was a snapping turtle so I put my "attack stick" to his mouth and really that turtle snapped down on it and my stick is metal and his teeth left a scratch on the metal. Wow--- I love being out in the woods-wonder if I am related to Daniel Boone? I wish I could write poetry cause everything in me wants to write down how I felt when I saw that turtle. One day I saw a red fox, I know it was a fox because of the bushy tail. I stopped walking and just watched him. There is a stream beside the fire trail and he went down to the water drank and dthen came slowly back up. He watched me for a minute then walked into the woods.

Once I saw a wild turkey, that was a beautiful bird, and he was big .. Sometimes I see snakes but not very often. Once I saw an otter in the stream, I know it was an otter and not a beaver. what I saw did not have a flat tail.

Grandbaby is sick again. I tried to tell my daughter that they need to consider maybe eating a little healthier. Maybe less snacks and more fruit and vegetables. She was respectful, she knows that I want the best for them. But I think she might have gotten a little bit aggravated at me. I know for a fact that when they are at home they go the easy way-especially son in law-he will just give grandbaby a bag of chips for lunch instead of cooking something/ Son in law snacks all the time and he does not see anything wrong with letting baby eat that way.

I ate very good today, I got a wide variety of vitamins from my fruit and vegetables. plus I kept the calories below 1400. I am pleased

I did not do the weights today BUT I did put my garden in ///all by hand////. I put in 12 tomatoe plants, I put in 24 cucumber plants and then I started planting seeds-2 rows of squash and 2 fairly long rows of okra.I did not have room to put in my broccoli or cauliflower or brussel sprouts. I will put them in for a fall crop.

Remember me telling you about my little rabbit buddy. I am worried that he will like my vegetables as much as I do. I refuse to hurt him, I hope that I can find something to make him stay out of the garden. I will have to google it.

Dh is home and he said soemthing about going for a walk. I love it when we walk togeather. Even though I am tired I am going for a walk with him. Maybe the turtle will still be there.

Sleep well
God bless

work, misery in new dress, new resolve

2011-04-17T13:34:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I worked with dh on his job. I sanded all the puttied places and then I sanded walls and then I vacumned all the floors. I was extremely tired. I got back and had that sanded dust all over me, In the shower I go and then the wind blew and hail fell and thunder crashed,

Today we went to my friends church. A group was singing and she and I and our husbands are close friends with the singers from that group so we would not have missed it. I got dressed this morning for church in my new spring light green outfit and when I bought it a month or so ago I had to buy a size 20. Last time I bought a dress before that it was a size 18 and it was just a tiny bit too large. Not enough to go down to a 16 but you could tell that I was on the way. I put the 20 on this morning and it was tight. Not way too tight but snug and I was uncomfortable all morning long. As I set there feeling like I needed to pick and pull at my dress I vowed that I would not allow this to go on any longer.

I am so glad that I made that vow before llunch was served because I had this new resolve and was able to stay strong. I did not eat much at all and the time right now is 4 pm and I am eating a light salad for my evening meal. If I must eat anything later, I will have a low calorie energy bar. Or maybe I will just have a cup of hot decaf coffee. Sometimes just the coffee will make me stop wanting something to eat.

And I really love that dress it is a straight dress, and it has a sheer long sleeve over-jacket. It is a very light green and just looks like spring. I refuse to be uncomfortable in this beautiful dress.

Tomorrow I will go back to keeping up with my calories and even though I don't want to I will work out with weights 2 to 3 times a week and I will try to walk everyday except Sunday. Slow and steady said the turtle. This is not a race for who gets there first-it is an endurance race, getting used to eating right again.

Time to go to Aldis again-they have the best prices for fresh vegetables.

A NEW DAY---
Finish every day and be done with it. You have done what you could....Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be coumbered with your old nonsense. This day is all that is good and fair. It is too dear, with it's hopes and invitations, to waste a moment on yesterday.

by RALPH WALDO EMERSON

Sleep well everyone
God bless